Lost Tears

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Merlin, but someday I will!

A/N: I would like to thank everyone who supported me during my time of need, and the rest of my siblings would like to too. We settled in nicely even if I don't know anyone near me, but surprisingly they are very nice to my little brother, me, my twin, my older sister, and older brother. Even if my twin happens to be gay.

So I would like to thank everyone, and sadly we missed the Olympics becuase we were moving but that's how things go right?

Oh and there was a few earthquakes here, man I was terrified, I will never get used to that...

So now I'm back to writing after a long needed break, and so now I'm going to honor everyone who review and pmed me to support me and my family, it's official you guys are the best.

The absolute best.

I love you guys!

okay so I've been told its hard to see transitions in my stories, so usually when I write them I put small lines inbetween and for some odd reason fanfiction dosent show them, so I'll do slashes now, ok!

So for further ado, my story is back on track!

Chapter 13

Arthur flew back into a wall and Merlin started to float. A gold glow encasing his love. Wind was whipping around him like a tiny whirl wind. Everything was being pushed backwards and being pushed against the white walls, the walls themselves were starting to crack as the bed and other dressers flew away. Merlin continued to float and all Arthur could see was those wide hatred filled gold eyes.

He had to stop him. Arthur started to lean forward his feet still sliding agains the carpet.
"Merlin!" he reached his hand out trying to touch Merlin's hand.

"Merlin listen to me! It's me Arthur! Come back!" he shouted out as Merlin continued to stare blankly up ahead. Arthur pushed off the wall and scooted forward and continued to reach out for the raven haired teen. His fingers softly brushed Merlin's. Slowly he struggled to get his other hand across Merlin. He wrapped his arms around his lover and hugged him tight.
"Please Merlin, listen to me, you're safe."

Arthur could hear a soft growl in Merlin's throught, sounding somewhat animalistic.
"You're safe." Arthur turned his head and pressed his lips to Merlin's in an attempt to calm him. Arthur squished his eyes closed and could feel the wind around him slowly die down. The growl faded away and Arthur could feel Merlin's small limbs twitch and then wrap around him. Arthur deepened the kiss and then slipped his toung within Merlin's mouth. Arthur pulled away and watched as Merlin opened his eyes, revealing deep sapphire eyes.

"Arthur?" Arthur could feel the happiness bubble within him, and all he could do was laugh and hug Merlin to him tightly.
"Arthur what's going on?" Arthur hugged onto him and spun him around and Merlin let out a squeak of surprise.
"I love you Merlin! I freakin love you! You don't even know how much I love you!"

"Arthur!" the young teen yelled out and hung onto the older blond. Arthur then sat him down, and smiled happily at him, but slowly his smile began to fade.
"Arthur? What's happened?" Arthur felt the happiness within him slowly die down, and replacing it was a great mixture of horror and fear. Would Nimueh and Mordred come after Merlin now!?
"Arthur please answer me!" Arthur looked down at those sapphire orbs, the looked back up at his sky blue ones with worry. Arthur began to explain everything to him. Morgana's body being lost. Mordred recruiting an army. Everything and all Merlin did was sit there in silence and listen to the story Arthur told and grew even the more scared as the story turned to the worse. Then finally Arthur came to a stop. He looked about ready to cry, but then a stony mask was placed over it as if he didn't care. Merlin started to cry silently and hug his lover.

"Arthur...why is it everywhere I go...hell follows...I'm a monster...I've ruined everything." he whispered and the teen felt the blond wrap his arms around him and tighten his hold, but he did not answer, nor deny the fact he was a monster. And Merlin could only sob, he couldn't handle this. All his life he had wanted freedom. When he was younger he had wanted to use his abilities out in the open. Then when he had been taken he had wanted to leave the Russian facility. And finally, while he was in his comatose state, his soul began to sing, and his heart thumped harder and faster, and so he had answered, and he had gotten to Arthur and Arthur had freed him, and finally it had seemed like everything was good and that the bad was just a nightmare that Merlin had finally woken up from. But that was wrong wasn't it.

Merlin was trapped.

Always trapped.

He was a small little bird trapped within his cage, and everytime he could peer at the sky and the clouds and smile up at the hope, but never leave. Never tough them.

Merlin was going to be trapped for the rest of his life, he would never have freedom. And then he felt Arthur clench him harder.

No, he had to be strong. For Gauis. For his mother. For his father. For Morgana. For Gwaine. For Gwen. For Lancelot. For himself. And most importantly for Arthur. Merlin then pulled away from the blond, who peered up at him in confusion.

Merlin wiped away his pathetic tears and smiled a bright and happy smile, even if it was fake Arthur wouldn't know.

"I've decided." Merlin smiled happily and he could feel his magic within him swirl almost like it was anxious to take a course of action. He felt the gold swirl into his eyes and he could feel the warmth of them as they turned to their brilliant gold.

"how do you get to Russia?"

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So this chapter was short and all the jazz but I just wanted to post something to let you guys all know that I'm finally ready to start writing again. which you all must thank my aunt and siblings for, they thought I would be for the best.

And once again, you guys all rock!

Love you all!

Tpa.