Omniscient POV
It was the next day when Jayma and Matt were in work. Jayma wasn't as jolly as the previous day but big steps were made from the last two weeks. Today, they were going to watch the episode in the auditorium so they can evaluate themselves. 'A night of neglect' was going to be shown. Jayma and Matt were a bit late so they sat at the back next to Jane. They waved hello and sat themselves comfortably Matt intertwining his fingers with hers.
They watched it together, it was when it was their scene when Jayma fidgeted uncomfortably in her chair as she remembered what was really going on in her life. She didn't want to make the first move and file divorce. She actually expected it when Adam found out about her and Matt being together. It's been 3 weeks since he did and nothing was coming, except for messages, emails, texts, all of his love for her. The love that Jayma knows she lost.
It hurt seeing him hang on to you, he was your husband. And it hurt so much when he tells you about all the good things you had together. You want to just make him stop writing to you, you just want him to stop every good think that he's doing and get mad at you. Because that's what you deserve, and that way, it would hurt less. Jayma thought.
As their scene ended, it was time for Matt and Holly's scene. She bit her lip and pulled her hand away from his. Matt groans at the lost of contact. Little did he know that it wasn't about the scene. She gathered up all her courage and pulled Matt away from the auditorium.
"What's happening Jay?" Matt asks when they were outside.
"I can't keep this in any longer. What would you say if I say that I want to file divorce." Jayma said firmly. It was the first time she brought about this topic without breaking down in tears.
"Jayma, I love you okay. And I'm telling you it's going to be very hard. You're going to be reminded of everything you don't want to remember. Jay, it's going to be very hard for you cause you had once loved him, you once thought that he was the world to you. And him the same." Matt explains.
"I want to have a family with you Matt. I want to marry you and have children with you and tell everyone that we're together! Matt I love you, I just don't want you stuck in a relationship that you have to keep secret from everyone." She says slumping down in one of the casts chairs, not bothering to look for her own.
"Of course I want all those too. I just want you to be ready. Jayma, these past two weeks have been a disaster with you not being the Jayma I know. I can't stand seeing you in that much pain. And me not knowing what to do to help? That's even worst! I want us to become a family, but you have to know that to get to the light, you have to pass through a tunnel, and the tunnel is very dark." he says. She looked scared. "But I'll be your lamp, I'll be there to take care of you the whole trip," he adds.
"I love you Matt."
"I love you too Jayma. And one day, we will be walking in the red carpet together, your dainty hand in my large ones, interviewers googling about our relationship, making us do crazy things. That would be the day." He says in dream like state.
"You promise to be there for me even if I'm cranky most often? You'll be there when I break down when I see him? Will you be there when he finally summons up his courage and sends me hate?"
"Yes, yes and I don't think he'll send you hate Jay. He's a nice person and he's still so in love with you." Matt says, but he immediately regrets it as he sees Jayma bury her face in his chest and starts to sob.
"Did I say anything wrong?" Matt asked concerned.
"I just don't want to remember how good he is and how much he loves me Matt. It hurts a thousand times mor than anything bad anyone can ever tell me. Every time he says he loves me I want to cry my heart it because I can't give him the love that he deserves. And every time I remember how good a person he is I feel so guilty. Cause I caused so much pain to him. To a good person. It hurts me to file divorce too. I loved him Matt. And I will continue to care for him, I don't want him to get hurt, but I don't want you to get hurt too. My marriage was behind us, nothing will ever prosper form it anymore, but I want him to move on. And if possible, become my friend. Don't Matt, I know that it's impossible." she says.
"How will I get hurt from this Jay?" Matt asks curiously.
"He's not going to hate me, he's going to hate you. In court, we'd have to remember everything that happened, and I know you don't want to be reminded that there was a time when I wasn't yours. And I'm still not fully yours right now." She sadly says.
"No, Jayma you shouldn't worry about me. I don't care how much he hates me, I don't care. I will be strong for you Jayma. Cause now, I know that you love me and I love you. You weren't mine, but you're not anyone's. Your yourself's Jay, no one should ever own you." he says hugging her as she did as well.
"You're the best Matt. My life would literally suck without you." she pauses. "You know sometimes I wonder what would happen to me if I hadn't met you."
"And? What did you get?"
"My life would be horrible, you're my sunshine Matt." she says.
"You're not my sunshine, you're my air." he says. "Let's go before anyone comes up here and calls us."
As they walked in, the sight of Will kissing Holly was in the big screen. Gwyneth had been guest starring from 'sexy' until now this was her last episode. They were still standing next to the door.
She watches their kiss. It was after she had sung Turning Tables. Matt awkwardly looked at her, not knowing what she was thinking. As the scene ended, she smiles weakly at Matt and decides to leave is a good alternative.
Matt was confused so he followed her, she had entered her trailer. And he was very close behind. Before he opened the door, he heard sobs. He opened it and realized why.
She wasn't the jealous type. She didn't cry because of the kiss. There were rose petals and flowers scattered everywhere. And he knew for a fact that it didn't come from him. It was from Adam. And as she just Newly told him how she felt about this, all he could do was gather her up in his arms so she would stop crying.
