Rated T just incase.
Hurt/Comfort
Omniscient POV
The weekend had been the best of their lives as far as they had remembered. Jayma snuggling up to Matt before they had went to bed, cooking breakfast, lunch and dinner together. They wanted to spend their whole lives that way. Matt wanted to rise and see a beautiful woman sleeping next to him. That was when he knew that he can't ever go back to the way they were before, hiding everything from Adam. Meeting only when they have the time too. No, he wanted to love her freely like they did in the past two days.
And they hadn't done IT. They knew that it wasn't a way to start a relationship. It was a way to express their love for each other in a different way. They wanted to wait for the right time. And that weekend just wasn't it.
Jayma had went back home on Sunday evening not wanting to risk the fact that Adam might catch them. She scanned the rooms, their new house was unimaginably beautiful. She was glad she took this risk. It looked exactly like the dream house she had wanted it to be. Her room perfect. Everything was how she wanted it to be. But as she walked around the house not finding the comfort she had once felt in this home, she knew that she wanted to be with Matt. To leave this house and stay with him. All thoughts of Adam had gone. She spent the cold, dark night beside her fire place, thinking about what the future held for her. She didn't want to live in this perfect house that seemed so cold, so uncomfortable, she wanted to be with Matt.
It's true, she still loves and cares for Adam. She knew that their marriage was faltering without him even knowing about it but Jayma hadn't felt the love she had once felt for him. She had to do a lot of thinking. One month, one month was the time she asked from Matt. But is one month enough? She didn't know, she didn't have a clue. Yes, she's in love with Matt. In every possible way. But she couldn't break the heart of a man who she loved and cared for, for a very long time. Yes, their marriage was fading but that didn't mean that she had the right to cheat on Adam, to break his heart. It was all just too much. She wanted to risk everything for her love for Matt, but was her marriage a part of it? She didn't know.
Jayma and Matt were shooting a scene for The Rocky Horror Glee Show. The scene in which Will asked Emma if she could be their costume designer. Second take and Jayma's eyes widened at the sight before her. It was Adam. He got home earlier than expected. But it wasn't that she was afraid of, it was the look in his eyes. There was anger, she swore if looks could kill he could've killed so many people by now. He walked in the set not asking permission from the camera men, they were definitely shocked as we were filming a scene when Adam barged in. Jayma stood up.
"Adam, we're in the middle of shooting." She says.
"Is this more important than our marriage?" he asks, his voice cracking. His eyes brimming with tears.
"I don't know what you're talking about Adam." she looks at him in confusion.
"This is more important isn't it? Because you see him here. Because you get to kiss him here. Because you could make out with him here without anybody knowing." Adam tells her, referring to Matt. He looked back but Jayma stopped him from standing up.
"It's not what you thi-"
"Not what I think?" He fishes for his phone on his pocket. He opens it and thrusts the phone to her face. It was a picture of her and Matt kissing by the trailers. She had remembered that day, it was after they had filmed brittney/Brittany.
Jayma stood there speechless.
"Jayma how could you do this to me?" Adam asks looking her in the eyes. Cupping her cheeks in his hand. "Was I too boring that you had to get him of all people to make out with you? Maybe that's not all you had done? Is he good in bed? Huh Jayma?!" Adam says, raising his voice for the first time.
"We haven't." She looked at the ground. "Adam, baby, I'm so sorry." She whispers as she cups his cheek in her right hand.
"Baby? Wow Jayma! I didn't know you would call me that after this whole week. Oh this treacherous business! Do I honestly look like a man who would let a girl jilt him behind his back?" He looks at her, rolling his eyes in disgust.
"I tried Adam. I tried but fate has its ways. I'm so sorry." Jayma says closing her eyes as it brimmed with tears. Matt looked at them, wanting them to talk before he intruded.
