"Leave those files on the desk thank you Tina," Nate said without looking up when the door to his office opened.

"Dan doesn't want kids," she said softly and Nate's head snapped up because that was not his assistant. He buzzed his assistant and told her to hold his calls and he was not to be disturbed while Serena closed the door and leaned back against it. "He said he doesn't want kids now."

"There is still time Serena I mean you guys only got married like two months ago," Nate said swallowing because she was in his office talking to him about her and Dan's future children and he really really wanted to stay as in the dark as possible when it came to their marriage. "He didn't say never right?"

"He said not now, he was serious and he did that thing with his face where you know he's serious," she said pointing her finger to her face and moving it around to make her point. "What if his not now turns into never?"

"Serena…" Nate said gathering his thoughts as he stood, he didn't know what to say to her exactly to make her feel better.

"I'm pregnant," she said before he could say anymore and he froze and stared at her.

"O..o..ok, are you sure," Nate stuttered to get out, his heart dropped to his stomach and his eyes dropped to hers because it was real, she and Dan weren't just this passing thing Chuck and Blair liked to make them out to be to make him feel better, she was starting a family with him, she was having his baby. Nate stood there struggling to breathe at her confession, he knew this was going to come, he just didn't think it would come so soon, he wasn't ready for it and he wondered if he could ever really be.

"I took a test but I think I need to be sure and I don't want anyone else to know," she said looking down, he could tell she was struggling with it and his mind immediately jumped to his family doctor, the most discreet man he'd ever known, he'd take her to him if she needs confirmation. "Chuck and Blair have their own pregnancy and Henry to deal with and I don't want to add any stress to them and I don't want Dan to know until I'm sure, in case it's a false alarm and he hates me for falling pregnant before we were ready and I know that there's been this huge distance between us that I wish wasn't there and I have a sinking feeling that it's my fault but I just … I don't know who else to go to."

"Ok stop," he said walking over to her and lightly grabbing her shoulders to get her to pay attention to him because she was rambling. "Did you see a doctor?"

"No, I just took that stupid home pregnancy test last night and here I am," she said throwing her head back and resting it against the door with her eyes closed. "What am I going to do?"

"Ok the first thing we're going to do is get you to a doctor and then we can worry about everything else," Nate told her and she opened one eye to look at his face.

"You'd do that for me? Even though you're really busy?" she asked and Nate nodded. "Dan's going to be so angry if he finds out I'm pregnant after our talk about not being ready for kids."

"Even though I really don't like the guy right now, you know as well as I do that if you are pregnant he'd be really excited," Nate said thanking whatever powers that be that her eyes were closed again so she wouldn't see the completely defeated look on his face as he tried to make her feel better. "And even if he isn't you are going to be a really good mom and your kid will have a kickass uncle, just ask Henry."

Serena opened her eyes when Nate let go of her shoulders and laughed. "I need to make an appointment with the doctor now, don't I?" she asked groaning and Nate shook his head slowly causing her to raise an eyebrow at him because he just said she needed to see a doctor and now he was saying no.

"Let me take care of that," he said and she stared at him for a beat before nodding and giving him a relieved smile. "I need you to find Tina tell her that I'm not going to be in for the rest of the day and to call me on my cell if it's urgent."

"Thanks Natie," she said softly as she left the office, Nate sat down heavily on his chair and closed his eyes. Not letting his mind wander too much he grabbed his phone to find the number he needed.

Nate and Serena entered his apartment later that day and promptly collapsed on his couch.

"So today was …" he trailed of not really sure of how to describe how he felt and sure that whatever he said was either going to make her really angry with him or really sad and he didn't think he could handle either of those emotions.

"Yeah," Serena whispered knowing exactly how he felt and Nate smiled to himself, it had been a while since he felt like they were on the same page. "Henry wasn't kidding when he said you were going to keep the train set on your floor forever."

