Chapter 14

5 weeks later…

"So how do you feel Renessmee?" Logan asked as he dawned his notepad and pen. I stared out the window. Not really aware of much.

"Fine." I answered.

"Just fine? You're starting senior year in a few weeks. How does that feel? You haven't been in school for about 2 months."

I paused at the question, I knew there were rumors and I knew that the typical group of girls that always bullied me would be conspiring some horrible lie.

"I applied to early admission at Washington State University, I've been accepted. If I get in, I'll be finishing my senior year in college."

"That's a great opportunity" he paused.

"But?"

"But, I want to make sure this is something you really want. I want to make sure you aren't avoiding facing these girls at your high school."

"What if I am? You told me to try surrounding myself with positive people."

"Yes, I did but you shouldn't avoid confrontation. If you can confront these girls peacefully, than you'll be able to confront other issues you may face."

"I'm not avoiding anything, Logan! I don't need to go back to high school to learn how to 'confront other issues'. I'm fine, I worked hard and I deserve this opportunity."

"You did work hard."

"And you know what? Who needs to go to a senior prom, or the senior trip to California? Who cares about those things?" I said bitterly, staring out the window.

"I think you care about those things."

"Well I don't!" I shouted.

He sighed, "Okay Nessie, why don't we stop a little early today? I believe you have to pack."

I turned, wondering if I was hallucinating.

"Did you just say….?" My voice filled with hope.

"I did." He smiled.

I screamed, "Thank you, Logan! Thank you, thank you, thank you!" I hugged him and ran out the door! When I got to my room I was more surprised to see my mother and father there. My dad opened his arms and I ran into them, enjoying the feeling and knowing I wouldn't need to say good-bye this time.

The drive home was quiet for the most part. I didn't say much, maybe because of my nerves about seeing everyone again. It wasn't long though before we were surrounded by trees and the obvious path that lead to the main house.

"Are you okay, Ness?" my dad asked me, sensing my apprehension.

"Yeah" I lied, trying to fake the best smile that I could.

"Everyone is very excited to see you, don't feel like we are expecting anything from you. We are just glad that you getting better and making progress." He confirmed for me.

I nodded and didn't say much after that.

When we pulled into the garage my parents looked at each other, "Why don't you go in Ness, we'll be in soon." I nodded and opened the car door, as I walked towards the front entrance, I began to feel nervous. What if they expected something different? A new Nessie? What if I'm not what they think I am?

I took one deep breath and turned the door handle, I walked into a silent house, which was odd. There was no running steps down the stair case or Emmett and Jasper arguing. I turned toward the left and walked into the living room, stopping dead in my track. I couldn't control myself, I ran into the stone, heat of my mate. He smelled just the way I remembered him.

"Jacob" I said, not realizing how much I missed him until I was crying. "I missed you so much, Jake! I'm so glad to see you!" he pulled away from me and crushed his lips to mine. I was fierce, I remember his lips against mine and I craved it for so long after not seeing him for almost two months.

"I missed you" he spoke in between kisses.

"Me too!" I said hugging him again. We stood there for an immeasurable about of time before he took my hand and pulled me towards the kitchen. In the kitchen I was surprised to find the rest of the family with a colorful banner that read 'Welcome Home Renessmee' and I saw my favorite red velvet cupcakes on the counter!

I felt Emmett's hug first, he brought me into a bear hug and it might have been too tight but I didn't care. I held on to him and cried some more. "Emmett! I'm so sorry!" I felt so bad, I caused my family to go through so much pain. "It's fine Nessie, we are just glad you are home." Next was Jasper, followed by Alice and Rosalie, finally Esme and Carlisle both came up to me and hugged me, "We're so glad to have you home, my beautiful girl!" Carlisle said, kissing the top of my head over and over again. "We love you, Nessie! We love you so, so, so, so, much!" Esme whispered. For what felt like forever, I finally felt loved. I didn't feel cold. I cried into my grandfather's shirt, overwhelmed by it all.

"What's the matter, sweetheart?" he asked, pulling me away so he could look at me.

"I just feel so loved, no one has hugged me in so long and I missed the feeling. Please don't ever send me there again, please!" I begged with my eyes, I could see the ounce of guilt my grandfather had for bringing me there.

"I did it for your benefit but now you are getting better and that is the important part. I want you to keep making progress, okay?"

I nodded, playing with my fingers. He smiled and pulled me into a hug again. I loved being home again.

2 weeks later…

"Nessie?" my father called me from the kitchen.

"Coming" I said as I made my way down the stairs.

"You have mail from Washington State University." He seemed confused, "Do you have any idea what they want? You're still a junior, applications for the fall don't start till September."

"Ummm…" I hesitated, biting my lip with nerves.

"What is it, Ness?"

"I applied to their dual enrollment pre-med program. I would finish the remaining two high school credits and start my college career at the same time."

"That's great, Ness! But, didn't you want to enjoy your senior year? I thought you were excited for the senior trip and prom?"

I swallowed back my nerves, "No, what's the big deal? I can go to California any time and who cares about prom? It's just a dumb dance."

"Renessmee, it's not dumb if you like it. What's going on, Ness?"

"Nothing. I just thought this was an opportunity I couldn't pass up."

"I see." My father said, "Well, let's see then. What does it say?"

I felt the anxiety build, I didn't want to open it because every flaw was immediately highlighted. The last semester I practically failed all my classes and I didn't even finish the year. What would make me think I was good enough to get in.

"What are you two discussing in here?" my grandfather asked, strolling in from his shift.

I handed him the envelope and he saw the return address, "The early pre-med program at Washington State? You applied? That's great! Open it!"

I shook my head, no, "You open it grandpa! I can't!"

"Are you sure?"

I nodded.

"Okay" he ran his finger along the flap of the envolpe, breaking the seal on it with ease. He pulled out the paper and unfolded it. "Dear Renessmee Cullen, On behalf of Washington State University, we would like to congratulate you on your early admission to the pre-medical program."

"I got in?" I said in disbelief.

"You did baby girl! I'm so proud of you!" my dad said, hugging me.

"Me too, Nessie! This is a wonderful opportunity! I'm a proud grandfather!"

I smiled, relieved that I was good enough for something- even if I did get in by mere inches. But once the relief wore off, I was nervous. College was a whole new ball game, was I ready for that? Maybe I did want to go on the senior trip and prom? Maybe…just maybe….I secretly hoped I wouldn't get accepted because then I would have an excuse to go back to high school.

Author's Note: Well, here it is! The highly anticipated chapter 14! I'm sorry for the delayed update. My senior year has been hectic and with AP exams, my college interviews and all my senior activities, I probably won't have time to update this story again till late May or early June. Enjoy and please leave me reviews! :)