A/N thank you for being patient! I rewrote this chapter a lot and played around with ideas for future chapters. How would you guys feel if I brought up the issue of self harming in this fic at some point? I want to ask your opinions before I do so because I don't want to make anybody uncomfortable. But without further ado, here is some Elsanna fluff towards the end. With much more to come. Thank you guys for all of your reviews and follows and likes and you guys are just the best. Keep those reviews coming :)
Elsa wasn't sure if she heard the redheaded girl right.
"I'm sorry, what?" The blonde asked again.
Anna stifled a giggle at Elsa's nervousness, running her hand through her bangs.
"I said we should do gay rights. Is that okay? So many kids are afraid to be who they are because they're afraid of what people would say, who would hate them. You shouldn't be afraid to love who you want to love.." Anna's voice trailed off as her eyes lingered to the floor.
Elsa just sat there, staring at the girl in front of her. Oh god she totally knows about you. It's because you were staring at her at that party. Jesus Elsa control yourself next time.
Elsa ran her long, pale fingers through her hair, nervously twirling the locks around them.
"I mean, if you're comfortable presenting that then I'm all for it." Elsa spoke softly, biting her bottom lip.
Anna smiled her cute smile, teal eyes shining bright as she leaned over and hugged Elsa.
"Oh good I'm so glad!" Anna's voice was so happy. So cute.
Elsa's whole body was tense, her skin seemed to be on fire at Anna's contact; who just hugged tighter, nuzzling her face into Elsa's neck. The warmth of her breath against her skin too much for Elsa to handle, causing her to push the girl away and stand up.
"I- I have to go." Elsa stammered out, grabbing her bag and making a beeline to the door and exiting, ignoring the shouts from her teacher and the protests from Anna.
Once she was out of the classroom, she found the nearest bathroom and locked the door behind her. She slid down against the wood of the door and brought her knees to her chest, letting a soft whimper escape her mouth.
Why does she have to do this to me? Why does she have to have a boyfriend and why can't I stop myself from feeling for her? I'll just have to keep avoiding her.
Elsa sat in the bathroom until she heard the ring of the school bell, signalling all classes to come to an end. With a deep sigh she stood up and collected her bag, unlocking the door and peeking out to make sure Anna was nowhere to be seen.
"Elsa?" The familiar sounding voice of Rapunzel echoed through her ears.
Elsa walked out of the bathroom and spotted her friend, standing on her tip toes to try and find Elsa through the crowd of people.
"I'm here," The blonde answered, making her way over to Rapunzel. "Let's just go to our next class please."
Rapunzel noticed Elsa's strange behavior, making a mental note to ask her what was wrong later on as they made their way to their next period.
Her third period Science class with Rapunzel went by uneventfully. Elsa was thankful she sat in the very back, as no one really paid her any attention. Most of the kids were asleep on the desk because they had a substitute teacher today, apparently Mr. Hale had gotten sick or something. Tomorrow made Elsa more nervous, Rapunzel kept warning her about him and how he was "a tough son of a bitch." Just breathe and you'll get through it. Maybe you need it to distract yourself from Anna.
Elsa must have dozed off because she was jerked awake by the sound of the bell going off and Rapunzel shaking her shoulder.
"Hey wake up sleepyhead, you have a visitor." Rapunzel smiled as she nodded her head toward the doorway.
"Huh?" Elsa replied, still half asleep. Fuck I must have been in a deep sleep.
Elsa raised her head from the desk and followed Rapunzel's eyes to the doorway, her eyes going wide when she saw Anna standing in the doorway, giving Elsa a little wave before tucking a loose piece of hair behind her ear.
"I'll see you at lunch okay?" Rapunzel hugged the still frozen girl, her eyes still glued to Anna.
"Uh-uh yeah sure, I'll be there. At lunch. Seeing you." You fucking idiot.
The brunette giggled as she got up to leave the classroom, leaving an embarrassed Elsa behind as she hugged Anna and whispered something in her ear.
Anna walked over to Elsa and sat next to her, clearing her throat.
"Rapunzel said that you have Math next and well, I do too. I was thinking I could walk you there since it's your first day and all. Plus we need to talk about the project because you kind of ran out on me back there-" She was rambling. It's so fucking cute when she rambles. "-And this school is so big that you could get lost on the way there-"
"Anna!" Elsa interrupted her cute rambling, leaving her blushing. "It's okay, really. Come on or we'll be late." The blonde said, gathering her things as she stood up, smiling down at Anna.
"I wouldn't mind being late with you." Anna's eyes went wide. "Wait what?"
The blonde haired girl's stomach dropped, butterflies filling her entire being. Oh god was that flirting? What do I even say back? God damnit Anna I'm supposed to be getting over you, not falling for you.
Elsa tried to form a sentence, she really did. Instead she just made this embarrassing squeaking noise before her entire face matched the color of Anna's red blouse she was wearing.
Oh that was real good Elsa. Reeeeal good.
Anna just burst out laughing, causing Elsa to join her. The two girls almost in tears when the bell rang.
"Oh fuck," Elsa said between laughs, wiping her eyes. "Now we're late, let's go!" She went to stand up but felt Anna's warm hand pull her back down.
