Chapter 12 choices… *SLASH MENTION*

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Jacob's P.O.V.

"have you imprinted on MY cub?"

"yes…"

the words rang as clear as a bell over and over in my head as if he was asking the question over and over.

On the ride back to the Rez from Bella's house Billy was doing his best to hide his laughter.

I didn't encourage him by speaking, so the ride was quite. The radio was still turned on low but I could hear it with perfect clarity as if it was turned up full blast. I didn't mind. This gave me the excuse not to talk to my dad.

After unloading him into the house I made my way to the garage. I needed t work on Harry's car anyway. The Dodge Challenger made me smile. I had wanted this car but my dad only had the two hundred for the rabbit.

I changed the radio station to the only other one that would play here. Rock. It might be softer than what I normally like but it was rougher then the old country.

Shucking my shirt I got to work.

After an hour I heard a car on my road. Glancing up at the clock I saw it was nearly one… who would be out here this late in a car?

I wiped my hand off on the rag in my back pocket ad not bothering with a shirt I made my way out of the garage.

My heart shuddered to a stop, before doing a double time in my chest.

Harry

Harry's p.o.v.

i had been restless since I had got back from the Floo call with Hermione. I had told her about Jacob and how I felt. She had asked way I hadn't done anything about it… I so hated it when she was right.

Jacob meant more to me in the last few days then anyone else had ever meant to me other than Sirius and Remus and they approved with flying colors.

After pacing in my study for a while I gave up and grabbed my wand, my guitar and my keys on my way out the door.

I would show him exactly how I felt no matter what it took… and I prayed to Merlin that he felt the same.

The drive to the reservation was a quiet one. I didn't bother with the radio in the car and I didn't blink as far as I could tell as I drove the dead streets of Forks.

I could breathe easier when I got to the beginning of Jacob's driveway. It was like a Novocain for my fears and nerves.

I could see the light on in the house but I didn't bother because I could hear the music coming from the garage.

I sped up when I saw him. Like the light at the end of the tunnel; you just want to go faster till you get to your freedom. And that's what Jacob was for me, without me even realizing it.

I got out of my car as soon as I turned it off grabbing the guitar from the back seat after shoving my keys in the pocket with my wand.

"Harry." It was like a sigh of relief. "I didn't recognize the sound of your car…" he explained further with a sheepish smile.

I wanted to embrace him. I don't know why either. I'm not normally a touchy feely guy but every time I was near him I wanted to just be me. A me I didn't know. But wanted to very much.

I settled for a "hey Jacob." So it wouldn't be awkward.

"Is something wrong?" Jacob asked curiously.

"No… listen Jacob, there something we need to talk about…" these words seemed to make this huge teenager deflate.

"Yes. There is. Come on; let's sit up here…" he said pointing to a cluster of rocks.

He was quiet as we climbed up and over the rocks where a flat rock sat in the middle.

"no one knows about this place but me and the pack. It's my spot. No one comes to it."

"and you are sharing it with me?" I asked my heart soaring.

"yes… will you play some thing for me?" he whispered looking at me hopeful.

I couldn't refuse. I didn't want to.

I smiled as I fixed the guitar and began strumming to a random song. He was quiet for a long time. He didn't really smile but he just watched me. I wasn't sure how much time had passed but the cold wind blew harder every few minutes. But I wasn't worried I was sitting next to a portable heater. He was sitting so close to me that I could make out the change of colors of his brown eyes; could make out every worry line on his face. He was beautiful.

After I was done with that song I began to strum to the radio. He grinned big, showing off his white teeth.

"only two radio stations here…" he said before he frowned.

"Jacob…" I started. My Gryffindor courage seemed to have left me. I closed my eyes and breathed a few times before opening them back up to see him watching my hands. "I like you." I whispered softly but I knew he heard me clear as if I had yelled it from the cliff tops.

"I know…"

"how do you…"

"I imprinted on you that day at the used car lot." He explained still looking at my hands.

"imprinted…" it wasn't a new word but it came to me with a whole new meaning. "you imprinted on me?"

"I didn't mean to I swear!" he exclaimed looking in my eyes. "It's not something I can control. I don't have a choice. There will be no one else for me…" he said turning away from me. "But you. You have a choice." Jacob whispered softly into the wind as it blew by. He wasn't looking at me but at the cloud riddled sky. It smelt like rain to me. I wondered vaguely how long it had been that way for him. A new song came on in his garage.

"I don't want it." I answered fiercely. This was his way of giving me an unnecessary out. I wouldn't –couldn't take it. Jacob meant too much to me already for me to just throw it all away over nothing.

I was suddenly glad I had been strumming on my bass guitar to the radio for a few songs.

It turns out there was only two radio stations that worked in Forks. The old country and the new/old rock…

I could barely make out the first few soft guitar picks. I smiled, I knew it by heart.

I flicked my wand at the radio before picking up where the radio left off. I had been playing this song since the first time I heard it. I so wanted some one to play it for. Now I had the perfect person to have that chance.

"I memorized all the words for you…" I sang softly after a moment.

He turned to me so quickly even for his werewolf abilities I worried he had hurt something.


"But if you only knew how much that's just not like me
I wait up late every night just to hear your voice
But you don't know that's nothing like me"

He watched intently as I sang to him. His dark brown eyes softening as I sang and watched his eyes.


"You know I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time I've been hoping you don't find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside

I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me"

They searched mine for any hint of doubt or lies. I knew my eyes did not hold any but I smiled for good measure as I sang.

"I want to make sure everything is perfect for you
If you only knew that that's not like me to follow through
Maybe even give up on these dead end dreams just to be with you
But you don't know that's nothing like me"

His recently trimmed hair danced around his face as the wind blew. He looked like an Indian angel. Mine… all mine…

"Hey yeah, I wonder have you already figured out
All these things that I try to hide
All this time I've been hoping you don't find out how
All these thing that I hide on the inside
I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me
Now I'm waking up
I've finally had enough of this wreck of a life
How I never thought I'd survive
Now I'm taking back all I gave up for that
Leave my pain behind
Wash these stains from my life
Just when I thought all was lost
You came and made it all okay
I can't be held responsible
This is all so new to me
Just when I think I'm invincible
You come and happen to me

I memorized all the words for you
If you only knew how much that's just not like me"

I sat the guitar down breaking the eye contact. I knew I was blushing but it was to be expected.

"you accept then?"

I looked back at him and saw him grinning. His eyes shown brightly against the clear night sky. The moon reflecting in them.

That's when I knew in that moment my whole world was sitting here in front of me. I smiled as wide as I could.

"Yes. Yes Jacob I do." How could I not? Honestly… he's mental… in a good way.

A/N

This chapter is my favorite so far. Even after the dinner debacle. Now I know some of you are going to be VERY UNHAPPY with me. I am not going to be where I can post for a while. If I can snag a computer I will be lucky but I highly doubt it. I hope you can forgive me.

A few of you have asked how much longer is this going to be? I want to make it as long as my muse will let me, but I will do my best not to OVERDUE the story, like some people do. But I will go on as long as I can.