A/N- aw thanks for those whose liking the fic. I hope you like this next chapter. A bit angsty...
Includes excerpt of : Still got tonight
Omniscient PoV
Jayma and Matt's relationship was already a week long. They had dinner together one night. Their excuse to Adam was that she had to go over on work so she finished late. It was very hard to keep the relationship happy. Matt always felt jealous and insecure of himself whenever he called her. Whenever they would kiss and she would leave and go home to Adam. He knew their relationship wasn't legit. He knew that Jayma could just call him and say that they're over because she can't handle it anymore. There are so many things that could happen. But the worst part was that if they didn't work out, then what would they be to each other?
There's an event that they were both attending to today. In about a few hours the red carpet would be revealed and numerous stars would come up. They hadn't filmed so they could get ready for this occasion. After all everyone will be there. And that was including Adam. This celebration also had dinner included, a few performances. It wasn't too formal. Jayma didn't have to wear a gown like she does in SAG awards and Golden Globes. This was far less than that. More on having fun.
Matt had thought otherwise, knowing that Adam would be there. And after all they can't be seen in public together anyway, he was so nervous as Ryan called him up the other day and asked him to perform a song number. But he pulled through and figured the song he would be singing. He knew that Adam would be there. Of course he would. That means Jayma would be holding his hand while walking on the red carpet, as beautiful as she can ever be. He would be right beside her throughout the whole event and he couldn't steal glances with her nor whisper words of love in her ears. No, he can't. Her husband will be there and he has to fully understand that he is, and will always be the outsider.
Adam had drove them to the venue, in which a man had parked their car so they could go down and proceed to the red carpet. All the glee cast were there. They were apparently really close to Adam as he comes to set when he has the time too. After all he is also a busy man. Jayma held tight onto Adam until she saw Will in the back, talking to Jane. He was pretty serious and she smiled to herself. She held Adam's arm as the other younger cast had gone down so The photographers could take photos of them. Lea having an interview with Kelly. Naya, Kevin and Jenna laughing on Amber. This cast was her family. It was always fun to see them fooling around.
"Hello Matthew." Adam says shaking his friend's hand. Jayma turned back to see her two lovers talking to each other. She slowly walked to them noticing Matt's anger-filled face. Which she only knew.
"No one special here with you today?" Adam adds. Matt's eyes widen and he looks at Jayma suddenly.
"Unfortunately not. I really have a liking on someone though." He shrugs.
"Well why not make a move on the lucky lady? Anyone would want you Matt." Adam says clapping his shoulder.
"She's taken." He simply says, he steals a glance towards Jayma who was looking down.
She was so embarrassed as Matt was talking about her in front of her husband. She knew how hard it was for Matt to have this relationship with her. Convincing others there's no one special for him. Going on parties alone because he can't be seen with her in public. This was really hard.
Jayma and Adam had to go to and Matt was left behind. Jayma looked back at him and he seemed to be thinking deeply. Jayma sighed and she just knew that she had to make it up to him.
It was okay until an interviewer asked them "Can you lock lips with your husband? We've seen you kiss John Stamos in the former episode and lots with Matt. But never ever with your real off screen love." the girl smirks. Jayma's jaw dropped as she knew that Matt would be right there looking at them. She hadn't responded. "Please Jayma." The girl says. Adam smiles at her and nods.
"Okay." Jayma smiles at Adam and looks at Matt. His eyes were almost brimming with tears.
Jayma leaned in to kiss Adam. Slowly moving her lips in time with his. She closed her eyes feeling the sensation and warmth of his lips on hers, even if he was her husband, she craved for Matt's lips more than the one she was having right now. She closed her eyes not wanting to think about Matt at a time like this, once they were both content they mutually pulled away.
The interviewers were in awe of what just took place.
"You're the sweetest couple in Hollywood." The girl remarks.
