Hello again, my loves! I didn't care for this chapter but I felt the need to touch on the subject. Gotta write bout the good and the bad, ya know? :)
Inuyasha paused the movie he'd been watching when he thought he heard singing. Of all the years they'd been together, he probably only heard Sesshomaru sing three times. The inuyoukai had said something or the other about he was not an entertainer & he would not sing for anyone's pleasure but the hanyou was sure he just had a hard time being humble. From what he could remember, Sesshomaru actually had a nice voice. He didn't sound like Whitney Houston or anything but his singing was very soothing.
Inuyasha stood up & silently made his way to the nursery where Sesshomaru was folding Hiten's clothes & putting them in drawers or hanging them up. Hiten was laying back on his support pillow on the changing table, dozing in & out of sleep. The hanyou smiled as the boy grinned sleepily, as if he knew he was being watched. Sesshomaru caught Inuyasha's attention when the demon snapped his finger once & started bobbing his head. The half breed raised an eyebrow when his mate sang something in Spanish. When did he become fluent? I mean, yeah, Sesshomaru had a lot of time on his hands since he quit his at-home IT job a few weeks ago but Inuyasha never knew the guy taught himself another language.
Sesshomaru's eyes happened to connect with Inuyasha's as the inuyoukai folded up a onesie & he blushed, taking his earphones out. "How long were you standing there?"
Inuyasha smirked. "Long enough to hear you crooning like you were in a Prince Royce video"
Sesshomaru let his hair fall over his face as he bent to gather the last bit of laundry. "Well…can I not find joy in singing?"
"I have absolutely no problem with your singing, I was just wondering when you learned Spanish"
"I learned it when we first moved here"
"What?"
"Remember Felix & Maria that lived across the hall from us when we lived in those luxury apartments?"
"Uhh…yeah" Inuyasha mumbled, knowing he was lying. He didn't get out the house much & the times when he did, he sure as hell wasn't getting to know his neighbors.
"They were from El Salvador. I learned some just from listening to them talk to each other & they taught me a little. Since I've had some free time, I also bought a learning software for Spanish. I'm not far from being fluent, if I do say so myself"
Inuyasha went over & picked Hiten up, who was starting to lean over in an uncomfortable way on his support pillow. "Well, you should look at bilingual jobs. The pay is usually pretty good"
"I'll consider it" Sesshomaru said & picked up the laundry basket, "In the meantime, I need to go shopping"
"For what?!" Inuyasha asked incredulously.
"Mickey Mouse décor. The wallpaper is not enough"
Inuyasha raised an eyebrow. Sesshomaru had never been lazy but he'd never been this…busy before either. It was like he was jacked up on Mountain Dew or something. "Maybe you should, uh…take a nap. I'll watch Boo so you can rest"
"Not necessary. Soon as I lay down, Hiten will be ready to eat so I'll just wait until he's hungry. In the meantime, I'll be in the kitchen. I found this recipe on Pintrest that sounds like it would taste amazing. You like mushrooms, right?"
Sesshomaru never talked this much. The only time he got wordy was when he was pissed off & he felt like Inuyasha wasn't understanding his point. The script had been flipped today & Inuyasha was slightly concerned. He laid Hiten on his shoulder & rubbed his back. "Uh…you ok, babe?"
"I'm fine, Yasha, stop worrying. I'm just trying to take care of everything important before I go to sleep" Sesshomaru said, waving his hand dismissively as he walked to the kitchen & began taking food to cook out of the fridge.
"I understand that but shopping for Disney décor is not exactly high on the list…"
"Maybe not to you…"
Inuyasha shrugged to himself & sat in a bar stool, bringing Hiten down off his shoulder to stare at the child lovingly. Sessh was right: Disney décor was not important at all to him but that was beside the point. Didn't Dr. Robbins say something about sleep when the baby sleeps? Caregiving was not an easy task & it tires one out very quickly…so why was Sesshomaru so…preppy? Don't get him wrong, he loved seeing Sesshomaru salsa & sing bachata as much as the next guy but this wasn't how he normally acted. Sudden changes were always something to watch for as a new parent.
