Addison had been in a bad mood all day. Today was just another day to add to the ever growing list of endless days in which she had been in a bad mood. The angry banging on her front door was something she certainly was not in the mood for dealing with right now.
"Addison, open up!" Teddy shouted all the while her fist frantically pounded the door. "I know you're in there, I can hear you ignoring me!"
Oh great, Teddy. Just what I need! Addison thought as she rolled her eyes.
"Open up! I'm not leaving until you do!" Teddy growled. With a frustrated and heavy sigh, Addison reluctantly pushed herself off the couch, slamming her wine glass down on the table as she did.
"What is it, Teddy? I've got an early surgery tomorrow and its already nearly 11" Addison huffed as she opened the door to the blonde.
"Have I done something?" Teddy asked, getting straight to the point.
"Excuse me?" Addison knitted her brows in confusion.
"Have I done something, or said something to upset you?"
"...no, why?"
"Because you're, avoiding me Addison. You're my best friend and the only time I've seen you these past few weeks is in the OR, and you didn't even look at me-"
"-I've just been busy, dealing with something"
"Dealing with what?" Teddy asked.
"It doesn't matter"
"It clearly does, Addison. You're my best friend. We used to talk and see each other everyday and now, its like you're a stranger to me!"
It was true, Addison had been avoiding Teddy for the past few weeks. The feelings the redhead was having for her blonde haired best friend, were confusing to say the least. All she thought about was Teddy. What was Teddy doing? How was she? I wonder what colour panties Teddy is wearing today? I wonder what shampoo Teddy uses to make her hair so soft and smell like cherries? Teddy. Teddy. Teddy. Teddy. She was well aware she liked her, maybe even loved her, but there was no way Teddy felt the same, and so, Addison had been avoiding Teddy in hopes that these feelings would die down.
Fuck, that 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' shit is true!
The feelings weren't lost on Teddy, she reciprocated them. All she could think about was Addison all day long. Her eyes. Her hair. Her smile. The freckle on her nose. She of course was better at hiding at dealing with these feelings, only after nearly getting stabbed in the hand with a scalpel by Cristina Yang several months ago when she started thinking about Addison during surgery.
Did Addison know Teddy loved her? Is that why she was avoiding her?
"So?! What is it then?" Teddy pushed.
"Like I said-"
"-Stop pushing me away Addison!" Teddy said with a low and heavy breath. "If I've done something, tell me. I need to know why because its killing me!"
"Teddy, its me. Not you-"
"-Oh don't give me that crap, Addison!" Teddy spat. "I deserve better than that. A proper explanation! Because an hour ago I had Callie more or less screaming at me in front of half the hospital blaming me for you being 'depressed' these past few weeks. I know when you're lying, and right now, you're not fooling anyone!"
"Callie shouldn't have done that" Addison said, more to herself than Teddy, but Teddy still heard her.
"She's just worried, and so am I! If you want me to leave and never come back, tell me! I miss you, Addison"
There was a silence between the two women, Teddy still stood in Addison's front porch, Addison stood half behind her front door.
Addison just wanted Teddy to leave, because right now, all she wanted to do was hold the blonde in her arms and never let her go.
"It's late, can you just go?" Addison asked.
Something snapped in Teddy that made her heart break and her blood boil.
"No, Addison. I'm not leaving until you tell me what the hell is going on!" Teddy spat, frustratedly running her fingers through her golden locks.
"Teddy" Addison breathed.
"No, I've been racking my brain for weeks, going crazy over this! I deserve an answer, I deserve to know what I did to you that was so terrible for you to treat me like this!"
"Fine, you really want to know what's wrong with me?! You really want to know what you've done to me?!" Addison screamed, getting a 'duh' look off Teddy. "You made me fall in love with you!"
Teddy took a step back as she took it in. Her eyes widened in shock and her heart started to beat what seemed like 1000 miles per hour.
"...you?" Teddy breathed, unable to get her words out.
Addison looked down to her bare feet, unable to look Teddy in the eye. Wanting nothing more than to curl up into a ball and fall into oblivion.
"Let-let me get this straight. You love me? Like as in in love with me?" Teddy asked, swallowing hard, her eyes fixated on the woman stood in front of her.
Addison stayed staring at her painted toe nails, avoiding Teddy and her questions as much as she could right now. Teddy took a step closer to Addison so she was now inches away from the other woman.
"Addison, please look at me" Teddy whispered, her warm breath washing over Addison, sending a wave of pleasure down her spine.
Teddy's hand moved from her side and found itself interlocking with Addison's, their fingers fitting perfectly together. Addison still hadn't looked up at Teddy, so with her free hand, Teddy hooked a finger under Addison's chin and brought her face up.
Teddy took every inch of Addison's perfect, beautiful face in before she leaned in and placed a soft kiss on Addison's lips.
"I'm in love with you too" Teddy whispered against them, before deepening the kiss.
Addison pulled the blonde inside her home before pushing her against the back of it, pressing her body to Teddy's. This felt so good. Amazing. Perfect. Right. Addison loved Teddy and Teddy loved Addison and nothing and nobody else mattered. For too long both women had been dealing with these feelings, burying them, wishing they'd go away. Too long had they been unhappy. After everything they'd both been through, Derek, Mark, Henry, Owen, after all the pain and heartbreak they'd been through, they were finally happy.
"What does this mean?" Addison asked, smiling into the kiss.
"You love me and I love you, it means whatever it means. I want to be with you Addie, that's all I've wanted for so long"
Addison seemed to tense in Teddy's grip.
"Addie?" Teddy asked, praying what she had just confessed hadn't freaked her out.
"I just..."
"What is it?"
"Everyone I've ever loved, I've hurt, or they've hurt me and I just, can't do that. Not again. Not to you. You mean too much to me-"
"Addie, that was in the past-"
"-I don't deserve to be happy, and with you, it makes me so happy I feel like I'm going to explode, but I just, I don't deserve you"
"Addison, stop!" Teddy cupped the red haired beauty's face, her thumb ghosting over Addison's cheek. "You're scared, I get that. You're scared of hurting me, of me hurting you. You're happy and you don't feel you should be because of what you did in the past. But the past is the past. I don't care what you did then, all I care is what's going to happen in the future. A future I want to be a part of. Your past has made you the amazing person you are today. If you just let yourself be happy, I promise that I'm going to try and make you happy every single day for the rest of our lives. I've spent too long being unhappy, pining over you, and you have too. I love you Addison, I love you more than I ever thought could be humanly possible and I'm not going to give up on you" Teddy smiled slightly, looking into Addison's tear filled eyes.
"Okay" Addison breathed, a smile stretching from ear to ear as she pulled Teddy back into another kiss.
Teddy was right, she shouldn't dwell on the mistakes she made in the past. Those mistakes led her to Teddy. She loved her far too much to even care about them. She had spent too long being in pain over the blonde she was currently making out with, and whenever she thought of her future, it always involved Teddy. It was time she let herself be happy. After all, everyone else seemed to be. Derek was happily married to Meredith, Mark was happy with Lexie. And now she was going to let herself be happy with Teddy.
Teddy's heart felt like it grew almost 10x in size, being a cardio God, she knew this was impossible but still. That's the effect Addison Adrienne Forbes Montgomery had on the blonde. Had since the day she laid eyes on the flawless redhead.
They pair spent the rest of the night just lying in each other's arms. Home was found in each other and neither wanted to leave.