Omniscient POV
This past 2 weeks, hell for both Jayma and Matt.
She was still so hurt of everything that happened, flashes of everything Adam had told her in the past. All his harsh words that were filled with anger. What hurt the most? When he always mentioned how much he loves her, when people ask, he always says that she is the best wife in the world, and there she was betraying him. He usually sent her texts telling her to come back to him, Adam wasn't the type to bash on someone and Jayma of all people knew that, but his texts about wanting her back hurt more than anything bad he could say. She still cares for him and she didn't want him to be as miserable for the whole of his life, he was such a great husband and he deserves so much better than me. She thought.
Matt hadn't had the best of weeks too. Of course it was because of what had happened. He wasn't sad that Jayma didn't kiss him as often as she did or talk to him like they did before the incident, no! It was seeing her that sad and miserable without him knowing what to do. He wants to help her but fails to know how to. Seeing her break down and cry in the mention of his name. Seeing her cry when she remembered something sentimental to their relationship. This time, he wasn't jealous of Jayma crying for Adam, he just wanted her pain to go away. He also noticed her talks with Dianna and Jane, that made her happier then she was before they talked. But it wasn't the Jayma he used to know. He sometimes tried to ask Dianna and Jane what they talk about but they never ever tell him, saying it's girls' talk and only girls can hear of it.
The cast was more supportive then they had thought. Whoever they turned to, they were always there to guide and support the two adults. Harry simply asking Matt if he's okay to Amber comforting Jayma when she breaks down in her trailer, they were always there. And that's when they knew how strong the bond of the glee family really was. They're there for each other not just there to keep you happy and laugh your butt out, they are there through thick and thin. As they say, "The glee family sticks together no matter what."
It was the day for shooting of 'A night of neglect'. And when Jayma saw her script, she couldn't help but let a tear fall of her cheek. It was a scene in which Emma was finally divorced to Carl. She couldn't help but compare her situation to her character's. Though she wasn't divorced yet. Neither was filing. And just like Will comforted Emma, there was Matt. Then was she reminded that light always shines in the darkness, and that light is Matt. She reflected on the past 2 weeks that had passed. She had been ignoring Matt's attempts to comfort her.
It was then when she knew that she had to give back to him. Or was it giving back? She had wanted it for quite a long time now.
Her acting was so realistic, Matt had thought. Everyone who watched the scene was so impressed by her, but digging deeper, they all knew why. Her emotions were real, the tear that had left her eye wasn't Emma, it was Jayma. And Matt? His lines were exactly what he wanted to tell Jayma, once again Brad made a way to help their relationship when they thought they couldn't do anything more. Now that's a great writer!
Jayma had broke her record for the past 2 weeks, it was the first day in which she hasn't broke down and cried, she bought the cast coffee when she was on break , and walked to their set smiling widely. They were all surprised yet happy at the sight, it was unusual. Matt jogged to her as soon as she put the coffee down on one of the tables.
"Jay?" he curiously asks.
"What Matty? If you're wondering, I just decided to smile for a change and bring the cast coffee. Oh and you can't tell me that you have to stay late for shooting!" she sighs.
"Well then." he says leaning in to kiss her, he captured her lips in his and pulled away since they were drawing so much attention. "Hm and about shooting, we have the same out time today." he smiles widely. "8p.m. Which is not too bad considering the last few days." he says. The statement had meant more than the past working days as duration, it was how she acted. He didn't hate her for it, his love didn't lessen for her, he just didn't want to see her suffer any longer. And maybe, just maybe that day had come. He wasn't sure but maybe it had come.
"8 would be amazing." she cheerfully says. Dianna noticed the big change in her, she didn't know what brought about her attitude, but she wanted it to last long. She's been crying to her for the past days, telling her how much it hurt to leave your husband even if you're going to be with the person you really love. She had been so miserable as Adam sent her hate for the past few days, some days, he would send her letter of love telling her to come back to him. It was all so surreal that she didn't know what more to expect for her redheaded friend.
Shooting wrapped up at 8:00 as Matt had mentioned.
Xx
Once they had entered the house that they occupied, Jayma devoured Matt's mouth. She had wanted all this for so long.
Xx
12:00 a.m.
They lay together in bed, Matt caressing Jayma's cheek and combing her hair, trying to catch his breath. Jayma lay in his chest content and happy. He had once again put a smile to her face when she thought she couldn't anymore. It was when her phone lit up that their little bubble was popped, it was an e-mail. She slid out of the covers and fished for her phone, finding it unbearably cold without Matt there holding her. Once she caught her phone she slid inside the covers and into the arms of her lover. She opened it putting her big nerdy glasses that Matt loved on her. And then she opened it. A tear almost falling from the name of the sender, but she had to be strong, she had to read this no matter how hard it was going to be.
Matt looked at her nervously, not wanting to see that sign of distraught in her features. He knew that it was him again.
"Baby, you don't have to read it." he said nuzzling his face in her auburn locks.
