Spencer's POV
"Ashley..." I whisper, propping myself up on my elbows. Ashley's back is to me and I have my front pressed up against her. I know she's not asleep we just got in bed like five minutes ago. I'm actually surprised she let me stay the night. Maybe it's because she's still thinking about how she thought it was me who had been rushed to the hospital earlier.
"Mmm..." Is the only thing she says still not turning around to face me.
"I love you." I tell her wrapping my arms around her, pulling her into me.
"I know." She whispers, if I wasn't listening I would have missed it.
"Do you love me?" I ask holding my breath. I know she told me she did earlier but her actions say other words. It's taking too long for her to respond. "Wow. I..."
"Yes, I love you." Ashley says knowing that I thought her silence meant she no longer feels the same way about me. "I love you, you know that." She says turning around in my arms. When she's facing me I see tears in her eyes.
"Then why don't you want me anymore?" I ask wiping away one of her tears.
"I do... I just."
"What?" I whisper. Ashley removes my hand from her face and moves out of my arms.
"Can we not talk about this?" She says running her hands throw her hair. "Please let's just go to sleep."
"No. I want to know why you broke up with me." I say sitting up in bed.
"Spencer..." She puts the pillow over her eyes after I turn on the light to let her know that I'm serious We are going to have this conversation whether she likes it or not.
"Ashley." I say snatching the pillow away and throwing it across the room. She doesn't let the absence of her pillow effect her, she just stays lying on her back, staring up at the ceiling. "Talk to me." I plead after a minute of her silence.
"Go to sleep." She commands closing her eyes. I ignore her and climb on top of her, spreading her legs so I'm lying between them, fully on top of her
"What are you doing?" She says opening her eyes.
"Talk to me." I demand moving some hair from her face. I lean down and kiss her softly on the lips.
"I'm moving." Ashley breaks the kiss.
"What." I ask not knowing what she's talking about.
"I'm moving to Washington. My mom has a new job there." She explains with her eyes closed tightly. "So... we're moving.'
"You're moving?" I repeat and she nods her head yes. "That's why you broke up with me?" I ask knowing that's why, but needing to hear it from her.
"Yeah..." She says a little above a whisper. "Spence?" She says after a minute and I haven't said anything.
"Let's go to sleep." I say kissing her neck where I buried my head when she told me she's moving.
"Spencer..." She starts but I cut her off with my lips.
"Sleep." I say moving to lye beside her. I get comfortable before resting my head on her shoulder and kissing her cheek. "I love you."
"I love you too." She says kissing my forehead.
When I wake up, Ashley words are the first thing that pops into my head. I look over and see her face is right next to mine. I stare at her for a minute before getting out of bed to look for my pants that I took off before getting in bed and my shoes. I need to get out of here. I can't believe she's leaving.
"What are you doing?" Ashley says from the bed, watching me put on my other shoe. I ignore her and pick up the pillow I throw last night and put it back on the bed. "Spencer..." She says jumping out of the bed when I open her bedroom door. "It's six in the morning." She says and I look at her clock and sees she right. "Why are you leaving so early... we haven't even talked." She says pulling me away from the door and closing it.
"We don't need to talk." I say feeling the anger rising in me.
"Yeah we do. We need to talk about last night." She says grabbing my arm when I try to turn around.
"Why? You didn't want to talk about it before!" I yell, anger getting the best of me.
"Hey... my family's still sleeping. Keep your voice down." She says in a low but demanding voice.
"Sorry, but I'm leaving." I say removing her hand from my arm.
"Wow." She says shaking her head and moving to stand in my way of leaving. "Stop acting childish and talk to me, please."
"Okay." I say walking back over to her bed and sitting down. "Okay here I go... You broke up with me without telling me why. Then you ignore me. Then you tell me you dumped me because you're moving. I'm sad, I'm angry and I'm hurt. You should have talked to me first instead of just dumping me." I say putting my head in my hands.
"We were going to end up breaking up anyway." She says quietly taking a seat beside me.
"You didn't know that... hell I'm mad right now but I still want to get back together." I say laughing a little to keep from crying. "Why didn't you talk to me before deciding to end our relationship?" I ask after a couple of minute go bye and neither one of us have said anything.