Sesshomaru crossed his arms as he stared at the pack of chicken in the sink. "Should I use the boneless thighs or the breasts…?"
"The chicken tits" the hanyou answered & received a withering glare.
"Stop talking like that. The ti-I mean breasts do not have as much fat but the thighs are so tender"
"Well what exactly are you making?"
"Mushroom & thyme chicken in a white cream sauce"
Inuyasha exhaled forcefully, lifting his bangs out of his face for a moment. "Whelp, this is out of my jurisdiction. I'll just leave you to it & go watch tv with my boy here"
As soon as he stood up, he happened to look down at Hiten who was looking up at him with wide, curious eyes. It was so unexpected, Inuyasha gasped. Hiten's eyes were a beautiful, soft grey color, rimmed in royal blue. He had no idea where the boy got those colors from but right now that wasn't a concern.
Sesshomaru trotted over & lifted a hand to his chest when he saw those peepers. "Wow…" he breathed.
Inuyasha smirked. "Now you get to see what your Otosan & daddy look like, yeah? Where'd you get those eyes, Boo? You are so unique"
Hiten's eyes darted back & forth between the two inus before he smirked (so much like his daddy, it was ridiculous) & waved his little fists around. Inuyasha kissed him all over his face, reveling in the wonderful scent of his first born child.
When Hiten began sucking on his cheek, he sighed & turned to his mate. "I think he's hungry…"
Sesshomaru chuckled & took the boy in his arms, rubbing his nose into the downy hair before feeding him. "Well do me a favor & start on dinner. I don't want to be cooking something & then the grease pops my koibito"
Inuyasha lifted an eyebrow. "Where are you going?"
"I'm going to order more diapers & clothes. Babies go through those like water through your open hand" the inuyoukai explained, pulling up the chicken recipe on his phone & handing it to his mate.
"Sessh, seriously, you should get some re-"
"Yasha, Yasha, honey, I'm fine. When everything is situated & in order, I'll sit down. Until then, just let me be. Please"
The hanyou was surprised the sentence ended with such pleading; he just wanted to make sure Sesshomaru didn't get burned out. He watched his mate amble down the hallway, murmuring to Hiten. Might as well let him have his way.
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Inuyasha tossed the screwdriver to the side & let out a frustrated sigh. He hated assembling furniture & Sesshomaru already had him put together a dresser, a crib, a mobile bouncy thing & the freaking stroller. Enough was enough!
"Sessh!"
"What?" came the irritable answer from their bedroom.
Inuyasha got up & stomped to where Sesshomaru was sitting on their bed, typing away at his laptop. "I'm sick & tired of putting this shit together that you keep buying, knowing good & damn well we don't need this shit!"
"I suggest you watch your tone with me, half breed"
"The fuck you just say?" Inuyasha asked, his eyebrows near his hairline. He hadn't been called that since way before he was found in InuTaisho's stables all those years ago. He had just been (half) joking when he stomped into the room; he didn't think Sesshomaru would take offense that quickly.
"I am not in the mood to deal with your outbursts today" Sesshomaru murmured. Hiten, who was on the pillow beside him, playing with his feet, noticed Inuyasha & squealed in delight. To the hanyou's complete & utter surprise, Sesshomaru shot him a very irritated glare like the boy had been annoying him all morning.
"What is wrong with you?" Inuyasha asked, stepping closer but slowly, "Don't look at my son like that"
It was the inuyouai's turn to look surprised. "Your son? I'm sorry, did you give birth to this boy? Did he come out of a hole your body formed, specifically for giving birth, mind you that formation was quite painful? Do you breastfeed him every two hours? From my vantage point, the only thing you've done is donate your sperm to make a baby!"
Inuyasha didn't know what to say. Had Sesshomaru always felt this way? Had he been holding this in all this time, just waiting for the opportunity to vent?
