Chapter 20

" What do you mean that you want to quit stripping?"

Roman hovered over his boyfriend watching as he bit his bottom lip before he spoke again.

" I think you should have a boyfriend who has a more respectable career." Seth stared at him with a strange kind of wonderment. His brown eyes wide and full. " I don't want you to be ashamed of me."

Seth rolled over on his side with his back to Roman. It was hard for him to say that but maybe he was only deluding himself if he thought that Roman would want someone like him as a serious partner.

" Seth? Baby?" Roman reached for Seth and turned him over on his back. He climbed over him so that his body loomed above the smaller man. " Where in the world did you get the idea that I would be ashamed of you?"

Seth shook his head against the pillow. " It doesn't matter. Most people think that being a stripper is the same as being a whore." Seth's eyes were suddenly full of conviction. " I'm not a whore Rome."

Roman rested his body lightly on top of Seth's. " I never said that you were baby." He kissed Seth on the lips lightly.

" But people might think that I'm only with you because of money." Seth tried to make Roman see it from his view. " They wouldn't think that I actually love you."

" Seth," Roman cupped Seth's head in between his hands. " It doesn't matter what people may think or say. We know the truth. I know who you really are." His tongue darted out and playfully licked Seth's bottom lip. " You're sweet, you're funny, you're patient." He pecked Seth's lips that were now curved up into a smile. " You're incredibly sexy." That earned him a short chuckle. " And I love you." Roman then kissed him fully on the lips. He could feel Seth smiling against his lips as he kissed him. He wouldn't change a single thing about Seth if he had his way.

He rolled over on his back, pulling Seth on top of him. He ended the kiss and stroked the side of Seth's face as he admired him in the dimmly lit room. " You know what I love the most about you?"

Seth nuzzled Roman's palm with his face like a puppy and then kissed it. Roman always knew how to make him feel good about himself after Dean had knocked the wind out of him. " What Romie?"

" How bluntly honest you are." Seth stopped nuzzling Roman's palm and just stared at him. Immediately his infidelity with Dean flashed across his mind but he hoped that Roman couldn't see his facial expression clearly. He dipped his head and started pecking kisses across his boyfriend's chest.

Roman chuckled at Seth's reaction. " You're so damn honest Seth. I know that you will never keep anything from me and will always tell me the truth no matter what."

" Hey Seth! Can I talk to you?"

Dean saw Seth walking by the couch with his gym bag about to head out the door. After last evening's dealings with Roman he really needed to clear the air between them.

" Can't stop Dean. I have to get to the gym." Seth responded not even looking at him.

" Seth please. I'm sorry."

Seth was about to open the door when he stopped in his tracks at Dean's words. Dean got up from the couch and went over to him.

" I'm sorry Seth." His roommate just turned around and looked at him. His large brown eyes unreadable. " I shouldn't have said those things. I was angry and I took it out on you."

His blue eyes looked at Seth hopefully but the man shook his head. " It's not that easy Dean."

He adjusted the strap of the bag on his shoulder and reached for the doorknob. Suddenly he felt himself being pulled back. His chest smacked against Dean's and his gym bag was removed from his shoulder and dropped on the floor in one fluid movement. Before he could make sense of what was happening he felt Dean kissing him. Hard.

But Seth wrenched his face away from him. " Dean. No."

He could see that Dean was clearly puzzled as his unruly mop of auburn hair was threatening to sweep across his eyelashes. Dean pushed the hair back but it didn't make it any neater.

" Seth, I ..."

" I know Dean. I know." Seth cut him off. " You're sorry." He stepped out of Dean's embrace. " That isn't enough this time."

He bent over for his bag but Dean grabbed his hand and pulled him back up. " Seth, I didn't mean to hurt you. You must believe me." One of Dean's hands was stroking the side of Seth's face while the other was finger combing Seth's hair.

" Dean you called me a bitch. You called me a whore." Seth's voice choked out. He could feel his temper rising. He hated his body for liking Dean's touch even though he knew that he should despise the feeling of Dean's hands on any part of him. " Do you know how that made me feel?"

Dean opened his mouth to respond but Seth continued. " You made me feel like utter shit. Like when we were together all you saw was a whore that you could fuck."

Dean actually stopped touching Seth and took a step back. He had never seen Seth this angry before. His brown eyes were actually glaring at him.

" All you talk about is your feelings and how bad I made you feel when I said that I loved Roman. Well I do fucking love him Dean. I love Romie." Seth snatched his gym bag up from the floor. " And not you or anyone else is going to stop me from being with him."