"Because I knew you would still want to be together, and so do I, but it won't work." She tells me. I turn to look at her. "I don't want to just talk to you on the phone and see you whenever we can make time for each other to get together. I want to be able to call you and tell you I need you and know you'll be there because you're not that far away... not States away. I want to be able to kiss you, hug you... touch you, whenever." She says tears pouring down her face. "We can't have that with a long distance relationship. It wound just ruin us."
"There's no way you can stay?" I ask, not looking at her. I know she's right about the long distance thing. We can't even be away from each other for a day without wanting to see each other or getting mad if the other doesn't call them while there away.
"No."
"Have you talked to your mom about this?" I say.
"Of course, I've cried, I've screamed." She stops and grabs my hand. "I've done and said everything I can to not let this happen. I love you. I'm in love with you. And breaking up with you was the hardest thing I had to do."
"Shit, shit, shit." I finally let the tears come out. Ashley's quick to grab me and pull me into her arms. I let her hold me for a few minutes before pulling away and standing up. "I have to go." I say and rush out the door before she can say anything else.
Ashley's POV
"Are you okay?"
"What?" I say looking up from the lunch I've barely touched to see Shane sitting down across from me at the dining table.
"I know you and Spencer broke up and this morning. She was muttering cuss words the whole way to the front door. And you don't look well… so I figured you guys got into an argument." He tells me everything he has observed over a period of time.
"I told her about us moving." I tell him. Shane and I have never been close but I do find it easy to talk to him sometimes. "She's pissed and ignoring me now." Shane reaches over and pats my hand that is resting on the table.
"Hey..." I look at him. "She loves you. Just give her some time." He says and I nod my head. He takes his hand back and gives me a smile before leaving me alone again. Leaving me to think about Spencer, and what she's doing.
After calling around to find out where Spencer is and getting into an argument with my mom over dropping me off over Mia's, I'm finally at the party Aiden told me Spencer said she was going to. I start to get out of the car when all my fears of people and the things they can do comes back. I haven't been to a party without Spencer. Hell I really haven't been anywhere without her. I really do need her now.
When I finally get out of the car Mia follows behind me before some guy comes and asks her to grab a beer with him and dance. She asks me if I'll be okay alone or do I want her to come with me. Feeling that I can do this on my own, I tell her I'm okay. She tells me to find Jessica when I want to leave. She's the designated driver tonight.
When I finally get inside, I start to scan the room for Spencer. After ten minutes of being unsuccessful at finding Spencer, someone bumps into me. The guy that bumped into me keeps apologizing. I tell him its okay. Looking at him now I think I remember him from I previous party I attend with Spencer.
"Hey...Michael, right?" I say hoping I remembered the right name.
"Yeah, that's me baby." He says with a smug look. He so has the wrong idea. "What can I do for you cutie or to you." He smirks.
"Nothing." I say ignoring his suggestive comments. "Have you seen Spencer?" I ask wanting to get away from this guy as quick as possible, but not forgetting the reason I've been talking to him this long.
"Yeah she over there," He says pointing across the room. "Making the dance floor HOT." He says in a dream like state and I don't even want to know what he's thinking about. Before he can say anything else I start making my way towards the area he said Spencer was in.
When I'm finally able to see her through all the people, the scene before me makes my stomach drop. Spencer is dancing with some girl I've never seen before. They are all over each other, the girl more so then Spencer but still. It pisses me off. Spencer hands are feeling on her sides and at one point she grabbed her butt. I can't seem to find my voice or move as I watch this girl grope my girlfriend... or ex-girlfriend and her do the same to some random girl. Either way it's making me sick. The girl leans over and kisses Spencer's neck. Spencer doesn't respond the way I think she would and kiss the girl or something instead she whispers something to her and pushes her away a little. Finally after five minutes of watching them, Spencer turns her head my way and we lock eyes. She stops dancing and stares at me. I close my eyes to keep from crying. Next thing I know I feel a hand in mine and breathe on my ear.
"Ashley..." I open my eyes at the sound of her voice. I just shake my head at her and push her away.
"I can't believe you." I say turning to walk away.
"You can't believe..." she stops to calm herself so she can get the words out. She's drunk but not to drunk. She'll remember this in the morning if she stops drinking now. "Believe me." She finishes.
