Emma's POV

I received Will's text message, but what bothered me was that he didn't send me another message after that one he sent. Oh god was he drunk? He's supposed to be going to Rosalinda's with Shannon...

It's eleven in the evening and I was lying awake in my bed. It was so unusual of Will, he usually calls when he knows I'm upset with him. Or just send me a message if he's really busy.

Oh god is he mad at me?

Of course he is you idiot.

My conscience couldn't handle it. I got up and I put on some clothes. Something decent but not too formal. I put on some jeans and a shirt. I never wore this in front of lots of people, but I'm comfortable with Will. He's my best friend. I should be comfortable with him.

I get inside my car and I drive to his place. "Pretending" was playing in the radio. I remember that song, that was the song Rachel and Finn sang for Nationals, when Will left for New York and never came back for five years. God, was I still attached to that memory. He's here now. I should be happy. I get there and I see Will sitting down in front of his front door and I was surprised he was there alone. Where is Shannon?

I park in the corner of his house and I furrow my brows as I see him there on his front porch his palm is on his chin, he was sitting on the floor. I came nearer and I guess he hasn't seen me cause he made no effort to look up nor stand. I came closer and I sat next to him.

"Will?" I say tilting my head so I'm looking him in the eyes. He seems to be startled by my voice and he snaps up.

"Oh Em." he says in a dreamy way. And I bit back a laugh thinking he would take it as an insult.

"Where's Shannon?" I ask him as he looks at me like he wanted me to come all along and God I wish he did.

"She's somewhere-" he is drunk, that explains everything. "uhm- probably singing to some bar." he gives me a lopsided smile.

"Why didn't you stay with her? I thought you went together..." I ask him lifting his chin up.

"You're so beautiful Em." he says dreamily and my eyes widen in shock. Does he really think I'm beautiful, snap out of it! He's drunk, he must be getting his eyes all blurry.

"Will, you didn't answer my question." I tell him, my voice stern.

"It's boring there and if I didn't leave then I would have never gotten to see you Emma." he says.

"Let's get you inside. I'm sure you need to go to bed Will, you're drunk." I say lifting him up. He stands up and I'm thankful he can still walk, he's much bigger than me and I don't think I can carry him all the way up.

"I'm not drunk Em." We enter the house and I just giggle at what he had said, of course he would deny it. Who wouldn't? "I'll make you something to drink." he says smiling, attempting to go to the kitchen. "Tea or coffee?" he asks and I just look at him weirdly. "Oh I'm so weird, of course tea, I know you don't like coffee." he thinks he's walking to the kitchen but he was about to enter the bathroom, not trying to open the door.

"Oh God." I mutter under my breath and I run to block him from where he was headed to; the door.

"Emma, I wanna make you some teeea." he slurs the word. He's drunk alright.

"You're going inside the bathroom Will." I tell him and I giggle.

"Okay sorry, now I wanna make you some tea." he whines.

"No, you sit there in the couch." I hold his hand and I drag him to the couch. He sighs.

"If you want me to. You know I'd do anything for you Emma. I-" he says but doesn't continue the sentence.

I get him some water and I come back and hand it to him. "Drink up Will, this would help." I tell him and he drinks the whole glass.

"Come on big bud, let's get you to bed." I say making him stand. I lead him up the stairs and into his bedroom. "I have to go now Will. You think you can manage from here?" I ask pushing him to get in the bedroom.

I'm not just getting inside that room alone, at night with him, it's his private space. I should give that to him.

I hear a thump even before I get to take one step. His head pops out of the door afterwards.

"I need you Em." he says, his voice was slurring. "I can't do it without you."

What can't he do?

"Will are you sure?" I ask him and he nods. I take a deep breath and I enter his bedroom, it was very Will, that was all I could say, I liked it nonetheless.

"Uhm can you get me clothes?" he asks and I see him sitting on the edge of his bed, trying to take off his shirt.

So this is what being turned on feels like.

Focus Emma, that's not what you came here for.

I hand him a white shirt and pajamas.

"Can you undress yourself? I'm sure you can." I tell him, hoping he'd say yes. But he stares at his belt for a few seconds and he tries to take it off but he couldn't.

I gulp, I have to do this for him.

I come closer to him and he looks at me. I undo his belt and do the same for his jeans. He was in his boxers, just in his boxers. I gulp.

Don't think of it, don't think of it, don't think of it.

"I think you can do the rest in your own. I have to go now Will." I say biting my lip. He looks at me longingly, his pajamas in hand.

"Stay, please?"

"Will..."

"Please Em, Jus say yes." I roll my eyes.

"I can't believe I'm saying yes."

"Yussss my Em is stayin." He does this fist pump that fails because of the alcohol in his system.

Wait what did he say? My Em? His Em? I'm his Em? my heart flutters.

I turn back to give him the privacy to change. I could feel his presence behind me and gosh it's arousing, how does he do this to me?

"Ems can look." he says it like he was about to fall asleep. He wasn't wearing a shirt, it was pretty warm here, maybe that's why.

