The rest of the story is going to be rated M for adult content and violence. Viewer discretion is advised.
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or The Disney Channel. I don't own the song lyrics below in this chapter either.
Previously on I Hate That I Love You...
What I didn't know was apparently Austin and Dez had figured out where Gavin was taking me to the movies tonight. I heard a couple of guys talking about a pet llama and I mean really who else could it be. Damn it Dez! I bet he looked it up online and told Austin that The Notebook was playing in the park tonight. I didn't acknowledge that I was aware of their presence, excused myself and told Gavin I had to use the ladies room and I would be back before the movie actually starts. I turn the corner and I'm just about to walk into the ladies room when someone grabs my arm. I know those big callous hands anywhere and they certainly are not my boyfriends. He turns me around.
"So, you brought him to see The Notebook with you?" Austin looks completely pained.
"I love this movie. You know that."
"Huh. I thought Noah and Allie were what made the movie special to you, by them I mean us. Don't you remember?"
I can see him begging me with his eyes pleading with me to remember and see why he's so visibly upset at this very moment.
...
ALLY'S POV
What he doesn't realize is that I was just thinking reminiscing about that earlier on the way to the park. It's kind of weird that he chose to come here, but who knows.
You think it's weird? Why Ally? Can't you see how in sync you and Austin are? The longer you prolong this 'relationship' with Gavin the harder it's going to be for you to break up with him.
How on earth would Austin and I ever be in sync, let alone on the same wave length?
Ughhhh! You're really so stubborn. No wonder Austin's close to losing his cool right now with you. Look at him. Really look at him.
Whatttttt? No, I'm not.
Damn it, pay attention to Austin! Ally he's trying to talk to you.
...
"Please tell me that you remember. We were alone in my finished basement and I gave in and we watched The Notebook. Do you remember what I said to you baby?"
"No, maybe you should remind me?"
Austin inches closer to my face and his eyes intently fixed on mine,
"Well I told you that you're lucky you're my favorite person in the world. We were cuddled up on the couch and I had my arm around you, you had your head leaning on my shoulder. I've never felt so close to anyone before. When the scene came where Noah and Allie were dancing in the street to the music Noah was humming... I pulled you up with me and we started dancing just like how they were. I dipped you and when I brought you back up I remember you laughing, it was in that moment that I knew I was in - "
Austin's cut off by Gavin rounding the corner. Austin doesn't see Gavin yet, but I do and he's making eye contact with me. Austin currently has his back to him. Austin turns around to look to see what I'm looking at.
Gavin looks at Austin and I for a moment before he speaks, "Ally where have you been? Austin? What are you doing here? Can't you see that Ally and I are obviously on a date?"
Austin immediately gets angry,
"You've got to be fucking kidding me Ally! This is unreal every time I try to tell you how I feel I'm interrupted by someone. It's You, Gavin, and practically everyone else on this damn planet. Can't I catch a break?"
"Angel, what is Austin talking about?"
"N-nothing Gavin." I stutter out in response.
"REALLY ALLY? You know what? This is getting fucking ridiculous!"
Before I can even blink Austin stalks over to Gavin and they start to argue. I just stand there Frozen, because honestly I don't know what to do.
"Hey Southern Gentlemen. I know you're on a date and all, but I was trying to talk to my best friend about something private. In case you haven't noticed."
Austin's now glaring at Gavin.
"That's rich Austin, because last I checked she's my girlfriend and not yours! You're an idiot you know that? Ally's amazing."
"The only thing you're right about is the fact that Ally's amazing. As for the first thing you said that's up for debate."
I interrupt them as I feel the situation in front of me get even more tense.
"Austin please don't."
"No! You know what Ally I don't give a flying fuck. I think Gavin should have every right to know how I feel oh and you too. I'M FUCKING IN LOVE WITH YOU ALLY!"
Gavin looks at me, then looks at Austin trying to process everything that's going on. I didn't even know how to respond to this. I just stand there meanwhile there's now a large crowd that's stopped watching the movie to witness this spectacle. Gavin lunges at Austin.
"My girlfriend. You're in LOVE with my GIRLFRIEND? Are you serious man?"
Gavin looks at me for an answer, punches Austin knocking him backwards and I scream.
"Gavin! Austin! STOP! You're acting ridiculous right now! PLEASE STOP FIGHTING!"
"Ally, is this true?"
"You should be asking Austin. I don't know if he is sincere." But I do, I think I do. This is just all so crazy.
"Fine I will. Answer me you fucken prick!" Gavin spits back at me with venom in his tone.
