Here's the next chapter, just remember it'll all get better in time. ;-)
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Austin's POV
After I left Ally the night of the performance and her duet with Gavin of Me and You, I was so besides myself that I just didn't know what to do anymore. I went home and down into the basement and hit the punching bag. Yeah, maybe this will help? It's worth a shot right? Trying to get advice from my conscience and hoping that it makes an appearance.
I need to clear my head. Please let this work.
Austin, shouldn't you be working on a plan to win Ally back.
Um..Didn't you tell me that I was on my own?
Shut the fuck up, you ungrateful dick. I'm trying to help. What are you going to do? Are you really going to give Ally up that easily?
What I really want to do is knock Gavin the fuck out. Did you see the way that he was looking at her during the duet. It just -
Broke you? Yeah I know. All of this could have been prevented.
I should've went first.
Alright, how about you hit the punching bag for a couple of hours and see if that clears your head?
Well, that's what I was doing until you fucken interrupted me mid punch.
Smart-ass. That attitude is never going to get your girl back.
I went back to hitting the punching bag, trying to get any aggression out that I was feeling. Every time I hit the bag, I just kept seeing that perfect Southern gentlemen's face as Ally put it and punched harder.God, how the fuck am I supposed to hate a guy that seems so nice and genuinely cares about Ally? I should be with Ally, not Gavin. I love Ally, not Gavin. What the fuck have I done? I've really fucked up bad this time. I don't know how to fix this and now that Ally and Gavin are together. I'll bet that she'll be spending the majority of her time with him. I may be losing the love of my life, but I am also losing the best part of me: my best friend. FUCK!
Hey a conscience, I really need your help.
Are you feeling any better?
No. I'm going to fucken lose her I just know it. When she hugged me earlier something just felt off and it felt like she only hugged me because she felt obligated and not because she wanted to.
Your suspicions might be correct, but you'll never know unless you ask her yourself.
Wait. Are you actually being nice to me?
Listen. I think that you should try to go and talk to Ally before things get even more uncomfortable with you guys.
But.
Austin! Will you just fucken listen to me for once?! Go.
Wow, I really need to talk to Ally. No, I need to see Ally. I have no idea what I'm going to say when I see her, but I guess I'll just wing it.
Um hello. Brain here. You not thinking things through is the reason that we're in this mess in the first place.
I pretend to ignore what my conscience is telling me.
Scene Change
After sulking for an hour or so I decided to head over to Sonic Boom. I pulled up and parked the car in the lot, see that the lights in the practice room are on. Maybe Ally's in there writing a song? She feels safe in the practice room, that much I am sure of. I get out of the car and walk through the door and ascend the stairs and see that the door is opened. Once I reach the top of the steps and stand in the doorway what I see nearly kills me.
Gavin.
He's in the practice room with my Ally. He's sitting with her on the piano bench, not only that he's sitting in my spot at the piano which is to Ally's right. Is that tool trying to replace me? I thought that sitting at the piano and on that bench was special and just for us. I know that Dez sat on the bench once, but he was really feeling down. Dez is my best friend. Gavin, Gavin is clearly my competition.
She's not your Ally anymore Austin. She's Gavin's girlfriend now.
Seriously I get it. I suck, but can you just help me. I feel like I'm being stabbed repeatedly over and over again in the chest.
...
I decide to watch from the corridor and hope that they won't notice me, not just yet at least. Gavin turns to face Ally and she turns her body as well to face him. He's looking into her eyes and then he touches her cheek. Oh my God, Gavin has his hands on my girl.
She's not your girl Austin. You fucked up remember? Ally got sick of feeling like she was always your second choice and she got tired of waiting for...tomorrow that never came because you're too much of a tool to get your fucken act together. You know you called Gavin a tool, but really you're the tool here.
Wow, thanks for being on my side.
Right now bro, sorry but I'm just not. I'm Team Gally if that's what their ship name is. You heard the crowd in the auditorium earlier even they thought that Gavin and Ally looked sweet together.
God fucken damn it! Will you stop?
NO. Austin. I'm tired of baby'ing you. Wake the fuck up. This is reality. Gavin is with Ally now, he's more of a man than you will ever be.
NO! That's not true.
Alright, then prove it. Romeo get your girl back from Paris. If you fail, I'm going to enlist Dez's help or in this case your Mercutio.
...
I snap out of that argument with my conscience and see Gavin gazing into Ally's eyes. Ally's perfect doe eyes. This seriously enrages me more than I thought possible, I was right this feeling is a million times worse than how I felt when Elliott came to town. I see Gavin's face inch closer to Ally's and I have to put a stop to this. He's going to fucken kiss her if I don't. I clear my throat loudly to make my presence known,
"Eh hem! Hey guys, sorry to interrupt but I really need to talk to Ally."
"Austin, we just said goodbye to you a few hours ago. What is it?" Ally questions knowing I have something important to say or I wouldn't be here.
"Excuse me for a moment Gavin." Gavin just nods and shrugs, but gets up from the piano bench and I exhale a huge sigh of relief that he's no longer sitting in my spot.
"Austin, can I speak to you out in the hall privately for a minute?" She literally yanks me out of the practice room. Shit, I must have embarrassed her.
"What is it Austin?" Her eyes search mine for an answer.
"I need to speak to you privately. Can you just send Gavin home now and tell him you'll see him tomorrow?"
"Fine. I'll tell him that we have to work on a song,"
"But Ally it's already midnight." I whine.