"Sorry won't cut it Jayma! After all you had done? I trusted you, I let you kiss him on screen, even if I knew that this would happen, I let you because I knew that I have no right to intrude. Jayma I gave you all this faith and you jilt me? God knows you're the only reason why I even lived here in LA." he said a bit harsh as Jayma started to sob hysterically. Matt tried to comfort Jayma but she whispered to him and told him to let them talk privately as to resolve this. The crew had went as well, jaw dropped at what they had just discovered.
"I didn't plan this. It just, it just happened. I fell in love with another human. Adam I know this is hard. It's hard for me too. I don't want to loose you. I don't want to break your heart. But I can't live my life on these lies Adam." Se says stepping forward and hugging him. Her tears falling to his clothed chest.
Adam took a deep breath. He closed his eyes once more and reached for his back to unclassified Jayma's hands of himself. He wanted her to know how much it hurt. He got her hands to separate and pushed them back to her, harsher than he intended to.
"I come home early, hoping to get some quality time with the only person who inspires me everyday and I get home to this news! This disgusts me Jayma! How could you? Didn't you think about us? Didn't you thing about how we would turn out if you did this?" he asks in disbelief.
"I didn't think Adam. I took my chance on love. I love Matt. I'm sorry but I don't regret loving him." She closes her eyes, expecting his knuckles on her jaw. He walked to her. Not wanting to let this beautiful red head slip away from him.
"I love you Jayma. Come back to me, let's forget about this. We could forget about this. You can stop with whatever is between you and him and we can be together like before. I can move on from this. Let's take a chance on love. I love you. You love me." He says cupping her cheek in his right hand and kissing her passionately.
Jayma had gave in. He was still her husband. It wasn't wrong. But she knew that she would be hurting Matt by doing this. But right now, she knew Matt would never know. She knew this was the last with the man she loved for 3 beautiful years. She savored the moment but pulled away as soon as they had progressed. Adam's face broke into a grin.
"Leave him." he simply said. Proud of what he think he achieved.
"No." Jayma said looking away.
"What? You just kissed me." Adam says confused.
"I did, but that was the last. I'm sorry Adam. I love Matt and there's nothing you can do to change that... Punch me! go on punch me! I know you want to do it." Jayma exclaims. His knuckles were inches away from her face but she felt his hand on her shoulder.
"I'm not going to punch you, but I'm never going to talk to you. And if he cheats on you or breaks your heart, remember, I would have never done that. This is a big mistake Jayma. I'm heart broken, if you want to know! " he says walking out. His face outraged with anger.
Jayma bit her lower lip hardly, knowing that it would soon draw blood if she contained what she was doing. But right now, she didn't care. She felt numb. Maybe their marriage was faltering but she had just broke the heart of the man she had loved for 3 years and plus one for when they weren't married yet. She broke the heart of the man who was her touchstone when she failed her other auditions, he was the man who was always there for her. She had slumped to the floor and clung to a nearby chair. Her chest heaved up and down as she processed what had just happened.
She couldn't take the pain. She didn't regret loving Matt. But right now, she just didn't know what to do. She had stood and dramatically cleared the things on 'Emma's desk' she reached for her hair and started to mess it up. Her mascara was running but she didn't care.
It was when Matt showed up when she came back to her senses and thought of what she was doing. To embarrassed to let him see her in the current state she screamed loudly and ran to her trailer. Leaving Matt chasing after her.
Fortunately, Jayma's trailer wasn't locked and Matt slowly made his way inside. He was in distraught at the sight before him. Jayma was on the floor, slumped down next to her couch, her hair a mess, her mascara running, tears streaming down from her face. All Matt wanted to do was carry his bundle of joy and make the pain go away. He knew it was hard. Breaking of your marriage.
He slowly made his way to her. He sat down and put his arms around her. No words were spoken. He knew that Jayma just needed someone to hold her and make the pain stop. He kissed her forehead as she relaxed against him. They stayed sitting on the floor for a while. Jayma in Matt's arms.
Soon, she spoke up.
