Chapter 12

DPOV

After awhile of just laying down with Rose in my arms I remembered the meal that was sitting in the microwave and I got up to eat it. As I sat down on the kitchen bench I watched Rose stroll over to me and I noticed that she was becoming fidgety shifting her weight in between her feet and biting on her lower lip.

"Roza what's wrong?". I could tell that she was very uncomfortable which set me on edge.

"Dimitri I need to feed". She looked up at me with uncertainty, obviously dubious of my reaction but I understand It was only a matter of time before she required to feed again as it was only natural and as long as she sticks to animals I has no qualms about it. We all eat meat so what if it is well done or raw?

"Well let's go and see if we can find anything for you". I gave her a small smile hoping to ease her tension. I wanted her to know that she had my full support and hopefully it would keep her on the right path until I could sort this mess out. If I could sort out this mess otherwise this would be a very interesting relationship.

"Thank you" she replies gratefully.

We headed out and came across a dear and Rose launched at it with such speed it astounded me. I was hypnotised by the scene and was so grateful that Rose was showing real strength and will power to not feed off humans. I thought that maybe after she had accidentally scratched me with her fangs that Rose might have tried to convince me to let her feed off of me but it hadn't seemed to faze her one little bit. Although I could see that Rose was struggling to feed off of the animal she made to voice to complain and I was very impressed.

"Wow Roza I am so proud of you, but you have always amazed me".I was truly proud of my Roza.

"Yes I can't believe it myself, it really shows that you don't need to be a monster, you chose your life even if you are handed a shit deck of cards. You chose how you play them".

"Hmm" I contemplated this sentiment. "You're right Roza, I am impressed".

Rose blushed at my compliment and she beamed at me. It seemed as though she was still desperate for my approval and revelled at my praise.

We made our back to the house before dawn and got settled in for the day down in the basement.

"Roza, I better go and get some supplies for us". There wasn't much food in stock besides baked beans and I wasn't planning on living off of that for the duration of our stay at the house.

" Alright there is really nothing else to do around here anyway, maybe I'll play on the X- box?". It seemed like Rose was mildly excited by the chance to play the game which made her look so young that it made me forget about all the troubles we were being faced with. It made me chuckle.

"Okay I'll be back soon".

As I left to go get some supplies and food for himself I started to devise a plan in how to make things right with Rose. Yes I loved her dearly and wanted to stay by her side but I could not shake the feeling that she is up to something. Although she had proven time and time again that she was not interested in taking a human life I couldn't shake the feeling that Rose would eventually give in to her Strigoi nature and hunt for blood. At the moment she is satiated by animals but would that be enough and how long would it last. Doubts start to creep in my mind and I was at a loss of what to do. Nobody from the academy could know that we were alive and I wanted to keep it that way for the time being. Yet what I he contacted someone outside of the academy someone that I knew I could trust and would be on my side no matter what. I managed to buy a phone outright so that nobody could trace my calls and with that I hesitantly dialled a number that I had not used in a very long time. I hadn't been in contact with this person for years and I wasn't sure how I would be received or even know how to exactly explain myself and the current situation I was in. On the third ring I started to regret my decision but just as I was about to hang up I heard the call connect.

RPOV

Sitting around lounging about while playing on the X-box was driving me crazy. Sure I got a thrill of getting to play since I never really got a chance to do normal things like that especially when you are training your whole life to be a Guardian for the Moroi. God to think that was what my life was all about, it made me sick. How dare they raise us like pigs for slaughter just because they couldn't defend themselves as they held themselves as gods and us lower than vermin. I was seething with anger just thinking about my upbringing and I knew I needed to control my temper or else I would lash out.

I couldn't break down now especially after all the effort of trying to convince Dimitri that I was a good Strigoi. Yeah right. It was getting hard to play my part especially now that I had tasted Dimitris' blood and nothing compared even though it was only a few drops. If anything it had made it that much harder for me to feed off animals but the one amazing thing was that I got to chase after my last kill and the thrill was intoxicating. At the same time though I wondered what it would be like to chase after a human with the sweet blood flowing freely through their veins and there was so much fodder out there for the taking. I has to quickly shakes of the notion as I knew that I had to stay strong for now if I was going to convince Dimitri to turn. I would play this achingly disgusting game for now and once he was turned he will smell the appetising scent of the human banquet and together we would feast. It will be perfect, I just had to endure for a little while longer.