"Well, my baby girl right here is the best wife in Hollywood so there's no doubt." Adama smiles. She felt guilty as he said 'best wife' she was far from that she knew it, she was jilting this man behind his back. She was in a relationship that she knew wasn't right but was also sure that it's far from wrong.
Jayma and Adam walk away hand-in-hand.
"Jayma?!" The interviewer called. "We'd like you and Matt to have some photos for the Wemma fans." The photographer says. Adam nods so that Jayma could proceed to Matt. The two were really good friends. Well, Matt pretended to be.
She slowly made her way to Matt who gently put his arm on her waist and she did as well. They were grinning in front of the camera.
"Now we can't ask you two to kiss. Considering you're not in a real life relationship and Jayma's married." The interviewer frowned. "Everyone could've loved it." she says.
Both their eyes widened s they said that the two had no real life relationship. But they smiled at the thought of people loving their off screen kisses, one thing they would be happy to show everyone else in the future. But right now they had to keep what they have for each other.
"See you tomorrow, I really love you, my not girlfriend." Matt whispers, causing Jayma to giggle.
Matt had gotten some solo shots and Jayma walked towards Adam. Adam took her hand and held it closer to his and they slowly walked inside the venue where the other cast were. There were movie stars and tv show stars all over the place, musicians, composers and so many more. The glee cast had a very big table assigned to them, figurines with their names on it stuck to each chair for each person.
They made their way, Jayma sitting beside Dianna and Adam sitting beside Mark. Opposite them was Matt's figurine since he was still outside and Cory on his right, Chord on his left. Jayma smiled, at least he was right there in front of her.
Matt had arrived and Jayma had started conversation with Dianna, Amber and Naya and Adam with Mark. 10 minutes in and the program had started. Darren being one of the hosts with Lucy Hale. They were served dinner shortly after. Jayma and Adam fooling around like they were teenagers and Matt looking at them confused. Jayma had noticed him and she looked down at her food and started to eat. She smiles at him once she got to hold eye contact with him. He smiles back.
It was a normal dinner mingling with others while waiting for what's coming next. Jayma had talked to various people and so did Matt, but who they really wanted to talk to was each other. They knew they couldn't, if they were together, too much PDA would be released and they were in front of 200 people? They decided it was best to avoid each other.
There were good numbers by famous artists but Jayma almost jumped when Lucy had introduced Matt for the next number. She looked at him and he gives her a signature look of his that he reserves for her. He runs up stage.
"I'd like to dedicate this to all of you. And for all those who are in a relationship in which you have to keep from thousands of people." he swallows a lump on his throat as the band starts to play the intro of one of the hits in his self-named album.
"If you're not home, I'll sit here on your doorstep Button up my coat and wait" Jayma smiles at the ground. His voice was absolutely sexy.
"We'll go upstairs close the curtains and we're all set
to pick up where we left again
There's question marks hangin' over us
But we won't give the time of day, oh
'Cause all we got is these few stolen seconds
And we can't let them go to waste"
"The stars collide
We come back to life
We come back to life
The sparks will fly
One look in your eyes
My heart's open wide
I know time's running out now
But we'll hold back the sun somehow
See the sky?
We've still got tonight
We've still got tonight"
"So keep your eyes open
There's no time to close them
Just hold on
So tight now
We still got tonight"
"If all we got is these few stolen seconds
We can't let em go to waste!" he finished with a high note. Jayma clapped loudly. He wasn't triple threat for nothing.
She excused herself from Adam telling him that she'll head to the little girls' room.
She ran to where Matt had exited and dragged him to a private place. He obliged as soon as he found out that it was her who did so. Once they were free from people. She hugged him tightly.
"You're amazing Matt." She whispers. He hugs her back and closes his eyes to savor the moment, he knew that minutes later they would be back and ignoring each other once again.
"You're beautiful Jayma." Matt says still clinging to her.
"I love you." she says.