"I'm sorry Matt. We should be celebrating, we could finally be together." she whispers.
"Jayma, no. I know you loved him. I know it was hard. Baby, I'll wait for you. I'll wait till you're healed. It may take long but I'll always be here for you."
"I'm so sorry."
"Don't be. Right now, I'm taking you home and you're going to snuggle up to me like we did in the weekend. Then when you wake you wake up I'll cook your favorites." Matt grins widely. "I'll go tell Brad we can't go today, I'm sure he'll understand after what he just saw."
"Matt, I can go on with shooting. Is isn't a valid excuse."
"No." he walks away "I'll come back for you." he says as he walks out of her trailer.
Xx
Soon Matt had come back. He had found out that Brad had intentions of getting the two love birds to express their feelings for one another. He didn't know about their relationship until today. The only action he made was letting that unscripted kiss happen, but either than that, it was destiny.
Matt carried the beautiful redhead to the car. Bridal style. She was still sobbing hysterically. He went back to get some of her things and they were headed to, what now for them was 'Home'
Matt parked the car and carried Jayma to his bedroom to let her fall asleep. He went to get her things from the car and when he came back, there was Jayma, in nothing but her underwear. Matt gasped as they hadn't reached this stage in their relationship. Jayma's former tear stained face was replaced with desire, love; lust? He didn't know. She walked Matt's way, biting her lip flirtatiously. Matt stiffened, not knowing that to do. It wasn't his first time but he couldn't take advantage of Jayma in such a state.
She walked to him clumsily, clinging onto him and kissing him. He obliged to the kiss, as they had always done it in the past. But soon, he felt Jayma's lips on his jaw line, then down to his neck. He tried to suppress a moan from coming out of his throat. He stiffened as he realized where she wanted this to lead to. He bit his lip hardly and he was a fraud it would draw blood. Jayma didn't stop her ministrations. Fishing with Matt's shirt as she kissed him. Matt couldn't do this. Not now.
"Jayma. Stop." He commanded. She didn't. His voice seemed like auto command on him. It didn't work. "Jayma. Baby, please stop." he said again, but again she didn't. She had already opened the first few buttons of his shirt and it was getting harder not to give in to her ministrations. Matt held her shoulders to put some distance between them.
"Not now Jayma. There'll be a time for us. Right now, I want you to heal."
"Come on Matt. Make me happy. Give me ecstasy even for just a few minutes."
"How can this help us Jayma. It won't solve anything." he reasons with her.
"It won't solve anything, but it will help. Let's just forget now Matt. Let's make love." she suggested.
"I can't take advantage of you. You're to vulnerable."
"No Matt. Come on, let's do this." she says trying to grab hold of the few remaining buttons of his shirt.
"Stop it Jay, come on, we need to get some rest."
"Don't you want me?" Jayma asks, her big doe eyes staring at him almost brimming with tears.
"I do, there's not one day I didn't. But right now Jay, right now we can't. I can't take advantage of you in such a state as this."
"Well, maybe you don't want me enough!" she shouts.
"There, there Jay. Don't shout. This doesn't have to be a big deal." he says calmly.
"How could a man not want to have sex?!" Jayma shouts. "It's either you got possessed or maybe your cheating on me! Are you Matt? Answer me!"
Matt stiffened, he never saw Jayma that upset. He was speechless that she could think the of him. Jayma took the silence as a yes to him cheating on her. She ran away from him and went to the next room to lock the door. She found out it was a dumb idea since Matt had the keys to all the doors of his house. But she couldn't just run out of his house in only her underwear, now that would be worst.
Matt ran to the drawer in where he puts all of his keys. He was glad he labelled each one and he soon found the key to the room Jayma was in. He opened it slowly to see the bathroom door open. He slowly went inside the spot that had Been the light source of the room and saw her in the bath tub. He went to her. Jayma looked up at him and she looked angry.
"I'm not cheating on you Jayma. I could never. I love you with everything I am and everything I ever hope to be." he says grabbing her wet soapy hand.
