I'm back guys :-) Forgive me for not updating for like the longest time but thank you so much to Nams for the inspiration for this chapter and the next ones.
Three months, one divorce, two signatures later...
"Matt! You have to come down." I shout.
"Whoa, what's up Jay?"
"It's finalized."
"What's finalized."
"I'm a free woman again Matt. Well not really cause you're my boy-"
"Oh my God! Jayma, oh my God!" he pauses and suddenly the smile in his face disappears. "Wait, wait, are you okay? You got divorced oh gosh, I'm being so selfish."
"I'm happy." I was happy, really. Adam doesn't seem to hate me anymore either. We haven't talked, we haven't talked about anything but the house and everything was up to the lawyers. Well, he doesn't send me e-mails anymore. Probably because of the talk with Matt. Or He's probably gotten over me. And I'm happy about that. Though our uncoupling wasn't that peaceful, doesn't mean I don't want him to be happy. I do, I want him to be very. And I want him to have someone who deserves his love. He's an amazing husband, I couldn't take that title away from him. And I'm sure he'll be an amazing husband and probably father to a girl who would love him, the way he loves her.
"Are you sure cause I don't wanna celebrate this if you're sad."
"I love you Matt. It's in my dreams to have a family with you. I can't do that if I'm married."
"Well you can if you're married to me."
"You dork."
"Matt I really want to go now. I want to get home early." I whine he hasn't come down since I left him in the bed for my shower.
"Jay, how do you expect me to move fast when I was so drained, I know we got through another face in our relationship but you didn't have to be that rough." He runs his fingers through his curls.
"So you didn't want it." I give him a cold glare.
"I was just kidding. I was kidding Jayma, just kidding." he says, doing this weird facial expression that even I couldn't describe.
"Come on, I really want to come back here and have dinner with my boyfriend. Plan about how we would tell everyone and daydream about people being happy for us being together. Maybe even practice, to you know, make a family?" We were going to get some of my other stuff -books, Cd collections, small things- in Adam and I's former house.
"You know I didn't think of that. If you told me that sooner, I would have gotten up faster. I though you'd know me by now. I also thought you'd know how to motivate Matthew Morrison." he pauses. "Well I guess I could educate you on how to do so." he raises his eyebrows and gives me "the look"
"Come on." I grab his hand and drag him to the car.
Sitting in the car Matt was surprisingly quiet. That was okay, it gave me time to think.
So it's finalized, Adam is having the house. I don't really need it, and though I paid for some cause he insisted for me not to bring out some cash, I wanted to just give him that. As a gift. He's been an amazing husband for the years we've been together and what I gave was nothing compared to all the memories we made.
But I'm happier now. I never knew there would be this kind of happy. Don't get me wrong, I was happy before, before me and Matt had professed our love for each other. I thought that was the happiest a person could be. My life was normal, I go to work, I come home to Adam and I didn't have to face problems, I mean the huge one, of course I still had problems, like a line I didn't think I could deliver or not having enough sleep, or LA traffic, those were just minor problems to what I had experienced when Matt and I started to become a couple.
It was hard at first, I love him, there was no doubt in that, but it was hard. Keeping it from everyone, only getting to hold his hand or say I love you when no one is looking or listening. It was hard to use separate cars when we go on dates in his house. It was hard going home to another man when I knew I left the man I want to be with.
But in the end it was worth it. Matt's here with me, in the same car. Now that the divorce is final and now that me and Adam-I hope- have learned to accept it I'm not too afraid anymore. Not afraid that the media would question me and Matt being together. The media questioning why I'm not with Adam, everything. Now, if they ask me if I'm dating Matthew Morrison I would say yes in a heartbeat. And I don't care about the haters, they could hate all they want, I love Matt and they couldn't do anything to stop that.
They were right, light only shines in the darkness.
"We're here." Matt says.
Adam knows I'm coming, he was actually the one who told my lawyer to let me come and get my other things, and according to Ryan- my lawyer- he seemed to be pretty calm about it.
I get into the house. My hand in Matt's
I don't get emotional. I've moved on, it's because Adam has. And that was why I was sad before cause I didn't want him mad at me. And when we get inside the house and I remember everything that's been I'm grateful, grateful that I had those memories in the first place.
We enter the room where I keep all my books.
"Okay Jayma, what's yours here and what's not yours?" Matt asks putting the box that he held in one hand down.
So I started to get the books and CD's that I owned. Hands it to him and he puts it on the box, simple as that.
"Wait you have my album?" he asks looking at me confused.
"Why are you so surprised Matty?"
"I don't know you never told me."
"I'm an avid fan of your music if you must know." I shrug.
"Of course you are." he says giving me a lopsided grin.