He gets on the bed on top of the covers. "You come here please?" he pleads with his eyes. The lights were still on and I proceed to sit on the edge of his bed.

"Em, sleep here tonight." he says.

"I-I don't have any clothes."

"Em," he whines again.

"Only until you fall asleep." I tell him, he can't disagree. I put my legs up the bed and he scoots to me and surprisingly, he puts his head on my lap. Sober Will would never be that bold, but I like this, it feels good to have him there, it felt... right.

I run my fingers through his hair and I convince myself that all best friends do this.

I was about to stand up and leave when I heard Will's voice.

"not sleeping yet Em." he shook his head "Can't leave yet." he says. I roll my eyes jokingly.

"Okay okay." I giggle, he does too.

"You're so beautiful Em. My Em is so beautiful." he says, his arms finding their way to my hips.

"Oh Will..." Am I really?

He sits up and he rests his back on the headboard, like how I was sitting.

"You're so beautiful." He says again two of his fingers lifting my chin up so I could look him in the eyes. He cups my cheek and his thumb grazes my cheek.

"Will, we can't-"

"We can." he says. He leans in and kisses me. I give in to him. I couldn't deny how much I wanted for this to happen.

"You're so beautiful Emma."

"Will..." He kisses me again.

"I love you Emma." he says and he leans in to kiss me again but I dodge it this time.

"Don't- don't say that Will. You're drunk, you-you don't know what you're thinking."

"I told you I'm not drunk."

Will's POV

I'm not drunk. I was just acting like I was drunk so that Emma would stay with me, so that I could innocently deliver my feelings to her. But I don't want to pretend anymore. I saw the hurt in her eyes when she tole me that I didn't know what I was thinking. She wanted me to tell her I love her when I'm sober.

She doesn't trust me when I'm drunk. I mean who would trust someone when they're drunk right?

"What do you mean you're not drunk? You can barely walk a straight line, you can't even undo your jeans Will." she tells me and I stand up. I walk around in straight lines.

"You want me to get the clothes I wore for work today?" I ask her and I grab the clothes from the hamper and I show them to her.

"See Em, I'm not drunk." I tell her walking to where she was sitting down, her eyes were wide and her mouth hung open.

"You-you lied to me." she says taken aback.

"You would have left." I tell her and she was still looking at me like I'm a bad person. "I love you Emma. I just, when I saw you there, I wanted to tell you how much I love you and I couldn't just say it." I tell her and I see her biting her lip.

"Wh-why?" she was calming down now.

"Because you might not love me too. What if you didn't love me and I told you while I was sober, our friendship would be ruined. I thought that if I told you when I was drunk that even if you don't love me back you'll just forgive my words and we'll still be good friends." It was my turn to bite my lip.

"What makes you think I love you now?" she says, her eyes were glistening.

"The fact that you're still here now means you love me." I tell her sitting down in front of her and taking her hands in mine. "I love you Emma."

"Will, we can't do this. Not now." She looks at me her lower lip quivering.

"So, so you don't love me?" God this hurts, I should never have told her I'm not drunk. A tear falls from my cheek.

She reaches her hand up and I know what she was going to do, she was going to wipe it away but I turn away. She looks at me, there was pain in here eyes and along that she looked worried, concerned of me.

"Will..." more tears cascaded my face

"You didn't answer my question Emma, do you love me?" I ask her again and she closes her eyes for a few seconds, there were tears coming out.

"I love you too." she said it. God this feels so good.

"Then- then why can't we be together?" I asked her confused.

"I'm still married to Carl, Will." she says biting her lip. "I don't want you to be the other man." she says taking my hands in his. "I- you deserve so much more than that Will."

"Then file a divorce Emma. It's been years since we broke up and I still can't forget how much I love you." I give her hands a kiss. "I love you so much Em, so, so much." I plant a kiss in her lips.

"I will." she answers.

"You will?" I ask in glee.

"Yes Will, I'll do it, for you." she smiles.

I plant a kiss in her neck. She moans.

"Emma, you're turning me on." I place more kisses in her neck, she was giving in.

"Will, we can't-"

"One night Em, please." I beg her with my eyes.

"You know that can't happen, we'll see each other differently." she says, Why won't she just give in?

"Please Em, I know you want this as much as I do." I can see it in her eyes the moment she lay here next to me, I knew she wanted the same thing.

"One night, but you promise we won't become a couple until I get divorced? No kisses, no I love yous'? Just- just the friends we were before this?" Emma asks and I didn't want to say yes.

"But Emma-" I pause as she holds my hands. "What would happen if we don't have sex tonight?" I ask her and she takes a deep breath.

"The same thing, we can't be a couple even if, no kisses, no I love yous' just friends." She says.

"Oh so there's no difference..." I pause as I look at her. Taking everything in, I'm going to make love to Emma for the first time. "Just promise me I'll be your forever, promise me you'll never love anyone else but me. Promise me Emma."

