Spencer's POV
"You're different."
"What?" I ask looking over at my sister who's lying next to me on my bed. We've been silently laying here staring at my bedroom ceiling for a while now. This is the first time Paige's been over to my new home. I've missed my sister.
"You're different." She sighs. "I mean, the old Spencer wouldn't have been able to sit and be this quiet. You've stopped drinking so much and let's not forget the big thing…" she turns her head to look at me. "The thing that really shows you've changed is you're living with mom. Someone who you promised yourself you'd never talk to again." She says and looks back to the ceiling.
"I guess… I have." I say after thinking over everything that has happen recently.
"It's a good different. Ashley's good for you."
"Yeah she is." I whisper knowing why she said that about Ashley. Since I've meet Ashley I've change so much, and she wasn't even trying to change me. I guess I've learned how little my problems truly are and how to just deal with them because there's nothing else you can do. There are people in the world who are going through the same thing or something worse.
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"I like it. It's nice." Ashley says after looking over my new bedroom. This is her first time over and I've been living with my mom for two weeks now. Every time I asks her to come over something comes up. It's either she just doesn't feel like it or she's into it with her mom again. Yup that's right. She still hasn't fully talked to her mom about everything that happened when they were living in Detroit.
"Yeah it is. You should come and visit more often." I say grabbing her hand and pulling her onto my lap.
"I will. I just have been busy." She says giving me a peck on the lips. "I know you're getting tired of always coming over my house and I'm sorry for that."
"It's fine. Let's forget about that for right now," I say kissing her this time. "Mmmm… what I really wanted to show you was this bed." I say pecking her up and laying her on my bed. Oh yeah! I'm about ta get some.
"I should go before your mom get's home." Ashley says kissing my bare chest before sitting up.
"I thought you were going to spend the night?" I ask confused while watching her slip on her jeans. When we talked earlier she said she would stay the night with me because we haven't spent any time together lately.
"We've been together all day. I've been here all day." She says looking around for her shirt. .
"So? I want to spend time with you. This whole week I've only seen you for like thirty minutes a day." I say grabbing her shirt off the floor that's on my side of the bed.
"Spencer… you know I want to spend time with you…"
"Sure you do…" I say sarcastically.
"You know I have trouble sleeping this far away from home." Ashley says leaning against my dresser.
"Whatever." I say getting tired of her excuse. I wrap a sheet around myself, get out of bed and stand in front of her. After a minute goes by of just staring at each other, I hand her shirt to her. "Go home."
"Spencer…" She says grabbing my arm, stopping me from turning around. "Don't be mad at me. I'm coming back tomorrow."
"I want you here tonight." I say pushing my body into her.
"We can't have sex with your mom here." She says pushing me away a little.
"I don't want you to stay so we can have sex." I say moving away from her. "I just miss you." I say picking up her shoes. "But it's obvious you don't feel the same." I try to hand her the shoes but she pushes them away.
"You know that's not true. I just showed you multiple times how much I missed you." She says referring to the sex we've been having pretty much all day. She did keep saying she loved me and missed me.
"Whatever." I push the shoes into her hands, still mad that she wants to leave.
"Stop being a jerk, Spencer." She says dropping her shoes. I ignore her and start getting on my own cloths, knowing my mom should be on her way home. "Someone's at your door." Ashley says after calling her mom to pick her up. This is the only thing that has been said between us in the last ten minutes. I get up to get the door and Ashley follows me down.
"Hey I forgot my jacket here yesterd…" Stacy trails off when she see's Ashley standing behind me. I close my eyes.
"It's in my closet. You can go up and get it." I tell her opening the door for her to come in.
"You didn't tell me Stacy was here yesterday." Ashley says turning me around once Stacy has disappeared up stairs.
"So was Aiden and his girlfriend but I didn't tell you that either. I had some friends over. What's the problem?" I ask leaning against the now closed front door.
"The problem is that you didn't tell me you were spending time with your ex." Ashley says. Before I can say anything Stacy comes down the stairs.
"I got it." She says holding up the jacket. I smile and open the door for her. "Nice seeing you again Ashley. I'll talk to you later Spence." She says walking out the door.
"Bye." I say and Ashley just glares at her. I shut the door and turn back to Ashley. "You were busy yesterday so I hung out with Stacy. It's not a big deal."
"Okay, so why didn't you tell me?" Ashley asks watching me closely.
