The beautiful demon nodded. "Dr. Grey. I apologize for Inuyasha's...behavior. He shouldn't have threatened you like that"
"I-it's quite alright. W-w-what can I do for you?"
He looked at her as if it was obvious. "For my treatment"
Immediately she began to sweat & all of a sudden she couldn't really breathe. "M-Mr. Sesshomaru, I have a good feeling that is not a good ide-"
"Do you support abortions?" Sesshomaru interrupted calmly.
"I...what? Well...I don't necessarily support it but I do feel it is up to the mother on the decision"
"So how is this any different?"
"Besides the fact your husband would more than likely kill me if he finds out? It isn't. I am for this treatment. Of course I can not guarantee that you two will have a healthy baby very soon but I do feel it will aid in the process"
Sesshomaru nodded slowly, stepping forward to set his keys & phone on the table then proceeded to unbutton his shirt to expose his arm. She had a hard time remembering to inhale & exhale. Damn he was attractive.
"Mr. Sesshomaru-"
He sat down, rubbing his shoulder where the treatment was usually inserted. "I don't have much time. He will figure out it doesn't take that long to go to the store if you don't come on"
"Y-y-you snuck down here?"
"Well of course. I am the patient, a patient who is more than capable of thinking for myself & knowing what is best for my health. The customer is always right, not the significant other of the customer...right?"
"I-I just don't feel-"
"Doctors do not have room for what they feel, Dr. Grey!" Sesshomaru snapped, "Give me my treatment so that I may go home. Now"
With shaking hands she prepared the treatment before she administered it into his arm. His jaw flexed slightly & he closed his eyes, still not quite used to the sting. "I need you...to please...please tell me of any other symptoms you have"
The inuyoukai slipped his shirt back on. "Though I know you went over the symptoms at one time or the other I simply chose to let it go in one ear & out of the other. I didn't care, I was focused...I AM focused. I'm not worried about the side effects as long as Inuyasha & I have a healthy baby"
Dr. Grey kept her eyes on the floor as she escorted him to the door. "Call me if you have any questions..."
He smirked & gave her a wink. "Don't worry so much. If I am able to sneak my army into the panther demon fortress in the early morning I am more than capable of sneaking past my boyfriend. It'll be fine"
...
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"Where were you?" Inuyasha asked in a quiet voice, arms crossed.
"I told, Yasha, I went to the store" Sesshomaru responded, setting the bags of groceries on the counter.
"Since when has it taken you three hours?"
"Well I certainly didn't ask for that person to get into a wreck & back up traffic"
"Sessh..."
The inuyoukai stopped what he was doing & turned to face his mate. "I understand you are only concerned for my safety"
"Yet you just leave & not wake me up? Do you know how worried I was, especially since you didn't answer my texts or calls"
The demon lowered his eyes in an act of embarrassment. He'd seen the calls & the texts but he didn't have good reception in the hospital & if he'd responded to the texts Inuyasha would've just called back & freaked himself out even more. "That was my fault. My phone was dying"
Inuyasha sighed & rubbed his forehead. "Just...please let me know when you're leaving, alright?"
Sesshomaru nodded once & gladly accepted his welcome home kiss. "What did you eat?"
"Uh...ice cream"
"Ice cream? For breakfast? Yasha..."
"I didn't know if you were going to get some food or not! I wanted to be prepared for a meal!"
"There was bacon & eggs in the fridge..."
"Ugh that's just...so much work..." the hanyou whine, drooping himself over the kitchen counter.
"I swear I have to do everything around here" Sesshomaru muttered though not as if he were upset by the fact.
"Your cooking is much better than mine. I'd wait all day for your home cooked meals" Inuyasha said, staring up at his mate adoringly.
"Damn right, I cook better. You'd burn the house down boiling water"
"Aye!"
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Sesshomaru inhaled deeply as he roused from his deep slumber. He'd been sleeping very deeply lately, REM sleep as Dr. Grey calls it. It'd be so deep & peaceful he never even dreamed anymore & he woke up refreshed & ready to start the day.
As he inhaled again he smelled bacon & sausage & smirked. Nothing put a guy in a better mood than bacon [& sex...& good sleep...& good drinks...but that's a whole 'nother story]. He got up & ambled to the bathroom before he slipped through the house. He beelined for the kitchen & stopped to watched, leaning against the doorframe, as Inuyasha hummed loudly as he cooked, dancing every once in a while & even mimicking the sounds of instruments like guitar or piano. It was amusing to watch. The inuyoukai smirked when the hanyou glanced up at him & stopped.
