A/N the only thing I have to say is: Elsanna. Enjoy|Review|Send me love. I'm so glad you guys enjoy this story. I'm having so much fun writing it and I promise it'll be a long ride. But enough talking because Elsanna awaits!
Elsa audibly gulped, clutching the fabric between her cold, slender fingers as she took in a deep breath.
"Well, let's talk then." Elsa's voice was nervous, her body shifted so she was sitting up against her pillows.
Anna was looking down, trying to find the right words as her position switched, her back now against the wall and her legs across Elsa's.
"I need to be completely honest with you Elsa. About everything because when we kissed, it was like something I've never felt. It was the feeling I've been afraid to feel my entire life." Anna's eyes were teary, causing Elsa's protective instinct to want to cradle the girl in her arms; but she decided against it, visions of Kristoff running through her head.
She heard Anna take in a deep breath, almost preparing herself for her confession.
"Kristoff and I. Kristoff isn't really-what I'm trying to say is. I'm gay Elsa."
Elsa's eyes went wide, her whole body stiffening. What the fuck? Anna is gay? Anna is gay and she kissed you and holy shit does Anna like you?
"Elsa? Please say something.." Anna's voice pleaded, pulling Elsa out of her thoughts.
"You're gay? So wait, you and Kristoff? I'm sorry, I'm confused." The blonde tried to wrap her head around what Anna was telling her.
"Kristoff has been my best friend since we were children. Him and I- we both had really, really bad childhoods. We swore to each other that we would protect each other no matter what. I'll let him tell you his side when he's ready, but my father- he used to hit me a lot because growing up I always had this feeling in the back of my mind. That I liked girls, right? He didn't like that, he used to tell me that it was sick and wrong and that he was only "hitting the sickness" out of me. My Mother, I'm not sure what she thought about it, it was more her fear of him that made her agree. She wouldn't stop him, she would just leave the room." Anna's voice sounded so delicate, her eyes were so sad, almost pained. "Well one day, Kristoff came to me and said 'what if we pretended to date? I can't sit back and watch you get hit Anna' and ever since then, we've been pretending. It's kept my Father happy, it's kept my family together but GOD Elsa I can't do it anymore. I can't keep faking this stupid smile everyday when in reality I just want to break down."
Oh my Anna..I won't let them hurt you..
"It's alright, Anna. You're here and they are there. You don't need to keep the charade up anymore. Be who you are, because I think the person you are is wonderful. Fantastic. I know damn well that you aren't sick or confused. You're Anna and that's all there is to it." By this point, Anna's hands had found their way into Elsa's, their fingers were laced together awkwardly between them.
Well it's now or never Elsa. Just open up to the girl. She just opened up to you.
"My childhood is like yours, honestly. I actually got sent here because I'm gay. See, my family is very religious and for years I tried to be like them. But I knew that something was wrong- well not wrong, I was just..different. I kept it hidden from them but I stopped going to Church, I stopped saying prayers and all of that. Why should I believe in something that thinks of me as sick? That doesn't allow two people to be happy because of who they love? Anyways, one day they walked in on me with my girlfriend at the time. We were only kissing but everything changed in that moment. My parents hated me, couldn't stand to be in the same room as me, shot me glances that broke me down more and more. The girl spread rumors around the school that I came from a fucked up, sick family. I was bullied everyday, beat up, called names." Elsa shuddered at the memories that flashed through her eyes. "Now here I am, at this place that I have to call home now and I promised myself that I wouldn't let anybody in. I wouldn't allow anyone to hurt me ever again and you come along, this strange girl who invaded my thoughts every second she could. This girl who with a simple touch, broke down every wall I've built and rebuilt again." Elsa felt Anna squeeze her hands and move over so that she was laying next to the blonde. "It scared the hell out of me, God you all scared the hell out of me. Then when we kissed, it only scared me more because I had never felt that before. I didn't- I don't know what to do." Elsa exhaled the breath she didn't know she was holding in and opened her clenched eyes.
"Oh Elsa.." Anna brought Elsa's face to hers, the taste of berries once more enveloped Elsa's senses as Anna's soft lips pressed against hers. The kiss was gentle, cautious almost and Elsa had no intention of running this time as her hands found the redhead's cheeks.
The kiss didn't last long, in fact it was over almost as soon as it began. Both girls pondered over the moment they just shared, Anna first to break the silence.
"What do we do now?"
Elsa bit her bottom lip and let go of Anna's hands, a whimper escaping the redhead's lips.
"I want to take it slow, I can't rush into anything right now but I'm not going to run anymore. I'll be here for you, just as you all are here for me." It was the best Elsa could do right now, but knowing Anna's secrets and how she's gone through the same as Elsa has made the blonde feel almost closer to her, like the have some deep connection that only the two of them share.
The girls laid in bed most of the morning, Elsa fell in and out of sleep as exhaustion caught up to her. She felt safe almost, having Anna cuddled into her side with her head on her chest; Elsa lazily running her fingers through her ginger locks.