If she was still happily married, it would have been a wonderful sight. Flowers everywhere, rose petals scattered around the trailer, pictures of them hanging from the ceiling. It was really beautiful, Matt had to admit, Adam is really a good husband, and if he wasn't in love with the woman crying before him, he would give it up and give her to Adam.
Jayma's sobs filled the room, it's heartbreaking to see her that way.
"Matt, I'm such a bad person. Look at this, it's beautiful and, and I just let him down like that."
"Jay, Jayma, please stop crying baby. You know I'm here for you. I'm never going to leave you." he whispers.
"I'm so scared of seeing him. I'm so scared of seeing him get hurt. Matt I'm so in love with you. Don't get me wrong my heart belongs to you but I still care for him. I don't want him to get hurt."
"I understand Jayma. He's been your world for what? 3 years."
"I'm so confused." Jayma says.
"Baby, you carry on here. I have to go somewhere okay?" Matt says, a plan building up in his head.
"Please don't leave." she pleads. "I need you Matty."
"I'm staying for a while, but sooner or later I have to leave. I promise you it's going to get better. I'll just call dianna and Amber." he says. Jayma nods lightly, knowing that she can't do anything to stop him.
He fishes for his phone and tells the girls what happened, carrying Jayma to the couch in the process. Once he hung up, he brushed her curly hair out of her fore head. Looking up, he saw their pictures. That was when he knew that he had to take care of her. Adam had been a good husband but he had to be better. For her, for their future.
"You're so beautiful." Matt says leaning in to kiss her lips. She responds eagerly.
"You're the best Matty. I don't know what I'd do without you." she says as she snuggles up nearer to him.
5 minutes later and the two girls came. Their eyes widening at the sight before them. Flowers everywhere, memories scattered all around the floor. They disassembled it on their way to where they are.
"Dianna, amber, thanks for coming." Matt says.
"Matt, we're just like um 100 meters away from here, why wouldn't we come?" Amber says chuckling.
"Yeah, and anything for Jayma." Dianna adds. She makes her way to Jayma. The red head looks at her blonde haired friend. She stands up and hugs the girl.
"Di, please take care of her. I need to go for a while." Matt says. They nod in unison.
He heads off and fishes for his phone. There he finds his number, he had got it from Jayma's phone a few days ago. Secretly of course. He summoned up his courage and called him on his way to his car. He was shocked that he answered in the first ring. Well, he didn't know Matt's number.
"Hello?" Adam asks, not knowing who was on the other end of the phone.
"I know I'm not the person you'd want to talk to now." Matt says. Adam instantly recognizes his voice, anger was covering up his features at the sound of his voice.
"What do you want? To ruin my life even more?!" Adam says raising his voice.
"No, I want us to talk." Matt says.
"Talk about what?! There's nothing to talk about! You stole the only woman I would ever love. That's it!" he shouts.
"Give me this Adam." Matt says calmly,
"Where?" he asks. Matt was very surprised that he would agree.
"I'll meet you in your hotel. I know you're not staying in you and Jayma's home anymore." He says. He hears a bitter chuckle on the other end.
"No, meet me in my house in which Jayma an I lived in for 2 years now." he says bitterly. Matt swallowed the lump on his throat and nodded. If this was the only way he could talk to Adam then he'd do it. Even if it meant he would get hurt by seeing how well they would've been if he hadn't got in to the picture.
"Okay." he simply says. "I'll be there in five minutes."
"I'll see you then." Adam says rolling his eyes in the other end.
Xx
Five minutes later and he was there. Surprisingly, the front door was open and he saw a blonde sitting comfortably on the couch.
"Matt! Buddy! How are you?" he asked walking towards him like nothing was coming between them.
"Don't pretend like there nothing up with us." Matt firmly says. "I'm here to talk about Jayma." he continues shrugging him off.
"Oh Jayma! Jayma is the sweetest wife ever. Yeah and she cheated on me with someone named. Matthew James Morrison. The guys a total jerk!" he says acting like Matt wasn't the one in front of him.
"Can we just cut to the chase? Why do you want to meet here?" Matt asks. Adam starts to walk and motions for Matt to come with him. He agrees. He was now in sight of their kitchen.
"This was where I cook everyday, waiting for Jayma to wrap up shooting. Where she bakes the best cookies in the world in Saturdays. And where we make breakfast together every Sunday morning." Adam explains. Matt's jaw dropped, they were really a perfect couple. He opens his mouth to talk but nothing comes out. The only thing running through his head was that he ruined their family. Adam walks away from the place and motions for Matt to come. Again he agrees.
He assumed that they were in the music/family room. There were tons of DVDs and CDs everywhere. A huge piano in the middle. Adam proceeds to it.
"I bet you didn't know that Jayma plays the piano." Adam says. Matt looks at him slightly tensed. He didn't. He didn't know a lot of things about her. Only thing he knew? Well he knew that he loves her.