"Don't let me ruin your fun" he crooned.
Inuyasha chuckled, embarrassed. "H-hey, babe. Good morning. Sleep good?"
Sesshomaru pushed off the doorframe & walked over to receive his good morning kiss. "I slept very well"
"I noticed" the half breed commented after granting said kiss, "You didn't even stir when I got up"
It was then the inuyoukai glanced at the clock since he was about to ask how long his mate had been up & his eyebrows shot up. It was half past noon! He'd been asleep for a little over fourteen hours! "Why didn't you wake me? I slept for entirely too long"
Inuyasha chuckled. "I considered it but I was pretty certain your body really needed the rest, plus I couldn't bring myself to disturb sleeping beauty"
Sesshomaru turned away quickly to hide his blush & grabbed a plate. "Thank you for breakfast"
The inuhanyou's eyes roamed appreciatively over his mate's body while the silver haired beauty had his back to him. When had Sesshomaru started getting thick? Had his ass & thighs always looked so...unf? Without even realizing it his mouth was watering. "You are very welcome..."
Sesshomaru knew that tone of voice, that baritone, that growl. He turned to look over his shoulder slowly, adrenaline & excitement slowly burning in his chest. Inuyasha's eyes were hooded & with his bottom lip tucked under his fangs he looked like a hungry predator. The inuyoukai swallowed thickly & slowly faced his mate. "Yasha..."
In a single step & a few seconds the hanyou had one hand on the back of the demon's neck, his mouth practically devouring, swallowing every moan & weak protest. To be honest Sesshomaru liked how rough the kiss was but he knew what this would lead to. Were they ready for that step again? Everything in him said yes but a voice in the back of his mind whispered no. He pulled back. "Inuyasha...I don't think we should..."
Inuyasha sighed in exasperation, rolling his eyes to the ceiling. He didn't say it but his body language did: if not now then when, damn it?!
"It's not that I don't want to...I do...I'm just...it's just possible that...you know..."
"You don't have to explain it. I know we couldn't handle getting pregnant & losing another baby. But damn, I can't even touch you still?"
"No...no, I want you to. It's fine. I'm ready for that. I just had to...to point that out, is all"
"So you're telling me you're ok with this?"
But when Sesshomaru went to say yes the words caught in his throat & the hesitation brought realization to Inuyasha. The hanyou nodded once & grabbed a plate before he started fixing his breakfast. Sesshomaru tried & tried again to force the words only to be disappointed. What was he so afraid of? How could something/someone he'd never even met, who can't even open their eyes yet have such a hold on him he was afraid to even try to have another baby for the fear of losing it? & even if the baby did come to term who's to say it won't get sick & die? What if they got in a car accident while the baby was in the car? What if they were caught in an explosion of a suicide bomber? His heart started to hammer & he began to breathe harder. It was almost impossible to keep your children safe from everything. If it didn't kill them it could hurt them physically, emotionally or mentally traumatize them. Did they want to bring a child into such a dangerous world?
"Yasha..." Sesshomaru started.
"Don't force yourself to do something if you're not completely with it. It's no big deal" Inuyasha said, turning & giving a small smile that did not reach his eyes.
The inuyoukai stared at his partner for a minute. Surely the half breed was simply trying to comfort him in letting him have his space & not pressure him. It was a wonderful gesture but Sesshomaru felt...off about it. It didn't sit comfortably with him for Inuyasha to always please him & not have the gesture returned as often. Even if the thought scared him a little.
Sesshomaru reached for his mate by the front of his shirt & pulled him close, capturing those tempting lips. A shudder of delight trickled down his spine & raised the little hairs on the back of his neck as Inuyasha gave in willingly & enveloped his strong arms around the inuyoukai, dropping his plate & breaking it. Neither cared; they were more concerned about the electricity shooting through their bodies, the hot warmth washing over their abdomens & the pleasing touch of each other's skin. To be this moved by such a simple action made Sesshomaru feel like he was melting. When was the last time Inuyasha touched him like this?
Inuyasha broke off the kiss to nip & suck his way down his mate's neck. He lifted the inuyoukai up & set him on the counter, moaning in the back of his throat when Sesshomaru wrapped his long legs around his waist & ground against him.
The hanyou slipped one hand under the silver haired beauty's shirt. "I love you so fuckin' much, I swear to God..."
The inudemon recaptured those lips again briefly before Inuyasha had his pants around his ankles. Sesshomaru only paused a moment but Inuyasha caught it & smirked.
