This one's rated M~

Chapter 22

The rustling of sheets could be heard through the bedroom as the German tossed and turned in her bed, trying for the past hours to get some sleep and not succeeding a lick in doing so. She opened her eyes and took a look at the alarm clock on her nightstand showing 3:12. She groaned, burying her head under the pillow.

Ever since Leifang had left a week ago she had only managed to get a few hours of sleep every night until she woke up and simply laid there not doing anything. She felt like total crap.

Had she ruined their friendship?

Slowly she pulled herself from under the pillow, her gaze turning to the PC that stood in the corner of the room neatly set under the desktop.

After she had learned that Leifang left she had written e-mail after e-mail saying how sorry she was, telling her that it was mistake, that the alcohol was responsible and that she kissed her in the heat of the moment because of that.

She did that for a few days then quit when it was clear that she wouldn't get an answer.

The German covered her face with her hand, then pinched the bridge of her nose and gritted her teeth, slamming her fist down on the mattress.

She was so damn sorry!

Hitomi grabbed the pillow, covered her face with it and screamed into it with all her might, the sound being drowned by it. Having relieved herself she threw it across the room, hitting the wall where it simply slumped down.

She glared at it as if everything was its fault. Her glare was short lived though as she looked out of the window, her eyes losing the fire in them.

Sitting up she pulled her legs closer, hugging them to her chest and closed her eyes, resting her forehead against her knees. She remained that way for a few minutes, only breathing deeply in and out.

With a frustrated sigh she got off her bed and walked into the bathroom, turning on the lights and stopping before her mirror, taking a good look at herself. She looked awful, the past week of not getting much sleep clearly showing on her face, her skin pale and dark rings under her eyes.

Maybe a shower might help me get some sleep. The Karateka slowly pulled off the oversized T-shirt she was using as pajamas over her head, letting it drop to the floor. Her panties followed and she got into the shower.

Hitomi closed her eyes when the hot water hit her skin, her hands gathering some of it and splashing it against her face. She leaned against the shower wall, closing her eyes. The instant she did so the face of Leifang appeared before her smiling cheerfully and she somehow had to think back to their last vacation on Zack Island.

The brunette bit her lower lip, her desire having been sparked when she envisioned the Chinese in one of her more revealing bikinis.

"Dammit Hitomi!" she cursed herself, feeling an ache in her chest, and slid down the wall, simply sitting there as the water sprayed down upon her. The scene in her mind turned to them kissing and she thought she could taste her friend on the tip of her tongue where it had touched hers, her hand slowly guiding itself to the aching spot between her legs.

Hitomi swallowed and bit down hard on her lip as she caressed herself, reliving every second of what had transpired and more, imagining what could have been if they hadn't been interrupted, if they had actually reached the bedroom. Images of her pinning the Chinese onto the mattress invaded her thoughts, the German having her way with her, eliciting moans with every action as she had her completely dominated and begging for more.

With every passing moment her movements became more intense, causing her to whimper, not daring to moan out as if someone could hear her and learn about the shameful thing she was doing.

Her other hand grabbed her breast, squeezing it, imaging it wasn't her hand but rather the always well manicured one of the Chinese. Very slowly, almost painfully so, she pushed into herself, moving her fingers to pleasure herself.

It didn't take long for her to be pushed over the edge and she felt the coppery taste of blood on her tongue as she bit too hard as the orgasm rushed through her body.

Hitomi breathed hard and opened her eyes halfway, lifting her hand and holding it under the spray of water to wash way every evidence of what she just did, but she knew that no matter how often she would wash up now, that she would feel dirty either way.

"I'm so messed up." she muttered and ran her tongue across her lower lip, cleaning it of the little bit of blood on it. A single tear escaped the corner of her eye and she quickly wiped it away forcefully.

She refused to cry, even though she had every reason to.

What the hell.

While she did have boyfriends in the past, the thought of sex didn't cross her mind that much, which some of her friends had commented as odd, but now after discovering the truth about her sexuality she found herself thinking more and more about it despite what had happened with Leifang.

She couldn't even control her lust in a situation like this!

All of a sudden Hitomi couldn't blame her friend for running away. She probably had an air around herself like some dog in heat ready to jump the bitch.

"Good god." She ran her hand through her wet hair and simply sat there, for how long she didn't know, but by the time she decided to get out of the shower her skin had shriveled up.

She dried herself and looked again at the mirror, which had fogged up because of all the water vapor. She placed her palm against its flat surface, keeping it there for a moment, just looking, then guided it to the side to be able to see herself in the mirror again.

Hitomi inspected herself again. She still looked and felt like crap, possibly even more so than before.

With a shake of her head she dragged herself out of the bathroom, not bothering to dress and padded back into the bedroom. She threw herself into her bed, covered herself up and closed her eyes, already deciding no matter if she could sleep or not she wasn't in any shape to go to the university and might as well at least try to get some extra hours of sleep.

