Cellular Confession

MAY 21st, 2011

I think I'm finally starting to feel better from all the drama I have encountered. It still stays in my mind but I think I'm starting to move on now. I now see Margaret as a friend mostly and I'm keeping my options open. When an opportunity comes I'll take it.

After Mr. Mallard's party, every one of his guest got gifts for attending. It consisted of assorted perfumes, very expensive jewelry, and a pack of brand cigars. No one in the house really smokes so each of us gave the cigars to anyone who wanted extra. Rigby and I didn't really like the perfume so he gave his to Eileen and I gave mine to Margaret: Both were very appreciative for it. Rhonda has also been doing well. She's moved on and is back to her cheerful self. I really hope she finds a guy that won't hurt her anymore.

I told Benson about the pawn shop Margaret's father (Mr. Ken) owned. He's been going there for the past few days, selling old antiques from the house that were in the attic. Turns out they were worth a lot of money. Benson decided to save the money he got from pawn for "emergencies" that the park may have. (Smart move, there no shortage of "emergencies" here)

I was just on our way out to the coffee shop with Rigby when Skips came in the house with some mail.

"Anything for us Skips?" Rigby asked.

"Nah, just bills and some junk mail."

"What's that?" I said, noticing a yellow slip.

"…Looks like some kind of brochure." Skips observed the slip. "Why, do you want it?"

"Yeah."

He tossed it to me and looked closer into the details of the brochure. After some thought, I knew exactly who to give this to.

Rigby and I sat our regular seats, just like old times. He gave a blow kiss to Eileen as she was heading to the kitchen and I waved Margaret over.

"Hey guys!" Margaret said.

"Hey Margaret. Can I talk to you for a second?" I got up from my seat.

"Sure."

I led her to the corner of the shop.

"There was this brochure in the mail and I thought about you." I gave it to her.

She eyed it carefully, "Acupuncturist?"

"Yeah, Skips told me thes people can cure many health problems with acupuncture…It says here that it can cure allergies, sickness, and even here it says insomnia. I want to help so I thought I should give it to you."

"This mean a lot Mordecai. Thing is, I already have acupuncture therapy."

"Oh, I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry. This was very sweet of you…" She kept her eyes on the brochure, smiling at it. She then gave me a hug and got me and Rigby's our orders.

Rigby and I got back to the house and relaxed. He decided to play Shooter Booter 2 with Skips and I went to lay down in my bed.

My phone soon vibrated: A text from Rhonda.

[Rhonda]: MORDO!

[Me]: What? What's wrong?

[Rhonda]: Nothing, I was thinking of telling you something but I decided not to.

[Me]: Aw, now I'm curious.

[Rhonda]: Its weird and I don't want to creep you out.

[Me]: Come on were friends, I can take it.

[Rhonda]: …yeah friends. I know, see…oh god…I like you but I know all we can do be is friends. Whatever you know? I mean we can't see each other, so yeah…I hope ur true to you word and can take it. I'm sorry if it creeps u out.

[Me]: I had a feeling that's what it was. It's not like I haven't thought about it too. After all we're always there for each other whenever we need it.

[Rhonda]: I know and I like taking to you and telling my friends about you. But forget it, its nothing.

[Me]: Wait, I'm not dismissing the idea, it's just…well we haven't really met face to face. We'd need to know more about it. There's another factor but you can't tell anyone.

This factor was my current dilemma with Margaret. I keep telling myself that I have a friend only relationship with her but once again, my heart still has feelings for her and the rape issue still bothers. I can't really get into a relationship with this stress over me right now.

[Rhonda]: I won't say a thing.

I told her. I told her the story I promised Margaret I would never tell. I texted Rhonda about a friend of mine named Margaret, who I liked, was raped by the person she's currently with. I said how I'm having a hard time trying to move on or wait for Margaret to break up with her boyfriend. (A stretch, I know)

I had to break the promise to Margaret, mostly because I didn't want to lie to Rhonda. She reminded of the same situation I was in when I confessed to Margaret: She didn't lie to me, so I wouldn't lie to Rhonda.

Wow, I must really do care for her then…

[Rhonda]: I'm sorry I brought it up again…I understand…u like her not me…whatever :/

[Me]: I didn't mean it like that. That's a harsh way of putting it.

[Rhonda]: Well there's no nicer way of putting it. It's done, over. I shouldn't have said anything. Whatever :/

[Me]: Listen I know I said this a million times, but you'll find someone better. Probably better than me. We're still friends right? That's what really matters :)

[Rhonda]: yea k whatever.

[Rhonda]: I just hope things can be normal.

[Me]: They will

[Rhonda]: Great

[Me]: :) cool

I set the phone done and face-palmed myself in grief.

I fucked up….

See what I mean by this experiment? The next chapter will go more into depth of why Mordecai said the things he said in the text.

Updates to my stories may take awhile, seeing how I have some summer reading assignments to do.