"It hasn't been that long" he murmured, slipping in two moist fingers. God, he'd forgotten how tight his lover was. Immediately Sesshomaru's eyes closed & a soft moan escaped his parted lips.
"Faster..."
Inuyasha complied, dipping his head once more to kiss that long column of neck. Sesshomaru smelled like cinnamon & vanilla but he tasted soft & sweet like nectar. It, & the demon's soft moans, was addicting. When Sesshomaru arched & he whispered Inuyasha's name so sweetly the hanyou couldn't take it anymore. He hefted those long legs up onto his shoulders & did his best to replace his fingers with his throbbing member. He expected the inuyoukai to protest or wince in pain since he didn't give him very much time to adjust but Sesshomaru only bit his bottom lip, purring deep in chest.
"You like that shit?" Inuyasha asked huskily.
He started pumping slowly, gradually gaining speed. Within the first two strokes Sesshomaru's eyes were already rolling. It'd been a very long time since the last time they had sex & it felt almost like the first time, just not as awkward.
"Oh my God, Inuyasha..." the inuyoukai whispered.
The hanyou picked the silver haired beauty up, still penetrated, & pressed him to the wall of their dining room. Play time was over. He wanted his mate right now the way he used to take him. He slipped his arms under Sesshomaru's knees & placed his hands on the wall. Oh he was in so deep he was on the verge of cumming already. The strokes became faster, rougher & Sesshomaru got more vocal. Inuyasha had to force himself to not cum on several occasions, especially when he was watching the passionate facial expressions the demon would make.
The grip Sesshomaru's hands had on the hanyou's biceps was increasing, almost making it hard for Inuyasha to breathe. He didn't mind it too much though, he just wanted to cum already!
"I-Inu-Inuyasha..."
"Ah baby...I f-fuckin' love you"
"I'm cum-I'm cumming"
"Come for me, baby"
"Yasha...Yaaaasha...oh my-God, Yasha, I'm cumming! I-!"
Sesshomaru came hard, his entire body rigid & his eyes screwed shut while his mouth held a pose like it was prepping for a scream. At first he made no noise & then he let loose a fury of swears & animalistic noises while his legs practically vibrated. Inuyasha watched the stunning display of expressions across his mate's face, smirking at how he could still put it down.
Sesshomaru relaxed after a few moments, his eyes so hooded it looked like he was about to fall asleep right there. "I've missed sex"
The hanyou kissed his mate deeply & pushed off the wall to walk them to the bedroom before he lowered the inuyoukai onto the bed they shared. "I take that to mean you wanna do it more often?"
"I wouldn't be upset if we did"
"So how would you feel if we didn't?"
"Excuse me?" Sesshomaru asked, raising an eyebrow.
Inuyasha grinned. "If you'd just answer the damn question directly then things would be a lot more simple. You're comfortable having sex now?"
The silver haired beauty exhaled through his nose. "Yes"
"Was that so hard?"
"It was"
"Ah shut up"
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...
Inuyasha let out a burst of air. "Whew...that was really good. I mean really...really good"
Sesshomaru finger combed his hair back into a ponytail since it'd come loose from the hanyou's restless, wandering hands. "Was it?"
"It's been so long since you've given me chrome dome I forgot how good it is"
Sesshomaru tilted his head to one side. "Chrome dome?"
Inuyasha chuckled. "You suck my dick really well, is what I'm saying"
"So vulgar..."
"You like it!"
"I do not want my...administrations compared to a cheap & unattractive mineral"
"So what should I compare it to, something you like to eat?"
"Simply telling me you liked it is enough" the inuyoukai whispered, leaning in for a kiss.
For the past few weeks, the two had been reexploring each others' bodies. There was so much they'd forgotten & missed out on. Inuyasha had forgotten some of his favorite curves, the parts of his mate's body that touched something warm in his heart, the parts he could fall into. Sesshomaru just remembered the way his lover smelled, the different scents of different areas of his body like how soft the insides of his elbows smelled & how spicy the V of his hips tasted. This time, they took their time to indulge themselves in the sweet nostalgia & listened to each other's breathing & moans & hearts hammering. It was beautiful.
Sesshomaru rubbed his nose into Inuyasha's neck. "What do you want for dinner?"
"I dunno. Kinda in the mood for some pizza"
"Great. Pizza Hut sent me a coupon in my email yesterday for fifty percent off everything at menu price"
"Wait how come you got that coupon & I didn't?"
"Because my birthday is in two weeks" the inuyoukai said, kissed his mate on the nose & stood, "What kind of pizza do you want?"
