Here's chapter 7 and it picks up back in Jade POV. Last time Andre discovered Jade's pregnancy and Beck is still clueless. Well here we go, please favorite the story and leave comments!
I rub my face with my hands and look at myself in the mirror. It's been a month now and I'm gaining weight, not enough to assume I pregnant but still. My skin is so pale, I look like a ghost and my black hair isn't making it any better. I'm still stressing over that fact that not only does Tori's cousin know about me but so does Cat and now Andre does to. He promised he wouldn't say a word but Tori is still his best friend.
Purple bags sag under my dull, almost lifeless green eyes. It's like this baby has sucked all the color out of me and it's horrible. Beck hasn't said a word about my appearance but then again I wear a ton of make-up so he might not be aware. All my clothes are baggy and loose but I think Tori has started to notice because she's often just staring at me, no, inspecting me. I just hope she'll keep her nose out of my business.
The light sound of beeping draws me away from my train of thought. I glance down at the text it's a multi-text from Cat and Andre. 'Hey Jade, me and Andre are outside, will you let us in? - Cat' With a drawn out sigh I exit the bathroom and clobber down the stairs and let them in. Cat pulls me into a hug, her red hair clouding my face like a veil. Andre collapses on the couch and I pull away and let the door swing shut.
"Hey Jade," said Cat, "where are your parents?"
I bit my lip realizing that I'd never told my friends about my parents death. My brain races through multiple lies when I settle on the typical one. "Oh, they're out of town. Something about mom's painting being unveiled at The National Museum."
"Okay," Andre finally spoke up. "Since we know about your...uh..."
"Pregnancy?"
"Yeah, I didn't know if that was appropriate to say, how do you want us to help you?"
That was a fantastic question.
What do I want them to help me with? Maybe I just need the support to know that if Beck doesn't want to be apart of his child's life that I won't be all alone. That terrifies me to the very core, just the possibility of raising this kid by myself because I'm the impatient one, he's the calm, cool, and collected one. Beck would be better with this kid then I would be. I'm not good enough to be a mom and show them how to live in life, it's just not me.
One mistake and I could ruin this human beings entire life. I look at Andre then to Cat and lastly at the floor.
"I-I don't know, I just need to have some support, t-that's all." I don't look up, because I can't I hate to admit that I'm weak, that I'm shatter and broken. That the real Jade cries herself to sleep every night knowing that if Beck ever found out through someone else he'd probably leave or that if she told him he'd leave. If he didn't stick around her parents were dead so they wouldn't be able to support her.
"Do your parents know?" it was Cat. I hold in the tears and nod a yes despite it being yet another lie to add to the fire. "Are they okay with this?"
"Well they freaked out of course like anyone would but they are gonna support me through it. They've just been gone for awhile so I needed people around me I guess."
"So, are you planning on telling Beck?" I look over at Andre with heavy eyes and shrug my shoulders. It's the best answer I can muster up. "Y-you have to tell him you know that right?"
"I know it's just that-I'm afraid that If I-" my voice trails of drawing both Cat and Andre's eyes.
"I'm worried that if I tell him he'll leave me for Tori" I finally admit.
"What!?" they both shout in unison. I tense up then relax and plop down next to Andre and Cat sits on my left.
"Beck used to have a thing for Tori. I never said anything because we were broken up but she liked him to and I guess that I'm just worried that if he finds out he'll leave me for her. They almost kissed that day that I was suppose to preform in that ridiculous outfit, I gave the slot back to Tori because she didn't kiss him."
"Wait so if they would have kissed then it would've been Bori?" asked Cat.
"What the hell are you talking about?"
"Bori, Beck and Tori, it's shipping name."
"Yeah probably and-" Andre cuts me off.
"If Tori still had feelings for Beck she could use the information against you to make him angry at you for not telling him first."
I nod and rub my hands together generating heat. My head snaps up when the sound of a tree branch crunches. "Did you guys hear that?" I ask as they both nod. I get up and open the front door to see none other than nosy miss Tori Vega who can't mind her own business. I grab her by the shoulders and forcefully yank her into my living room.
