Edward POV

I sat at my piano, stunned. I needed a little time away from Bella to get my thoughts in order. I lifted the lid of my piano but couldn't play anything. I thought of Bella's beautiful, tiny body in my hands and how I'd have never thought someone so small could make me feel like they were meant to be with me. I know I'd always compared her to silk stretched out over glass, but she was more than that. She was almost like a paper goddess, physically weak but powerful enough to persuade me to do anything. I thought about her tiny waist with my hands on her sides, almost touching. Esme, Carlisle and Emmett had gone out for a quick hunt in the nearby forests. The rest of the family was somewhere around the house thinking quietly to themselves. Alice, however, was trying to decide whether or not to ask me how it went.

I swear I wasn't trying to see anything she thought to me. I sighed and as I was about to yell to her that it was okay to come down, she was by my side in an instant. Jasper came downstairs as well. "How did you day with Bella go?" he asked. I turned my face away to hide the embarrassment. I'm over a century old I should not have to feel ashamed that I did what naturally comes to humans... and vampires. Jasper's stunned "voice" in his head alerted me that he definitely did not know what had happened but guessing from the mirror of my facial expressions, it wasn't hard to guess.

Alice hugged me, "You don't have to tell us if you don't want to." Good. Because I really don't want to talk about those kinds of things with my sister even our family was a facade she certainly played her part all too well to not be considered my sister. She turned on her heels and walked away swiftly. Jasper stood there slightly awkward and followed Alice upstairs with bedroom thoughts in mind.

The phone rang in my pocket. I glanced at the screen. Bella. I knew we had to talk about this like adults. I put it back into my pocket and ran outside, far from the others' range of hearing. I called her back.

"Hello?" she answered.

"Hi," I didn't know how to start, "I hope you're doing well this evening."

She hesitated before speaking, "I know, and I'm sorry." What did she have to be sorry for? "I understand why you ran away...I'm sorry."

I was astonished at her. "What do you have to be sorry for?"

"I guess, I just assumed that you'd enjoy...what we did like I did. I guess with you having to be restrained and all it wasn't as, um, pleasurable."

I didn't know how to respond to that.

"We don't have to do that again," she sounded hurt.

"No, no, no, no Bella. You've got it all wrong. I enjoyed myself immensely. It was more than satisfying."

"You did?" she seemed skeptical. She's right to be, I have not been known to be the most forthcoming in the past.

"I know that I haven't always been the best person to be in a relationship with. I promised you after Volterra I'd never lie to you again. Trust me when I say I enjoyed myself." I had a bit of an animalistic hum beginning in my chest. The venom in my veins swirled into my penis, making me feel tingles at the base of my shaft.

Bella picked up on the sexual edge to my voice. I heard her take a sharp breath. "Do you want me to tell you a secret?" she asked seductively.

"I love secrets," I said, trying to act coy.

"Hearing how much you enjoyed the sex really started to turn me on."

"Oh yeah?"

"Mmm-hmmm in fact," she said, "I've been touching myself for awhile."

I gasped. My cock was at full attention now. "How?"

Bella giggled. "I like to start outside of my panties on the lips," she took a break for a brief moan, "and then when I can feel my wetness soaking my panties, then I slowly slip my hand underneath the waistband. Sometimes, when my hands are cold, I'm imagining your fingers pressing their way inside me."

I couldn't take it anymore. "Can I come over?"

"Only if you promise to let me be on top this time."

"Deal."

I was gone in a flash.