A/N Holy updates. 2 for 1

A/N UPDATE: Sorry to the new readers about this, I don't know what happened to the file, as I posted this ONE YEAR ago. So Mr. Colossal Fuckup, it wasn't my fault. Quit being a dick. If you had let me know nicely I would have done this much faster.
Chapter 10
Naruto sat down on the couch that was closest to the door, throwing any manners he had had prior to his visit to Anko down the drain. She looked at him expectantly, but he said nothing as he twiddled with his thumbs. She sat down across from him and crossed her legs.

"So…" She started. "What's up?" She tried her best to keep her calm, but it was too damn excruciating to wait for what was on his mind.

"I just… Okay. It's a damn lot harder to say it out straight up, because I clearly thought I had it all planned out, but I really don't and this is so sudden, so what I'm trying to say is I'mstillinloveyou." Naruto scrambled to get all the words out Anko barely picked up what he said, but she could tell he was being extremely panicky.

"It's okay, go slow. I'm listening." She looked him in the eyes, trying to read his cerulean blue eyes, but always coming up short.
"Anko…I-" A loud bang was heard in the kitchen. "What was that?" He looked at her, worried.

"I don't know. Let me go see." Anko walked into the kitchen to find a mess of containers and dango all over the ground. 'God damn it all. I knew I should've put that shit away before going to open the door." Her containers of joy had toppled over her kitchen counter and made new home on her clean floors. She sighed and went back towards Naruto, only to bump right into his chest. "He's gotten so tall. And firm." She muttered under hear breath.

"What'dya say?" Naruto asked, genuinely confused.

"Nothing. Sorry, about this. We can keep talking, I'll clean later." She mumbled.

"No, of course not. I'll help you. Don't worry, Anko-chan." He smiled brightly, but she simply shrunk back. Falling out of love with this man was helpless. Albeit clueless, Naruto was the epitome of the perfect man. As perfect as a shinobi could get, anyhow. He was in a position of power, yet he was kind and endearing. He was handsome and fit, yet he didn't use it to his advantage. He was an all-around good man.
"Thank you, Naruto…kun." She whispered.

He smiled back, and went towards the floor. He began picking up the pieces of dango and putting them into the containers, as Anko opted to do the same. They were done in a matter of minutes, and as Naruto went to take out the trash, Anko washed the floor. It really felt like they were a couple again, even if it was a mundane task like cleaning. She decided she was going to fight for his love, mistakes and all. She knew her one mistake had become many, but she hoped he would not be so mad as to never look her way again. It wasn't as if they had still been dating, during the time of her relapse into her old ways. She loved him so much that it was perplexing even to her, but in the end, she would make it worth it. She had finished by the time Naruto hopped back into the apartment from the balcony.
This time around, Naruto wasted no time. "Okay, here it is, flat out on the table. I'm still in love with you, and I'm willing to make any and all ends meet so that I can just have you again. Just to hold you, tease you, spar with you… just to love you." He stopped, out of breath.

To say the confession shocked Anko would be an understatement. It was something she hadn't expected, and she wasn't prepared for it. So she cried. One of the toughest, craziest women in Konoha just sat there and cried. She cried like all the gods in the world were playing a sick joke on her, and she cried while Naruto held her. She just couldn't fucking believe it. If she had known. If only she had known earlier, things would have been simpler, a lot more hurt could have been avoided. Granted, they both would have still been in a shitload of pain; at the very least they'd be in pain together. That's what made all the difference. Being in pain together was so much different than hurting alone; it was so much better. While she was debating with herself, stuck in her inner turmoil, Naruto was sitting there anxiously awaiting her reply, holding her all the while.

"Uhm… Anko? Did I say too much?" Naruto asked worried.

"No. I want you to know that I love you too. But there's something else you have to understand." He nodded his head for her to continue. "While we were apart, I… in love with you as I was, screwed around. For fuck's sake I even screwed a gay man while we were in Suna! I… fucking. Fuck. I screwed up okay? Everything I did was wrong. Mistake after mistake, it just blew out of proportion. I shouldn't have gone to that bar after we fought, and I shouldn't have fucked Iruka. It's all my fault and damn it, I'm sorry! I loved you! I still love you! I'm so wrong for you, and it's just no good. We're no good, but fuck do I want you back." She was hysterical at this point, tears burning her eyes. She had been strong for too long.

"Anko. Calm down. I know, I understand, it's okay. Don't cry. Please, don't cry. Enough tears have been shed, alright? We both made shitty mistakes, and that's why we still deserve each other. Granted, it was unbelievably painful, but it's okay now. We'll be fine. I'm not mad at you for what happened in Suna, because I don't have the right to be. We weren't even together. It stings, sure, but that was a mistake, those situations were all mistakes. Even me banging some random geisha in a fit of rage was a mistake. I love you, and that's what counts. I'll bite my tongue when it comes to everything else."

When Anko looked up, she saw that Naruto's eyes were weary. He looked old, defined, and too mature for her liking. He was looking too mature for his age. Then and there, she knew it was wrong. It was wrong to put him through this, even with all their time apart. She couldn't bear to be with him until she deemed herself well enough in morals to date him again. So she kissed him. She mustered up every ounce of love in her body and they kissed ferociously. She as biting his lips and her hands were wandering all over his chest, while he couldn't keep his hands off of her ass. She pulled apart when he began pulling apart her robe.

"Not now. We can't. This is too much, all of these confessions. All of this shit is going to come back and bite us in the ass. Give me some time, give us some time. One of these days, we'll be okay again, and we won't have to bite back anything. It'll just be us in love."

There were tears. Not much, but the tears were visible.

Droplets fell into laps.

Cry.

Why do people cry?

Naruto didn't understand anymore. He was willing to bite down his angers and qualms, but she was not willing to be with him.

It was later that night when Naruto laid alone on his bed when he finally understood.
She did it for him.