Once Sam had calmed down, and was finally speaking to Jacob again two days later, Jack and Garshaw headed for the Stargate and the DHD to dial Earth. Standing at the DHD Jack took a deep breath, and entered the glyphs, before pressing the red crystal. As the wormhole activated, he took his radio before sending the IDC.

"Stargate Command this is Colonel Jack O'Neill, do you copy?"

"We copy colonel…"

"Can you open the iris, we are coming home," he stated looking at Sam as she moved to stand by his side.

"Colonel, this is Hammond. You were supposed to be back two days ago."

"Yes sir, there was a problem, with…" Stopping he looked between Jacob and Sam, before continuing. "There was a team problem general."

"Colonel, we dialed the Tok'ra home world, we sent a team when you didn't answer your radios, you were nowhere to be seen. Now where have you been?"

"We're on a different planet sir. We had to vacate the Tok'ra world, once Carter fixed the DHD, as we couldn't get back to the tunnels before some Goa'uld noticed us. We stopped the attack because they noticed we'd gone through the Stargate general," Jack stated shrugging at the three strange looks he was getting. Making sure the radio was off for a few seconds he frowned back at them, but then gave a small smile and shrug.

"You want us ALL to get in the shit?" He whispered before turning his radio back on.

"I see. Where are Major Carter, Doctor Jackson, Teal'c, Jacob, Garshaw, Per'sus and Delek colonel?"

"Ah, Carter, Jake, and Garshaw are here,"

"And Doctor Jackson, Teal'c, Per'sus, and Delek?"

"Well you see general, we kind of gated to a planet that doesn't like outsiders," he said shrugging at the group who rolled their eyes.

"What are you saying colonel?"

"Daniel, Teal'c, Delek, and Per'sus are all dead general. We tried to get them to safety after they were deathly wounded but it only served to hinder us. We had to leave them general. The four died before they hit the ground, and the remainder of us, made a soul decision to get out before we were also killed." Jack said closing his eyes and swallowing the rapidly rising lump.

"I see," Hammond's strained voice came through, before a sigh. "The iris is open colonel. Bring your team home," Hammond stated, before the radio went dead. Taking a deep breath, Jack looked at the other three.

"Let's go back to Earth," he whispered grabbing Sam's hand and squeezing it before they all stepped through the Stargate, and found themselves standing on the metal ramp staring at Hammond who was waiting at the bottom of it, staring at the four lost and despondent faces.

"Report to the infirmary colonel, major, Jacob and Garshaw you are still requested despite your symbiote's healing and defense mechanisms." Nodding the four slowly and dejectedly, moved down the ramp as one, and headed for the infirmary. Watching them go Hammond couldn't help but feel their pain.

"Colonel, major, general Carter, Garshaw,"

"Hey doc," Jack muttered pushing him self on one of the empty beds.

"Janet," Sam muttered moving to sit next to him.

"Is there something I'm missing?" She frowned looking around, and her frown deepened. "Where are Daniel and Teal'c?"

"Not with us," Sam muttered.

"Pardon?" She frowned not having heard her. Looking up Jack too a deep breath.

"Danny and T… They… They got… Went down pretty hard…"

"Colonel you're not making any sense…"

"Daniel and Teal'c both took a hit, they…" Closing her eyes Sam opened them, as tears ran down her cheeks, and stared right through Janet as though she wasn't there.

"Oh my god," she whispered watching Sam.

"I'm so sorry," Sam sobbed suddenly, burying her head in her hands as Jack, Garshaw and Jacob watched Janet's reaction.

"What? How? But you…"

"Janet, we didn't know, by the time we did it was too late. They were both dead before they hit the ground. We tired to get them out but Delek, and Per'sus died covering us," Jack whispered.

"You left them behind?" She whispered shocked.

"We had no choice. It was that or be killed as well," Jacob said gently, not realising why she was making a big deal out of it.

"You ALWAYS have a choice!" She snapped.

"No Jan we didn't!" Sam sniffled looking at her best friend. "Daniel would have done the same if the situation was reversed,"

"You don't know that!" She hissed.

"Yes I do! Daniel was a brother to me! There was no way out for anyone if we continued with them. Daniel got hit twice Jan! Teal'c got hit in his pouch!" With her bottom lip quivering, Janet's eyes filled with tears as she held Sam's gaze.

"But, you went to fix the Tok'ra DHD!" She whispered as her voice cracked. Shaking her head Sam looked away.

