It looks like I've been writing my feelings the past two chapters. Last night on the show was just the beginning of the train wreck, so that's what we'll call this one. ENJOY THE DOUBLE UPDATE TODAY!
Baby girl, you know who you are.. I now completely understand how your mood affects your writing and whether the chapter is a happy one or not. xoxo ;-)
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or the Disney Channel.
Austin's POV
I'm sitting on the beach in the sand right now relatively close to the water. I came to listen to the ocean and try to gain some sort of clarity as to what the fuck just happened. As I listen to the waves crashing onto the sand I can't help, but think that it's a great metaphor for my life. The waves start out bigger a little deeper into the ocean, but as they get closer to the shore the waves get smaller only what's ironic about this is that it's the total opposite. I feel like I'm out in the ocean, stuck in a tidal wave and pulled under when it comes to my emotions. Everything is spinning completely out of control. Nothing I do ever seems to be right. I just want to be the one for her.
Ally
I hate that I love her so much. I don't regret us being intimate, but that's not what I imagined the end result to be. I don't know how the fuck this turned into a total train wreck. Why do I hurt so much? Why does it feel like this pain intensifies even more by the minute? I wouldn't ever wish this feeling even on my own worst enemy.
I left Ally. Ugh, why do I keep doing that?
You left for a good reason. You know that organ inside of your body? Your heart that is barely beating and feels like it's being ripped to shreds?
I felt my chest tighten even more. It really did feel like it was going to burst and not with happiness either.
Yeah, that's right your heart. Jesus Christ Austin. You and Ally can't keep doing this to each other. Figure your shit out. Either be together or don't, but after having a very intimate discussion with your heart... you are about five seconds from a nervous breakdown. There's only so much you can handle. Just like Superman's weakness was kryptonite. Your weakness is Ally. I mean aren't you sick of this? Aren't you sick of feeling like you might as well be drowning in your love life. Now, it's not supposed to be all fucken sunshine and rainbows, but it shouldn't be this difficult. Stop torturing Ally and yourself. Put everything out on the table.
I know. You know what... I can't do this alone you're supposed to fucken help me. I shouldn't have left... Why did you let my heart just lead me out the window and cave?
Oh, I'm sorry Austin. I was trying to fucken wrap my head well not really. I mean I am your brain, but you know what the fuck I'm trying to say. Stop acting dumb. As I was saying, excuse me for trying to register the fact that the girl you love flat out denied having sex with you. Like you were some sort of cheap card trick. Excuse me for protecting you!
Tears continue to flow wildly down my face and I honestly just don't give a flying fuck. I need to feel something right now. Anything to remind me that I'm alive. I contemplated going to get alcohol on my way over here, but I decided against it. I really could knock back a few beers right now, it's been that kind of day where I would escape reality for at least a little while, but I won't. Not after what happened to Ally.
I felt a presence close by and it's looming in the ocean wafted air.
"Ally is that you? I told you that I wanted to be alone." There's a mixture of anger and heartache in my voice, if I can hear it I'm sure she can too.
The figure walks up behind me and covers my eyes.
"Well hello Austin."
I froze completely in place. I see the blonde locks of my psychotic ex- girlfriend/temptress. Maybe this is just a dream and I fell asleep on the beach right?
I don't think so. I'm pretty sure that you're awake right now. This is very real.
The blonde kisses my ear right after she seductively whispers in my ear. I so want to forget all about Ally right now, Piper can help me with that.
EARTH TO FUCKEN AUSTIN! PIPER IS SUPPOSED TO BE IN JAIL!
Ally chose Gavin. She didn't choose me. So who cares if Piper and I fuck right here on the beach?
Are you listening to yourself Austin? We don't know if she chose Gavin. Have you completely lost your marbles? Piper could have killed Ally.
Shut the fuck up. I'm doing this I'm going to fuck Piper.
You're crazy Austin. Absolutely fucking crazy.
I turn around and look at Piper. Her hair was falling and naturally wavy, it was just so sexy.
"How did you get out of jail?"
"I escaped. I tricked the guard into opening the gate. I was rather persuasive. Did you get that restraining order against me?"
"No. I didn't get the chance to."
I didn't even finish what I was going to say. Piper was kneeling in front of me on the sand, I noticed she wasn't in standard prisoner attire. Who the fuck cares right now anyways.. She's wearing a very loose yellow flowing sundress that hits just above the knee, a sweetheart neckline wiht a strapless bra I'm sure.
Yellow. My favorite color. Oh yeah, this is going down.
The yellow complimented Piper's features so nicely. She has this natural beauty to her, her sun-kissed skin against the yellow of her dress I could probably just blow right here. I started running my hands all over her body, from her sides to the curve of her ass.
Why is she so fucken hot?
She's crazy bro. Don't do anything stupid.
I pushed Piper onto her back and got on top of her, she started fumbling with my jeans and unzipping them. I haven't even kissed her lips and she's ready to devour me like a crazed hyena. I pulled down her dress to about her waistline leaving her bra exposed, it was red and black like Satan himself I would imagine to be. Lace with Satin, wow that's fucken really hot. I'm sure this is wrong, but I don't care I need to get this aggravation out somehow. I start at her neck, not once kissing her on the lips and then down her stomach. I feel her yank on my hair as I start to get even harder.
Ally's POV
After Gavin left I pulled myself together and drove to the place where I knew Austin would be. It's the place he goes where he wants to think. There's no way he'd go to Sonic Boom right now because he probably feels like "our special place" has been tainted. So that leaves only one other place.
The beach.