Anna's low voice suddenly filled Elsa's ears. I could listen to this girl talk forever.
"Let's play a game."
"What kind of game?" Elsa replied, rubbing exhaustion from her eyes.
Anna sat up, sitting criss-crossed at Elsa's side. "Mmm, okay okay. I'll ask a question, then you ask a question. You have to answer! No chickens!"
Elsa laughed and nodded, "Alright, no chickens. You go first."
"Favorite color?"
"Blue." Elsa smiled, gesturing her blue pajamas. "Favorite..food?"
"Chocolate! God I love chocolate." Can this girl get any cuter?
"I love chocolate too!" Elsa giggled. "Okay okay your turn."
"Soulmates." The redhead sent Elsa a wink, a loving smile crossed Anna's face as Elsa's went bright red. "You're beautiful, Elsa." she muttered as she took the girl's hand once more.
The blonde was taken by surprise, her words catching in her throat as butterflies filled her stomach. "That's-That's not a question." She stuttered out.
"I know, but I had to tell you." Anna bit her lip and played with Elsa's fingers. "What would you do if I kissed you right now?"
The familiar heat shot through Elsa's body once more, her breath hitching in her throat.
"Well uhm- why don't you find out?" Oh god is this going to happen? I know we've kissed before but those were short and-
Elsa's internal battle was cut short by Anna's lips against her own, deeper than the other times they have kissed. The blonde brought her hands up around Anna's neck, pushing their lips closer together as the redhead straddled Elsa's lap, a whimper escaping Elsa's throat as the kiss deepened. Oh god I could get used to this, she tastes so good. She leaves me craving more.
Anna's hips started to involuntarily rock against Elsa's, sending a burning heat to Elsa's core as she rocked in synch with her, Anna's moans causing her to rock harder.
Both girls were lost in the moment, fueling only off the noises the other made in response.
"Elsa?" A voice called from behind the door, before it slowly opened. Fuck I swear to God whoever this is is going on my kill list.
Elsa and Anna threw themselves off each other, straightening out their hair and looking as innocent as possibly as Rapunzel entered the room. It was no secret that both girls cheeks were bright red and their breathing was heavy, but they hoped the other girl wouldn't notice.
"Sorry to interrupt you ladies." Rapunzel said with a wink. Fuck she knows. "I just wanted to check on you before lunch but clearly you are all taken care of."
"I don't know what you're talking about." Anna said, running her hand through her bangs.
"Oh please, it's been obvious since you both laid eyes on each other. Don't worry, your secret is safe with me." Rapunzel smiled before she exited the door, making sure to tell the girls to have fun in the most seductive voice she could.
"Well that was embarrassing." Anna blushed, clearing her throat.
Elsa just stayed silent. If Rapunzel hadn't walked in, how far do you think that would have escalated? Slow Elsa. You said take it slow, but God it's like I can't control myself around her.
"Are you okay, Elsa?" She sounded worried, cupping the blonde's cheek with her hand.
"I'm okay, I'm just thinking is all."
"Bad things?" Anna sounded upset as her hand dropped from Elsa's face.
"No, not bad things don't worry." Elsa reassured her. "I just. Anna I want to try this, I want to try us. But I'm so afraid, I'm so afraid that people won't be as nice as Rapunzel just was. I can't get teased again.."
Anna straddled Elsa's lap, innocently this time and held her face in her hands. Elsa gazed into the teal eyes in front of her, getting lost in how beautiful they are.
"Elsa I won't let anybody tease you ever again. Neither will the rest of our group. It isn't their business. We don't even have to make it known yet, it will just be between us until we are both ready to come out with it. How does that sound?"
Elsa held Anna's hands in front of her and kissed her hands. "It sounds like I don't deserve you. I'm not easy to be with Anna. Please understand that now.." I know that I'll just end up fucking this up.
"I never asked for easy." Those words. Those simple words reached Elsa's heart, causing her to bring Anna into a kiss, pouring all of her emotions into it as Anna eagerly returned.
After they shared their kiss, both the girls laid down, their bodies tangled together as they put a movie on the television.
"You know, there's this quote from my favorite book. I think it ties to us perfectly." Anna blushed, burying her face into Elsa's neck.
"And what might this quote be?" Elsa asked curiously.
"So it's not gonna be easy. It's going to be really hard; we're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me... everyday." Anna whispered into her neck, feeling the goosebumps creep across Elsa's skin.
She was right. She was completely right. This wouldn't be easy, people won't take it as well as Rapunzel did. God knows how their parents would react if they ever found out. But all I know is when I'm with Anna, it's like I'm invincible. Like Hans said, one day I'll run from something that could change my life. I'm not going to run away from this, from her. I'm going to fight my demons and my fears and I'm going to keep Anna safe from hers. I know I have my friends behind my back if I need them. I won't let fear hold me back anymore. I promise Anna.
The quote is from The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks :) I hope you all enjoyed!