"I want to Matt. I'll stay strong, and as long as you're here to hold me, I don't think anything will go wrong." she smiles weakly, and suddenly he doesn't know if he could trust her with this one.
And she read. It was one of the few letters he gave her, the ones that hurt her most.
Sender: Adam Campbell
Re: In love with Jayma Mays
Jamia Suzette Mays-Campbell.
Gingaloid, Jay, Jayma, Jamia,
Hi Jay, it's been two weeks since our last encounter, I hadn't said the most wonderful things about you nor him. (I can't bare say the name). But I've missed you Jayma. I missed you laying with me in bed, I miss seeing you home late after a full day of work, I miss making your protein shakes every morning, holding your hand when you get so frustrated about a scene you don't think you can deliver. I miss everything about you. You're hair, you're smile. God Jayma, everything! I'm so in love with you Jayma Mays. Your my wife, you're my everything, and I don't want to take Campbell of your name. Yes, I know I'm crazy, I'm crazy to still not hate you after knowing you cheat on me with Matt. But isn't that what love does? It makes you crazy, makes you do all the wildest things in the world just to get back the person you love, the person you'll only love.
I may be crazy. But please, I just need you with me to keep me sane. Your my ground, my roots, my touchstone. Jayma if you aren't in my life, I would just crumble down to the ground and wither. You know what Jay? I don't even sleep in the house anymore. Yes, I go to another place now. I love that house Jayma. It's the best house I could ever have. It is my dream house, everything that I want is in there, all the rooms designed perfectly to our liking. But I can't look at one corner and not remember you. How we used to run around when we tease each other. Or how I see you sleeping on the couch in the morning while I make you breakfast. How I remember everything we had in that house. I play the piano while you sing for me. It was all so perfect. Our relationship was all too perfect. And I guess good things are not meant to last. They wouldn't last, but this is our time, our time to mend it so we can become whole again.
This issue, thankfully hasn't spread like wildfire to Hollywood. Does this mean you and Matt aren't too serious with each other? Is there a chance? I hope you haven't consummated your relationship by doing IT. If you did, I would loose my mind in seconds. I can't let anyone love you as I do. I want to e the only one, your only one. The only man who could love you endlessly.
I'm so in love with you Jamia, Jayma Suzette Mays-Campbell, we are still married, and there's no way I would let you go. Cause I'm in love with you, and I know that you are too. Leave him Jay. I'll be here, I'll be here to love you endlessly, I'll give you everything he can't. Cause that's what love can do to a person.
-Adam Campbell.
Matt watched her read the e-mail. He could tell that it wasn't good. After she had read it she froze, she dropped her phone and that was it for Matt. He held her close to him, as close as humanly possible. Whispering wishful nothing's on her ear, she felt so numb, he felt so confused.
"I won't leave you Matt." Jayma said burying her face in Matt's chest, her curly hair splattering around him. Sobs being heard, tears falling. This was something Matt didn't want to see from this woman. Matt held her tighter, kissing her hair as she cried her heart out on his naked chest.
"We're going t get through this okay?" Matt asked.
"He won't let me go. Matt, he, he wants me to leave you!" she shouts. "I don't want to. Matt I want to be with you. I want to have a family with you. But is that even possible!?" she sobs even more. Tears falling from Matt's eyes as he saw how much pain she was going through.
He was actually surprised by the thought of Jayma wanting a family with him. He had dreamt of it, even when she was married. He was that deeply in love with her to think those crazy things.
"Jayma, I love you okay, we will get thorough anything."
"Really Matt?" Jayma asks,
"Really." Matt paused for a while, examining the crying red head. "You know what? I have a song for you." Jayma nodded and smiled weakly.
"Please?" she asks. He proceeds to the chair in front of his bed, pulling up his clothes before he does so. Jayma snuggles in the pillows and blankets and watches him ready himself.
"Much as you blame yourself
You can't be blamed for the way that you feel
Had no example of a love
That was even remotely real
How can you understand something that you never had
If you let me I can help you out with all of that" he looked at her, her eyes brimming with tears, this time of love and joy.
"Let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself.
Let me love you
I know your trouble
Don't be afraid, oh, I can help"
"Let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself.
Let me love you
A heart of numbness
Gets brought to life
I'll take you there"
"I can see the pain behind your eyes
It's been there for quite awhile.
I just wanna be the one to remind you what it is to smile
I would like to show you what true love can really do"
"Let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself.
Let me love you
I know your trouble
Don't be afraid, oh, I can help
"Let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself.
Let me love you
A heart of numbness
Is brought to life
I'll take you there"
"Let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself.
Let me love you
I know your trouble
Don't be afraid, oh, I can help"
(as sung on glee season 4:naked by Jake puckerman)
Jayma's eyes were brimmed with tears of love for Matt, he went to her and she once again put her head in his chest.
"I'm letting you in. You're my only source of happiness Matt. And I don't know what would happen to me if you leave."
"Leave you? That's not even in my vocabulary!" he chuckled.
"I'm in love with you Matty,"
"Believe me, I'm more than in love." he says kissing her fore head.