"I love you too." he whispers. He cups her cheeks in his hands and leans in to kiss her passionately. Their lips moved in sync with each other and they both pulled away knowing that if they don't leave, someone would eventually see them.
"More tomorrow. Don't worry." Matt smirks. Jayma smiles widely at him. She lets him go first so that no one would suspect them. A minute or two later, she slowly starts walking back to her seat to see him fully paying attention to the event that was taking place. She was staring at him and looking at all his beauty when she felt a hand on her shoulder.
"What's wrong Jayma? Are you okay?" Adam asks.
"Yeah. I'm fine." she says smiling lightly. No, she wasn't fine. She was in a relationship with a man she loves but she has to keep it because she's married to a man she loves as well. Believe it or not, yes she still loves Adam. The only thing is, she loves Matt more than she loves Adam. She wasn't okay. She had to make a life changing decision and either of her choices, she would hurt both herself and a man she loves.
The rest of the night was a blast. Thrilling performances by famous artists, good company. Everything seemed to be alright. It was a tiring night and she had to go to set the next day. Jayma sighed as she walked back inside her house. Adam following closely behind her. Catching up to her and capturing her lips on his. She returned the kiss eagerly.
The two finished Preparing themselves.
"Let's got to bed baby. I'm tired." Adam says followed by a yawn.
"That I can agree too." She sighed.
She slides inside the covers and into Adam's arms snuggling closer to him. He kisses her forehead and falls asleep. As for Jayma, she was still awake thinking of what Matt could be doing. He would be alone for sure. She didn't want that for him. She wanted her to be beside him right now. To snuggle up to him and fall asleep into his arms.
Matt got home and he opened his laptop and went on YouTube. He searches for the person he really wanted to see right now. Jayma. He loved seeing her videos, she was always so adorable in interviews and such. What surprised him was the first and newest video on. It was entitled. 'Jayma Mays dishing about married life' it was uploaded by 'The Nest' and he had remembered that Jayma had told him that she would be in the magazine. But she didn't tell him that Adam would be there as well. He summed up all the courage he had inside of him and he clicked on the video.
He couldn't forget the way Adam held Jayma. He couldn't forget the way Jayma clung onto Adam's arm. He couldn't forget how Jayma looked at him whenever he was talking about their past. She seemed so happy. But he was mad that that happiness didn't come from him. Wen she put a blueberry on Adam's mouth. He almost cracked. The way she ruffled his hair, he remembered how she did it on him. She begged for her touch. The next scene was they were out in the yard and sitting on the grass drinking wine. He didn't know what was coming up to him but he just wanted to rip her arm out of his and hold her tight. He wanted Jayma for himself.
It was when she was alone and talking about Jayma and Matt when he felt guilty. Yeah of course he remembered. She was the lead actress in that horrible pilot episode named 'Nice girls don't get the corner office' in which they were also cast as love interests. Matt knew that there was something special with Jayma but he was too shy to act upon what he was feeling then. Now he knew how much of a mistake that was. Things could've been different. He could've been the one Jayma was holding onto. He could've been the one who was in the interview with her. They could've been the perfect couple.
He was green in jealousy with Adam. He has the woman he loves.
Xx
Jayma was just dubbing her voice for 'Toucha Toucha'. Only episode two was out but they had already finished filming the next 3 and they were now filming the fifth. Entitled 'The rocky horror glee show'. Jayma was privileged to sing Toucha Toucha which was her audition song for glee. Matt had dance practice with Harry and Kevin.
After 4 takes, they finally got the best of Jayma's singing voice. Matt was still practicing his dance moves with the guys. He really loved to dance, it was a way of showing his emotions to the people. And also to use Some bottled up energy.
Jayma sighed as she was given a break, she went to get a lattè and figured it would be good to get Matt one headed to his trailer. She sat down and waited for him.
10 minutes later he opens the door and gasps as he sees Jayma. She wasn't shooting anything so she was just in jeans and a simple loose shirt that made her left shoulder visible. She was sitting on his couch latte in hand. She stands up and gets the other cup and proceeds to Matt.