Punch. Oh My God! He just punched Austin again. He continues his assault on Austin.
"Did you just tell me [punch] that you're in LOVE [punch] with MY GIRLFRIEND?" I've never seen Gavin like this before.
After Gavin gets in a few punches Austin decides to counter the assault,
"She may be your girlfriend, but I LOVED [punch] her [punch] first. She was mine first."
Austin punches Gavin square in the jaw.
"I DON'T CARE IF SHE WAS YOURS FIRST! She's my angel now." Gavin's voice softens as he looks at me.
Austin gets up, suddenly Dez appears at his side. Whoa when did he get here? Dez looks at Austin, then Austin looks directly at me,
"You know what Ally, this is fucking ridiculous I may be in love with you, but even I don't deserve this. You need to choose. It's me or Gavin."
I can't believe he's making me choose. Gavin nods in clear frustration as well.
"He may be a dick, but he's right Ally. You can't have us both."
I don't respond to either of them. I can't decide just like that. Austin finally speaks,
"You know what? Fuck this I'm out! Call me when you realize that you're in love with me and not him! Until then I don't want to see you or even talk to you. Let's go Dez!"
Austin and Dez storm off, I can't believe that he just said that to me.
I fall to my knees and start to hysterically cry. The crowd disappears and Gavin kneels down to try and comfort me. He really is a good guy. I push him away and say,
"I want to go home. Please bring me home now."
Gavin just nods and takes me home reluctantly, but this date has officially ruined so there isn't a point anymore. The drive back to my house is short, Gavin walks me to the door. I cried the entire ride home. He tells me that he's sorry he lost control around me, but he's not sorry that he punched Austin.
The last thing he says to me is, "There's a reason that I bought you red roses."
"I know, I really just need time to myself. I need to figure this all out."
Gavin just looks at me, but I can't bring myself to meet his eyes. I don't want him to kiss me, so he settles for a hug and kisses me on the cheek. Then he leaves to get into his truck and slams his car door.
I feel like I can't breathe.
Jordin Sparks: No Air
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
If there was a way that I could make you understand
But how do you expect me
To live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
I walk, I ran, I jump, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
With no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath but I survived
I don't know how but I don't even care
So how do you expect me
To live alone with just me?
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
Baby
There's no air, no air
No air, oh!
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air
(No air)
(No air)
(No air)
(No air)
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air?
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gon' be without me?
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air
AUSTIN'S POV
"Dez! I can't fucking believe this! She took him to see the movie that's special to us. You know it was that night that I was dancing with Ally while watching The Notebook.. I dipped her, she was laughing uncontrollably it was the best thing I'd ever heard. She looked up at me, it was then that I realized that I was in love with her. My feelings grow more for her every single day. I feel like a fucking lunatic right now Dez! Look at what falling in love has done to me."
I start to blast the radio. He just looks at me since I was too angry to drive, I'm letting him drive my car now.
"I hope you don't mind Dez."
"Nah buddy. It's cool. I like this song anyways."
The Killers: Mr. Brightside
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
It makes me sick seeing Ally with Gavin, when she should be with me. I loved her first. I've loved her for a really long time now. Is it really in my head or am I just paranoid?
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
Well, that did happen earlier during their hardcore make-out session. He had his hands all over her and lifted her tanktop over her head. He unbuttoned his button down shirt and I was forced to watch skin to skin contact between them.
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
He was all over her, as much as I didn't want to look it was like watching a train that you know is inevitable going to crash into a wall. I felt the fury take over my body and wanted to jump from the tree and beat the shit out of him when they were in Ally's bedroom.
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
I'm so insanely jealous that I don't even think that Medusa could get me to look her in the eyes and turn me into stone. I can't believe that I thought I'd actually be okay with actually having to share Ally with Gavin. I want her to myself. My dreams have literally turned into a nightmare. I just take every word she says, but who knows if she even really loves me at all. She couldn't even answer me earlier.
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
This is what I get for waiting too long to tell my best friend that I'm in love with her. After her not responding to either myself of that fucken tool, I just couldn't take it I had to get out of there. I've opened my eyes and recognized and admitted that I am in fact in love with her, seriously I might as well be Mr. Brightside because I actually had hope that she'd feel the same way.
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
I want it to be All or Nothing with Ally. I don't think that's an unreasonable request. I don't even understand why she's with that fucken tool to begin with? To make me jealous? Well. She's certainly succeeded in that.
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
Cause I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
I never
I never
I never
I never
...
One thing is for sure. I never saw any of this coming.
Reviews are appreciated! I hope that you are enjoying the story. xo