Sesshomaru sighed in disgust & waved his hand dismissively. "Just get out. Whatever piece of furniture you haven't done, I'll just do it myself"
"No" the inuhanyou said softly.
"What?"
"I'm not going anywhere until you apologize to me"
"Apologize?" Sesshomaru exclaimed, lifting an eyebrow, "What would I apologi-"
"You are not going to brush aside me doing whatever I can for my son as "donating my sperm"! I'm doing a lot more out here than majority of these muh'fuckas who don't give a damn about their kids & you think just because I can't feed him from my tit, I ain't shit? Nah, you apologizing to me, Sessh, fuck that. You were way outta line" Inuyasha growled, pacing back & forth but keeping eye contact.
Sesshomaru's face held that old stoic disapproval Inuyasha always hated but he said nothing.
The half breed flung the remote & a few pillows off the bed, startling Hiten who began crying. He knew he was over-reacting. He'd dealt with plenty of the former Prince of the Western Land's haughty attitude for longer than he cared to count but this time was different. This time was outright disrespect & for someone who has stuck around this long, loved him through everything they'd been through & was the best father he knew how to be, he deserved better.
Inuyasha took a deep breath. He needed to leave before he really lost his temper. As soon as he turned on his heel to head out the door, he heard the unmistakable sniffle & the smell of fresh tears. Common sense would've racked it up to Hiten whining from not getting the attention he needed but he knew that sniffle. That was no infant sniffle. Inuyasha turned & clenched his jaw as he watched slow tears track down Sesshomaru's beautiful face. His jaw was trembling but other than that his face remained the same, blank.
Inuyasha sighed. "Sessh…c'mon, stop cryin—"
"I'm sorry. I was wrong. You're the best father Hiten could have…" the demon said tearfully, his voice thick, "I shouldn't have said any of that. I'm sorry"
The hanyou went over & enveloped his love in a warm hug, kissing his forehead, his nose, his cheeks, his lips repeatedly. "It's alright, mama, calm down. Hey, hey, hey, calm down, baby"
He'd never seen Sesshomaru cry so hard. He cried like he was physically broken, like there was no hope for anything & the world was ending way before it was ready to. Inuyasha had absolutely no idea exactly why he was crying or what started it but he wished it was over. Seeing Sesshomaru cry like this made his heart hurt a lot. He held the inuyoukai for what felt like hours, rocking & speaking softly to him then Sesshomaru dozed off, exhausted. Inuyasha gently laid him down, covered him with some blankets & took Hiten who was close to sleep himself. The child rubbed his face into his father's shirt & yawned before dozing off himself while the hanyou walked slowly around the house. Sesshomaru had had mood swings before but nothing this drastic. What could be going on? What started it? Was this another side effect of the treatment that helped him get pregnant, delayed as it was? Or maybe it was just hormones.
Inuyasha reached him his pocket for his phone & dialed a number that was always kept at the top of his contacts list.
"This is Dr. Robbins speaking"
"Hey, doc, ya got a moment?"
"Why, of course, Mr. Inuyasha. Is everything alright?"
"Well, yes & no. I mean, Hiten is great, he's fine-"
"Oh, thank goodness" Dr. Robbins breathed.
"But Sessh has been acting weird, like, one minute, he's pissed then the next, he's crying his eyes out then it's like walking on eggshells around him. I'm not sure if it's his hormones & he needs some kind of treatment or…what should I do?"
"Well, many pregnant women, uh, o-or men, have their baby & then experience baby blues. They tend to be moody, fatigued, restless or even have trouble sleeping. It's quite normal & does not need treating but if it lasts for longer than two weeks or he stops eating or has trouble bonding with Hiten then bring him in. That's symptoms of postpartum depression & it can only get worse if not treated"
Inuyasha exhaled slowly. "So…he's alright?"