"I'm sorry, I was just afraid. I gave up everything for us to be together Matt. When Adam told me that I would be sorry if I ever found out that you were cheating on me, I guess I was afraid. What of what he had said would one true. I can't loose you too." She whispered, her voice cracking.
"You won't loose me. Never will. It's going to be a hard few months but I'll be here all throughout. Remember that."
"I'm sorry for doubting you." she says.
"Don't need to apologize. There's a towel over there." he points to one of the cabinets. "And I have small clothes that would probably look sexy on you. My closet. I'll be downstairs making you a snack." he winks. "Don't be long baby girl."
He walks down and starts to make her some peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Both of them, like Will and Emma they always went halfsies when he brought some to work or vice versa. He prepared a pint of Ben and Jerry's for them to devour. Which they both knew they would loose the next morning as they exercise daily.
He soon saw Jayma coming down the stairs in one of his shirts that were very large for her. It reached mid-thigh and her hair was still dripping wet. She smiled weakly at him and slowly walked towards where Matt was.
Matt was in awe of what he saw. This was what he wanted everyday, make her something to eat, find her walking down in all her glory. This was the life he had imagined for both of them. Not in the same situation, cause they both knew the situation they were in wasn't close to good. When Jayma was near, she ran to Matt and hugged him tightly, Matt's shirt getting soaked with tears.
"Jay... Please, I don't want to see you like this." he says rocking them side to side. She doesn't speak. "Listen, you go to the couch and I'll get the PB and J's I'll take the tub of Ben and Jerry's and we're going to devour it." he says trying to lighten the mood. She looks at his hazel eyes and walks towards the couch, Matt following closely behind with the food he prepared. He sat himself down.
"Halfsies." he said handing Jayma half of the sandwich. She gives him a weak smile, a smile that meant the world to him. She grabs it and munches down on the sandwich. He stares at her. She's so beautiful, he had thought.
Soon they were done and they started to eat the ice cream. Jayma not having too much energy to do so. Matt had saw the pain that her eyes held. He was in awe at the strongest woman before him. He decided to take the tub out of its place in their middle and put it on the coffee table. Jayma confusingly looked at him but he didn't stop what he had planned. He held her closely against him. She soon snuggled up to him and silent tears were falling from her eyes.
"Please tell me what I can do to help you." Matt whispers. Hugging her tightly.
"Just hold me. I just need someone to hold me." she said, her voice cracking. He stops talking and holds her a bit tighter. "I love you." she whispers.
They stayed that way for who knows how long until Jayma broke the silence.
"I'm afraid Matt." she says.
"Afraid of what?" he says kissing her forehead.
"Afraid that I might loose you. I don't even know how long we'll be together."
"Forever. Forever Jayma." he says. Clueless of what was in her mind.
"It's just, you deserve so much more than what you're having. You could be in set laughing with our co stars but look, now you're here sitting with a crazy woman." she says.
"A day spent with you is like a life time spent with anyone else."
"A day with me? Matt you could go to bars at night and have a blast instead of staying here with me and seeing me grieve. You deserve so much better Matt. So much better."
"So much better? What do you mean?" he asks.
"I'm not the type of women guys like you fall in love with. I'm not as sexy or as beautiful as your former girl friends. I'm not as amazing as those models who have crushes on you. I'm nothing you want and I'm sure of it." she says scooting to the other side of the couch. He slowly slides himself to we're she was crouched on.
"What do you mean? Jayma Mays. You know the words that I think afterwards?" she shakes her head no. "Beautiful, sexy, hot, redhead, love, future wife, amazing, talented, caring. You're amazing Jayma, you're everything that I've ever wanted. Even more than what I wanted."
"I don't believe you." she mutters. she curses under her breath and pushes him away.
"What's wrong Jayma? Are you trying to be cold on me? What's wrong?"
