Do You Remember?
"Yuu-chan?"
Kanda Yuu turned slowly, face blank and disinterested as he turned to face the person he had not seen since the war ended. Lavi's face was questioning but it immediately lit up upon seeing that it was, in fact, Yuu-chan.
There was incessant babble which Kanda payed little attention to. His expression didn't change, he simply listened. There were a lot of do you remembers and finally Lavi got around to how you doing and it's good to see you again.
Lavi was both surprised and not surprised to see Kanda here in Japan. The boy had rarely shown urges to return to his home country, but every now and then, there'd been a wistful look. The expression on Kanda's face when they'd all been fighting in Edo that time, and it'd been destroyed... Lavi's heart had fluttered madly, wanting to remove the sad expression on that beautiful face.
But right there and then, in that busy street, there was no reaction from Yuu as Lavi jumped from one subject to another. He brought up Lenalee and Moyashi a couple of times, and Bookman. Bookman was now dead, and Lavi was in charge. He'd stuck with the name Lavi and had already changed a lot of the original rules. When there was still no reaction, not even to his questions, Lavi began to think maybe Yuu had forgotten the English language. He'd never really had a full grasp on it, and it was probably too easy for Yuu to slip right back into Japanese.
Lavi himself tried speaking in Japanese then, when that thought came to him, but it was poor as he hadn't spoken it in years. Kanda sighed, and closed his eyes – finally, thought Lavi, a reaction – and quietly said, in English, "hush, you stupid rabbit, you are making a fool of yourself. I have been well and I do not yet know whether or not it is good to see you again. I shall have to wait to see."
Lavi was taken aback by the formality. Yuu had never been that good at English, either. Maybe he'd travelled back to England or something a couple of times. They continued talking, well, Lavi did, but they never came even close to the subject of what they once were – lovers, best friends... closer than anything. They'd broke it off when they went their separate ways at the end of the war.
"Look," Lavi finally said. "Moyashi and Lenalee are here as well, and we've all been hoping we might see you here. We've been looking for you for three years, Kanda. Come to this address tonight, alright? It'll be good to have the gang together." After handing the Japanese man the address, Lavi bid him good bye and went off on his way.
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Kanda sighed and looked back down at the piece of paper in his hand. Looking back to the front door of the small house, he sighed again. Why had he come here? He couldn't believe he had. He'd purposefully made himself disappear so as to keep away any memories of the Black Order and such. He'd agreed to break it off with Lavi, but his heart had been against the idea. Seeing Lavi now, it brought up more painful memories and his heart began to ache.
But Lenalee would be disappointed if he failed to show, and he'd always hated disappointing her. That, and he wanted to see if the Moyashi had actually fucking grown yet.
He hadn't... well he hadn't caught up to Kanda yet, and that was the first thing Kanda pointed out when Allen opened the door.
Lenalee ushered him inside, speaking so fast he struggled to catch what she was saying. They were renting the house for a couple of months apparently, had been travelling with Lavi, her and Allen were engaged, he should come to the wedding... they'd stayed here two months longer than planned to just try find him.
As Lenalee and Allen disappeared into the kitchen, Lavi came and sat beside him. "We shouldn't let this happen again," he whispered in Kanda's ear, and Kanda fought down a moan and a shiver. Gods, how he'd missed the slightly younger man.
Lavi grabbed Kanda's hair, still so long, painfully and pulled his face around to look him directly in the eye. Kanda hissed, breathing hard, head pulled back to reveal his pale throat. Lavi stared at the creature before him... so long since you've been missing.
"Do you remember, any of this?" breathed Lavi, before kissing Yuu passionately.
Kanda's eyes rolled back into his head and his muscles went slack as he moaned deliciously. Lavi caught him as he slumped against him, refusing to pull back from the kiss. Eventually, Yuu kissed back and soon they were interrupted by a polite clearing of the throat.
Kanda was panting and he stood on shaky legs, stumbling from the room. He was going to be sick. Memories were burning the back of his eyes, giving him a pounding headache. He crashed into a stand or something, and some sort of delicate object smashed to the ground.
"Yuu? Fuck, Yuu, you right?" asked Lavi, steadying the older man. He was roughly shoved away and Yuu fell back with the amount of strength he put into it. "Shh, stay still. What's wrong? Have you been ill? Are you injured?"
And Kanda began to laugh. He laughed so hard that he began to cry and he heard Allen quietly tell Lenalee that maybe they should call a doctor. Bring it back, why don't you, he thought, looking at Lavi. All the memories I've destroyed, you've brought them all right back.
"Yes," he finally managed to get out, and Lavi's head jerked up from where he'd been gathering the broken pieces of pottery. "I fucking remember, and damn, it's oh so good to see you again."
Do you remember, do you remember, do you remember
All of the times we had?
Let's bring it back, bring it back!
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So long since you've been missing,
It's good to see you again,
How you, how you doing?
And how about we don't let this happen again?