June 2011

It was early morning when the anomaly alert sounded. Connor did run to the ADD, Matt followed him and after seconds Connor said "The anomaly is at the east coast,.. near the Roslin beach hotel."

Now Jenny was there too and after she heard where the anomaly was, she sighed deeply "Great, there will be a lot of tourist."

Matt looked at her and with a smile he said "Well, then lets hope no creature found their way through an anomaly."

One hour later they finally reached the Roslin beach Hotel. Connor was looking at the small device in his hand and said "The anomaly is near the cave." After that he looked at Matt, who sensed that and commanded "Connor, Abby and Becker, you will search the area and look for a creature incursion. Jenny and I will close the anomaly."

Matt walked side by side with Jenny and after a moment he said "I thought you said that a lot of tourist would be here."

Jenny glanced at Matt for a second and replied "Well either the rain had scared them of…. or a creature."

"I bet on the rain." Matt said with a smile and Jenny smiled back at him.

Abby was walking beside Connor and Becker. Before her eyes could see something she heard a loud growl and stooped walking for a moment. She looked around and then she spotted an ancient crocodile, which was standing between some trees. Abby turned to Becker and Connor and told them that she saw a creature. Together they slowly move closer to it and sedated the ancient crocodile. Now all they had to do was bring it back to the anomaly.

At the same time Jenny and Matt reached the anomaly. The anomaly was right above the coast.

Jenny and Matt were almost right in front of the anomaly, when a big crocodile come out of the anomaly. The crocodile started to run toward to Jenny and she started to scream. Jenny was anxious and Matt pushed her on the other side to prevent that the creature hurt her. Then he took his gun and shoot the creature. Seconds later the creature fell down and Matt closed the anomaly. Jenny was still on the ground when Matt stepped forward to her and reach out his hand to help her up. Jenny took his hand and a second later she was standing again. Her gaze fell at the sealed anomaly. Her mind travelled to the day when Helen come out of an anomaly. It still felt like it was yesterday.

Matt looked at her and asked in concerned way "Are you okay?" Jenny didn't said a word. She was not okay. She pretended to be but she wasn't. She really wasn't okay. She tried to mask the grief she felt over Cutters death when she had work to do, but somehow she failed at that attempt today. She was broken hearted and tried really hard to put herself together but she couldn't anymore. It was just to much. The pain she felt was too much.

Matt stepped further to her, placed an arm around her and Jenny leaned closer to him. Tear started to run down her face when she admitted "I cant go on without him. I miss him so much I ... "

Matt tried to comfort her as much as he could. It was hard for him to watch Jenny feeling so much pain because after all in some way he felt responsible for her grief. It was his job to prevent that Helen killed Nick. It was his job to protect Nick Cutter but he failed and now he was reminded by his failure everyday and every time he saw one of the team grieving for Cutter. It was his fault and there was nothing he could do to change it right now.

Matt wasn't supposed to tell anybody that he came from the future but right now, when he saw Jenny in such pain, he wished he could tell her. After everything he went through and after everything he had see, he was convinced that there was always another way. There was always a chance that he might could change the past. After all it was his job to change the future and so he believe he could also, if necessary chance the past.

Maybe another anomaly would open up and maybe this anomaly would be in the time before Cutter was killed. Even though he knew he had no right to chance things like that, he also believed that some mistake especially those made by him needed to be prevented, if in any way possible. Maybe he could stop Helen in another timeline and maybe that would change Cutter`s fate. Suddenly Matt heard his fathers voice deep inside his mind reminding him that his only job now is stop Helen Cutter from destroying the planet and he needs to distant himself from the others. He wasn't allowed to get emotionally involved. He knew that but it was already to late for that and even the voice of his father couldn't change his hope. Matt was still lost in thoughts when he felt Jenny's body trembling against his. She was shivering and he pulled her little closer. Jenny was grateful for the comfort and for a moment she did let herself go because right here Matt would catch her.

Some minutes later her tears were already drying and she pulled away while she said in an embarrassed way "I am sorry, Matt. I shouldn't have let myself...I …" But Matt didn't let her finish the sentence nor did he let her go. He softly grabbed her arm and assured her "You don't have to apologized… I know how it feels to loose someone you love and I know how you feel... "he stopped for a moment, did run his fingers through his hair and looked into Jenny's eyes for a moment before he loosed his grab.