"This. Everything. I love you Matt and that's why I'm doing this." she pauses dramatically. "I might be the person who would break you're heart three years later. I might be the person who would make you die inside after a few years. I love you so much Matt, I just don't want you to feel what Adam had felt. Aren't you afraid? Afraid that I'll break you're heart? Cause that's what I am aren't I? A shameless hussy, a heart breaker, a girl who breaks her marria-"
"Stop it Jayma. Maybe you really weren't meant for each other. But I know that we, we're going to last forever. Someday soon, I'm going to announce to the whole world that you're mine and I'm yours. I would make you sing side by side with me in my concerts. You would soon be my wife. My life. We'd have redheads running around this house. We are going to last forever. Cause what we have, what we have is special."
"I'm just so insecure of myself now Matt. I've seen all of your former girlfriends Matt. What makes you want to be with me." Jayma asks, Matt shook his head because she didn't know how beautiful she really was.
"I have a song for you." he says. he stands up and sits in front of her.
"Your hand fits in mine
Like it's made just for me" he intertwined their fingers slowly.
"But bear this in mind
It was meant to be
And I'm joining up the dots
With the freckles on your cheeks
And it all makes sense to me"
"I know you've never loved
The crinkles by your eyes when you smile
You've never loved
Your stomach or your thighs
The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine"
"But I'll love them endlessly"
"I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
But if I do, it's you,
Oh it's you,
They add up to
I'm in love with you,
And all these little things"
"You'll never love yourself
Half as much as I love you
You'll never treat yourself right, darlin'
But I want you to,
If I let you know, I'm here for you,
Maybe you'll love yourself,
Like I love you"
"And I've just let these little things
Slip, out of my mouth,
'Cause it's you, oh it's you,
It's you,
They add up to
And I'm in love with you,
And all these little things,"
"I won't let these little things
Slip, out of my mouth,
But if it's true,
It's you, it's you,
They add up to,
I'm in love with you,
And all your little things"
Jayma looked at the man standing before her in awe. She was so in love with him and through this song, she finally realized how much he loves her as well.
"Do you now realize how much in love I am with you? Jayma, you're perfect to me baby."
"Perfect?" she hesitantly asked. "If I was perfect I wouldn't be heartbroken right now. If I was perfect, heck Matt I could've known that we should have dated when we first met. I'm not perfect." she simply says. Matt smiles at this woman, she was so down to earth and he loved it.
"Jayma, baby, the point is, I won't leave you. I'll be here, forever and always."
She leant in and captured Matt's lips in hers in a innocent kiss. Then she knew that this was the life she wanted to have forever.
Xx
Brad for a change didn't tell anyone. He knew that if he did, the news would spread like wildfire and it won't have a good impact on the two. He was still shocked at what he had discovered but not as fussed as the crew members because he knew that Jayma and Matt are and will always be meant for each other. And all it took was one little kiss to make that love grow.
Xx
Jayma and Matt decided to go to set the next day. They didn't know what was in store. They didn't know if Brad had told the cast members. They haven't heard from Adam since yesterday. Matt knew how much Jayma is still hurting but she always fails to admit it. He was afraid of this, he didn't want her to keep a strong facade but break down in the inside. He didn't want the hurt to grow, she needed to take it all out.
They got to Paramount, and they knew they had to be extra careful. The scene they are going to film is going to be held in the auditorium, wherein Will and Emma see the kids in their costumes.
They made their way as soon as it was 6:00 a.m. Matt walked in first and was baffled at the sight. His co-stars were all in one spot in the auditorium, there was no filming happening. Cries of a certain blonde was heard. He looked closer and saw that it was him.
Adam Campbell.
He tried to turn and run to Jayma but as he turned Jayma stopped him.
"Adam." he says. Jayma looks confused.
"Is this true?!" Matt and Jayma hear from a distance. They turned back and it was Jane. Jayma and Matt's eyes widened as they saw them all look at the couple.