"No, we made a decision between the eight of us, to use that as an excuse if we weren't allowed to go. We all knew it was a suicide mission. He wanted to go he wanted to do this. He said it was for you, and…"

"Sam, I… I can't raise a child on my own," she whispered as tears suddenly spilled down her cheeks. Snapping her eyes to Janet's, Sam's heart sank.

"Oh my god Janet!" She exclaimed jumping off the bed and pulling her best friend into a tight hug. "You won't! You'll have Jack and I," she whispered.

"I never got the chance to tell him," she sobbed. Holding her tighter Sam swallowed.

"It's alright…"

"I went to his office to tell him, before he went off about your…"

"Hey shh, everything will be alright Janet; we'll help you with anything! Cassie will be around too, just remember that!" Sniffling she nodded, and pulled back as she struggled to compose her self. Smiling Sam nodded. "How about you go and get cleaned up, and we'll go see how Kya's doing?" She whispered. Nodding Janet bowed her head and quickly left the curtained off beds.

"Why do I suddenly feel even more like shit?" Jack asked as they walked to Kya's room.

"Because we never thought about her, because we probably could have at least brought Daniel back," Sam said gently, before pushing the door open.

"Hey hang on," Jacob frowned. Turning to him they sighed.

"Daniel and Janet were engaged. They were going to get married in like three months," Jack said gently. Swallowing Jacob nodded.

"I understand that you feel the way you do Jack, I think I just realised I feel worse than shit," he muttered, before they walked into the room.

Lying there she could hear them talking outside the room, and when the door opened slightly, she could hear someone talking about feeling worse than shit. That wasn't a good sign! She knew Daniel and Teal'c weren't going to make it through but she couldn't say anything because Jack would have made sure they didn't go, and they needed them to get there, and to help.

If they didn't go then everything would have changed and they more than likely would never have come back. They all would have died there, and that wasn't something she could let happen. Fair enough she didn't know the guy but she didn't want to get him killed. She was the best at what she did and reading people was one of her skills. She'd seen it from the moment she snapped at Daniel.

He'd do anything for his team. The fact that the Tok'ra went with them helped with the fact that they came back. That he couldn't have used it as a suicide mission to take away his own pain. He couldn't and wouldn't leave Sam, not now. Not when she had something fantastic to tell him! Janet just spilled her beans, and now it was Sam's turn. The sad thing was that she didn't know and they would take so many precautions this time that it would kill her.

She'd be at home for most of the time, and he wouldn't let her do a lot of things, but he also knew that she wasn't one to sit still. Maybe taking her off the team for a while and letting her stay on Earth and in her lab… On second thoughts maybe away from her lab and all those `doohickies' that she didn't know what they did. So many times had they done something to someone who was nearly their cause of death! Coming out of her thoughts, Kya felt someone take hold of her hand. Smiling inwardly she knew who it was the second they were standing next to her.

"Dad," she whispered, which caught everyone by surprise. Opening her eyes Kya smiled gently at him.

"Hey," he whispered. Turning her gaze to the person next to him, and then to the other two by her left, Kya smiled. Reaching out with her left hand she took Sam's.

"I want to tell you something," she whispered. Nodding Sam glanced at Jack who shrugged before she looked back at Kya.

"What's on your mind Kya?"

"Promise me you'll look after him," she smiled. Grinning Sam nodded.

"You have my word on that," she smirked looking up to see Jack in a mock glare.

"I want you to tell dad something," she continued. Frowning Sam watched her.

"Shouldn't Jack be the one to talk to him?"

"No, I want… I need you to tell him."

"Ok,"

"Tell him that I was transferred because I was sick. That they didn't know what was wrong with me and you have the best doctors, and they could treat me. Tell him I died after the treatment failed. That you tried. That I would have died sooner if I stayed at home. Tell him, that I found my real dad and he was here with me. Tell him I wasn't in any pain, that I'll miss him, and I love him," she whispered closing her eyes slowly.

"I promise," Sam whispered squeezing her hand gently. Nodding Kya took a struggling breath.

"I love you," she whispered staring at Jack, who struggled to keep his tears in check.

"I love you too," he whispered moving to kiss her forehead.

"Take care of Sam, and your kids," she whispered before she finally drifted off. Closing his eyes Jack let the tears run freely, as he kept his forehead resting against her suddenly ice-cold one. Her sprit had left her and she was simply just a shell. He knew what it was like, but hell it hurt! It hurt just as much as it did loosing Charlie. And then Justin. That near killed him!