"I didn't have the heart to break it up," Nate said chuckling at the memory of building it. Henry insisted that they call Chuck over to help, of course that meant Chuck sat close by with the instructions and his scotch and told Nate and Henry what to do instead of helping, but Nate wouldn't have expected anything less from his best friend. "He'd be really disappointed if he came here the next time and it was gone."

"You really are a 'kickass' uncle," Serena said looking over at him in awe and Nate blushed and shrugged. "If I were going to have a kid you'd probably be its favorite uncle too."

"Just because you aren't pregnant now doesn't mean you're never going to be," he said watching her face as she took a deep breath. The doctor had determined that Serena wasn't actually pregnant and the home test was a false positive, her face had fallen and her nervous excitement gone but he was relieved, he hated that he felt that way but he really was, he needed more time before she was pregnant with someone else's child, he'd only just recently got used to the idea of her being married to someone else.

"I know, I was just really happy for a moment or a couple of moments actually," Serena said shrugging looking over at Nate and seeing his blue eyes shine with worry for her. "I'll be ok Nate, this is a good thing remember, the result I hoped for."

"You don't sound like it's a good thing," he said commenting on her lack of enthusiasm. "I know you wanted it to be true."

"Maybe someday right," she asked taking a deep breath and looking around the room, stopping when her eyes landed on the clock and she noticed the time. "I should go."

"Are you going to tell him?" Nate asked as she stood up.

"Maybe, I don't know," Serena said looking down at her nails, she wasn't pregnant so nothing would change, if she didn't say anything to Dan he would never know and they could go about being normal again but if she told him it may start conversations that she wasn't willing to finish and the thought scared her.

"I think you should, I know you think that it's not a big deal because there's no baby but it kinda is," Nate found himself saying and Serena nodded and turned away from him and started walking toward the door hating that he could read her so well.

"Ok I've been thinking of ways to talk to you about this for a really long time but everything seemed to be getting in the way," Serena said turning back toward him when she reached the door and Nate furrowed his brows and stared at her. "What is your problem?"

"My problem?"

"Yes Nate, I got married, I didn't think that meant I was going to lose you," she said throwing her arms out and staring at him.

"You didn't lose me, I'm right here," Nate said standing as well, he knew they hadn't had a conversation alone since her engagement (talking on the phone before her wedding didn't count) but he honestly didn't think she noticed, he just assumed she didn't want to.

"No you aren't Nate, you were barely around after Christmas, I don't care that your grandfather kept you from returning for a while, then I had to get Chuck to call you to invite you to my wedding because your secretary said you were always busy when I called and finally I come back from my honeymoon and you were gone only to come back yesterday, a full month after I got back," Serena said loudly and Nate winced at every accusation she made. "So excuse me for thinking that I was losing you."

"I don't know what you want me to say Serena," Nate said getting agitated because he was only doing what would cause them, or him at least, the least pain. "I have actually been busy these past couple months."

"You have never been too busy to take my calls Nate, I want you to tell me why Henry thinks you we need to spend more time together," she said and when Nate went to open his mouth to respond she cut him off. "Yes he told me and if our godson can see the distance between us then why can't you?"

"It's not like that Serena," Nate said pressing his fingers against his temples. "You're married now, things have changed, we aren't going to see each other the way we used to."

"I know you feel that way but how can you know that Nate, why would you think that?" she asked, not understanding why he would think that they aren't going to see each other as often, Dan wouldn't keep her from her friends and she wouldn't let him. "If you were around you'd know that I'd still make the time to see you because you are one of my best friends."

Nate smiled bitterly at her and shut his eyes for a second as he shook his head because she wasn't getting it and he wasn't going to explain it, not right now. "S, it's late and you've had a crazy day, maybe we should save this conversa-"

"No, no, no, we are having this conversation now because you are going to keep avoiding it and I want us to get over whatever this is so we can go back to the way we were," Serena said cutting him off when she realized what he was going to say. "I miss talking to you Nate, before … everything I came to you and this past month I've had no-one to talk to because as much as I love Blair she's got so much going on and Chuck's just not you, you're my best friend and fellow godparent.

