V for Void
Paul's POV
Before I met Troublesome I was a void. An endless pit of anger, sorrow and hatred. The lust for power that I had, was me simply wanting to defend myself. I wanted to be loved by someone other than Reggie. I wanted to be loved by someone I liked romantically. But no matter what my heart said, my brain refused to listen.
While my heart wanted to move on, my mind didn't. It was still in 'lock-up' mode from my traumatic childhood experiences. My heart was trying to reach out, but my mind put it in a cage. Anyone who tried to help was immediately put-off by the 'get away' defence from my memories. I needed someone who wouldn't be scared away by my trap. Someone who could find their way to the key to the cage, through the maze of my traps, tricks and defences and free my true self.
Only, my true self was tortured senseless. It's practically the same as my shell now, just slightly more loving and caring then the usual me. I was lucky that it still had that much left by the time it was freed and I thank that girl everyday, with all the love and care I can give her.
Troublesome was the one who got my heart out. The reason: love. Why I fell for her is still unknown, but I know that she's the reason that I can be happy today. Happy with three beautiful children and Troublesome as my wife. If she hadn't come when she did, I would have still been a void of emptiness and none of this would have been possible.
Again this touches on the backstory I gave him. I have written a full story on it as well called: 'Not Child-friendly Childhood' if your interested... But watch out, it's really dark.