"I've been teaching her for the past months." he says. "We usually sit here for hours, and when she gets frustrated when she can't finish her piece, I end up playing the piano and she sings for me. And her voice is gold." Adam says reminiscing the days when they did so.
"I know." Matt says. Adam walks out of the room but Matt doesn't. It was beautiful. Very beautiful, pictures of the couple everywhere. He sighs, wishing that he was enough for Jayma. Adam set a really high bar.
"I'm not done touring you Matthew." Adam says. Matt takes a big gulp and walks towards the door. Eyeing the piano once again.
They were soon in the master bedroom,
"This, this is my favorite room of all." Adam says. "I bet you haven't kissed or touched Jayma the way I did in this room." he says rolling his eyes. Matt decided to keep silent of the things that happened the previous day. "Moving on." he adds walking down.
"I won't show you everything. You do not deserve too." Adam says. Pangs strike on his stomach. Pangs of guilt. He shows him the garden. It was beautiful. Well cared for.
"Wow." Matt says.
"This garden, cared by me and Jayma for two years. It hasn't for the past month." he rolls his eyes meaning Matt was the reason.
"Adam. Can we stop this?" Matt asks in mock frustration, not wanting to know how perfect their life was before. Cause he was guilty of tearing it apart.
"Why Matt? Guilty? I know what you're thinking. You want to get out of here because Jayma and I's love was perfect and you know that if you didn't come in to our life that our life would be perfect." Adam smirks.
"I don't care. Adam, you don't know how much Jayma is suffering every time you send her flowers or messages of love! It hurts her so much Adam. I know you love her so please stop this. Stop all of it." Matt says cutting right through the chase.
"What do you think I'd do?! Just give up on the only woman I would ever love? You know Matt you're the one who should stop this. Everybody knows I deserve Jayma more than you do. In just 1 month she cried more than she ever did for 3 years with me!" He shouts.
"Your causing her pain to grow. Adam if you still have pity for her, and I know you do, you would stop this." Matt explains.
"I'm sorry, she's my wife. I love her. And there's nothing you can do, if the only way to bring her back to me is continuing what I'm going now then that's what I would do. Maybe you should give up! She's my wife, you, you just had a relationship with her for 2 months?" he says before walking out of the sight of Matt.
Matt sat there on the grass, the grass that the former couple had took care of together. He was right, he's been there for Jayma for 2 months. Adam's been there for 3 years now.
He sat there crying, looking at the beautiful garden in front of him. When he decided to stand up he wandered around the home that wasn't his. Examining every room, pictures of the everywhere. What shirt him the most? Their huge wedding picture in the living room. They were young, happy Jayma's smile was wider then he ever thought she could. At that he left. He couldn't take the pain anymore.
He got a text from Jayma saying that they wrapped up early and she was at home making dinner. She is so sweet. He drove home, still confused after what had happened.
He got home and opened the door, he was surprised to see Jayma in a dress, one that he had always loved on her. He didn't know what he was feeling. He felt like he didn't deserve someone like her, she was too amazing for a man named Matthew James Morrison, he thought.
"Jay? What's all this?" he asks, his tone not as happy as Jayma thought.
"I made dinner for us baby." she says, going to his back and hugging him from behind. Her head peeking out of his shoulder, "I missed you." she says giving him a peck on the cheek.
"Jayma, can we talk?" he asks. She nods slowly, knowing that Matt met up with Adam. They both sit on the couch.
"Jayma, do you want to spend the rest of your life with me?" he asks.
"I love you Matt. And I do, I really do." she says seeing the pain in his eyes.
"Sometimes I feel so guilty you know?" he says.
"Of what Matt? Why?" she asks.
"Of ruining your perfect marriage, Jayma he's such a great guy and no matter how hard I try, I feel like I'll never be enough for you. He was your prince charming and then I come and ruin everything. A guy from broadway who doesn't know anything about romance." he says looking down. Jayma shook her head, she lifts his chin so that he was looking into her eyes.
"Listen to me Matt. Your perfect, youre the most romantic and amazing person I've been with. You know what? It was a dream for me to be with you, this close. Every girl out there adore you, lots of them more beautiful, happier, less complicated than I am, but you chose me. And if you don't think your enough then I think your mind is playing with you. Cause your more than I ever wanted or needed, but here you are Matt." she says her hand caressing his face,
"I ruined your marriage, I was in your former house today and everything was perfect Jayma. Everything." he says. Jayma knew she had to stay strong, he needs her. Trying to keep her tears at bay she speaks.
"That marriage? Matt knowing you , being loved by you, I could never come back to that. I was living on a lie. Since the first time we saw each other after 'Nice girls don't get the corner office' I wanted to kiss you, tell you how much I really love you. Matt that marriage, it can't compare to anything we have, cause what we have is far better than anything I've experienced in the past 3 years." she says.
"You've cried way more than you did before." he says.
"Yes, I cried way more than the past three years. Yes, it hurts. But you're worth it. Every minute I spend with you makes up for every tear that falls down my cheek. You're the only person who can make me forget the pain."
"I'm in love with you." Matt says.
"I am too. I'm in love with you too."