"Let's skip, we can blame it on you getting overwhelmed your first day." Anna's eyes looked hopeful as she presented the idea.
Elsa's heart began to race faster. Yes. Yes. Say yes. Wait maybe don't say yes. No. Say no.
"Elsa?" Anna asked, concern engraved across her features.
"Yes!" Elsa piped out, "I mean yes. That's fine with me." Oh god what did you do.
The two girls were walking across campus, Anna still bubbly about Elsa accepting.
"I'm going to take you where I go when I need to be alone." Anna blushed, holding out her hand. "Come on!"
Elsa hesitantly took the girl's hand. Electricity fueling through her body as their skin made contact. Anna pulled the girl to the back of the school, across the field that Elsa assumed was for gym class and into the woods.
"Anna, where exactly are you taking me?" Elsa asked, slightly breathless.
"Just be patient, we are almost there." Anna smiled at Elsa, leading them forward again.
After walking for a few more minutes, Anna turned to Elsa and stood behind her, wrapping her arms around the girl to cover her eyes.
"Now walk forward." Anna instructed, guided Elsa from behind.
God her touch feels really good.
"Okay, ready?" Anna slowly removed her hands from Elsa's face, revealing her secret spot to the blonde.
Elsa gasped at the sight before her. Tucked away in the back of the woods was a clearing with a little pond set in the middle. There were two Redbud trees with a bench overlooking the pond, the sunlight illuminating the pink and white leaves.
"Anna, this is- this is beautiful. How did you ever find this?" Elsa asked, struck by the beauty in front of her.
Anna blushed, standing beside Elsa. "I was upset one day and I found this place by accident. Sometimes when I get upset, I run. I run to just clear my head."
Elsa turned to look at the girl beside her, her layers slowly peeling away to Elsa.
It's like all I want to do is uncover every little thing about this girl. And it scares the hell out of me.
Anna walked towards the clearing, Elsa trailing behind her slowly.
"Do you like it?" Anna asked, spinning around to face Elsa.
"I love it. It's so peaceful and beautiful." Elsa answered, her eyes taking in every inch of the place.
Anna sat down on the bench and patted the spot next to her, "Come sit." She said as she looked at Elsa.
The blonde slowly made her way to the bench, taking the spot next to Anna; who in turn scooted right up against her, resting her head on Elsa's shoulder.
"Why did you run earlier?" Anna asked, sadness all but clear in her words.
It took Elsa a minute to respond back, choosing her words. "When I get scared, I run."
"Why were you scared?" Anna asked curiously.
Elsa took in a deep breath. "I'm scared of alot of things I guess."
"Like me?" the redheaded girl asked quickly.
"I-yeah. Like you. You scare the hell out of me Anna because I told myself that I wouldn't let myself get close to anybody. It's my second day here and I've already broken that rule with Rapunzel and Hans. But your closeness is a whole different level than theirs." Elsa's voice was quiet and tense. Her heart was racing and her hands were shaking.
Anna sat up so she could look Elsa in the eyes, holding her face. "Why are you so afraid Elsa? Please. Just let me in.." Anna's voice got quiet towards the end, almost a whisper, a pleading whisper.
Elsa took in a deep breath, closing her eyes so that she couldn't look into Anna's. "I can't Anna. I'm sorry. Please understand."
Anna went to say something but stopped herself, biting her bottom lip. "Fine Elsa." Disappointment in her voice.
"Why did you choose gay rights?" It was Elsa's turn for the questions.
The redhead tensed up, looking for the words to explain herself. "Well I mean why not? I think it's a big problem for everybody today. Why is such a big deal if a girl loves another fucking girl? Or if a boy loves another fucking boy! You shouldn't judge people. Try to fix them and make them believe that there is something wrong with them. If you do that to somebody, then the only person who is 'sick and has a problem' is you." She's so passionate about this.
Elsa simply nodded, her fingers playing with the end of her braid as visions of her parents played in her mind.
"You're gay, aren't you?" Anna cautiously threw the question at Elsa, who immediately tensed up, preparing herself to close up.
"I-I mean, uhm." Just answer the question! She clearly doesn't care! But maybe- maybe you're afraid to hear her say she's straight.
The blonde felt Anna's hand on top of her own, the warmth spreading through her body. Anna's touch almost gave her a strength, it single handedly knocked down Elsa's walls.
"Yeah. I am." Elsa's voice was barely audible, even in the silenced forest.
Anna didn't answer right away, her eyes looked as though they were searching for something before they landed on Elsa's lips.
It all happened so fast, the next thing Elsa knew was the unfamiliar feeling of Anna's lips against hers. They fit together perfectly, the faint taste of berries enveloping Elsa's senses. Her hands involuntarily held the back of Anna's neck, pushing her lips harder against Elsa's.
It was the sound of the low moan coming from Anna's mouth that snapped her back into reality, that closed her back up.
The blonde pushed the girl off of her, standing up and running from the woods as fast as her legs would carry her, once again ignoring Anna's protests.
There were only a few things Elsa knew right now;
Anna's kiss was something she has never felt before.
She was scared to death.
Anna likes her.
Anna has a boyfriend.
I think you love her.