"Just tell me why you're avoiding me," Serena asked pleadingly and looking at him with such vulnerability and exhaustion that Nate just closed his eyes and clenched his jaw. "Please."

"Because I'm in love with you ok?" he said loudly and exasperatedly and both he and Serena took in sharp breaths at his confession. He didn't want to tell her, not like that and the look on her face told him that maybe it wasn't the best thing to say at that time but she pushed him and Nate knew he was too far in right now to stop. "Because we slept together and I thought it meant something to you but it didn't, because it took everything in me not to stop your wedding, because I needed a month to prepare myself for you to be married to someone who is not me."

Serena stood frozen, with her hand against her heart and her eyes stuck on his face.

"So yeah I'm avoiding you, I need to avoid you S," Nate said shaking his head. "You know it's hard to love someone who doesn't love you back and sometimes as much as you want to be there when that person needs you, you need breaks in between because your broken heart needs to recover from every little touch and every single word."

"Nate … " Serena whispered, breathing heavily, there were tears burning in her eyes and she had no idea how to respond but he shouldn't be saying any of this not to her, not now, especially not when she was married and happy.

"No it's ok because I know you don't feel the same S, and I know that this is hard for you to hear but you can't honestly tell me that you had absolutely no idea that this is how I feel," Nate said letting out a heavily breath as he searched her face for something, anything that told him she wasn't ignorant to his feelings and looked down disappointedly when he found nothing. "I don't want your sympathy or pity or whatever you were just going to say to let me know that you had no idea, I love you and I will do anything for you but I need time, just give me some time to get used to you and Dan being married."

Serena didn't say anything else she just blinked back the tears threatening to come out and reached back to grasp the door handle. With one last look at Nate standing across the room looking at her with such pain in his eyes, she opened the door of his apartment and slipped out as quickly as she could and ran down the hall. She needed to get out of there fast, she couldn't handle the amount of emotions crashing down on her, the realizations that she didn't want to acknowledge, she didn't want Nate to see how his words affected her so she left.

"Well that went well," Nate mumbled to himself flopping back down on his couch and slapping his hands hard onto his face, if he could kick his own ass, he would but he may not have to wait too long until Serena tells Dan and he comes and does that for him. "What the hell were you thinking, Archibald."

How could he be so careless with his feelings? He spent the better part of the last five years, burying his feelings for Serena to be the best friend he could be because she loved Dan and he convinced himself that she would never feel anything more for him than friendship. He hid his feelings to protect his heart and his little nephew's because the boy loved spending time with his godparents, together, and he didn't deserve the tension Nate knew would be there if she knew of his love and didn't return it, the tension that was going to be there now whenever they were in the same room. Nate buried his face in his hands and groaned, what has he done?

Nate shook his head and got up off the couch and went straight into his liquor cabinet, reaching for the strongest thing he had and pouring himself a glass, he needed to forget everything.

A/N I am soooooo so so so sorry about the wait and this chapter isn't even that long but it has a lot going on in it, this wasn't even supposed to happen yet but once I started writing this chapter this came out and I just went with it, I'm actually pretty happy with it, I don't think this story is going to be a really long one but I'm going to try and stick to the plan and give it the ending it deserves

So the past two weeks have been filled with One tree hill, I finally watched the 5th season which I skipped before and I cried like a baby because it was really sad lol and then I got lost in OTH fanfiction which is terrible for you guys because I wasn't writing but brilliant for me because they have some really good writers!

Anyway back to the story thank you so much for the reviews and the support I do hope you like this chapter and don't want to kill me for it, its not exactly what any of you were expecting and haha I didn't go there, the pregnancy test was just a cliffhanger to make you go omg lol and it worked but I couldn't bring myself to go there and it was just basically a push for major NS interaction

So please review and let me know what you think and hopefully I can get the next chapter out quicker

Until Next Time (^^,)