A/N - Phew, here it is! Now... I don't usually have a hard time writing a chapter, but boy did I with this one! I know it's not my best, you can admit it to me but gosh darn I tried my hardest. I didn't hit writers block, just had a difficult time writing how I think the characters would react, say ect. But I'm not gonna say anything about this chapter.. read and find out! Again, please forgive my most likely worst chapter yet. :'((((( (If you write, you'll understand) Also, sorry for the one day delay, again, I was having trouble writing this.
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Again all, this chapter is probably not going to live up to your high expectations but I'm praying you understand. As a writer, I think we all have at least one chapter we know could be better, sadly, this is the one. I didn't put nearly as much drama as I was planning, but of course, there's a little. A little fluff and funniness is also found in this one. Please forgive me if you don't like it!
Chapter 16 will be up either Tuesday OR Wednesday. To be honest, it could be either days, check the Facebook page for updates and info. The next chapter(16) will be picking up some, read the preview at the end to find out. I SWEAR it will be better the this horrible chapter. Also, PLEASE forgive any grammar/spelling mistakes, I only had time to read over it once. Well, enjoy folks and again, reviews are always welcomed! Much love - Macayla
Confused.
That's what immediately curses through his face.
"Wha-"
"I'm pregnant Gale!" I scream at him, beyond pissed. I regret my next words. "I don't care what you think of it, but it happened. If you don't like it then don't let the door hit you on the way out!"
And with that, I yank my gold wedding ring from my finger and throw it at his feet.
God what did I just do?
Tell him to leave? I don't care how mad I am at him, I don't want him to leave me. I don't say anything more, I quickly and angrily walk past him, towards my dresser to pull out day clothes, even though it's well into the afternoon. There's only one place I can think of right now, and I can't go there in my nightgown,
The woods.
"Katniss, come here." He says, calmly.
I'm not sure what instincts tell me to, but I do. I listen to him. I still finish pulling out the jeans and shirt from my dresser, closing it back and slowly, without making eye contact walk towards Gale who is still standing by the bed. He takes the clothes from my hands and places it on the nightstand, afterwards pulling me into his arms, kissing me passionately. It catches me off guard some, but I find myself kissing him back. Yes, his words did hurt but I do love Gale. I'd never want him to leave. We finally come up for air.
"Katniss…" He starts, pulling me down to the bed with him in a sitting position. "First off, I'm sorry for what I said. I was just mad and I didn't mean a word I said. Forgive me?" He asks. But how could I not?
"Yes." I answer plainly.
"Good. Second, please tell me your joking about being pregnant?" He asks.
Does he really think I was joking? Especially in a moment like that? I sigh heavily before answering.
"No, Gale. I wasn't joking." I answer, closing my eyes the whole time in terror of his reaction. I hear him sigh heavily too.
"Oh. Well… I guess it's my fault." He says, avoiding my gaze. Is he really… sad about the news? I thought now, since his anger died down he'd be happy again…
"I thought you would want this Gale?" I question, turning more towards him. He sighs again.
"No, Katniss." He says, leaning his elbows on his knees.
"What?" I say. I can not believe Gale would say… no. "You told me before you wan-"
"I said I would. If I didn't live here, but you were right, I do live here." He says, looking at my gaze.
He is right though, when we had this conversation, that I have no idea how it got mention on the morning of the reaping almost a year ago now, Gale did tell me he 'would', I commented back rudely 'but you do'. This whole time, I would think Gale would be the only person who wouldn't shun me(besides Prim), who wouldn't judge me, who would love me no matter what. Am I wrong now? He speaks again.
"But.." He turns toward me, taking his hands in his. "… yes, I've always wanted to be a parent." He pauses. "With you."
"Gale, how are we going to do this?" I ask, tears beginning fall from my eyes and down my cheeks, he whips them away though.
"Katniss, shh." He says, bringing my head to his chest, finally… his strong arms around me. "We have each other, that's how we'll make it. And we have our baby."
And for the first time, Gale undoes one of his arms around me and brings his hand to rest on my abdomen. I back up slightly so I can see his face, his smiling face. The feeling is so… odd? No, it's almost… happy. This may not be something we planned, or that we exactly wanted but we can't go back. It's weird to think I have a tiny, little life growing where Gale's hand rest. A life that Gale and I created,
Together.