Before he could say anything else Becker, Connor and Abby arrived with the other crocodile. Then they opened the anomaly, put the creature back, closed the anomaly again and returned to the ARC.

It was already late at night when Jenny was still in her office. She had no reason to go home and she couldn't sleep anyway. She was so confused and considered seriously quitting the job and moving away because everything here reminded her of Cutter and that was just to painful. Maybe she could find some peace when she leaves the ARC and everything behind her. Maybe she could be happy again one day or maybe not. But she knew that, if she wouldn't move forward and make a fresh start she would never get over Cutter and she would always feel lost. But would moving away really be the solution?

She had lost the man she loved and she was sure that they were meant to be. Cutter would always be with her in some way. She could move to the end of the world and she still would think about him.

Sure she had loved before him and probably she would be able to love after him, but it would never be as it was with him. Deep inside her heart she knew that she and Nick were meant to be and there would never be some else who held that place in her heart. A part of her would always belong to him.

Now she could imagined what Cutter felt when Claudia vanished. Now she could feel his pain. The only difference was that Cutter was not replaced, he was gone and she would never get him back. Tears started to fill her eyes, she couldn't hold them back, she was powerless and helpless. The idea of leaving everything behind her sounded better and better every minute. Maybe it was for the best. She couldn't go on like that. On the other side she couldn't imagined to leave Connor and Abby. They were family to her but they also had each other and she had no one.

Jenny looked out of the window and realised that her mind was full with unclear thoughts. She couldn't think clearly and she didn't know what to do but she did know that in her current status she wasn't able to make a right decision for herself.

She washed away her tears and did put on her jacket. On her way out she passed the office that once belonged to Cutter. Through the closed door she could see a light and went in.

She saw Matt who was standing in front of the table and right in front of him there where digital pictures which where almost flying through the air. Jenny could see pictures of anomalies, of Cutter and Helen. When Matt realised that somebody was there it was too late to close the pictures because Jenny already asked "What is that?"

Matt knew that he couldn't talk himself out of that. The pictures were clear and he knew Jenny wouldn't give up till he explained it to her. A part of him felt a little bit of realise because now he could at least talk to someone. Matt was still staring at her and Jenny started to get impatient while she asked again "What is that, Matt?"

Matt sighed deeply and started to explain "Okay, okay... this may sound crazy but I am from the future. I came here because I knew that Helen Cutter wanted to killed Nick... and it was my job to prevent that. Unfortunately I couldn't and now I am trying to make it right. It is important to find Helen because killing her husband wasn't the only thing she is going to do. She will destroy the whole planet. The atmosphere will be toxic and most of the living things are dead. I have to stop her."

Jenny had heard and seen a lot of crazy stuff. Especially from Cutter, but this? This was simply unbelievable. She could imagine him being from the future but why didn't he said anything. Shouldn't the others know it too? Why hiding that Helen is a bigger threat then they thought?

Jenny watched the documents and saw what happened in the future. It all started with Helen killing Nick. Jenny turned away from the documents and looked at Matt for a moment. Could she trust him? She couldn't tell. She didn't knew him enough to know, if she could trust him. A moment later she cleared her throat and asked "Why keeping this a secret? Why not telling everybody?"

"I wasn't allowed to say anything….. Helen Cutter is more dangerous than anybody of you ever anticipated and I had make sure that no one knows because neither of you is suppose to see what happens in the future."

"We could have worked together and tried to find her."

"Jenny, if I had walked in here and mentioned Helen Cutter so shortly after she killed Nick nobody would have listen to me. Everybody would have thought that I had something to do with her, you were all occupied in grieving. Neither of you were ready to see what threat she is. I had to be careful."

Then he opened another file and showed Jenny the things Helen Cutter was responsible for it. Some minutes later he said "She can't continued. It is my job to stop her. No matter what."

Jenny needed a moment to realised everything and then she wanted to know "So now you need to find Helen and kill her?"

Matt nodded and Jenny continued "Is there a chance to get him back?"

Matt sighed deeply and said "I don't know. I am sorry. Right now all I have to do is stop Helen."

"But how. Helen is gone… Do you know if and when she comes back?"

"Yeah"

"When?"

On the 10th August 2011 she will return. There will be an anomaly in the forest of dean. Helen will be in that anomaly and I have to find her. This is my last chance to stop her."