I slam the door and lock it as Tori back away. Her brown hair cascades down to black metal studded belt that's connected to her bright white pants. She bites her lower lips as anger and all my hormones bubble up to the surface.
"What the hell Tori, why are you here!?"
"W-Well Beck wanted to know what's going on with you so I agreed to talk to you" she says, tugging her hair.
"How much did you hear...?" I spread out my words.
"No n-not a lot."
"LIAR!" I lunge forward sending her recoiling back as if I hit her.
"Okay, I know everything I-I honestly didn't mean to spy, I swear! Then you were all buddy buddy with Cat and then Andre so I knew something was going on."
"And clearly Vega, it's not of your damn business don't you understand that I HATE YOU!"
"Why, why do you hate me I've done nothing to you?"
"Bullshit! Everything revolves around perfect good girl Tori Vega. When I had to cancel my play because you HAD to have your stupid prom. I planned that for six months but whatever Tori wants, she gets. I'm sorry that I'm not perfect, that I won't circle my entire life around you, and I'm sorry that I exist because if I wasn't you could have Beck all to yourself and I wouldn't be pregnant!"
All the color floods from her face. My breath hitches when I realize she was talking about what I was feeling about her and Beck.
"You're p-pregnant...?"
"N-no I was uh, wanted to see your reaction if that was true."
"Jade..." Cat said, telling me the charade was over.
"Yes, yes okay, I Jade West am pregnant at seventeen and I am scared." I sit back down and wait for Tori to say something anything.
"A-and B-Beck doesn't know...?"
"Thank you Captain Obvious where's your ship of basic knowledge, are you going to tell me that the Earth is round and not flat or that the sky is blue."
"Oh my God... Oh my God... oh my God... pregnant Jade oh my god."
I roll my eyes and let out a sigh of frustration. Now four people know and Beck still unaware. God, at this rate the bag boy at the grocery store will know before Beck. Now Tori ,of all the people in the world that could've found out, it have to be her, the second person I didn't want to know.
"You have to tell Beck, Jade he's the babies father...right?"
"Yes he is! Are you calling me a slut Vega because I can still kick you ass."
"Now I know why you've been wearing baggy clothes, to hide the baby weight."
"Is that all you're gonna do, point out things that everyone in this room can tell?"
"Jade this isn't a joke, this is serious."
I stand up my feet aching and swollen from the extra weight. "I don't think this is a joke I'm carrying another human being, a child that if I raise will be so screwed up okay so don't tell me about serious when your biggest responsibility is doing you homework. I have so, so many thing going on that you, all of you, don't even know about and having this baby is just another thing to add to the list of stressful things I'm dealing with."
"Jade..."
"No, every, get out and Tori don't you dare tell Beck because if you do I swear I'll, I-I'll..." I trail off.
Cat and Andre are the first ones out and just as Tori reaches the door I call to her. "And Tori," she turns around to look me in the eyes, "lean to keep you nose out of where it doesn't belong" I say, shooting her a sugary smile. She looks at me with an unknown emotion in her eyes, pity...? worry...? concern...? either way I hated it because it made me feel weak. I hate feeling weak...
With my diary pulled out I put my pen to the paper and tell my story.
Dear Diary,
Guess what as if my life weren't bad enough Tori Vega found out. Yes, about the pregnancy and I bet she's heading over to Beck's trailer right now to tell him exactly what I told her. Probably by tomorrow morning I'll be a single mother. Andre found out yesterday and I'm scared still. What am I supposed to say exactly? "Hey how's is going I just wanted to say congratulations your gonna be a daddy? No way in hell, maybe I should move somewhere far away and put this kid up for adoption and it can grown up with a normal family suited to raise a child. Well hell awaits me tomorrow so tomorrows entry might be hectic.
Sincerely, Jade West, soon to be mother, yay *note the sarcasm*
I slam the page shut and flip off all the lights and lay down in me bed staring up at me ceiling looking for some sort of magical spirit to send me the answers but nothing happens and sometime during this, I fall asleep and forget what's waiting for me tomorrow.