"I don't know. It honestly slipped my mind." I say leaning back against the door. I did forget about hanging out with her yesterday. And I'm serious when I say nothing happened between me and Stacy.
"That's my mom." Ashley says when we hear a car horn.
"Come here." I say pulling her into me, then flipping us so she's now pressed up into the door, me pressed into her. "I'm still mad at you. And I know you're mad at me now, even though nothing happen." I say kissing her on the nose. "I would never do that to you." I say kissing her fully on the lips and she kisses me back.
"I know I trust you." She says looking me deep in the eyes. "I just don't like Stacy that much." She says laughing a little.
"Please stay." I say cupping her cheeks.
"I can't." She says kissing me. I break the kiss and back away from her. She looks confused.
"Your moms waiting." I say.
"I love you." She says kissing me on the cheek before opening the door.
"I love you too." I say back with no hesitation at all. I might be mad at her but not more than I am in love.
Ashley's POV
"Are you still mad at me?" I ask Spencer. We've been talking on the phone for twenty minutes, or shall I say I've been talking. Spencer just been breathing into the phone so I'll know she hasn't hung up.
"Are you going to stay the night tomorrow?" She asks.
"No." I say and I hear her let out a groan on the other end of the phone. "I'm sorry, I can't. I have to spend the weekend in New York with my dad. I catch my plane tomorrow at 11am. So I'll come over early."
"Why are you just now telling me you're leaving for the weekend?" She says a little angry into the phone.
"My mom just told me on the way from your house."
"Whatever."
"What's that's pose to mean." I ask with my own frustration with her attitude clear in my voice.
"It means there's always something going on with you lately. You always have to do something when were suppose to be spending time together."
"I can't help that." I say lying back on my bed with the phone pressed into my ear.
"I don't think you want to." She says and I feel like crying. Lately all she does is start arguments and I'm tired of it.
"Whatever Spencer, Goodnight." I say and she says goodnight before I hang up the phone. After a minute I get a text message say 'I Love YOU'. I send her the same thing. In case you're wondering when did I get a cell phone, I been had one. I just now started to use it when Spencer moved away. Before I didn't have anyone to talk to or text because Spencer was always here but that's changed. I really wish it wouldn't have.
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"Maybe you should stop being a jerk!" I yell. I've been over Spencer's for two hours and all we have done is argue and ignore each other.
"Maybe we should take a break."
"Maybe yo…" I stop when her words sink in. "What." I ask almost in a whisper.
"I think we need sometime apart." She says sitting on her bed. "I mean, you need to work on this thing with your mom and I need to get use to my new life…" She stops and takes a deep breath. "I just think a little time apart will be good for our relationship. If we keep going the way we are we want have a relationship. And a break we're still together but we don't have to see each other as much."
"A break." I say and wipe the tears off my cheeks.
"Ashley…" She says walking over to me and pulling me into a hug. "I love you." She whispers in my ear before kissing it.
"I love you too." I say and she kisses me.
"It's just a little break." She says pulling out of the kiss. I shake my head no.
"I don't want to take a little break." I say pulling away from her.
"Ashley…" She sighs and wipes the tears from her face.
"Let just be friends." I say with my eyes shut tight.
"What?" Spencer says grabbing my hands. "Please tell me you are not breaking up with me." I open my eyes, we're both fully crying. I wish I wasn't but for right now and I think it's best.
"I am." I say. After the words leave my mouth Spencer gently pushes me to the wall behind me and pins me to it.
"Take it back." She whispers against my lips. "Ash, baby… Take it back."She says and pecks my lips.
"I can't." I say kissing her back.
"Is this because I said I needed a break. A break is different than breaking up." She says pushing into me. "I don't want you to break up with me."
"I just think it's best for right now. We can try again when we're both more stable." I say tightening my arms around her.
"I love you." She says into my mouth after a minute of silence. I repeat her words taking her lips between mine.
"Take it back." She says once again between kisses.
"No." I say giving her a final peck on the lips.
We stayed with me pinned to the wall and her pressed into me until my mom came to get me. We didn't speak, not even when I left. Now I'm on my way to the airport in tears because I just broke up with the love of my life.
TBC
a/n: For those of you who also ready my story 'Making It' might think it's strange how both couples are going through this kind of breakup/space phase. The stories have nothing to do with each other. I wrote that last chapter of 'Making It' this morning. This story (Mute) has been written for years. I've just been adding or changing some stuff in it. I just thought I'd let you guys know because I think it's funny how both stories that I've uploaded today have similar things happening in them.
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