"Austin. Just don't even right now." Wow, Ally annoyed is kind of hot; too bad her boyfriend is here.
" Hey Gavin. Can you please come here?"
Ally calls out to him sweetly to come meet us just outside the practice room doors. He complies with her wishes. Of course because he's Mr. Perfect.
"Yes Angel?" Gavin replies sweetly to Ally.
Barf.
Oh right Austin because you haven't ever acted like a lovesick puppy before. Remember Cassidy? You acted like a complete fucken idiot around her.
I'm snapped out of my thoughts and brought back to reality when I hear Ally speak,
"Austin and I need to work on his new single right now. We normally write together and alone. We can't have any distractions. And you handsome..are a distraction for me." Ally winks act Gavin and he just smiles and I'm the tool?
Again, you acted the same exact way around Cassidy. So, don't judge Gavin and don't act like a jealous dick.
"Alright darling. Well, I'll let you guys get to work. Goodnight Austin."
He reaches out to shake my hand and I accept, although I really only did it for Ally's sake. Man, even his handshake is strong. Gavin kisses Ally's hand and she blushes. Those cheeks only used to turn crimson for me, but they aren't crimson they're only pink so maybe I still have a shot. Gavin descends the stairs and starts his pickup truck and drives away.
Scene Change
Once Gavin is nowhere in sight, Ally drags me back into the practice room. She walks over behind one of the chairs and stands with her arms crossed against her chest,
"Austin, are you going to tell me what the fuck that was about? Why are you really here?"
"Ally. I'm - " She cuts me off, fuck she's really mad.
"You what Austin?" God damn it, we're going to get into another fight.
"You do realize that I just sent my boyfriend home because you needed to talk to me.. So TALK!'
" I would if you'd let me get a word in edgewise."
"What the fuck do you want Austin?"
" You know before you came in Gavin was just about to -"
I got angry all of the sudden really angry,
" I know what the fuck Gavin was going to do Ally! Do you think I am an idiot? I'm fully aware that he was going to kiss you. DID YOU HAVE TO BE SITTING AT THE PIANO WITH HIM?"
Ally is taken aback by the ferocity in my tone, she seems apologetic for about a half a second and then,
"WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME BE FUCKEN HAPPY AUSTIN? I've always supported you. You acted like a complete idiot around Cassidy. You even hurt my feelings when you couldn't express how you felt about her so I could write a song for her. I've been subjected to Brooke's unhealthy obsession with you. Kira..don't even get me started. Austin, you chose Kira over me. Oh, and then you asked her to be your girlfriend...then you kissed me. Then Kira accepts and when does she accept. Right after my very first kiss with you ever. Can't you see that I'm just the fallback girl when all of your other relationships fail?"
"No, you're not!"
I scream back at her. I walk so I'm standing right behind her and try to turn her to face me, but she's resisting. I go to wrap my arms from behind her to calm her down, and she swats my hands away. This really fucken sucks. She finally turns to me,
" Don't fucken touch me Austin! You can't try to calm me down just by wrapping your arms around me from behind. That's not going to work. Now where was I? Yes, I fucken am just your fallback girl. I'm your best friend. You're supposed to want me to be happy, but no of course not. There was Dallas, who you knew I had a massive crush on and I appreciated you cheering me up underneath the table at Trish's quinceanera, but that's not the point. Any time a guy shows remotely any interest in me. You turn into a fucken lunatic. When Elliott came to town you acted like a fucken lunatic. I still don't understand what the hell got you so riled up. Oh wait...that's right Dez told you that I told Trish that I always wanted to be Elliott's girlfriend and then you barge into Champy's with Kira. You and Elliott fight over me like I'm some sort of trophy. Even after Elliott left, I met you in this very room you didn't even have the courage to kiss me. So, Austin. Tell me what the fuck do you want!"
It's now or never Romeo, just fucken tell her.
"Ally, I want you. I - "
"Don't Austin. Don't say it."
"Ally...please baby."
I do the most insane thing possible at this moment. I tilt her chin up so she's forced to look at me and to see the sincerity in my eyes. I connect my lips with hers, try to convey what I've been trying to say. but she keeps interrupting me. I love her. I'm trying to tell her in this one kiss that I love her, and I want her to be mine. She kisses me back until she realizes what she's doing and probably wishing I was Gavin instead,
"I'm not your baby Austin."
She slaps me really hard. I put my hand to my cheek and it hurts but it hurts way worse not knowing if she even realizes why I just kissed her and if she even got the message. She's even angrier now then she was before,
"I'm with Gavin. I don't even know if I want to be friends with you anymore. Or if I can."
My voice feels hoarse, we've been fighting and arguing for over an hour already, and I'm just completely drained. Ally turns to run out, and I catch her arm,
"Ally, you mean everything to me. Please can't you see how much this is hurting?"
"Who? Me or You Austin? Because you kissed me and I just cheated on my sweet boyfriend. I'm so sick of your shit Austin. I've had enough of it to last me a lifetime."
Ouch, that really hurt. "Please, please believe me. I can't lose 're everything. I need you. I - " She cuts me off again. Ugh.
" I can't Austin, I don't know if I ever will. Now let me go." Ally pleads and she wriggles out of my grip and runs out of the practice room and down the stairs. I call after and run after her but it's no use. I bang my head against the wall in the practice room and allow my body to just slide down the the floor with my hands on my head and ready to rip my hair out, as I continue to pull it a million different ways.
And that's when I realize...
She's gone. I just lost everything.