But there's a problem… Panem is not safe. The thought reappears of having to watch my own child be slaughtered on national TV for the Capitol's enjoyment.
"Gal-"
"We'll keep her safe. I promise I-"
"Gale, were powerless against the Capi-"
"I won't let it happen Katniss." He laughs slightly before his next words. "If they threaten her, were just have to start our own damn upraising then!"
I smile while Gale laughs again. His laugh I never to tired of hearing. It's amazing, how much Gale has comforted me now. I know that he means those words, it's true. Gale would never let anything or anyone hurt me or his own child. But there's another problem…
"But… but what if I'm a bad mother Gale?" I ask, another lone tear falling from my eyes. He laughs again. "It's not funny Gale! I'm serious!" I protest honestly.
"Really Katniss?" He laughs again.
"Gale!" I shout. I am being serious about my question. I'd kill myself before I turn into the witch my mother has turned into.
"Well, for starters. You've always been better at making Posy quite crying then me, remember?" He asks, I nod my head in truthful answer. "And I think the kids in your music class love you, look at all those drawings you have around the house. And…" He leans in closer. "You've proved, to me, our moms, everyone in this damn district that you can do it. They way you treat Prim, that's amazing Katniss. You have and still are raising her. And she's turned out just like you, beautiful. Inside and out." And with that, he leans in and kisses me again, cupping my face in both his hands.
I smile against his lips. His words bring on some comfort, but there will always be a side of me that will always be scared. But I assume that's normal. He finally breaks the kiss after a moment, I almost wish he hadn't though.
"Your not the only one that's scared of that. What if I'm not a good dad?" He asks, I hold in my laugh.
"Oh please Gale! Thom's brother, Alec, he loves you!" I answer, Alec's eyes always light up when Gale holds him.
"I guess your right. What can I say, kids love me!" Gale replies with a wink
I only shake my head and grin in reply and get up from the bed and retrieve my ring I threw down and hand it back to Gale, taking my seat again and stretching out my hand for him to place my ring back on. He doesn't put it on right away though-
"You didn't mean it? What you said?" He asks, I smile at his words.
"Of course not. I… I just lost my temper." I answer.
"We both lost our tempers, Katniss." He says while slipping the ring back on. "I don't blame you though."
"It's ok." I say quietly. He finishes placing the ring back and kisses my hand.
"It looks so beautiful on you." He says. I can't help it, but I laugh, loudly. "What?" He asks, grinning now.
"Nothing. We were just both fighting and screaming at each other and now-" He starts laughing too. "I think were both bipolar." I say jokingly.
"Na, Were just one bowl of crazy." He says, making us both laugh harder. Again, from screaming to laughing. I lean my head on his chest and he wraps his arms around me again.
"But were one big bowl of crazy… together?" I say, more of a question then a comment. He laughs again.
"Together".
And with that he lifts my head up, locking the word with yet another kiss.
"I'd never leave you Katniss…" He says while leaning back on the bed across it, pulling me on top of him. "… not even if you threatened me."
"Not if I put a gun to your head?" I ask, jokingly. I give him a quick kiss before he answers.
"Well… maybe." He answers.
"Wha-" I start but he laughs.
"I'm only kidding. You'd have to drag my dead body away from you." He answers. I say my next words seductively, which ends up a mistake.
"Hmm, maybe that won't be so bad." I reply, rubbing my thumb across his bottom lip. Instantly, he's hard between my legs. Great, I think to myself sarcastically. He looks at my confused. "I'm only kidding!" I say, mocking his tone.
'Doing something' wouldn't be so bad right now, but not when we have a complete stranger in the house(if she's still here) and everyone should be home any time. Gale runs his hands down my back, grabbing my butt with both hands and eyeing my cleavage.
"I like when you wear that." He says. "But I guess you won't be for long." He adds, smiling.
"Why?" I ask, moving more to straddle him.
"Well, your stomach's going to grow." He replies, like I'm stupid. I sit up, resting my hands on his chest. "Did you forget about that hon? He asks, laughing.
"No!" I say, a bit frustrated. My answer only makes him laugh shortly again.
"Good…" He says, sitting up, making me sit in his lap. "I think your going to look even hotter." He adds, kissing my neck.
To answer his question truthfully, I had almost forgotten. I almost forgot what being pregnant means… nine months of torture. I shift in his lap, bringing my knees on either side of him and resting my hands on his shoulders. He glances at the door and back at me-
"I'm scared." I say quietly, almost certain he didn't hear me. But he did.
