Cry POV:

I woke up with a slight headache. I looked around, not recognizing the room I was currently in. That's when my eyes fell on the person beside me. I never get tired of the sight of a sleeping Felix. He just lookes so peaceful and beautiful, breathing in and out, dreaming about something.. I leaned closer and pulled my mask up a little so I could kiss his cheek. "Mh, Cry.." He mumbled and I froze. Did he just say my name?

I kept my eyes on him, waiting for something else, but nothing. He just kept breathing in and out, peacefully.

I got out of the bed and got dressed, I turned back to him, thinking, should I leave him like this? I could go now and..

I decided to stay. I wanted to see those beautiful eyes one more time before I left. So, I laid down next to him, watching his chest rise and fall as he kept sleeping.

After a short while, he woke up, looking confused at first but relaxed when his eyes fell on me. "Gooodmornin'!" I cheered, giving him a big smile before I realized he could'nt see it anyways. "Heey." He replied, followed by a jawn. "I'm hungry, wanna eat something?" He asked and I nodded, watching as he rose out of bed and went out the bedroom door.

I sighed, still lying in bed. I closed my eyes. Is this okay? Am I crazy for doing what I'm doing? Making up a new identity and make him fall for me again beacuse I'm just too darn stubborn to let him go..

It's not okay.

"Ryyan..?" Pewdie's voice was heard from the kitchen. I opened my eyes. I can't do this, it's not okay, at all! I walked up to the bedroom door, where I stopped. I looked over to Pewds, who was standing by the stove, making breakfast. He does'nt love me anymore.. He might fall for Ryan, but he's already moved on from Cry. He was'nt aware of my eyes on him yet, so maybe I could just slip out and- "Oh, there you are!" His eyes were now on me, and his whole being was smiling, making me feel somewhat sad. Beacuse, hey, if you look at it this way, he's cheating on me right now. He thinks I'm Ryan, and he's married to Cry! "Uhm, I-" I started speaking, but got interupted by the front door opening. I looked at the door, then back at Pewds, who looked confused aswell.

That's when she walked in.

"Felix? Oh my.. Hi! You're back!" The brunette cheered, running to my husband, hugging him. "Hi Marzia!" He greeted and hugged her back.

Wait..

Marzia?! Is this Marzia?! But.. How..

"Oh, this is my friend Ryan, who's just about to leave." Felix said as he pointed to me and looked at her with a fake smile. "Hello, Ryan." She greeted, but did'nt take one step closer to me or even looked at me. "Come on, Ryan, I'll follow you to the door." Felix said to me and grabbed my arm gently. We walked together and when we came to the door, he pulled me back, hugged me and whispered "I'll explain everything, wait for me at your place."

I quickly went out and heard the door close behind me. I walked over to my own house, got in, closed the door and let out a long sigh as my back slid down the door. What is Marzia doing back here?

*Flashback*

Me and Felix met through gaming, and we played different games almost everyday while we talked on skype, even though it was hard keeping up with the time zones, I lived in Florida, and he lived in Sweden.

He always talked about how he wanted to leave Sweden, though.. He wanted to travel, see the world. But his girlfriend, Marzia, wanted the opposite. She wanted to have a family with him and stay in Sweden.

One day, me and him were playing random games and he suddenly stopped and paused the game. "What is it, Pewds?" I asked. "I can't keep this going.. I can't live here forever like this.." "Does she know how you feel?" "Yeah, but she says it will get better when we have kids and stuff, but.. I'm too young for that now, I'm too young, Cry!" We sat in silence for a few seconds after that. Until I said it.

"You should break up with her." "Wha- But.. No, I can't, she's my high school sweetheart, I'll never find anyone else to marry and-" "Calm down now, you can tell her it's just a break and you'll come back or something, when you're done with your traveling, when you've seen the world." He fell quiet for a while, thinking.

"If I do this, can I come live with you?" He finally asked and I chuckled. "Ofcourse, it would be amazing!" "But only until I find my own place." He said and we both chuckled, feeling exited for this. And I could'nt help getting a wierd feeling in my stomach..

*End of flashback*

I heard a knock on the door and opened it. "Hey.." Pewds said as he looked at the ground. I let him in and we sat down on the sofa. "Well..." I could'nt look at him, I felt guilty somehow. "That was my girlfriend, Marzia.. I'm so sorry, I totally forgot about her.. Wow, I sound so great. " He said and chuckled. It took all my strength not to look at him. Oh how I missed his expression everytime he sees my face, how he used to say I looked beautiful, how he used to look into my eyes, and the way his accent sounded when he told me he loved me. Even though he's here now, it feels like he's so far away and I miss him. I miss us.

Wait.. I should'nt think about that now. He called Marzia his grilfriend, I have to ask. "How long have you two been together?" I asked. "As long as I can remember, she's my high school sweetheart. I can't believe I could forget about her, but she was'nt home when I came back a few days ago, she told me she went to visit her parents." I stared at him in silence. This makes no sense! What happened to him? Okay, let's say I've accepted the fact that he does'nt love me anymore, but how can he be together with Marzia again? And he acts like they've always been together, like..

Like I never existed..

"You okay, bro?" His sweet voice interupted my thoughts. "This makes no sense." I said, making him more confused. "I can't play this game anymore, I can't act.." I mumbled. "What are you talking about? Act?" That's when I took a hold of his hands and entertwined them with my own. "Don't you just love how our hands goes together so perfectly like this? It's like they were made to fit together." He looked at our hands as I spoke, sadness written over his features. "I think I have to go back to my house now, before Marzia gets worried."

And before I could protest, he was out the door.