Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans

We don't see much of Beast Boy for the next couple weeks. Things are apparently going well between him and Shannon, though, of course, I couldn't be sure. He doesn't talk to me all that much anymore. I shouldn't take it personally, he doesn't talk to anyone much. I take it personally anyway.

I let him off the hook. I knew he'd be happier with her. Beast Boy was the dating type, the commitment type. Eventually he would have been miserable with just sleeping around with me. So, I told him it was okay. The least he can do is talk to me; he could at least pretend that we're friends, even if we aren't getting into each other's pants anymore.

I try desperately to convince myself that his silence is all I'm upset about.

I made a mistake. I let us talk after sex, I let sex become an act of comfort, I let it become more than sex. I got attached and he didn't and that sucks.

I distract myself with books and even twice-a-day meditation. I spend more time with the others; especially Cyborg, he seems particularly lonely. I can't blame him; Beast Boy is always with his new girlfriend. We clock a lot of hours in the garage together, even if I don't touch a tool the entire time I'm in there. I mostly sit around and nurse a cup of tea.

Tea sounds good and I'm not sleeping anyway. I throw on my cloak and head for the kitchen. I decide what kind I'll make as I enter the common room.

Beast Boy and his girlfriend are here. They're sitting at the island in the kitchen. My eyes narrow. She must not have any clothes of her own. Along with another one of his shirts, she's wearing a pair of his boxers. Classy.

I try to turn around and leave before they notice me, but as soon as my back is turned, Beast Boy calls after me.

"Hey!" He says, "What are you doing up?"

I face the two of them. Shannon looks surprised, but also excited. Weird. Beast Boy looks embarrassed. I like that, I like that a lot.

"Tea." I tell him, "Excuse me. I didn't mean to interrupt."

I try to leave again, but it's Shannon who calls after me.

"You're not interrupting!" She says with a smile, "Please, don't let us get in your way."

I glance at Beast Boy. He looks nervous. Maybe he doesn't like the idea of his ex-sex buddy and his girlfriend chatting. I bet she has no idea. Oh, I was going to get so much mileage out of this.

"Only if you don't mind." I say as I try not to smirk.

"Not at all!" She reminds me of Starfire, the way she cheers.

I nod and approach the island where she's sitting. Beast Boy stands nearby. He knows something is up. He knows I'm not this friendly. That makes this even better. I purposely brush against him as I move towards the stove.

"It's nice to actually see one of Garfield's friends. I'm starting to think he's ashamed of me." Shannon says.

He hasn't introduced her to anyone? Not even Cyborg? What's wrong with this girl? I give him a look out of the corner of my eye as I fill the kettle with water.

"I doubt it's you." I lie and turn on the stove, "It's us he's ashamed of." That part might actually be true.

She laughs as I grab my mug. "Well, either way, one of us should be offended."

I come to stand next to Beast Boy. I align my foot against his. "Agreed, so who are you ashamed of, Garfield?"

A fine layer of sweat appears across his forehead. I love this game.

He stumbles over a lame excuse about how the timing is always wrong. We don't believe him.

I look at Shannon, "So he's just being lazy. Figures."

"Figures." Shannon giggles.

We continue to make shallow banter that mortifies Beast Boy until the kettle whistles. Game over. As I pour the water, Shannon asks me one more thing.

"So, anything I need to know about Garfield?"

She poses it jokingly. I'm supposed to tell her that he doesn't bathe regularly or that he picks his teeth. I can't resist.

My hand slides up his arm and onto his shoulder. I lean across the counter towards Shannon. I feel Beast Boy's body tense beneath my touch. I smirk.

"He's a great lover."

I grab my tea and walk away without another word. Ten strides away Shannon bursts into laughter. She thinks it's a joke. I chuckle because I know it isn't.

Beast Boy catches up to me once I'm in the hallway. He grabs me by the elbow.

"What the hell was that?" He asks as he pulls me to face him. He's glaring.

I glare back. "She asked an honest question, I gave an honest answer."

"You didn't have to say to tell her that!" His voice is nearly a growl, "Do you think that was funny?"

"NO! I don't think it's funny." I raise my voice without meaning to, "I do however think it's funny that you've been ignoring your best friend. I think it's funny that the girl you're spending all of your time with hasn't met any of us yet. I think it's funny how much I've fucking missed you despite how you tossed me to the side!"

I stop short. I didn't mean for that last part to come out. I'm supposed to suffer in silence, that's what a good friend does. Our glares soften and he's looking at me like he used to, before he had a girlfriend. I want to kiss him. I pull my elbow from his grasp.

"I take it back." My voice seems so small now.

He blinks, "Take what back?"

"I take back what I said. I don't want you to date Shannon." I swallow my hesitation, "I don't want to be your girlfriend, but I want to be able to kiss you and lay around naked with you and become more attached to you than I'm supposed to be. I want you."

Beast Boy struggles in silence for a moment, "Rae…I…"

"Go be with her if it'll make you happy." For some reason, I don't want him to talk yet, "If it is, I'll shut up, but you better start talking to me again, because we're supposed to be friends."

I leave. I feel better.