Sitting by her side Jack, kept his hand in hers. As the door opened he didn't move. It had been three days since she'd sacrificed her self for him. Three days since he heard her voice, and way too long since he saw her smiling at him. As he heard the door close gently, he squeezed her hand gently.
"Jack," the whispered voice came through his mind.
"You shouldn't be here," he muttered.
"I know, but I couldn't sleep,"
"Sam, please just…"
"I'm not going to let you push me away when you need someone Jack, I know Kya is your world, but everyone is starting to catch on that you're more to each other. You haven't left her side for three days, and Daniel and Teal'c are getting worried. It's killing me seeing you like this and knowing I can't tell them anything," she whispered crouching next to him, and resting her hands on his thigh.
"She shouldn't have done it,"
"She loves you,"
"Yeah right," he muttered.
"Jack she's your little girl! Know matter how much she hated you for not letting her stay two years ago, she still cares for you! She's just angry that she never got to meet you, meet Jonathon O'Neill! She's meet Jack, and she's meet Colonel O'Neill but never you, never her father, the man she's been missing."
"So why didn't she just let it be done with, and let these Ori kill…"
"Because we need you," a whispered and choked voice stated. Looking up they both saw Kya struggling to open her eyes, and look at them. "Earth, needs you! You need each other. Use the Tok'ra memory recall device on me. I'll hang on as long as I can, but you need to use it to find what you need, I'm sorry…" She whispered.
"What are we looking for?"
"Dad will know when he sees it." She whispered.
"How do you know that Ky?"
"Because it is one of the drawings I emailed you," she whispered before closing her eyes slowly. "You must do this, no matter what the effects are to me, please promise me, that you will do this,"
"Ky, I can't prom…"
"Daddy… Please," she whispered letting her head roll to the side.
"I promise," Jack whispered kissing her cheek, as a stray tear ran down his cheek.
As Jack sat in the briefing room, everyone could see he didn't want to be there! Even the blind could be able to see that Jack O'Neill wanted to be back in the infirmary by his daughter's side. However the only problem with that was that only Sam and the general knew. And the general didn't know that Sam knew! Talk about complicated! He could feel the headache just starting the more he thought about who knew what, who had to be told what, and just what was he supposed to tell Kya's father?
"Colonel?" Snapping back to the moment, Jack looked up to see the general's questioning gaze upon him.
"Sorry sir, I wasn't here for a minute," smiling slightly he nodded.
"That's alright colonel. I was just asking what is it that requires all of us to be here." Looking around Jack sighed as he saw his team.
"Well sir, it's a bit complicated."
"Tell me something that isn't!" He laughed. Smiling gently Jack nodded.
"Kya's my daughter," he blurted out suddenly. "I met her two years ago. General Hammond knew and Carter worked it out when we went to pick her up. She was the only person to be able to do what she did because of who she is. Right now I'm confused about why she did it, as she still sorter hates me." Sighing he risked a glance at Daniel who was staring at him, in utter shock. Turning away quickly he sighed yet again.
"I don't know how to contact her father, and I don't know what to tell him. She's a smart kid, and this shouldn't have happened. She was conscious for a little bit when Carter came to try to drag me away, just after Teal'c was there." Rubbing his hands down his face he took a deep breath. "She told us to… Well she told me to get in touch with the Tok'ra and use their memory device on her. She said I'd know what it was, that we'd be looking for once I saw it."
"How does she know about the Tok'ra?" Daniel frowned surprising him self that he was able to speak.
"Her mother has the AG as well. The reason she's so fluent in ancient is because the Asgard never fully erased the ancient stuff from my head. It was merely pushed into my sub-conscious. And therefore never to hinder me again, but it was passed down to Ky…"
"And why wasn't that told to us before?" Daniel questioned suddenly glaring at Jack, as he looked up.
"Because Daniel it was never any of our business!" Sam snapped glaring back at him.
"Moving right along," Hammond stated watching Jack who nodded.
"General, I think it's time we called in a favour if possible. We need to find what ever planet or place it is that Kya will be thinking about. She basically said it would hold the key to something. Personally I'm hoping that something will be her life, but I have a gut feeling that tells me, I'm wrong."
"And if you are colonel?"
"Then it'll be something to rid the galaxy of these Ori characters sir," Jack stated looking sheepishly at the general, who was more than shocked by the appearance of this usually, stone faced, joking, demanding, yet caring man. Nodding he stood, followed by Jack and Sam.