He never thought that anything could have been more painful than losing Charlie, but when Justin was born and wasn't breathing, Jack felt his heart shatter into a hundred million pieces. He watched as Janet worked her magic, but to no avail, there was nothing she could have done. Handing the still and ice-cold baby wrapped in blankets to Sam, Jack simply held her and cried with her. He felt smaller and more suicidal in that moment then he had when Charlie had left him.

Now it was Kya. He never knew her really, but in the short time he had spent with her he found her to be so smart, so outgoing, and so friendly. She was defiantly her mother's daughter that was for sure! If he ever knew about her after her mother had died he would have gone for custody, but as she was already with a father and in the air force – despite it being in a totally different country – he was proud of her and wasn't going to disrupt her, no matter how much she begged him to take her in.

Taking a shaky breath Jack pulled back. There was no way he was ever going to get used to the fact that the human body could get so damn cold, so damn quick. Staring at her peaceful face he turned around and left the room. Staring after him Jacob turned to see Sam not moving. Her hand was still clasped in Kya's and she looked like she was as fragile and vulnerable as a two-year old.

"Sam…" He whispered trying to get her attention. Looking up at him, with tears on her cheeks she swallowed. "I think you should go after Jack," he said gently. Looking to where Jack had previously been she nodded, absentmindedly. Not having noticed that he'd left, she slowly pulled her hand free with a shiver, before she left to find Jack. She knew there was only one place he'd be in a time like this.

Taking the elevator to the storage level, she made her way slowly and quietly through the corridors. She didn't want him to know she was there and try to leave before she was able to see he was alright. Moving to the door, she remembered, when he took her down here after Justin, was born. She used the key he had given her and swallowed, as she unlocked and opened it slowly. Moving in she closed it gently behind her. Taking two hesitant steps, she saw him in the corner staring into space.

"Are you just going to stand there?" He asked curtly. Closing her eyes Sam bowed her head.

"I just wanted to see if you were alright." She whispered. Spinning around he glared at her.

"Alright? Yeah Carter I'm fucken' peachy!" He hissed.

"You don't have to take this out on me!"

"You ask a fucking stupid question, what do you want as a fucking answer?" He growled standing and facing her.

"It wasn't a question it was a statement Jack!"

"Oh well sorry Miss Fucken' perfect!" He spat.

"I know your upset but don't take it out on me! I never killed her!" She yelled, as more tears ran down her cheeks.

"And what, you're saying I did? Gees thanks!"

"I never said that! Her mother died of something, possibly…"

"You have NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT!" He yelled at her. Jumping slightly as his temper flared, she swallowed.

"You have no right to take this out on me Jack," she whispered coldly, before turning on her heel.

"Oh what, just because it suddenly gets tough you're gonna do a runner huh?"

"I'm giving you space!" She yelled spinning back to glare at him. "What do you want from me? I came to see if you're alright and you fucking start yelling at me! I turn to leave and you STILL are yelling at me! I don't understand Jack! Tell me what you want!" She exclaimed watching him.

"What I want is my daughter back!" He snarled. Swallowing she was glad the light in the room wasn't that good.

"Then why don't you go talk to the Asgard and see what they can do," she hissed. "Because I can tell you that what ever the almighty O'Neill wants, the fucking almighty O'Neill gets! Did you even consider them when Jussie died? Huh?" She yelled. "Did you ever think that you're never alone in your grief? Did you ever fucking THINK?" She yelled glaring at him.

"Your not one to talk! You pushed me away for weeks!"

"You brought that upon your self!"

"Oh what, because I was so caring and wanted to help!"

"Because you never left me alone! I was grieving too Jack! What am I supposed to do, drop at your fucking feet every time something gets too bloody hard?" She yelled glaring at him, as she started to shake slightly.

"I was there Sam! I knew what you were going through I'd lost my son as well!" Watching each other Sam simply bowed her head.

"He was my life for 8 months Jack, you can't expect me to be able to drop everything and run to you when I was upset!"

"You could have talked to me Sam! For fuck's sake!"

"I TRIED!" She yelled as more tears ran down her cheeks. "I tried Jack! Every time something came up, and you suddenly didn't want to know! I tried 8 weeks ago, and all you wanted was sex! Well you got what you wanted, but have you ever stopped to think that I haven't dealt with the fact that something that was growing inside me is gone? A large piece of me is now missing?"

"Since when did this become about you?" He snapped suddenly, not having anything else to use as a come back, and knowing she was right. "My daughter just died!"

