Hi loves! So there's a reason for all of the craziness, but it will eventually get better. Please forgive me. ;-)
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or the Disney Channel. I don't own any of the lyrics either.
Austin's POV
I couldn't sleep last night at all. I know that I should have and I swear that I tried, but I just couldn't. My mind was consumed of only one person. Ally. Yeah, I know Piper's my girlfriend, but let me explain. Oh who am I kidding? No one will ever believe me anyways. I called Ally at least five times last night, just hoping that she'd pick up and by the fifth time I think I just called to hear voice mail and I just wanted to hear her voice.
Hey this is Ally D, I can't come to the phone right now. I'm probably with Austin, Trish or Dez. Leave a message and I'll call you back as soon as I can.
I know that she's with Gavin, I get an overwhelming sense of relief once I hear that she hasn't changed or updated her voice-mail yet. I grab my cell off the tray next to my bed. I start to get ready, changing into my normal clothes because I'm leaving the hospital today, I've been cleared and haven't shown any signs of a concussion. I'm going to try to get out of here before Piper comes to my room. I'm just waiting for my parents to take me home, then I'm going to ask to borrow their car because I have something to take care of.
Austin. I know what you're thinking. Do you think that's really a good idea right now?
Probably not, but honestly I'm not going to call it quits. Not ever!
I decide to listen to some more Maroon 5 while I'm waiting for my parents to get here.
Maroon 5: Love Somebody
I know your insides are feeling so hollow
And it's a hard pill for you to swallow, yeah
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same
There's no way I'll ever recover from falling in love with my best friend.
I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I'll think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
You're such a hard act for me to follow
Love me today, don't leave me tomorrow, yeah
Wow, can these lyrics being any more dead on with how I'm feeling about this whole situation? Ally with Gavin..it makes me sick.
But if I fall for you, I'll never recover
If I fall for you, I'll never be the same
I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I'll think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
I don't know where to start, I'm just a little lost
I wanna feel like we never gonna ever stop
I don't know what to do, I'm right in front of you
Asking you to stay, you should stay, stay with me tonight, yeah
I really wish she'd choose me over him, but only time will tell.
I really wanna love somebody
I really wanna dance the night away
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
I really wanna touch somebody
I'll think about you every single day
I know we're only half way there
But you can take me all the way, you can take me all the way
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
You can take me all the way, you can take me all the way, yeah.
The song ends and my parents tell me that I'm officially checked out and that it's time to go. Now, I just have to hope that we don't run into Piper on the way out. Thankfully, someone's on my side. My dad grabs my bag and we walk through the revolving door and out of the hospital and get in the car.
"Mom? Dad?'
"What is it dear?" My mother sounds concerned.
"Can I borrow your car when we get back to the house? I have to go see someone."
My parents don't know that Piper is now my girlfriend, but I'm not going to see her. I'm going to see Ally. My dad quirks an eyebrow at me from the rear-view mirror. Man, he knows that something is up.
"Sure son. You need to be careful though because your ribs are still bruised."
"Thanks Dad."
"We'll just use your mother's car if we have to go somewhere." I smile gratefully at my parents.
We pull into the driveway and I run up to my room and grab my guitar and run back down the stairs saying goodbye to my parents and that I'll see them later. I get into my dad's car, take the short drive over to Ally's. It's already 11:00 a.m. I think she'll be awake, but we'll see when I get there.
Scene Change
I pull up to Ally's house and park in the driveway. I get out of the car and walk up to her front steps my heart racing faster than I ever thought was possible. I wait a second before ringing the doorbell. I normally just let myself in, so Ally will probably think that I'm Dez or Trish. I hear Ally yell from upstairs that she's coming and she'll be right down. She opens the door wearing a sundress looking breathtaking and absolutely irresistible, and when she sees me her smile falters.
"A- Austin? What are you doing here? Did you drive here by yourself? You look like you haven't slept at all."
" I want you to hear something."
She says nothing and the look on her face is of complete and utter disbelief. Ally just stands there Frozen. I'm standing on her porch and in the doorway with the door wide open, but none of it matters. She's the only thing that matters and I don't care who sees this. I start strumming my guitar in the hopes of making up with her.