"Um, I can explain." Jayma says. Walking closer to them. Matt following closely behind soon she was face to face with Adam and the rest of the cast. She squats down so she's in eye level with him. "Adam?" she says. It was barely audible as she tried to fight back tears. He didn't look at her, he didn't mind her presence. "Adam please talk to me." she says a tear escaping from her eyes. He still didn't respond. Jayma took his hand in hers but he pulled it away.
"What's there to talk about?!" he asks his voice cracking.
"I can't leave you this heartbroken Adam. I loved you and I continue to care for you. So please don't push me away from your life." she pleads.
"What do you think I'm supposed to do Jay? Be your friend? Watch you flirt with that man? Do you really think I'm that pathetic?!" he asks. He stands up and stands closer her. "Jay, I love you so much. So much, it's not too late to turn back. If you do still love and care for me then oh could just forget about him Jayma." he says his right hand caressing her cheek.
"You know I can't do that Adam." She says softly.
"So it is true? You and Matt?" Lea says gasping at the thought. Adam and Jayma didn't seem to mind her as they didn't answer the question.
"I'm so sorry Adam. I can't lie to you anymore, you deserve the truth and our marriage was fading even before any of this happened."
"That is it exactly! A marriage that we could have fixed if this didn't happen, a marriage that would last a lifetime. I thought that was going to be us Jay. But look at where we are."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough for you." he says. The cast couldn't seem to respond to what was happening, Jayma and Matt were the last two people who they thought would do such.
"You were. You'll find someone out there who will love you Adam. You are the perfect husband Adam and I'm sure anyone would be lucky to have you."
"Anyone would be lucky to have me? I'm the perfect husband? Suddenly all this doesn't make sense."
"You're all those Adam. Just not for me."
"Not for you is not for anyone Jayma! I love you, I loved you since the first time I saw you. We loved each other."
"I know, that's why it hurts me to do this to you."
"Then come back to me." he simply says.
"I'm sorry. I told you before I can't." she says looking down.
"Well then I guess you and you're lover can just enjoy tearing my heart every single time I think or see you!" Adam says walking out and pushing Matt in the process. "This is all you're fault!" he screams at Matt.
Jayma slumps down at one of the chairs, the girls of the cast look at her in distraught. It was Dianna who first approached her. Matt walks near them but Lea comes near him and tells him to let them talk to her first, she also said that she needed to talk to people of the same gender since he was the only one she could talk too.
"Jay, would you care to explain what happened?" Dianna asks.
"I fell in love and broke Adam's heart. What is there to say Di?" they all don't say anything, Jane takes a seat next to her as Dianna was in her other side. They didn't speak up since none of them was married and they really didn't know what to say.
"I know you're all mad at me for hurting Adam. He's been really close to all of you and I understand if you take his side. But please just please don't play games with me and act like you care." she says a bit harsher then she thought.
"Believe it or not I'm in your side." Amber says from a distance. "I can see how much you love Matt and well try love is true love." she explains. The others nod to show their signs of approval.
"Um, guys can you give me and Jayma some time to talk?" Jane asks. The girls nod and say yes. Well except for Dianna.
"I'm staying. Jayma, you're a really good friend of mine and I really want to understand this." she says. Jane nods and the three are sitting down in one row.
"Jayma, so as season one had progressed, I personally really saw that you were slowly falling for Matt. How you looked at him, it was special." Jane says.
"I guess you had found out before I even did." Jayma said.
"I knew that, yes. But I never thought you would act upon you're feelings. You and Adam seemed to be so happy together, he's a great guy and there was no reason for you not to feel loved by him." Jane explains.
"I loved Adam." she simply said.
"You know what? I'm not against you're relationship with Matt, I just want you to know what you want."
"Matt. I want Matt. Forever."
Dianna smiles at Jayma, this wasn't going to be the best situation to be in but with these two people who care for her, she thinks she could make it with new lessons in life, lessons she will soon pass to her dream children.