Inuyasha watched Sesshomaru for moment while the silver haired beauty walked towards the door, supposedly to go get his phone off the kitchen counter. "Uh...that barbeque was pretty good last time, with the stuffed crust. I could go for that one you had last time too though. I don't remember what kind of sauce you had on it but it kinda tasted like philly cheese steak. It was stuffed crust too. So good"
The hanyou's ears pricked up. All that talking he just did & Sesshomaru wasn't going to respond? Inuyasha slid off the bed & made his way to the kitchen.
"Babe, did you hear me? Or do you not remember what you had cause you know you always change your order everytime we order from Pizza Hut so I understand if you can't keep up wit-"
Inuyasha walked in on Sesshomaru leaning on the kitchen counter, breathing ragged. The hanyou ran up to him immediately & wrapped one strong arm around his waist while he placed the other hand on his mate's cheek. Sesshomaru was sickly pale & his forehead glistened with a thin sheet of sweat.
"Baby, talk to me. What's going on? Does anything hurt? What' wrong?" Inuyasha asked in a low voice to disguise the way it trembled.
"Can't breathe..." Sesshomaru whispered in a rush, clutching Inuyasha's shirt, "Chest hurts..."
Immediately, the half breed picked the demon up & carried him over to the house phone. He sat down & dialed 911. This couldn't be happening, not when things were going so well. This couldn't be happening when he & Sessh were just starting to become intimate again. No, no, this wasn't real, it couldn't be. Kami wouldn't be that cruel. Eventually Kami would know that the two had been through enough to last a lifetime & He would give them a break...right?
By the time the ambulance arrived Sesshomaru seemed better but he was still really pale & Inuyasha was not taking any chances. It was always serious if you can't breathe. The team loaded him into the truck then one of them turned to Inuyasha.
"Sir there's not enough room inside but you are more than welcomed to follow"
The hanyou nodded, still too stunned to speak.
The ride to the hospital was quick. One minute Inuyasha was pulling out of his driveway, the next, he was parking not too far from the ambulance truck. When they pulled Sesshomaru out, he had an oxygen mask on & his eyes were very low & unfocused.
"He had another...episode of whatever he experienced in front of you" one of the paramedics said, "But he's stabilized"
Inuyasha could only nod before he watched the love of his life be greeted by doctors then rushed inside. He wanted to follow; he wanted to run after them & find out everything that's going on & make sure Sesshomaru only had the best doctor overseeing him & he wanted to tell Sesshomaru that he would never be far away, he would always be right by his side & that he loved Sesshomaru so much & to be brave & don't worry & just get better &...
But he was paralyzed where he was standing. For a minute he couldn't even blink. Nothing was going through his mind, he felt nothing, he was just...there. Standing there like some sort of live action statue. A voice in his head kept whispering, "Go inside. Sit down" but it wasn't enough to motivate him to move. He kinda felt that if he moved at this point he was going to step out of whatever numb bubble he was currently in & he was going to feel & think & worry & probably cry.
He watched a lady, probably a visitor sit on a bench not too far away & pull out a pack a cigarettes from her purse. Without hesitation, Inuyasha walked over to her. "Hey, mind if I bum one off of you?"
She looked up at him & smirked. "Sure. You gotta loved one in there?"
Inuyasha gestured for her lighter, lit his cigarette & took a deep inhale before responding. At first it was so gross he wondered how he ever got started smoking. His lungs were not even accustomed to the invasion anymore; he let loose a few quiet coughs. "Yeah, the love of my life"
"Oh wow I'm so sorry. I hope they pull through"
He nodded & sat down. "What's your story?"
"Here for my chemo treatment. Doc says this will probably be my last round" she said proudly, straightening her back.
"Nice. Congrats, man"
"Thanks. It ain't easy, ya know? People go on these silly walks for breast cancers & make everything pink for breast cancer awareness but that shit ain't cute, man. You wanna raise awareness, get ya ass mammogrammed, ya know? Stop acting like you're making a difference & doing something for the cause all because you have a pink ribbon magnet on your fridge & you walked two miles cause your mom had it. Shit pisses me off, man"
Inuyasha had actually never thought of that. He'd never known anyone with breast cancer but he did donate what he could to those cancer walks & he posted that pink ribbon to his Facebook profile a few times but he never considered that he could do more. "I feel ya. What's ya name?"
"Yura. I'd ask what's yours but I'll be dead soon anyway"
By the time she finished her cigarette it was time to go in for treatment. He wished her good luck & thanked her again before she saluted him & sauntered inside.