Seth managed to make it to the door this time before Dean's arm encircled his waist. He cussed as Dean's other arm snared his hips lifting him off the floor. Dean carried him back into the living room and then dropped him on the couch. Dean straddled Seth's lap with his thighs trapping Seth in the middle.

" Dean! Just let me go." Seth knew that it made no sense trying to reason with Dean. He could tell from the look on his face that his roommate was beyond reason at this point.

" I can't." His index finger trailed along Seth's jaw stopping at the corner of his mouth. " I'm sorry Sethie." He pressed a kiss into Seth's forehead. He felt Seth relaxing underneath him. He softly kissed down the side of Seth's face until he reached the edge of his lips. " Give me another chance Seth." His breath tickling Seth's sensitive lips.

With Dean sitting on top of him, his thighs trapping him. His arms on either side of his head resting against the back of the couch. Dean was all over him. Surrounding him. There was no place he could fix his eyes without some part of Dean obscuring it. So he was forced to look at him. Into those pale baby blues that were watching him so intently, almost like prey. Yet Seth wasn't scared.

" No Dean."

Those pale baby blues flashed quickly with an emotion that Seth couldn't identify. Anger? Fear? Sadness? Before he could make up his mind Dean was kissing him once more. He felt his bottom lip being sucked into Dean's mouth. He tried to pull away but Dean grasped his head and kept it still. Dean's tongue swiped across the entrance of Seth's mouth. He couldn't deny that he liked how Dean kissed him. In fact he liked many things that Dean did to him. But he couldn't continue this. He wrenched his face roughly away from Dean's.

" You called me a whore Dean. You called me one when I first moved in and you called me one yesterday." He looked at Dean who was breathing hard with his hands resting on his thighs. " You're opinion of me hasn't changed has it?"

" Seth," Dean got off of Seth and sat next to him on the couch. " I can't keep on telling you how sorry I am." He noticed that Seth was still unmoved. " I was just lashing out at you because I couldn't deal with the fact that you and Roman are in love and I thought you had feelings for me." Dean dropped his head and looked away. He didn't know what else to say to him.

Seth eased over to Dean and touched his arm. " I did." He shook his head. " I do." Dean looked at him hopefully. " But we can't do this Dean."

" Why not?" Dean hooked his arm around Seth's waist and pulled him against his body.

" You know why Dean."

" Because of Roman." Dean spoke with a sadness.

" Yeah." Seth found himself running his fingers over the hand that held him against his roommate. " Well that's one reason."

" What's the other one?" Dean softly kissed the back of Seth's neck inhaling the scent of his fresh aftershave.

Seth groaned when Dean kissed his neck again. " We don't work Dean."

" What do you mean?" He awkwardly cupped Seth's chin and turned it towards him.

" All we do is fight Dean." Seth's eyes fastened on Dean's red lips as they hovered over his. Dean swiped his lips over Seth's sending a shiver through his body.

" We aren't fighting now." Dean countered with a soft sweet kiss on Seth's lips.

" But we were." Seth mumbled against Dean's lips before he returned the kiss. " All we do is hurt each other. We fight and then we makeup and then we fight again."

Dean covered Seth's mouth with his and was pleasantly surprised when Seth's lips instantly parted to allow his tongue access. Their tongues swirled together in a heated kiss. Dean sank down on the couch as Seth climbed on top of him. Their lips moving in tandem. Dean's hands moving down Seth's back and slipping underneath Seth's sweatpants. He grabbed Seth's firm ass cheeks and kneaded them together. He sucked Seth's moan into his mouth as he pushed the sweatpants down his hips.

" I can't keep away from you." Dean confessed as he kissed Seth needily. He reached down between their bodies and stroked Seth's freed cock. He was hard and already leaking. He pushed Seth up into a sitting position while their lips remained attached. His hand worked Seth's cock over twisting at the top.

" Dean..." Seth moaned in the most desperate way as Dean's tongue lapped at his neck . Dean pulled away to see the lust filled look in Seth's eyes. He had to convince Seth that he needed this as well. Ignoring his own hardness, he stretched out on the couch and licked Seth's manhood.

" Dean... fuck..." Seth panted as Dean licked the vein that ran up the underside of his dick. His tongue was warm and wet and it felt so good against the hotness of his shaft.