"Do you know that one of these songs were inspired by you?" he asks.
"What?! I've listened to those songs numerous times and I'm pretty sure I know the lyrics Matt."
"Okay maybe not directly but it came as dream form."
"Wait which song?"
"Still got tonight." he answers with a smug smile plastered on his face.
"Oh my God, but you made that song even before everything that happened Matt." I gasp as I realize. "You had a dream about us being in the situation we were in and are in didn't you?"
"I didn't say that." he answers looking guilty. I know he's lying.
"Tell me the truth or our practicing in having a family would be postponed." I threaten him.
"Whoa, whoa, I was kidding, you're right, you're right. Okay I've dreamed about us being together even before I was allowed to do so." he pauses. "You took my heart from the second I first saw you."
"Oh my God, you are so cheesy." I roll my eyes jokingly.
He sighs in frustration.
"You didn't let me finish." I pause. "I like cheesy, it makes everything a lot sweeter."
"I knew you love my ways, why didn't you tell me sooner."
"You should have known." I say giving him a light slap in the shoulder.
We finish about thirty minutes after that conversation.
This time I wasn't holding his hand anymore. He had a huge box in his arms.
"How many more?" he asks, he just came back after the third round of going back and forth from the car and the house.
While I was just sitting in the couch. He didn't want me to help so I wasn't that guilty.
"Just four more." I say giving him a huge grin.
"All for you Jayma."
I smile.
Three boxes later, when someone knocked on the door.
"Matt, it's open." I say.
"It's not Matt." A man with a British accent answers. And I knew who it was. It was Adam.
I rush to the door, knowing he wouldn't come in if I didn't let him.
I open the door and I was shocked I guess to see him with another girl.
I didn't know who she was but I wasn't mad nor jealous.
And coincidentally Matt comes back, sweaty and goes to my side as he sees Adam.
"Hi Adam." I say. Giving him a hand to shake.
"Jayma, Matt." he answers. His voice was calm. He didn't sound mad, nor did he sound sad. That's good. Maybe I'm right, maybe he has moved on.
He shakes Matt's hand and I quickly take Matt's hand in mine after he retracts it from Adam.
"Oh gosh, I'm being rude, this is my girlfriend, Kate Simses."
"Nice to meet you." I give her my hand to shake and she accepts it.
"Same goes." she answers in a kind tone.
She's good for Matt. They're good for each other. She looks fun, and she looks worthy of Adam's love so I fully support them.
"Jayma, I was thinking of selling the house. You know, maybe start a new, we found this house and we're starting to inquire, so far so good. And since you paid some parts of this house," he says gesturing to the house we were in. "I'm giving half of how much we sell this for to you."
"I thought we agreed that you have the whole house, I'm fine with you selling, and you don't have to give me half, I barely gave anything for it. You paid for everything begging me not to take out some cash."
"No, no, you have half." I could see the sincerity in his voice.
"No Adam. It's yours now."
"If you insist, you still haven't changed you know, you always have your way wit these things."
"You always give in." I giggle a bit. "Oh God, I'm sure you want to come in." I hold Matt's hand closer.
"Jayma and I just got the remain of her stuff that she left before." Matt says.
"I figured." Adam answers taking Kate's hand in his. She smiles to him. A kind smile. A happy smile.
"We better be going." I tell them. Matt gets the last box and I give Adam a hand shake.
"Kate it was really nice to meet you." I say giving her a hug. "I can see you and Adam are happy with each other, I assure you he's a great man." I whisper in her ear.
"I know he's a good man. I wouldn't date him if he isn't." She says giggling.
She's bubbly. She's kind.
"Matt, take care of Jay." Adam says jokingly.
"Of course I will." Matt answers chuckling.
We get into the car and I guess Matt notices the smile in my face.
"Kate Simses good enough for Adam?" He asks.
"I'm happy for him Matt. She's amazing. I'm sure she's amazing."
"Jealous?" he asks jokingly.
"Why would I be jealous? She doesn't have a Matthew Morrison to practice having babies with right?"
"You have a point."
"See Matt. I always have a point." I say putting my hand on his knee.
"You're amazing Jayma, wait no you're Jaymamazing!" he shouts in glee.
"Wait what?"
"You're amazing Jayma. Jayma plus amazing, Jaymamamzing! From now on that's what I'm calling you. Hi Miss Jaymamazing."
"You have got to be kidding me." I say slapping his thigh.
"Ow, that really hurt."
"Am I still Jaymamazing even if?" I ask him giving him my best puppy dog eyes.
"You'd still be MY Jaymamazing no matter what happens."
So Yay! Hope you enjoy this.
So yeah I think Matt had that interview where he called Jayma Jaymamazing in season 2. I think it's after the Born this way performance so yeah.
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