"I'll have Walter send the message immediately. Dismissed," he stated before leaving. Sighing Jack fell heavily back into his chair.
"You NEVER thought it prudent to tell us about the ancient knowledge?" Daniel gasped.
"Daniel!" Sam exploded.
"Hey I don't care Sam! You might be sleeping together, but I want to know why we weren't told!"
"I wasn't even told!" She yelled glaring at him. "It doesn't matter Daniel! There is a teenager lying in the infirmary fighting for her life! She IS the closest thing to the ancients, and if she dies then that link is going to be lost! We need her! Jack needs her!"
"Of course we all need her Sam gees what do you…"
"No Daniel! He needs his daughter, not some lab rat!"
"What are you trying to insinuate?" He yelled back standing abruptly glaring at her.
"Your so bloody smart you fucking work it out!" She yelled back.
"Oh way to use your vocabulary there Sam!"
"Listen Daniel!" She hissed holding his glare. "Most people in this facility and this program want to get their hands on Kya! They only want her for her use with ancient technology and her ability to read ancient! Her ability to draw place's we have and haven't been to! But Jack needs her as his daughter! He doesn't need anyone screwing around with her life anymore! He loves that kid and you are NEVER going to understand that!" She yelled glaring at him, while her eyes were firing daggers at him; her body was burning with fire.
Watching her as she was getting her self worked up Daniel couldn't and wouldn't back down. He knew it was wrong getting Sam this worked up but heck! Like she'd ever know what it was to love a kid! And with that thought Daniel lowered his gaze slightly, and through the steam and heat from his own anger through that at her.
"Like you know what he's going through!" He spat. Stilling she watched him as pain ran through her. He didn't know? How could he not? Janet said she'd tell him! Or maybe he did and was using it against her! Now that was low! She didn't even think Daniel could stoop that low.
"That was low," she whispered coldly. Before leaving quickly. Jumping up Jack glared at him.
"I never thought you'd stoop that low Daniel!" He whispered before heading for the door.
"What?" He gasped. "Low? What the hell are you talking about? It's a fact! Sam isn't a mother!" He yelled. Spinning around Jack took two large strides back to the table.
"She gave birth to a stillborn two months ago you piece of shit! You were told, so don't you DARE use that as an excuse! She lost OUR child, and you just threw that back in her face!" Jack condemned, before stalking out of the room.
"Oh my god!" Daniel whispered wide-eyed, as he sat down.
"Daniel Jackson, what you said to…"
"I promise you Teal'c I never knew! Janet was really upset two months ago but she never said why, she said everything was going to be ok! I swear I was never told anything!" He stated staring straight into Teal'c's eyes. His full of sorrow and pain. "Oh my god, Teal'c what have I done?" He whispered.
"I think you need to apologise to Major Carter, Daniel Jackson."
"Yeah," he whispered stumbling to his feet and leaving slowly and cautiously. His head slumped forward on his shoulders and his eyes down cast as he made his way silently to Sam's lab.
"Sammie," Jack whispered against her ear, as he held her tightly, while she sobbed quietly against his chest. "He didn't mean it, you know that,"
"Yes he did!"
"No angel, he didn't. He was just being Daniel," Jack tried to soothe her. Pulling back she sniffled and wiped at her tears.
"Janet promised me she'd tell him! He knew, and he threw it back at me! Just because I said that he'd never know what it was like!"
"Hey don't try to justify what you said!"
"Jack, what I said was just as bad!"
"No it wasn't! Sam listen to me please," sniffling she nodded as he let her sit on the stool near him. "What you said was probably right! Unless Janet wants another kid sometime down the line he's never going to know what it feels like, you…" Swallowing he closed his eyes. Opening them he looked at her as he sighed. "Angel you know what it feels like! You know what it felt like for me to lose Charlie, you've been there, and you've…"
"You've been there twice," she whispered looking away.
"And neither time was your fault! The first was mine, and this time it wasn't anybody's!"
"Yes it was! It was mine!"
"Sammie please don't do this! We can move on! What happened was NOT your fault! You never allowed Jolinar to blend with you! You never told her to die in you, nothing was your fault. We knew the risks," he whispered. Sniffling she nodded hugging him tightly, as he pulled her into his arms.
"Sorry to interrupt," a soft voice came from the door. "But Sam I'm sorry I swear on my life I was never told. I remember Jan was a bit upset one day a few months ago but she never told me why. I guess it was the same day that you…" Swallowing hard he took a shaky breath. "I'm so sorry," he whispered before he quickly left the room, leaving Jack and Sam alone once again.