Nickelback: Far Away
This time, this place misused, mistakes
Too long, too late, who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance, just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know you know, you know
[Chorus]
That I love you I have loved you all along and I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all I'd give for us
Give anything, but I won't give up
'Cause you know you know, you know
[Chorus]
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away, so far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted, I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed, I need to hear you say
That I love you, I have loved you all along
And I forgive you, for being away for far too long
So keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing, 'cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it, hold on to me and
Never let me go, keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go (Keep breathing)
Hold on to me and never let me go
Ally looks at me completely confused. Truthfully, she has every right to be. She motions for me to come inside the house and shuts the door as she sees that her neighbors heard me sing to her.
"W- why did you sing me that song?"
"I know that you love it. Ally, you're right. I couldn't sleep last night because I can't stand when we're mad or upset with each other."
" I just don't understand why you are here. Dez told me that Piper is your girlfriend. In case your wondering...he definitely hung up on you on purpose."
"Can we just go to your room and talk about this?"
Ally shrugs her shoulders but leads me up the stairs to her bedroom. I walk into her room and I see the broken picture frame with her favorite picture on the floor.
Look what you did Austin. You really hurt her.
My heart tightens in my chest. She walks over to her dresser which has a mirror on top of it and I follow her.. without thinking I wrap my arms around her. It's just second nature to me, so I'm not going to apologize for that. I just love having her close and in my arms. She goes to elbow me in the ribs, and at least I think that's what she wanted to do, but she doesn't. She looks into the mirror seeing our reflections in it and bursts into tears.
What am I doing? This isn't fair to her. I can't just come in here and expect her to forgive me just like that.
You're here with Ally because you love her. You're kidding yourself if you think you should and/or actually want to be with Piper. Ally still feels like she's the fallback girl so at some point...sooner rather than later. You need to show her that it's always been her and only her that you want. She hates that she loves you, you know. She wants to get over you, she wants to try and fall in love with 't you see the pain in her eyes. Look at what you're doing to her. I mean really look.
I listen to my conscience, look intently into Ally's eyes to show that I am listening.
" Why now? Why do you want to be with me all of the sudden Austin? Why are you here when you have a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend?"
" I'm here because..we feel right."
I whisper into her ear and I spin her around, pick her up putting her on her dresser. She looks at me unsure of what's about to happen, but we honestly just can't keep our hands off of each other.
"Baby, please be with me. I don't care if you're with Gavin. I know I should, but I don't. You were mine first. We're endgame."
"Austin, I can't just break up with Gavin for you. He's sweet and appreciates me. He doesn't take me for granted."
I smirk looking into her beautiful doe eyes, " I didn't say that you had to. Baby please, let me make it up to you."
I still haven't kissed her yet, but I'm going to. I pull her into a passionate, heated filled kiss that set our loins on fire. She kisses me back hungrily, we both know what we're doing is wrong. I'm cheating on Piper and Ally's cheating on Gavin, but it just feels so right. I put my hands all over her body and kiss every single inch of her and it feels like she's my oxygen, that our hearts are meant to only beat and race for each other. She starts to moan and before I know it, we're on her bed and I'm on top of her. She pulls my t-shirt over my head and I continue to grind onto her.
"Austin. We shouldn't, we can't do this." She pants heavily. "I'm sorry I'm just not ready. I want it to be special, us arguing and being with other people isn't exactly what I envisioned our first time together being like."
I continue to kiss all up and down her neck, but concede because I don't ever want her to feel pressured. I love her.
"Baby, there's no need to be sorry. I'll wait forever for you."
Ally just smiles and kisses me back in what I can only describe as pure adoration. I'm going to get Ally back and she's going to be mine and only mine. I don't understand why she's with Gavin, but I'm never going to give up. I will fight for her until she's once again my girlfriend.
And that's how our affair started. We both have and are 'with' other people, but we're also with each other. Right now, that's good enough for me.
A/N: If you guys are confused and don't understand what is happening and why it's happening feel free to PM me. I won't bite. :)