When Dean sucked the head of his cock into his mouth Seth bucked his hips and clawed at Dean's hair. He groaned loudly as Dean took more of his cock into his mouth. Dean pulled Seth's sweatpants down to his knees so that he could have better access to his body. His fingers manipulated Seth's freshly shaven balls. He looked up to see Seth's mouth shaped in a perfect oval as he deepthroated Seth's shaft, his lips touching the base of the instrument. Seth was pulling his hair as if he wanted Dean to swallow his balls as well. However Dean came off of Seth's cock for a bit admiring his saliva all over it.

" Such a pretty cock." He said and sucked the skin right above the base of it. " Tastes fucking good too."

" You talk too damn much."

Dean glanced up at Seth in surprise. " Never expected to hear that from you baby boy." He used his hand to guide Seth's dick to back to his mouth. " You like this?" He teasingly lick the tip of the shaft.

" Fuck Dean." Seth arched his hips towards Dean's mouth hoping that Dean would suck him back in but Dean only kissed the head and smirked at him. " You're such a fucking tease."

" Takes one to know one." Dean replied gibbly before giving Seth what he wanted and started to suck him again.

As he sucked him, he felt Seth's hand trail down his bare back and eventually his fingers grazed underneath the waistband of his boxers touching his ass. As Seth caressed his ass, he sped up sucking his dick. He could hear Seth's breath catching in his throat. His cock felt heavier on his tongue and then it started to throb.

Seth's hand came out of Dean's boxers and went back into his hair again. " I'm cumming Dean."

Dean scraped his teeth over the sensitive head and nearly howled when Seth pulled his hair. Seth's cum splurted thickly into his mouth and he swallowed it down until Seth's dick finished pulsing in his mouth. He licked the top clean before releasing Seth from his mouth.

Seth looked at him through hazy lust filled eyes. Dean couldn't read what he wanted but he knew what he was going to give him. He pressed his lips against Seth's whose tongue eagerly dove into his mouth to taste himself. Seth actually licked Dean's tongue tasting himself and moaning. He actually seemed pleased to taste his cum and sucked on Dean's tongue. He found himself halfway across Seth's body with Seth in his arms in the middle of a deep and dirty kiss. His cock was so fucking hard and he could feel himself leaking in his boxers. His desire for Seth was overwhelming.

Seth broke the kiss and panted softly. As Dean looked at him, he could feel all of his good senses taking leave of him. He was falling and falling hard. " I want to be with you."

Dean's words seemed to have shaken the haze that Seth was in. " You know that's not possible."

Dean kissed Seth's throat. " I don't care." He placed Seth's hand over his hardened rod. " I want you."

He moaned when Seth gave it a good squeeze as they watched each other.

" Dean, I can't." Seth moved his hand away and gently pushed Dean back. He stood and pulled back up his sweatpants.

" Sethie." Dean went for him as he turned away pulling him back against him so that Seth's ass was pressing against his erection. His ass was a perfect fit against his hips. He grinded his hips against Seth's ass. " I want you baby boy." He kissed Seth's cheek.

Seth swallowed hard. Dean's cock felt so good against him. He had half a mind to drop his pants and bend over to let Dean take him. But then he remembered Roman and how much faith he had in him. He couldn't disappoint Romie. Seth turned around and kissed Dean hard and then stepped away.

" I can't do this Dean. I can't do this to Romie." Seth picked up his gym bag and finally made it through the door. He couldn't help to feel a bit disappointed that Dean didn't pull him back this time.

Dean stared up at the ceiling as he laid in bed. He couldn't actually see it because of how dark the room was but at least he knew that it was there. His mind replayed the past forty eight hours constantly on repeat. First him and Roman and then him and Seth. Now removed from the situation he could see that Roman had never actually admitted that there was something between them. The only thing that he had conceded was that he wanted to fuck Dean, nothing more. Then there was Seth. He admitted that he did have feelings for Dean but they weren't as strong as the ones he had for Roman. In the end Seth still chose Roman over him. This was even harder for him because he knew that his feelings for Seth were taking root and he was falling hard for the man. Even though he still found him to be damn annoying, there was just something about him that he couldn't help but to like.

Dean turned his head to look at the long blonde hair spread out on the pillow next to him. The only thing that could be heard was the shallow breathing as the person slept soundly. He was back at square one. He didn't tell Seth the complete truth. Seth wasn't the whore in his head. As he eased closer to the sleeping man and placed an arm around his waist. Drew was far more forgiving of him than he had any right to be. Dean closed his eyes in an attempt to will the sleep to come. Seth wasn't the whore in this situation. He had been the whore all along chasing after men who didn't want him and couldn't love him like he needed.

A/N: Happy New Year everyone!