Staring into space, he sat at his desk. Daniel didn't know what to do let alone what he was supposed to be doing. He sat there staring at a small spot on the far wall that had gotten his attention after teasing him. Sighing he closed his eyes finally, and hung his head.
"What's going on?" A small voice said from the doorway. Looking up Daniel saw her, and his jaw tightened.
"Why didn't you tell me about Sam?" He asked curtly, watching her as she stopped dead in her tracks.
"What?" She whispered in surprise.
"Sam had a stillborn two months ago! Why didn't you tell me?" He yelled.
"Daniel, I…"
"No Janet! I just said something to her, and the reaction I got from both of them… I highly doubt the three of us will ever be friends again!" He yelled glaring at her. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I… I guess it slipped my mind," she whispered lowering her gaze to the floor.
"How the hell can something like that slip your mind?"
"You yelling at me isn't going to help with anything," she said gently looking at him.
"Well it's helping me!" He snapped. "Jack told me, that you told me! He basically said that you told me when it happened and I just threw everything back at Sam, and that's that!"
"Daniel, I'm sorry! It was hard! When it happened I worked on the baby for half an hour but there was nothing that could be done! I let Jack and Sam hold him before I had to take him away! It hurt Daniel! I have never felt that much pain before! I probably didn't tell you because I was still coming to terms with it! If you wanted to know so much why didn't you press it days later?" She yelled back glaring at him.
"Because you were fine, and you brushed it off as just another day here!" He yelled.
"Daniel," Sam's whispered voice came from behind Janet. Turning to her Janet felt the tears threatening to escape, as Sam walked in with Jack. As they got closer Jack wrapped his spare arm around Janet.
"That wasn't very nice Daniel," Jack said evenly.
"What you're here to rub everything in?"
"No, I want to apologise for what I said the briefing room," Sam said gently. "I shouldn't have said it, and I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left it to Janet to tell you, it was our news and we should have told you. Teal'c knew because he was there, but…" Swallowing she closed her eyes as Jack squeezed her gently.
"What we're trying to say Daniel, is that what is done, is done. You both have very different views on things sometimes, and the fact that this happened the other month and now Kya's here it's just a bit much for Sam sometimes. She doesn't want anything to happen to Ky, and…"
"I'm so sorry," Daniel whispered suddenly, looking at Sam and ignoring Jack completely, and everything he was saying. Sniffling Sam nodded.
"It's not me who you should be apologising to," she said gently, watching him, before her eyes skimmed to Janet and back to Daniel. Bowing his head he stood shakily, and moved to Janet as Jack let her go.
"Jan, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have acted that way. I was just so angry, and you were the closest target…" He whispered. Looking up she nodded.
"I should have said something and I'm sorry I didn't," she whispered. Smiling gently he nodded, before pulling her to him in a tight embrace.
"Love you," he whispered against her ear. Sniffling she nodded.
"Unscheduled off world activation, unscheduled off world activation…" Came the chief's voice over the speakers of the PA system.
"Ah crap!" Jack huffed. "And just as Danny boy and the doc were about to make up completely!" Hitting him across the chest Sam smiled at him. "What was that for?" He laughed.
"Just because!" She smiled at him, before looking at Janet who'd moved back slightly, and was staring at Sam with a small smile.
As the four walked into the control room they saw Teal'c and general Hammond already standing there, with the iris open.
"General?"
"It's the Tok'ra, colonel,"
"Oh goodie," he muttered sarcastically.
"Do you want their help or not Jack?"
"Personally no, but it's up to Kya, not me," he sighed, watching and waiting as nothing came through before the wormhole disengaged.
"General?" Sam frowned.
"Find out what happened Major!"
"Yes sir!" She stated moving to a console as Siler got up.
"I want to know what happened Asap Major!
"Yes sir!" She stated going through the logs with Walter as the rest of the personnel left the control room.
"You ok Major?" Frowning she looked at him.
"Yeah Walter, I'm fine," she smiled gently. Nodding he kept his gaze on the screen in front of him.
"We heard your argument with doctor Jackson,"
"Oh," she muttered, before sighing.
"I just wanted to make sure, that you were ok, you know, friend to friend," he smiled gently as he turned to her. Watching him Sam nodded.
"Yeah thanks Walter, but I'm ok. Everything's worked out,"