"Don't be Katniss." He answers, tucking a piece of my upbraided hair behind my ear. "You are the strongest, most bravest person I know. I know you can do it, you just have to believe it yourself." He adds.
It's amazing, how Gale can make me feel if I'm down, or worried, or scared. Prim can reassure me too, but when Gale does, it's different. A good kind of different. Of course, I'm still petrified of the next months, but I know that Gale is right. I've been through so much in my life, this shouldn't faze me.
"Thanks." I say, running my fingers through his hair. He smiles in replies, only starring at my cleavage once again.
"Come on. Let's do it quickly." He says, grinning. Again, I'm not like him. I don't like being walked in on. I laugh though.
"No! Can we even…" I say, pointing to my stomach. This get's a laugh out of him.
"Yes, Katniss. I'm pretty sure you were already pregnant last night." He says, grinning again. I nod my head, smiling as I rethink about last night. "Anyways, I had sex with a seven month pregnant girl once." He adds.
"What!?" I ask, holding in my laugh. I do my best to forget Gale's 'wild' so-called past.
"I'm not joking…" He answers, running his hands down my back. "It was a girl in my grade. We did it at her house…" He pauses for a second. "with her husband downstairs." He adds, grinning proudly. I feel my mouth drop.
"Gale!?" I shout at him, slapping his shoulder. I don't know what gives me the guts to ask the next question, but somehow it comes out before I can think. "Did he catch you?" I ask, grinning myself.
"Na, she distracted him while I snuck out." He finishes by slapping my butt.
"Why would you do something like that Gale!? She was married!" I shout, more jokingly then serious, but being honest. I can't help my smile though.
"Come on, you can't tell me you've never wanted to do one… I don't know… something you shouldn't be doing?" He asks, raising an eyebrow.
I've never considered myself… 'wild' or someone who sneaks around. I guess because I was practically raising Prim and supporting a family I was to busy to think of doing anything like that… and I can't say I ever wanted to or had the drive to. Not that I'd have many boy takers in that department anyways. I go back to Gale's question-
"Not really." I answer, looking at his damn grin across his face.
"Not really?" He questions. I rack my brain for anything he would consider 'wild', only one thing comes up.
"I've drunk alcohol a couple of times before." I answer, shrugging my shoulders. But I'm almost positive I've told him about it before.
"A few times? You told me you've tried it once before." He says, raising another eyebrow to add to his grin.
Crap. I did tell him only once. My answer is true though, shortly after my fathers death, whenever my mother would ask for some for her patients, I use to keep a bottle for myself, thinking I could drink my worries away at twelve, thirteen, fourteen. I did it for the first three years, occasionally having a bottle, not every day of course, maybe one every several months. Finally, at fifteen I knew I needed to stop before it became an addiction or I couldn't control myself. Thankfully it wasn't to late and I had no trouble dropping that terrible habit. I look at Gale who's raising his eyebrow again in answer.
"It was a long time ago Gale. I don't want to talk about it." I answer truthfully. He smiles.
"Alright, alright." He answers. He leans in closer, bringing his lips to my ear. "But once the baby is here, I want to see you drunk."
Gale knows, when he talks like that it turns me on. He takes full advantage of it and pulls me back down on the bed, on top of him again. But he flips me over, straddling me carefully. He starts kissing my neck, making trails down it.
"Gale, we shouldn't right now." I say calmly.
"Why?" He asks against my neck.
"Katniss?!" My name is called from downstairs, Prim's voice.
"That's why." I answer, pushing myself off of him
He stands and I follow. Before I answer her, Gale suggests we tell Prim about the pregnancy.
"Not right now, Gale. I'm not sure how she'll take it." I say, knowing that she'll be ecstatic anyways.
He nods his head in answer. I would tell Prim, but I don't want her thinking she has to move out. I want to tell her easy for some reason, although again, I know she'll be the happiest for Gale and I and be excited about becoming an Aunt. And I still need time to adjust to the news myself. Of course, all what Gale said helped, immensely, but I'm still pregnant. Most woman are supposed to be crying tears of joy, but I will still find myself crying myself to sleep of worry and sadness.