"I got you a drink baby. I figured you'd need some after practice with the guys." She smiles handing it to him. He accepts it smiling at her. He proceeds to sit on the couch. He wasn't mad at Jayma, but maybe his jealousy was taking over him. Jayma runs a hand through her hair and looks and becomes suspicious with Matt's actions. Why was he acting this way? She had thought.
"Matty? Are you okay?" Jayma asks sitting down beside him and putting a hand on his back.
"I'm fine." he answers, not bearing to look at her.
"What's wrong? Don't tell me there's nothing wrong cause I know it when I see it." Jayma says trying to make eye contact with her. Once again he doesn't allow her to.
"What do you think will become of our relationship? Is this just your past time for when Adam's not around?"
"I actually don't know about that first question. But no Matt! I love you and that's why I'm here with you now." she says smiling.
"Well I don't know what to do." he sighs.
"You-you want us to be over?" she asks. Closing her eyes as she felt tears fall fm her eyes. He cursed himself for letting her hint to that. The last thing he wanted was to break up with her. This week has been the happiest of his life despite the jealousy.
"No Jayma! Don't ever think that."
"Well what do you want to happen." She looks down. Wiping the few remaining tears away.
"I saw the interview." he simply said.
"Matt I, I didn't want to tell you about it because I know that you wouldn't want to see it." She nervously and hurriedly said.
"I was jealous Jay. So so jealous. I could remember every detail. How you clung to his arm. How you looked at him. How you laughed when he was telling stories about your past. Jay, I want to share those all with you. I wanted to be the one in that interview with you. I want to tell the world about our story. About how we fell in love with each other. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for feeling this way." he shook his head, tears falling from his eyes as he looked into Jayma's honey eyes for the first time that day.
"You shouldn't be jealous Matt." she said cupping his cheeks in her hands, the pad of her thumb wiping her tears away.
"Why not? The woman I love is so near me yet I can't grab her hand in front of other people. I can't kiss her whenever I want to. But what hurts the most? Seeing her loving someone else other than him. Seeing her go home to another guy." he says letting his tears flow freely.
"You know why?" she pauses. "Because I love you more than I love him. You're right I love him. But my love for him can't compare to my love for you. You shouldn't be jealous. Every time I kiss him or hold his hand, I pray and hope that he's you. Every time I go to bed and snuggle up to him, I think about you, about what you're doing and wishing that it was you instead of him. I know it's wrong but I love you Matt." she says hugging him tightly.
"I, I just want to hold onto something. I want to be with you Jayma. I want to be with you freely. I want to tell the whole world that I love you. I know it can't happen now but will it ever? I don't want us living on a lie. I don't want to be your second for the rest of my life."
"You're not my second. I won't ever treat you like my second." She says.
"But I feel as though I am. That kiss you gave to him in the red carpet. Heck Jayma when you're with him I feel like you don't even know I exist!"
"That's not true Matt, you and I both know that we can't tell Adam!" she exclaims.
"Will it be like this forever? You pretending to love someone fully when you don't. Me pretending to have no one there for me just to keep our beautiful world hidden. I don't want you to do this Jayma. You and I both know what we're doing is not nice, would you want to live like this forever?"
"I don't know Matt. I just want to be with you." she says snuggling up to his arm.
"But?" he asks. Asking her to continue her monologue.
"I can't break Adam's heart that easy." she says. "Give this time Matt. 1 month. One month and I'll decide. I just don't want to lose you." she says tears following.
"You're not losing me. I love you, I'd never let you get away." he whispers kissing her forehead.
"Matt, Adam won't be home for the weekend until Tuesday. Do you think I can spend those with you?"
"I thought you'd never ask." he simply answers.
Once again, jealousy had almost ruined what they had built. But right now, Jayma had lots of thinking to do and Matt needs a lot of patience as well.