A sigh made its way past Leifang's lips, it was the tenth this hour and one of the countless others that came before it. Her head resting on the edge of the jacuzzi, she closed her eyes, drawing little circles in the water with her right hand.

In her mind she relived the past week. What had happened?

They were simply having fun and all of the sudden they were kissing, which soon enough turned into a full blown make out session. Her face flushed at the image and she unconsciously touched her lips, her heartbeat becoming faster.

It was sad to admit for a woman her age but that had been her first kiss. She never even considered a man in her life after she had been rescued by Jann Lee and having dedicated herself to surpassing him, so there was no time for something like a teenage romance for her.

Of course having never experienced something like that she wasn't prepared for the rush that she had felt. It had felt...good. Really good in fact, and that disturbed her since it was her best friend of all people that did it. Her best friend who, and she knew that for a fact, was interested in guys.

Yet she still had kissed her, and while they both were tipsy they were sober enough to simply stop if they had wanted to, at least from Leifang's end. So what did that mean?

Had she been so physically starved that she had to use her best friend as relief?

And if so was it the same for Hitomi?

Leifang opened her eyes and stared blankly at the ceiling. What was she supposed to do?

The German had written her an E-mail more than once after she had pretty much fled from Freiburg, but she didn't dare open them to read their content, afraid of what it might reveal.

The Chinese brought her arms close, hugging herself thinking of how her friend must feel right now, her heart being torn in two by the fact that she probably had hurt her by running instead of just talking it through with her.

But after Viktor had caught them in the act and they way Hitomi looked at her afterward, her eyes filled with desire for...something, closing in for another kiss, she simply panicked and had to get away even though part of her wanted to lean in as well.

Outside she had walked down the street and hailed the nearest taxi, drove back to her Hotel room and the next day she was gone on her way back to Hong Kong. And this was where she was now for the past week, her mind always going back to those events and her friend, making her more confused than ever, throwing her emotions into further disarray.

They had already been plagued with doubt as to her feelings for Jann Lee and if her dream of beating him, and becoming a part of his world, were still what they used to be after eight long years. She didn't need conflicting feelings regarding Hitomi as well.

Leifang let herself slide completely into the jacuzzi, submerged her head and starred at the ceiling from under the water, blocking everything else out as she tried to calm down and for a small while she felt secure.

In her mind she pictured her friend. Teaching Leifang how to cook little by little, being patient while explaining her what she had to do, simply having a good time and giving her one of her bright, cheerful smiles which made her heart skip a beat. The same way that the determined eyes of a young man, bent on becoming one of the best martial artists in the world, once did.

The need for oxygen made her emerge from the water, her hand flying up to brush her long hair out of her face.

She couldn't, for the love of everything that was holy, figure out what was wrong.

A knock on the door startled her, her hands flying up to cover her breasts, then dropped them again chastising herself when she realized that it could only be one person.

"Come in." she called before Zhen opened the door and walked in, holding a folded up bathrobe in her hands.

"Thanks, please place it over there." Leifang said and pointed to the sink, watching as her housekeeper did as she was told. The older woman stopped at the doorway as she made her way out, turning towards her.

"Are you alright?" she asked.

"Yes of course I'm alright." she lied, her eyes turning to the right so she wouldn't have to look at her directly. "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Well for starters you came back earlier than expected and ever since you've been acting rather withdrawn." her housekeeper said, concern evident in her voice.

"I just have a lot on my mind right now and need a bit time to sort it all out." she admitted.

"May I give you some advice then?" Zhen asked and Leifang turned her eyes back towards the older woman, furrowing her eyebrows.

"Yes." she said.

Zhen nodded. "My grandfather once told me that whenever you are unsure of how to deal with life one should return to his place of origin. He said it always helped him make tough decisions."

Leifang looked down at the water, watching its movement as she moved her hand, contemplating what she just heard. "Thank you for the advice."

The housekeeper bowed and left the bathroom, closing the door behind her.

The Chinese sat in the water for a few more moments when all of a sudden the look in her eyes changed, her lips forming a straight line, and got out of the jacuzzi, putting on the bathrobe.

She took a moment to do her hair then walked out, heading to her living room and sat down unto the sofa. She grabbed her smart phone and dialed a number.

Putting it against her ear she waited for the answer from the other end of the line.

"Hello," she said when the answer finally came, nodding even though the person on the other side couldn't see. "Yes, I'd like to book a flight."

DRAMA!
What would a romance story be if it didn't have some DRAMA in it?

And damn you Anonimiss, you managed to figure out my clever scheme! I would've gotten away with it too!

Heh.

You see guys I'm actually a bit farther ahead in the story already, so the arc that is coming next is already complete. I'll still keep up with my weekly schedule though, but maybe I'll post two chapters at once as well.

Stay tuned for the next update.