This came out of nowhere and I had to put it in! – Please, please review all you silent readers! When I look at the reviews there's a whole chain of the same person xD (I wonder who it is ;P ) Anyway Enjoy my Cherubs (really need to get a new name for my followers xD )

He had tried four times already and the ring tone of Grimmjow Jeagerjacques's acapella voice singing 'I'm Sexy and I know it' was getting on the albino's nerves. Shiro wasn't even sure if this was a good idea but ever since Ichigo's story and now the news report had come into light he had to sort out his mess. Who would have thought his actions would have influenced the future so much. Stupid Karma! Suddenly in the middle of the 5th repeat of the obnoxious song, the tune clicked off revealing the annoyed and tired blunette. "What!" he growled clearly - irritated that someone had woke him up.

"It's me," Shiro stated, knowing that Grimmjow didn't need much to know who a person was.

"What the fuck do ya want! Ya made ya feelings quite clear and I've agreed to lay off," he shouted.

"Nice ta know," Shiro replied.

It was true, after the report had come on Grimmjow had burst in announcing that he would lay off. Shiro was sure that it was because he didn't want to ruin his reputation but he knew his friend better than that – someone or something had changed his mind drastically and considerably. However, he would never truly see him as a reliable friend again but at the minute he was the only friend who would understand the situation he was in and possibly help.

"Look – I need ta talk with ya," he started.

Grimmjow paused on the other end of the line for a minute before sighing. "What about?"

"It's complicated an' I'm not doing it on ta phone," he said, knowing that Grimmjow would get the message.

After the report it was fairly obvious that everyone was out to find whether it was true – evidence came in the form of many things and one was listening in on phone calls. He heard Grimmjow's hum of understanding and knew that the blunette realised that the majority was going to be about Ichigo. "Where ya wanna meet?" he asked.

"Old base," he replied instantly, breathing a sigh of relief now that he knew Grimmjow was on their side – even if he did try and rape Ichigo.

"Ok – be there in 10," he agreed before hanging up leaving Shiro with nothing but static.

Even after all these years he still didn't know how to hang up without saying so much as a goodbye. Shiro exhaled noisily and stuck the mobile in his pocket willing himself not to lose it so early in the morning. He didn't even know if what he had done could be rectified – what the hell would Ichigo think of him if he told him the truth?

The albino looked over at the sleeping berry and felt the corners of his lips tilt up slightly and walked over to him. He looked so peaceful in his sleep – it suited him compared to that scowl he usually wore. Shiro placed a stray strand of orange from his face and tucked it behind his ear before placing a small kiss on his cheek. He would have hell to face when he woke up. So instead of waking him, telling him that he would be out he simply left, his thoughts occupied on what the hell he was going to say to Grimmjow.

"He said ten minutes! What ta fuck's taking that bastard so long!"

Shiro stood at the entrance to their base, his figure hiding in the shadows in case that blue-haired bastard was going to set him up or even worse . . . Isshin found him. It wasn't particularly warm that morning and the albino had forgotten to bring a coat so now he was stood in a darkened alley-way freezing his tits off. Now could you see why he was angry at Grimmjow for being late?

"Oi! Shiro! Where are ya?" a voice hissed; their voice low as to not to get caught.

Shiro rolled his eyes in frustration at his tardiness before mumbling a quick, "Here, dumbass,"

Grimmjow was like a cat in many ways so in no time he had pinpointed where Shiro's reply had come from and was now walking towards him; his guard constantly up. It was as if nothing had transpired towards the two as they clasped together, feral smirks plastered on their faces. "Been a while,"

"Whose fault was that?" Shiro snorted.

Grimmjow smiled sheepishly, his hand going to the back of his head as he tried to explain. "Gigai is not the best stuff ta be having," he admitted.

Well, that explains a lot. Figures that drugs would be behind it. For some reason they had an odd effect on the blunette and in more ways than one. The albino thought back to university where they had both tried Gotei – a new drug developed by the creepy candy man down the road. For Shiro it was a waste of time and money as it had the exact same effects as alcohol – but more tasteless. Needless to say that wasn't the case for Grimmjow who by the end of it was married to a mother of 5, had fucked their science teacher (male) and had signed up for a record deal. Well at least one good thing came out of it!

"Ya took more dodgy drugs?" Shiro laughed. "And from Urahara no less!"

"Hey, how'd ya know it was him?"

"He's ta only one stupid enough ta give ya something after last time!"

Grimmjow mumbled something incoherent whilst a light dusting of pink settled on his face before he grew serious again. "I'm sorry 'bout Ichi,"

Shiro fidgeted a bit at the mention of his fiery – haired lover and at the fact that he had called him 'Ichi'. "He's . . . fine,"

"Fine?" Grimmjow raised an eyebrow, sceptical.

"It's a lot ta explain,"

"Isn't that why I'm here?" he countered.

Shiro sighed, running a hand through his hair. He agreed to meet him, so what did he expect. Shiro took a deep breath and began. "Ichi confessed ta other day ta all his problems after . . . a meeting with his dad,"

"Isshin Kurosaki?"

"Yeah,"

"That bastard turned you in!?" Grimmjow said incredubuosly. "Why?"

"I'll get there," he replied.

"Anyway, turns out he was raped when he was 15 after comin' out," Shiro gritted out.

"Shit," Grimmjow swore, realising why the berry had reacted so strongly when he had decided to take the drugs and start touching him up.

"It's ok – once I tell him 'bout ta drugs he'll forgive ya,"

Grimmjow nodded but still seemed unsure as to where this story was going - surely he didn't drag him all the way out here for that. Shiro was cruel but not so cruel as to make him feel guilty for the rest of his life.

"A year later his mother died,"

"How?" Grimmjow asked, already knowing what was going to happen next.

"The gang who raped 'im reappeared after he and his mother had an argument. Long story short she saved 'im from being raped again,"

"Shiro – what did you-?"

"I didn't mean ta!" he argued back, cutting off what the blunette was going to say.

Grimmjow paused, allowing the albino to regain himself before letting him continue. "Remember the Hollow years?"

Grimmjow nodded uncertainly, the pieces all coming together now. He should have stopped Shiro from saying anything but he wanted to be sure the albino had done it. "I remember my gang coming across an orange-haired lad – we were sent out to find him after we heard he had come out,"

"Shiro – did you do it?"

Shiro stared at the cold concrete ground wishing it would swallow him up. He remained silent so that all the pair could hear was Grimmjow's rising anger in his breathing and Shiro's scuffing of his shoes as he tried to not confess. "Shiro! Did you do it!"

"Yes!" he yelled, so loud that the birds nearby took flight.

Grimmjow's eyes widened despite the fact that he had been anticipating it. "I raped him Grimm," Shiro muttered.

Grimmjow's eyes softened when he heard his old nickname being used and the golden orbs of the albino begin to blur. Grimmjow moved forward meaning to comfort him knowing full well what he thought he did. He would blame himself for the death of Ichigo's mothers. "Shiro - it wasn't your fault,"

"That's ta thing Grimm – it is,"

"What do ya mean?"

"We began to follow him after that. We found him one night and I decided to play with him again until his mother came,"

"Shiro you didn't . . .,"

The albino nodded his head, a stray tear now springing freely from his eye. "I did – I killed Ichigo's mother,"

I'm squealing at my own story xO Please review! I'll begin to threaten you all if you don't :P