"You're going to be my forever Will, we could have a family of our own, the two of us." she smiles planting a kiss on my lips.

"And a baby, someday."

"One step at a time Will."

"I'll wait forever and a day as long as your heart belongs to me." I tell her.

"It's been yours from the beginning." she bites her lip and she kisses me again.

"This has to go." I say removing her white top.

God she's gorgeous

Emma's POV

I catch my breath and I see Will staring at me.

"Will, I have to go." I tell him sitting on the edge of the bed as I find my bra, I put it on. I see the rest of my clothes scattered everywhere and I stand before Will in only my underwear.

"Stay the night Em, it's late." he says pulling me back to the bed.

"Will, I have to go." I try to break free from him but he's too strong. "Will, I really need to go, please?"

"But it's a Saturday tomorrow, no work Emma, you can stay home you don't have to go." he complains. He can be reeeally stubborn some times.

"Will, you'll see me on Monday." I tell him. It's true I will see him on Monday, but not like this, not as passionate as this.

"But when I see you on Monday, we're going to pretend like we forgot about today. And I don't want to forget Emma. I want to be with you. I want to live with you. I want you to be always by my side, as more than a friend." I can sense the anger in his voice.

You can't give in Emma, you want to take this slow, you want to make things right.

"We have to wait for me to get divorced Will, we can't just push into this relationship even if I'm married!" I tell him. He seems to be taken aback and he lets go of me.

"Don't you think we already went fast tonight huh Em?"

"Oh so you didn't want this?" Tears were about to escape my eyes, did he really regret this? "Don't answer that, I have to go anyway." I say gathering my clothes and hastily putting it on. I see him standing up, he puts on some boxers.

I slam the door shut and seconds later I see him come out with only his red boxers on. I turn around and I was so mad at him. I run to him and I start hitting his chest as hard as I could, tears cascading my face.

"I can't believe you... you regret our first time together Will!" I say and I think that was the last straw for him. He held my arm to stop me from hitting him. I saw the tears in his own eyes.

"I don't regret anything Emma. I'm forever thanking you for giving me your everything." I couldn't stay mad at him, he was so sincere.

I calm down and soon my breathing was labored. "I have to go."

"Em, wait." he runs after me. "I know you want us to just be friends after this, and friends don't kiss each other. So here-" he plants a passionate kiss to my lips.

My heart sinks when he pulls away. "I hope you get divorced fast, I don't think I can handle just being friends with you after everything." he tells me and I wanted to say the same thing but that would just push us more into this.

"Yeah but we have to take it slow, I-I want us to last forever and I want to get to know every part of you Will, all your quirks or how you want your eggs done." I breath deeply. "But right now-"

"Now, I'll be your best friend, who you can count on no matter what happens. Who you can trust to protect you through anything. I'll be that man you could rely on Emma. Just don't love someone else." Will tells me and tears fall from my eyes.

"I love you." I tell him. A tear slid down his face.

"Oh my god Em, I've waited for five years to hear that from your lips. I love you so much." Will answers.

"I really do have to go now Will, I'm driving to my brother's house in another city in Ohio tomorrow." I tell him and he envelopes me in a hug.

"Take care Em. Send me a message when you get there, I want to know you're safe." He's amazing.

"I will best friend." I tell him. I turn away heading for the door.

"Please don't call me best friend Em, I feel like I'm gay." he says. And I turn back giggling.

"Okay William. Goodbye" I tell him. He gives me a warm smile and I head out the door.

There's a difference between saying goodbye and leaving, Goodbye is 'I'll see you again when I'm ready to hold your hand and when you're ready to hold mine. Leaving is 'I realized your hand isn't mine to hold, I'll never hold it again. And right now I'm saying goodbye to Will and I'm leaving Carl, cause I don't want to hold on to a lifeless marriage. I want to share the thing called marriage with Will, and that would only happen if I let go of the other one.

I didn't need any sleep, I couldn't sleep actually, so I went up on the internet and I looked for the ways on how to file a divorce. I'm going to file one on Monday, and I'll have to talk to Carl before that, and if he obliges it would be easier than if we have a child... Carl left the house to me so we have to figure that out too.

This feels so surreal, just twelve hours ago I was getting mad at Will for forcing me to make the first move and file the divorce and I don't know but I think I'm happy. If I get divorced me and Will could start a new. We could have a family. One I always dreamed of having.

"This is the last for now. I love you Emma, I love you, I love you, I love you. And I'll be here no matter what. I know having a divorce is really hard, I've been there, you've been there too, but I'll be right by your side whether you like it or not. I'll always protect you. I can wait Em, just not too long, I'll dream about us every day... xx -Will"

He's too sweet.

"Oh, I almost forgot, be safe tomorrow Emma, I love you."

I look at the message again and decide against replying to the text. It's already five in the morning and it's a two hour drive to my brother's place, I'll have to leave at seven. I decide to take a cat nap but as I lay in bed, all I was doing was dreaming about Will.

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