"Yeah you! Constantly you tell me you love me, even when we're not together. You fucking slept in my bed last night… this morning you begged me to tell you why I broke up with you. And because you can't handle the answer, you go get drunk and find some other girl to fuck with." I say and her mouth just opens and closes but she doesn't speak."You know what, I can't do this here." I say and turn away from her. I hear her calling my name but I ignore her.
"Hey cutie, where's the fire." A drunken Michael says roughly grabbing my arm. I try take my arm back but he won't let go.
"Let go." I say pushing him. I haven't gone into shock because we're still in a room full with people and I'm not afraid to scream if I have to.
"Hey calm down. I was just thinking why fuck Spencer when you can fuck me?" He asks pulling me into him. I push away from him and open my mouth to say something but get cut off.
"Get your fucking hands off my girlfriend!" Spencer yells shoving Michael away from me. Michael is quick to regain his footing and he raises his hand to slap Spencer but Aiden grabs it from behind. Aiden pulls Michael away from us and Spencer tries to grab my hand but I smack it away and start walking away to find Jessica.
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"Shit Spence." I wake to Mia's voice. "My mom is going to fucking kill you!"
"Can you not yell?" Spencer says calmly. I look over and see her sitting on the table next to the couch I'm laying on. "I do have a mild hangover."
The events of last night come flowing back. I left Spencer, after the whole Michael thing, it took me thirty minutes just to find Jessica and then we had to find Mia and Spencer before we could leave, which took another hour. About time we got back to Spencer she was seriously drunk. On the way to Mia's she keep trying to start an argument which she accomplished when we got into the house. We argued about me not caring about her and not trying hard enough to stay. It was all just a bunch of bull she was spitting out, but it pissed me off enough not to just ignore it like I did everything else she said in her drunken state. In the middle of the argument she bumped into one of the side tables making Mia's mom vase fall to the floor and break. Eventually she threw up and fell asleep. Now we're here staring at each other.
"Whatever just clean this shit up before you leave." Mia says going back down the hall, into her bedroom. Spencer looks Mia's way, mumbles a yeah before turning her eyes back to me.
"Hey." She says quietly and I can tell she remembers yesterday.
"I don't want to talk to you." I say cutting right down to it.
"Well you're going to." Spenser slides in next to me on the couch. I just knew she was going to push this.
"I don't want to. We don't have to." I say trying to climb over her. She moves to lie on her back and grabs on to my leg that I swung over her in my attempt to get off the couch. Now I'm sitting up straddling her waist because she won't let go of me.
"Stay." She demands holding onto my waist. I ignore her and keep trying to push her hands away but she isn't budging. "Baby..." She starts grabbing my hands. "Stop." And I stop my movements.
"Don't call me baby. I'm not your baby." I say snatching my hands back but not making a move to move from my position on her. I don't really want to.
"Yeah you are." She says resting her hands on my hips.
"What were you doing with that girl?" I ask letting the anger and jealously come back.
"Nothing."
"It didn't look like nothing."
"Believe me when I tell you. It. Was. Nothing. She was nothing." She says sitting up. "Come on." She says holding me on her lap while she scoots back to sit against the arm rest. When she gets comfortable she starts to speak again. "I know I got a little touchy last night but I was just mad about us. But I swear what you saw was as far as it was going to go with me and her. With me and anyone that's not you. Even if we're not together and it wouldn't be cheating on you if I did do something, but I wouldn't because I know it would still hurt you. I don't want to hurt you." She says looking me in the eyes and I know everything she's saying is the honest truth.
"I don't want to leave you." I say laying my head on her shoulder.
"I don't want you to." She says kissing my hair. "Ashley..." She says and I look over at her and she leans in and takes my lips between hers.
"Mmm... I love you." I say against her lips and she repeats my words.
"I love you guys but no sex in my house!" We hear Mia yell from her room.
"I need to get home." I say giggling and pulling away from the kiss.
"Okay let me go get Mia's car keys." She says and I start getting off her lap but she grabs my hips to stop my movements. "Give me a kiss." She says and I comply for the movement. I push aside all the things I know we have to talk about to the back of my head and be happy for the moment.
TBC