"And I died almost three months ago! You haven't given me the time of day since Justin! Are you blaming me for his death? Because I'd really like to know what the fuck I've done for you to still be like this! You're not the same Jack! You never used to yell at me!" Stopping as she watched him. She wiped the tears from her face and took a deep breath. "I'll make it easier for you, Justin died because of me! It was my fault! I did everything wrong!" She spat glaring at him.

"Don't say that!"

"Why not? It's what you WANT to hear isn't it! Blame someone else! It wasn't your fault Jack! You couldn't have done anything! These things happen!" She yelled. "Get over your self! Charlie played with your gun, but you did NOT pull that trigger! It WASN'T your fault! Justin died and it WASN'T your fault! Kya died and it WASN'T your fucking fault!" She yelled.

"How can you say that…?"

"Because its true damn it! Stop fucking blaming yourself!" She spat, before turning towards the door. Reaching for it quickly, she suddenly gasped, and gripped her abdomen. Yelping and crying out in pain, Sam fell to her knees.

"Sam!" He gasped moving to her side quickly. "Sam?" He whispered.

"Leave me alone," she whispered coldly.

"You're not in a position to demand things! Where does it hurt?" He whispered running his hand up and down her back. Looking up at him, he saw the pain in her eyes. Swallowing he nodded.

"DOC!" He yelled jogging in, carrying Sam to the closest empty bed. Running over she saw her curled on her side trying to stay in Jack's grip.

"Sam?" She whispered. The only reply from the women was a simple sob of pain. "Alright I'm going to draw some blood and we'll go from there," she said gently. As time passed, Sam had calmed down considerably, and was sleeping soundly with Jack sitting on the edge of the bed, running his hand up and down her back, while the other was griped between both of her hands.

"Gees Sam," he whispered. "I don't need anything happening to you as well!" He muttered.

"Jack," Janet whispered moving over to him. Turning he looked at her.

"You ok?" Sniffling she nodded.

"Sam's pregnant,"

"What?!" He gasped. "Is everything alright?" Smiling gently she nodded.

"So far yes, but I want her to stay in here for a few days. I want to watch her, a lot closer this time. When she wakes up I'll tell her the same thing. But I'm going to do an ultrasound every fortnight." Nodding he looked back at Sam and smiled.

"It'll be ok this time," he whispered. Whimpering as she shifted, Jack gripped her hand.

"Jack?"

"Hey, shh… It's alright. Janet just got your results back," opening her eyes she saw him in the same spot, before she noticed Janet standing next to him. Closing her eyes she sighed, and reached up to rub them, and re open them.

"What's wrong?" She whispered barely able to keep her eyes open, suddenly feeling more tired then ever.

"Your pregnant honey," Janet whispered. Nodding Sam sighed. And closed her eyes.

"That's it?" Jack laughed gently.

"I had a feeling," she muttered.

"And you weren't going to tell me?" He gasped.

"Eventually," she muttered. "I just wanted to see if Kya pulled through or not,"

"Why?" He frowned, causing her to open her eyes again.

"Because I didn't want to tell you if she was going to die, but if…"

"Hey, shh," he whispered. "It doesn't matter now. We're going to look after you, and Janet's going to be keeping a closer eye on you this time," he smiled gently.

"I already have names," she whispered through a yawn.

"Really? That was quick," he smirked. Shrugging she closed her eyes.

"What are the names Sam?" Janet asked gently, smiling at her drowsy friend. "Promise we'll let you get some rest after this." Nodding Sam opened her eyes smiling at Janet before looking at Jack.

"If it's a girl I want to call her Danielle Kylana, after Daniel and Kya." Bitting his bottom lip Jack felt the rush of tears.

"That's beautiful Sam," he whispered. With Janet nodding next to him.

"And if it's a boy?" Janet whispered.

"Sean Teal'c," she smirked.

"After the big man," Jack smiled. Nodding his approval.

"Try and get some sleep Sam, I'll come back a bit later,"

"Ok," she whispered before Janet left them once again alone.

"Angel I'm so sorry," he whispered.

"It's alright Jack, I wasn't much better," she muttered.

"You get some sleep. I have to go tell Hammond what's just happened down here, but I'll be back before you know it," he smiled pecking her lips.

Mm," she muttered already drifting into another peaceful slumber. Life really couldn't get any worse. But then again if they didn't take care of Sam and the baby he knew it would. So he thought that life couldn't get any better. He lost his two best friends and his daughter all in a week. He almost lost Sam and their unborn child due to his pigheadedness. Next was to get Sam well enough to travel to Australia and tell Kya's fellow officers and her father that she had passed away. But right now, he knew Sam needed him more than anyone…

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