A/N:

Helloo, here it is, tha next chapter! Sorry for the delay and stuff with this, there's probably maany grammar issues in this one..

I don't know when I'll be done with the next one, since I'm really not in the right mood to write romance stuff right now, my heart feels like it's in a million pieces at the moment. Personal stuff, yada yada..

Anyways, I'll post the next one really soon, promise!

I love you all so, so much, thanks for reading!

- xoxoxoxox

Cry POV:

I got inside of my own house. Even listening to our song, he can just sit there and act like we never happened..

I felt anger welling up inside of me. Who does he think he is? I know I might not be the ultimate love of his life like he's for me, but I deserve a proper goodbye!

I walked back to his house and walked in without knocking. He sat in the couch, playing some video game. "Ryan? What are you-" "Is it amnesia or something?" "What? No, I have'nt played that game for months, man." I facepalmed. "Not the game, your brain, you." He gave me a look of confusion and I went down on my knees infront of him. "What do you remember? Why were you in Florida?" Pewdie opened his mouth to answer but shut it again, confusion spreading across his face. "I.. Don't remember exactly.. I guess I went there to see my good ol' friend Ken." "Does the name 'Minx' ring a bell for ya?" "Yes, I know her, she's friends with Scott, Red, Snake, Ken and, wait.. You don't know those people anyways so I'm not making any sense to you, am I?" He said with a chuckle but I looked at him dead serious. "Do you remember Minx taking you to a wedding?" I asked and he looked like he was thinking. "You were'nt invited so she brought you as a plus one." I said, watching as he tried going back in his memory. "No.. I don't remember anything like that.."

I stood up and walked to his closet, where I found the suit he was wearing at our own wedding.

So, he packed it but did'nt remember when he used it.

I carried it back to him. The reason I did this was beacuse I remember writing little notes to him about how much I love him or how wonderful he is, and at our wedding, I gave them to him as I said my vows and he put them in the pocket of this suit.

"Go ahead, look through the pockets." I said and he got out note after note, looking at them very confused. I told him to read them as I sat down next to him in the couch. He nodded and picked up one note, but he did'nt come far before he looked like he was in pain again. "I'm sorry, but I get that headache again when I look at these." And at that moment, I just wanted to rip off my mask, put on 'September' and read the notes for him outloud, some headache that would give him, huh..

"Okay, hand me those back then so I can put it back.." I mumbled and got the notes back. I put them in his suit pocket again and started carrying it back to his room, not noticing one little note falling out, softly landing on the ground.

It was first when I came back into the livingroom when I noticed. "Is that..?" "One of the notes fell out when you took it back.." Pewds answered without looking away from the little note he was holding. "Pewdiecry amount.. What's that..?" He asked and I took the note away from him so I could read it myself. 'I love you Pewdiecry amount, now, always, and forever.' I sighed. "I guess you would'nt understand these kind of things.." I can't believe I just said that to him! The man who made me into this goofy, lovey dovey kind of guy, who got me to write these kind of things..

I looked at him, his eyes were turned back to the tv and he unpaused the game.

Fuck, I was so inlove with him.. We were so inlove.. I can't believe all of this.. What happened? I looked up and whispered to god, praying that this was just a wicked, terrible dream, I prayed I was gonna wake up in the morning in our bed, look at my right and find my mr right, sleeping peacefully, breathing in and out, dreaming about us..

*Flashback*

I woke up, realising what day it was. It had just been our wedding day. I was married to Felix!

I got out of bed and walked in to the bathroom. Finally! I'm married to the love of my life, it's like I've won the game called 'life'! Oh he's so beautiful, I have to see him, now, right away!

I walked back into the bedroom, but to my suprise, he was'nt on the bed.. Maybe he woke up and went to have something to eat..

Some couples decide on living in hotels when they get married, like me and Kevin did, but me and Pewds decided to stay at our house instead, it's much easier that way.

I walked around the house, but he was nowhere to be found.. Before I let worry carry me away, I went to the guestroom, where Minx were staying over. I knocked lightly on the door before entering and got greeted by Minx, sitting on the edge of her bed, already dressed and everything, she was just finishing her hair, holding a tiny mirror infront of her. "Hey, Minx. Have you seen Felix?" She looked at me with slight confusion. "No, not since last night, why? Lost your husband already?" She teased. "Well shoot, he's gotta be here somewhere around.. Maybe he's gone away with Ken on something.." "I'm sure he'll show up any minute." She said with a smile and I nodded before closing the door.

Where were he..? We have to start packing soon so we can leave for the honeymoon..

*End of flashback*

I walked to the couch and sat down beside him. Normally, I would pick up a console and join him in the game, but I did'nt feel like it. I sat as close to him as possible, and sneaked myself into his embrace. He paused the game and rested my head lightly on his lap. I looked up into his beautiful blue eyes.

I was so close to him, yet so far away..

It hurt, and I had to stand up again.

"Sorry, I.. I'll go." "Yeah sure, and then you'll come back a few minutes later anyways." He said with a chuckle. "What? No. You know what? Maybe I should'nt come back at all. Since you have Marzia, I'm not needed here and I'll only hurt myself by doing all of this." I don't know where my words came from.. I guess it was my heart, wanting me to actually move on from him now.

"Oh come on, don't gice me that now! I have to be with her, she'll give me a safe future and my parents love her, it's none of your business anyways, I can't help that you fell for me! You and I are just having fun." The words hurt like a knife.. "You're not Pewds.." I said weakly before letting myself out of the house owned by someone I used to love with my whole being.

I went back to my house, and as soon as I got in, tears started streaming down my face, and I just let it pour down.

I looked out the window and watched as tiny raindrops fell down, one after one, becoming heavier and heavier, until it was pouring down almost like a storm. And I smiled. It was like the sky was crying with me.

I sat by the window for what felt like days, but could only have been about two hours. After a while, a car came driving and parked at Pewds driveway, and the brunette girlfriend of his ran out of it and hurried inside, trying to avoid the rain.

Suddenly, my phone started ringing. I pulled it up and looked at the caller-id. 'Scott', No, I don't want to talk to him now, what is he thinking? I put my phone on the table in the living room and went to the kitchen to make some tea.

But my phone would'nt stop ringing, and I got annoyed by it, but at the same time, my curiousity wanted me to answer. So I did. I picked up the phone and hit answer.

"Cry?" Red's voice suprised me. "Yeah, hi Red, what's up?" "Thank god you're finally answering, there's little time, listen, Scott's the reason to everything happening with Felix-" "It's okay Red, I don't care about Felix anymore, I went here to Sweden to find him and make him fall for me again, but he's moved on and there's no use, I'm okay." "Shut up! This is serious, he erased Felix's memory and he wanted to do the same to you when he came back, and now he's got me captive, he's about to erase my memory too, Cry!" It was too much info at the same time for me. "Oh my god, Hang in there, Red! I'll come and get you, I can track this phone!" "But wait, Cry! Don't worry about me, he'll only erase my memory of this information I'm telling you now, you have to take off your mask and show your face to Pewds!" "What? Why? I thought you said he does'nt remember-" "Scott told me the only thing that can make him remember is your eyes meeting! You have to make him remember, Cry! Do it, go! I'll be here." She said and hung up before I could reply. I have to get his memory back.