Here is chapter 10! I haven't updated this in awhile I know but I have a specific order I like to update my stories in. So aside from that I have no new news to tell you guys. Okay here is chapter 10.

Chapter 10

Justin looked at me. He took my hands, pulling me closer to him. His eyes were shining in the dim light.

"Alex what is it? How is it hard to explain?" he asked. It was hard to explain. Everything was so confusing and and I didn't know why. I loved Justin, I really did. He was my everything. Yet I can't tell him I love him. That was so messed up.

"I don't know. I love you okay." the words came piling out of my mouth. Justin smiled a beautiful smile. One I learned to love for so many years. Justin kissed me. It was gentle and soft. I answered his kiss. He deepened the kiss, wrapping his hands around my waist. I realized we were moving to the couch right as I was lying on him.

"Justin, we can't." I said. Justin pulled back a bit, looking at me in the eyes. Maybe I had said the wrong thing and that wasn't what was on his mind but maybe it was and I had saved us. Right now I was perfectly comfortable but this could not happen.

"I know I know. I've been telling myself that. It sucks Alex, so much." he sighed and kissed my neck. I didn't tell him to stop and I didn't push away. I just didn't want to do anything we would regret for the rest of our lives.

"I know. Now we need to get up off this couch before Max walks in on us and freaks out." I chuckled at the last part even though it wasn't the slightest bit funny. Justin nodded, following me to the kitchen. Tonight, I planned to make dinner. Something simple of course so I would burn the house down.

"Max!" Justin called. A few minutes later Max come into the kitchen, hair standing up like he'd been shocked or something. We both gave him a weird look. He kinda looked like a mad scientist or something.

"What have you been doing?" I laughed. Max laughed, too and so did Justin. For a few seconds, Max didn't reply. Probably thinking of some excuse.

"I got shocked by the electrical wire and my hair stood up. I don't know why. It's pretty cool though." Max explained. It made sense. Though I sensed something magical about it though. Justin gave Max a stern look.

"Is that what really happened?" Justin said. Max messed with his hair a bit before looking at Justin. He shrugged.

"That helped. You know I was going to make dinner now I don't feel like it. I'm going to grab Wendy's what do you want?" I grabbed my purse off the counter.

"I don't care. Just get me something good." Max shrugged once again before walking to his room. Justin made sure Max was out of the room before walking over to me. He put his hands around my waist, bringing me close to me.

"I'm not hungry so don't worry about me." he smiled and kissed my forehead. I smiled before untangling myself from him. If I didn't know then I would never leave.

"I need to go now before you distract me," I laughed then gave him a quick kiss. " Now I have to go. See you when I get back." Justin watched me as I left. I could tell he didn't want me to leave. When I got to my car, a familiar figure was leaning against my car. The perfect brown hair. It was Mason.

"Mason," I smiled. "What are you doing here?" I questioned. He looked like a God standing there. He looked completely relaxed and chilled out. Like he always used to be.

"I was waiting to see if you would come out. I needed to talk to you. You sounded worried on the phone. Plus you never call me that quickly when you're mad at me." Mason walked over towards me, taking my hands.

"It's nothing, okay. That boy, he didn't like me." I lied. That boy loved me, not liked me. I just didn't want Mason knowing about my relationships. He would ask who it was and how would I explain to him that it was my own brother?

"Oh well I'm sorry. It was nice to hear your voice though. I screwed up before and I'm so sorry for that Alex." you could tell he was serious. The tone of his voice plus the look in his eyes. I just knew him too well.

"I know but I'm just not ready for a relationship. Now if you don't mind, I need to leave." I sighed. Mason bit his lip and gave me a kiss before I left.

"Well, be safe Alex. Just know that I will never stop loving you." the last part he mumbled. I knew deep down, I would never stop loving him either. I looked at him as I drove away and so did he.

Later That Night

I was laying on the couch. It was ten and Justin had gone and locked himself in his room. Once I got home, he went to his room and hid out in there. Was he scared of me or something? That's it what was that geeky boy hiding. As I stood in front of his door, I didn't bother knocking, I just opened it. Justin wasn't there. He wasn't anywhere in his room. Where did that little boy go?! There was a note on his bed though. My brow furrowed as I picked it up.

Alex if you read this, well then I know you've come in my room.

I love you and I saw some of what happened with Mason. Maybe I eavesdropped a little. I'm sorry if I'm not enough for you. I've gone somewhere now. Please don't' go looking for me.

J.R.

He left?! There was something red in the corner. It was a small little drop of blood. BLOOD! What was going on and where did my baby go? I was totally freaking out now. My mind was racing. Where would he have gone? I put the night on the beside table. Then I put on one of his shirts. It was big on me. Then I crawled into his bed, bringing the blankets close to me. They smelled exactly like him, cinnamon. Where are you Justin?

The next morning, Justin wasn't next to me. When I went out into the kitchen he wasn't either. There was no sign of him anywhere in the house. What was I going to do? It didn't bug me that he saw me with Mason. Nothing bad happened. The front door swung open. Justin was standing there, he had bloodshot eyes. I quickly ran over to him, bursting into his arms.

"You're wearing my shirt." was the first thing he said. Then I looked at him and slapped him straight across the face, leaving a red mark on his cheek. He stumbled a step back.

"Where were you last night?! You had me worrying all night and this morning and the first thing you say is your wearing my shirt!" I was shouting. Justin's eyes widened and he squinted.

"No shouting your making my head hurt worse." he shut the door and stumbled toward the couch. When he passed by me, the scent of cherry blossoms wafted towards me. I didn't wear cherry blossom perfume.

"Justin! Did you sleep with another girl!" tears filled my eyes.

Okay chapter 10 finished. So I hoped you liked that chapter, I tried my best on writing it. Well review, favorite, and follow. ~~One and Only Gossip Girl~~