Here's chapter four so I hope you enjoy it and be sure to leave comments and follow this story! I already have the name for chapter 5, be happy, it's called Crumbling Under Pressure!
I drove anxiously towards Beck's trailer. He live in a trailer so he doesn't have to live by his parents rules. He left a note on my doorstep telling me to meet him. My anxiety is shooting sky high because what could he know! He made this note sound so mysterious and cryptic.
D-Did Mia tell him, I never told her who my boyfriend was, at least I don't recall saying anything. AGH! He must know, oh my god I'm gonna die! What will he do, w-what will I say? Okay, calm down Jade, he didn't say anything about pregnancy.
I pull up to his trailer and get out of my car. It takes all my courage to walk up the steps and knock on that snow white door. I hear the sound of shuffling feet when the door is peeled open. I smile up at Beck whose dressed in a blue laid shirt and jeans. He smiles back and kisses me.
His arms wrap around my waist sending electricity through my veins and my fingers find their way into his hair. We kiss passionately for almost two minutes when he pulls away and steps aside letting me in. So, what was the note about?" I ask, faking calmness.
"We're going to a carnival with the gang" he says, my face fell but his back was too me. I swallow hard and plaster a stupid grin on my lips.
I can't tell Beck now, not with Tori on the scene. She use it to get with him or something. That bitch. Jealous much? Beck and Tori sitting in a tree K. I. S. S. I. N. G., first come love- I slam my eyelids shut and cover my ears trying to silence my mind. Tapping on my knee made me look up at Becks confused face. I open my mouth to say something but decide not to. Still he looked confused eyebrow angled up.
"You alright Jade?" he asks, taking my hand. Now, tell him now...!
"Well, actually I have to tell you that I-" I was cut off with Beck's trailer door opened by none other than Tori Vega.
"You two ready to go!?" she says, overjoyed, looking down at our hands she mouths a "sorry" and exits. Beck looks back at me, eyes pledging me to go on, to finish what I was about to admit. However, that short interference of Tori was enough to suck all my nerve away."N-Nevermind, it wasn't that important anyways" I lie, ulling my hand away and walking outside where everyone waited.
Bullshit, not knowing about his unborn child is so-o-o unimportant. Shut the hell up brain, you won't stop me from faking a good time! I'm not the one stopping you, you're doing that all on your own sweetie. Stop it now! Fine, but I'll be back, I always come back.
I ride with Beck who isn't happy that I didn't tell him whats up with me. Tori is riding with Andre. And Robbie is riding with Cat. We sat in silence; the only sound was the whistling of the air shooting past us. Things between me and Beck have been really tense and I know its my fault for all the secrets but I don't have much of a choice.
I am going to tell him but with this whole group outing it just isn't the right time to pop the cap on this secret. He'll freak out and I have to have him in private before he can know. What if he doesn't even want kids or even want to be involved? What if not telling him is better than telling him? My mind continues to ramble on a list of why I shouldn't tell Beck but dee in my heart the truth still shines through the heavy black clouds in my heart telling me to do what I know I have to do.
We've been at the carnival for almost and hour and all the crying children are starting to annoy me. They're whining for their mom's and I hate it. How am I suppose to be a mom if I can't stand other kids! This kid growing inside me is depending on me to be a good mother and not to screw up. My gaze followed a group of little eight year old kids running around without a care in the world.
I wouldn't be able to afford this kid and...and I-I breathe Jade breathe I thought to myself. Beck noticed my heavy breathing and looked over at me. I give an uneasy smile as he leads me to the childish spinning swing things but they were for two people, like a bench. We sit down on them and as soon as the rids starts Beck looks at me with serious expression. I let my eyes drop from his stern chocolate brown eyes.
"What the hell is going on with you?" he said in a low whisper, but he was loud enough for me to hear him clearly.
"I have no idea what you're talking about."
"Bull, when you saw that group of kids you look as if you were going to pass out." I keep my mouth shut, what else is there to say?
"Jade?"
We were finally alone, maybe it was the right time now. I summon all the courage I can and start. The ride started to slow but I figured I could tell him in that slow amount of time.
"It's just that...I'm kinda, I'm sorta..."
"Yeah...?" he pleaded.
"I don't know how to say this but I'm-"
"You can go" the ride workers says, cutting my shocking sentence short. Sighing I get up and flee the scene rinning into Tori, Cat, Robbie, and Andre. Cat runs up to me with a huge smile consuming her face. As we walk back to our cars as the carnival closes me and Cat lag behind the rest of the group.
"Whats wrong Jade, you look terrified?"
I can tell Cat right, I know she's not the brightest in the world but I don't think she'd tell anyone. "Cat, if I tell you, you have to promise on your life you wont say anything to anyone especial Beck" I say making her pinky sware. She nods and I lean to her ears and whisper.
"I-I'm pregnant" I whisper, feeling tears fill my eyes and a lump well up in my throat.
She spins around to face me looking around wide-eyed. "Y-You, you're p-pregnant?" She asks, stuttering over the words. I nod. "W-With Beck's baby?" Again I nod and let salty tears slip down my face.
"Hey Robbie catch a ride with Beck, I'll take Jade home." Robbie nods and leave with Beck and Tori and Andre follow right behind. I can't take it or fake it anymore. My feet finally give out and I collapse in the dust. Cat follows me down and pulls me into a hug as I cry out into her shoulder.
I cry until I can cry no more, my breath is ragged and raspy and Cat's still there, there for me. She's always been my best friend and this here proves it. Finally she speaks up asking me something I haven't even thought about.
"Have you gone to the doctors office yet?" I shake my head no.
"I-I've been to busy thinking about how to hide my pregnancy from Beck that I've never actually went in."
"Come on, I'll drive you to a night clinic and get you all checked out she says holding a hand out, helping me up. I got into the car with Cat and look over at her.
"I know I've never told you this but you are my best friend and I-I uh...I don't know what I'd do without you..."
"Aw, thanks Jade! You're my BFF too! Now let's find out about you BABY!"
Ugh, this is going to be a long ass night... But I love it. And I'm lucky to have a friend like Cat.