Now that Inuyasha was alone in his thoughts he figured it might be a good time to go inside & see what's going on. They should have word on what the hell was going on with Sesshomaru by now & he was sure now was a good time to be at his mate's side. He took one last long drag of his cigarette [man, he missed these] & flicked it away before he stood & walked inside, nervously rubbing his hands on the front of his jeans.
He walked up to the receptionist. "Uh...I was with the guy earlier that came in on the stretcher...?"
The receptionist nodded. "He's in emergency care. Take a right & follow the signs. I'm sure the doctors have word"
The hanyou nodded his thanks & made his way to emergency care. Why did this hall feel like deja-vu? Like this anxiety that was scratching at his spine was going to send him straight to a mental hospital? Ah yes, that's right. This was exactly how he felt when he picked Sesshomaru up from rehab except now he wasn't entirely sure his mate was still alive.
When he got to the waiting area, he was about to go up to the receptionist to ask where Sesshomaru was but then a doctor stepped out of a door marked "authorized personnel only". He looked around a moment. "Inuyasha Taisho?"
"That's me" the hanyou said, half-raising his hand & hesitantly taking a step towards the doctor.
"Come with me this way please"
Oh he did not like the sound of that. That sounded like a very bad news tone of voice. Immediately Inuyasha's eyes started to burn. 'Kami I can't make it without Sessh by my side. I will die if I have to live without him. Please...please don't do this to me'
"So after running a few tests we found Sesshomaru had had a mild heart attack-"
Inuyasha's breath caught. He was much older than any human could live but by demon standards he was typically thought to be somewhere around 25 or 26: much too young to have a heart attack. "Will he be alright? How did this happen?"
"Fortunately it did not do any permanent damage. He will be just fine; at the moment we're just monitoring him so we can give you the ok to take him home. I am quite certain the heart attack was a side effect of the treatment he was receiving so it doesn't have anything to do with his eating lifestyle. He complained of more chest aches but we could not give him any medications since-"
Inuyasha immediately stopped walking & pressed rewind on the conversation. "I'm sorry...what did you say about treatment?"
The doctor looked surprised as he stopped walking as well. "I...had assumed you knew of his treatment so that he would be able to have a child..."
While the young doctor looked very uncomfortable, like he'd been caught in a lie, Inuyasha was fuming. "Where is he?"
"Ah...room 283. But Mr. Inuyasha I ask that you please not raise your voice-"
The hanyou stalked off like a predator, completely tuning out what the doctor was saying. He could not believe Sesshomaru was that hardheaded to continue treatment after he damn near had a stroke! That should've been enough to let him know that this shit was too dangerous to keep up with. Sure a baby would be nice but if it costs Sesshomaru's life...
Inuyasha opened the door to the room & narrowed his eyes on Sesshomaru who was sitting up in bed & already looking guilty. "Really, Sessh?"
The inuyoukai sighed.
"You gon' fuck around with your life for a fucking kid? Like we can't fucking adopt?"
"I wanted our own flesh & blood..."
"Fuck that! Why would you put your life at risk for that? Huh?! You ain't replaceable!"
"Neither is the child we lost, Yasha!"
Inuyasha ran a hand over his face to force himself to stay calm. He really didn't want to make a mean, insensitive comment. "What you need to understand is that baby was not even a baby yet. It was a fucking tadpole with no feelings, no thoughts, no awareness about what the fuck was going on. Yeah it's fucking sad we lost him or her but we hadn't even named it! We didn't even know if it was a boy or girl yet for fuck's sake! We can always have another. I can't have another you. I won't find anyone else like you"
Sesshomaru turned his face away for a moment, forcing himself to take deep breaths.
The half demon sat gently on the bed & put his hand on his mate's. "You mean the world to me, Sessh, you know that. I'm more upset that you put your life at risk than you going behind my back because I know you can be pretty sneaky & you're hard headed as fuck"
The silver haired beauty turned to him & gave him a very small smile.
"But I'm very serious when I tell you to stop taking these treatments. Like for real. Ain't no telling if the next time it won't take your life & I...I can't take anymore scares like this"
"Alright"
Inuyasha raised an eyebrow. "I think that's the quickest you've ever agreed with me. Did you hear what I said?"
"Yes. I heard you very clearly. I understand I don't need the treatment anymore..."
Something about his tone of voice & the small smile that suddenly got big that made Inuyasha's heart leap up into his throat.
"Yasha...we're pregnant"
The last thing Inuyasha remembered was that brilliant smile from his mate he hadn't seen in a long time.