Chapter 3
Waking up the next morning, I am still in Juice's arms. I open my eyes and see him watching me. "Watching me sleep?" I ask. "Maybe." he says smiling softly. "You're weird." I say laughing. He caresses my cheek, causing me to stop laughing and look at him. "What are we doing Juice?" I ask. "I want you to be my girl." he says. "Juice…" I start. "Just hear me out." he says and I nod. "Let's just keep this quiet for now, see where things go. Take it a day at a time." he says. I look into his eyes and say "Okay." He smiles that wide smile I love and kisses me softly before I snuggle into his chest, feeling his arms around me.
We get up and ready for work, him leaving thirty minutes before me and I head to the garage. I walk into the office and clock in and Gemma walks in. "How have you been baby?" she asks. "Really good Gemma." I tell her smiling. She kisses my temple and says "I'm going to go spend some time with Abel." she tells me. "Give him a kiss for me." I tell her. She nods and heads out the door.
The work day goes by and it's time to head home. Sitting on my couch, there's a knock at the door and thinking it's Juice, I look through the peephole and see it's Jax. "Jax? What are you doing here?" I ask, confused. "I need you Lo." he says walking into the house. He pulls me to him and tries to kiss me. I pull away and ask "What are you doing Jax?" He looks at me shocked for rejecting him and says "Tara and I are done." I roll my eyes and say "No you're not. You say that every time you get into it and then the next day you're back together. I'm not a croweater Jax. I won't be treated like one. You only come around to get your dick wet. Go work things out with your Old Lady." I tell him, walking to the door and holding it opened. "This have anything to do with a certain brother of mine that's been spending his nights here?" he asks. "That's not your business." I tell him. "But it is." He says stepping closer to me. Getting into my face he says "You're mine and only mine. You call things off with him or I do." he says. "I'm not doing that." I say. "You will. Because if you don't, I'll tell him it's a club order to stay away from you and being his VP he won't have a choice but to listen." he tells me. "You wouldn't do that." I say. "Try me. Call him. Now." he tells me. I shake my head no. He pins me to the wall by my throat and says "Call. Him. Now." he seethes in my face, his grip getting tighter on my throat. He hands me my phone and loosens his grip on my throat but doesn't let go. I dial his number. "Hey Princess." Juice answers. "I can't do this Juice. I'm sorry." I tell him. "Can't do what baby?" he asks. "I can't be with you. I'm sorry. Please don't call me or text me anymore." I say before hanging up as the tears fall. "Good girl." Jax says as he releases my throat and starts to kiss down my neck. Taking my hand, he leads me to my bedroom and starts to undress me. He undresses and enters me roughly, thrusting in and out hard and fast, he finds his release without me finding mine. As usual, he's gone before I wake up.
I get up for work, and walk into the office and get to work, not speaking to anyone. Lunch rolls around and Jax comes to the office. "Lunch is here." he says like nothing happened. "I'm good. I want to get this done." I say. He nods and heads out to eat his lunch. After work, I head home and my phone rings. Seeing that it's Juice, the tears start to fall and I hit ignore. I see a text come across from Juice. Baby, what did I do? Tell me how to fix this. I don't respond. Just just delete the text as the tears fall. A little later, I hear a bike pull up, I look through the window and see it's Juice. He knocks on the door and I start sob harder. "Baby, please let me in." he begs and I don't answer. After a few minutes he says "Baby, don't do this. Please." Getting no answer, he finally leaves. I can't handle it. I get a bottle of Jack and some sleeping pills and before I know it. Everything goes black.