I walk over to the stairs, shouting I'll be there in a minute. I walk back over to the bed, quickly changing from my nightgown and into my jeans and t-shirt. Gale waits for me. When I'm done, we both head down the stairs together. We find Prim sitting at the table, eating something, some kind of fruit.
"Ah, who's that woman sleeping on the couch?" Prim asks, smiling. Gale and I both laugh.
"She's Grace. She watches Posy for us." Gale replies. "Where is Pos?" He asks.
"I don't know. I would think… Grace would be the one to know." Prim answers.
Great, while Gale and I were fighting and our careless babysitter was sleeping, Posy most likely is somewhere getting into trouble. Gale must think the same thing. He goes into the living room and I follow. He yanks the covers off of Grace, asking about Posy. She answers the same as Prim, 'I don't know'.
"Posy!?" Gale shouts. But there's no answer. Immediately I can sense Gale panicking, but he calms down almost at the same time. "She's probably at Thom's." Gale says, almost shrugging.
I hold in my laugh. Thom's house is at least a good twenty, thirty minute walk from our house. I can't picture Posy, a four year old making that trip by herself… safely.
"What!?" I ask, half way shouting it. Gale laughs.
"She goes there all the time, to play with Sophie." He replies, grinning. I turn towards him more.
"So you let a four year old walk across the entire seam!?" I shout, petrified that something happened to her.
"Sometimes yes." He answers honestly. I hear Prim laughing in the kitchen.
I just answer with a scowl. Maybe he won't make such a great dad, I think to myself jokingly. Gale suggest we head over to get her. Grace bids us a goodbye and sorry, heading out the door and Gale, myself and Prim head out in the opposite direction to get Posy. A short, but somehow tiring(for me) walk, and were there. The door swings open before we can knock, Thom's mother is there, holding Alec like always.
"Looking for Posy?" She asks, eyeing the three of us.
We all nod and she lets us in.
Loud.
It's the only word I can describe what it's like. There's crying from upstairs and I can hear both of the twins arguing down the hallway and Thom's step-father trying stop them.
"Remind us to never have this many kids." Gale says leaning into my with a whisper. I laugh.
Thom's mother yells for Posy and Sophie from upstairs, and a few seconds later, they both fly down them, almost crashing into all of us. I almost go to yell at Posy but Gale must sense it and puts a hand on my shoulder. I guess I shouldn't be surprised at Posy's action, she acts much older then four most of the time. Thom's step-father, calls for Thom's mother, (I can never remember their names) and she hands Alec to Gale, of course Gale winks at me.
"I'll be back in just a moment." She says to Gale and she follows her husband to the porch.
We all head into the living room, the sly grinning twins joining us and so does Thom. Bidding us hellos. Gale of course strikes up conversation about various things. The twins go back to arguing while Sophie watch's laughing at them and Posy keeps playing with Alec who Gale is still holding. Prim sits next to me, and like me, tries to ignore the mess in front of us. Only when Gale nudges my shoulder does he wake me of my thoughts.
"Want to hold him?" He asks, raising an eyebrow. I know exactly what he's trying to do, and he's right.
I nod my head slowly, stretching my arms out for him. Gale hands him to me and I set him in my lap, he lets out a happy scream. It's… strange and scary knowing soon I'll be holding another child, baby. My own baby. I hear Gale laugh next to me, most likely at the awkwardness I'm probably showing. I see Gale look around the room and I follow his eyes, everyone's distracted. Thom's trying to stop Simon and Theo from fighting and Sophie has her shirt lifted up, showing Prim something. I laugh quickly at that sight. Posy's still trying to get Alec's attention. Gale leans in to me, whispering his next words.
"Your going to be a great mother." He says, kissing my temple. I smile.
"What?" We both look down at a confused Posy. "Your going to be a mama?" Posy asks me, a bit to loudly for my liking.
"Shh, you can't tell anyone." Gale says quietly to her.
"Kat Kat's pregnant?!" Posy screams.
Everyone in the room turns around, including Prim . . . . . . .
CHAPTER 16 PREVIEW: "How will Prim and the others react to the unexpected news? Will Hazel find a home for her and the kids to live in before the baby will come? What will happen when Katniss starts to experience more pregnancy symptoms and more news from her mother about pregnancy? Also what will happen what Katniss's short 'bliss' starts to fade and the hard reality of being pregnant hits again? And what will take place when Prim brings home a mystrious teacher's note from school?"