"Yes, he's as expected. He's not experiencing anything severe for now but keep a close eye on Mr. Sesshomaru. Try to take him outside at least once a day. The sun will probably help him feel better"
"Alright, thanks, doc" Inuyasha murmured & hung up the phone. He laid Hiten down in his crib then went back to their bedroom where Sesshomaru was sitting up, rubbing his face sleepily.
"You didn't sleep long" Inuyasha observed & went over to kiss the demon on his forehead.
Sesshomaru sighed. "I'm so tired but I can never get enough sleep to where I feel rested"
"Maybe ya got baby blues"
"I have…what?"
"I called Dr. Robbins & she sai—"
"You called Dr. Robbins? For what?"
"Well, for one, I was fuckin' worried about ya & second, I needed answers. I ain't done this shit before, ya know?"
"Why would you go to her when you could just talk to me, Inuyasha?"
"You know the difference between baby blues & postpartum depression? You know the symptoms of each? Yeah, I ain't think so, that's why I went to her now stop acting like I betrayed you or something"
Sesshomaru clenched his hands into fists, his eyes fired up like a renegade firecracker. "You dare speak about me behind my back as if I am mentally challenged?!"
Inuyasha's eyes rolled closed & he took several deep breaths. He was not going to take the bait & get into another argument with this guy. "I ain't finna argue with you, Sessh. I wanted to know why you're acting like this-"
"Like what?! Like someone who gets on your nerves, Inuyasha?! Like someone who is not able to care for his child?! Like someone who is disposable?!"
"I never implied even one of those statements! You talkin' real reckless right now!"
Sesshomaru stood; the look on his face paired with his body language was very intimidating even though Inuyasha was taller. "Are you calling me crazy?"
"Wha-no! What is wron-you know what? No. No, I'm not calling you anything. Matter fact, I ain't saying shit else. I'm gonna go get something to eat, you want something?"
The inuyoukai stared at his mate, jaw clenched & nostrils flared. He seemed to tremble in rage…& then he exhaled & relaxed. "No. I'm not hungry"
The hanyou raised an eyebrow. "You aight?"
"I'm fine. Where ever you go, just bring me back a milkshake or something similar" Sesshomaru muttered & got back into bed before pulling the blankets over his head.
Inuyasha exhaled in a huff & shook his head. Boy, these mood swings were going to be the end of him. He checked on Hiten & after finding the boy sleeping soundly, he kissed his forehead & left to go get some food.
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"Oh yeah, Sango went through that with both girls"
Inuyasha sighed. "Man, I'm not gonna deal with this shit after every kid. He goes from angry as hell to a sobbing mess to just emotionless all in five minutes. I can't take this shit anymore"
Miroku chuckled. "Take the yin with the yang, my friend. Their hormones do some crazy things that we will never understand because we'll never birth children"
"I'm glad I can't either. Sessh already stays in his head a lot, ain't no telling what's eating him mentally"
"True enough. Stick it out with him though. You guys have been together longer than I've been alive; no point in leaving him now"
Inuyasha chuckled & pulled into the garage, shifting the phone from one ear to the other so he could put it in park. "You're right about that. Listen, I just got home so I'll let you go. If he acts like this when he's not hungry, ain't no telling what kind of batshit crazy mood he's gonna be in when his stomach starts acting up"
"Alright, have fun"
"Don't I always?"
They hung up & Inuyasha gathered the bags of food before hauling himself out of the car with them & went to the door. As soon as he started to unlock the door he noticed there was music playing from inside, upbeat, dancing kind of music. He raised an eyebrow. Was he even sure he wanted to go in there?
In the end, he decided it was best not to keep Your Highness waiting & pushed the door open. Inuyasha damn near dropped the bags of food when he saw Sesshomaru dancing around the living room with Hiten in his arms, the little boy giggling madly as they waltzed back & forth to some pop song that was popular these days.
This may be the night that my dreams might let me know
All the stars are closer
All the stars are closer
All the stars are closer….
Inuyasha looked off to the side like he was staring at a camera in The Office. These freaking mood swings!
