Katniss POV:

For the entirety of the train ride home I sat in my room (why I needed a room for a train that didn't take a day was beyond me) flipping the mockingjay pin between my fingers. I stared at it and hoped Peeta would believe me because had it been the other way round I don't know whether I would have trusted him. All I can think of is Peeta's face when he found out it was him going into the games before Gale volunteered. I am positive he looked relieved to be going in with me. He wanted to protect me just like Gale did. I want nothing more than to see him again but I just hope he wants to see me too.

Haymitch banged on my door telling me I had ten minutes before we got to the train station, he sounded very disorientated and his voice was incredibly slurred but seeing as Effie was in the Capitol he had to keep me up to date on my schedule. I rolled my eyes and then quickly pulled on a green silk blouse and black trousers, I found a pair of shoes that were vaguely comfortable and when I had re-braided my hair I looked in the mirror and just looked like an older version of myself. I have really aged during these games, I look frail and even though I gained weight before the games I am now thinner than I ever was. I look so fragile that I myself think I might snap.

I come out my room just in time as the train pulled into District Twelve's station. I waited as the doors opened and then there was a huge round of applause as at least half of our population seemed to be crammed onto the platform. Immediately my sister enveloped me into a hug and it was so warm that I melted into her, my mother joined us as well. I opened my eyes after the initial emotional shock of seeing my family and search for Peeta, but then Prim whispered,

"He didn't come Katniss, I'm so sorry. I don't know how he couldn't come after what you said last night." Her grip then became so tight that you would think the world would stop spinning if she let go. I didn't do anything because inside I feel hollow, if he didn't come then he must not care anymore, why else would he not want to see me. All my hope has drained from my body and I just don't understand.

Eventually after a hundred people had told me how happy they were that I had survived I finally got away. I was taken straight to my new Victors house where I was given a full tour but I paid no attention whatsoever. My mother and sister were so excited at seeing the house that they completely forgot how much I needed to see Peeta. Each room was as extravagant as the last, the kitchen fully kitted out and there was a study for Prim, a sitting room with a larger hologram than what you are supplied by the Capitol with if you can't afford one.

After seeing the tenth room I just left, I didn't want to know about the other rooms because they were all the same and they were not going to help with me rekindle everything with Peeta. When my family were heading to the next room I ran out the house and headed to the bakery. I had to go the long way around because if I ran into another person who wanted to tell me how happy they were that District Twelve finally had a female victor I would probably lose it, my fake smiles could only get me so far. I got to the back entrance of the bakery and there he was kneading bread as if he didn't know I was coming back. Or didn't care.

Peeta POV:

I can't avoid her forever, possibly not even for all of today but I just want to savour every minute I have before I hear all her apologies. I don't want my judgement clouded by all of her lies. I didn't bother watching either of her victory interviews because she has fooled me for the past two years, why wouldn't she try again. I stayed in my room looking out the window and if I saw a Peacekeeper I was going to run downstairs and pretend I had been there the whole time. I didn't go to meet her off the train because then she would think I care and even though I do still care about, I can't let her wriggle her way into my heart again because I know when it comes to Katniss I am weak.

I'm in the bakery right now, I have kneaded the life out of this dough because I don't want to think about the fact she will come to find me. All too soon I hear footsteps behind me and I don't have to look up to know it is Katniss so I just keep looking down, just looking at her ignites a spark within me.

"Shouldn't you be in your new house?" I ask only because I don't to talk about what she will want to talk about.

"Shouldn't you have been at the train station two hours ago?" She replies and she sounds really hurt but she can't turn this on me after everything she has done

"I didn't know it was compulsory." There was a long pause, she really sounded upset but she is acting, just like she has for as long as we have been together.

"Please will you look at me," I don't each glance I give her will give me pain. "Peeta please," Her voice is barely a whisper, I look up and her face is tear stained and blotchy, even in that state I get the immediate want to kiss her. "I need to explain, I only kissed Gale twice, he was so upset when I didn't have the same feelings as him and I thought if he was going to die to protect me the least I could do was give him one kiss." She has got to be kidding me, she has had all this time to come up with a lie and that is the best she has got.

"Why? Katniss why would you even consider that when you love me? Why put Gale's happiness before mine? What about the kiss in the arena? How long have you been together behind my back? Did you ever love me or were you using me? I need answers Katniss." All the questions that I have built up over the last week pour out my mouth, I know I need answers I am just afraid of what they will be.

"I don't know why I would do it I was confused and thought I might die too, the kiss in the arena I was tired, thirsty and scared, I got confused and thought I was kissing you. I never went behind your back before then, I promise you. Peeta of course I always loved you, the moment I saw you I never got you out my mind, you told me you loved me from when we were five, that doesn't just go." She is pleading at me.

"Katniss that makes no sense."

"How could that make no sense? I love you so much that when I am kept away from you I go crazy; I need to be with you. Peeta, you said you love me. You still love me; please say you still love me.". "PEETA PLEASE," She is screaming at me. "Do you love me?" Her voice is barely a whisper.

"Always."

A/N: I will try to post the last chapter either tomorrow or the day after. Sorry I haven't updated for a while I wrote this yesterday but my internet crashed.