I get out of my car after driving when I probably shouldn't be with mascara and tear stained cheeks. I shouldn't drive this upset, when my mind is less than likely to be focused on the road. I'm so drained emotionally that it's taking a toll on me physically as well. I feel like I have zero energy, but I can't take this anymore I have to talk to Austin. I see a familiar mop of blonde hair, a little ways down I see another figure walking towards him. It's moonlit on the beach so I'm able to make out that it's a female with blonde hair. I immediately grab my cell phone and dial 911.
"911 what's your emergency?" A voice picks up after the first ring and answers on the other line.
"I'm watching a female approach Austin Moon. I think she has a weapon on her. It appears to be Piper the girl that was just put in lock up for pushing Ally Dawson down the stairs. I need police units here stat. I assume she's broken out of prison, she's a danger to herself and to others." I sound panicked and concerned to the person on the other end I'm sure.
Over the phone. I hear a P.A. system. "Calling all units we have a female prisoner escapee and she's targeted Austin Moon. The location is the beach less than five minutes from the station. We're on our way. We may need you as a witness, if he's your friend miss then just wait until we arrive and have the escapee in custody."
Take that you fucken bitch! The cops are on their way. I hang up my phone, what I see happen next in the distance might as well shatter my heart.
Austin.
Piper.
Him pushing her dress down and kissing her stomach.
Her pulling his pants down to go down on him. This can't be fucken happening! Oh, but it is.
This is sick, just absolutely fucken sick. That son of a bitch! It's nice to know that he's willing to do just about anyone or anything whenever we're clearly having issues.
Fuck this. I'm going down to where they're at.
Ally don't. You just got out of the hospital recently, Piper is legit crazy.
I don't fucking care about her. I'm going to give Austin a piece of my mind.
Please just wait a minute. I have a feeling law enforcement will be really soon.
Fine, but I'm not going to just stand here helpless.
I start screaming RAPE as loud as I can, I'm just in time because the sirens are so close, will be here literally at any second.
No Ally! You said that you would wait.
I stalk towards the two disgusting excuses for human beings, yank that fucking bitch off of him.
Yeah, that's right. I literally yanked her off of his dick while she's blowing him. You think I give a fuck? Think again.
I'm not using their names or thinking clearly because all I am seeing right now is red. I have seen enough to scar me for quite a long time. I just watched some bitch give oral to my 'soul-mate' wow, what a winner he turned out to be. I sure know how to pick them. I pull her towards the water by the hair, push her with all my strength into the water. Once I see that she's completely soaked. I turn her over, smack her across the face.
"YOU FUCKEN PSYCHOTIC BITCH! YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN TO QUIT! YOU PUSHED ME DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS, AND ALMOST KILLED ME. I CAME HERE LOOKING FOR AUSTIN. I FIND HIM HERE...WITH YOU! I FUCKING HATE YOU! YOU'RE A SLUT! YOU'RE THE BIGGEST FUCKING CUNT I'VE EVER MET!"
I put my hands around her throat, push her under the water. I want to drown this freaking psychopath right now. I'm so irate that I don't even bother to look where Austin is and/or what he's doing. I don't care. He brought this crazy bitch into our lives. Once I feel that she has had enough, I let her gasp for air and I let go of her. Half of my dress is soaked up to my waist, my hair is slightly damp now from Piper trying to struggle and get away from me.
Good that whore didn't see it coming.
The sirens blare loudly and the cops get out of their cars. I run away from both Austin and Piper, running towards the cops. I point them in the direction to where Piper and Austin are. I collapse to the ground momentarily wishing more than anything that something, anything could take this excruciating burning away in my heart.
I look up for a half a second to see Austin dumbstruck and Piper choking on water. Piper being tackled to the ground and restrained by three big police officers. Piper being placed in hand cuffs and hauled away. Austin looks like he's in complete shock, quite honestly I don't care what the fuck he's telling the cops right now. I guess I was pretty out of it, because I hear the sirens fading away I think?
"ALLY!"
Austin's screaming and running towards me. I want to move, but I just can't it feels like I'm trapped in quicksand.
Get up. You know what you need to do.
I force myself up and stand and he comes to a halt stopping right in front of me. Invading my personal space. Bad move Romeo.
"YOU KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO SAY TO YOU AUSTIN? GO FUCK YOURSELF!"
I turn, begin to run towards the ocean because I need to get away from him. He pulls me back though.
"Baby please. I love you."
What a futile attempt to try and resolve this. As if those words would instantly make everything better. He's fucking delusional.
I smack him right across the face.
"DON'T YOU EVER FUCKEN CALL ME THAT AGAIN! YOU HEAR ME! EVER!"
"I need to talk to you."
He's grinding his teeth, acting extremely pushy.
"TAKE A MEMO AUSTIN: I WOULD RATHER GO AND SWIM IN SHARK INFESTED WATERS LATE AT NIGHT THAN BE ANYWHERE NEAR YOU."
Once I was done screaming for a moment, I dove under and into the water, my light pink sundress and all. Swimming as fast as I possibly can as if my life depends on it, my well-being depends on it. I realized that I've gotten pretty far out into the ocean.
"ALLY! STOP! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! PLEASE COME BACK!"
Austin thinks to himself,
Fuck she's not listening to me.
She ignores Austin and keeps swimming further out, but in a different direction. It takes Austin a few minutes, but she stops and he catches up to her, grabs her by the waist.
"GET YOUR HANDS OFF ME! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING? YOU'RE NOT A LIFEGUARD AND I'M NOT DROWNING. I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. I DON'T NEED YOU!"
"Ally you don't have to like me right now, but this is dangerous. I'm bringing you back to land."
"FUCK YOU AUSTIN! LET ME GO! I HATE YOU! YOU'RE A FUCKEN TRAIN WRECK. WE'RE A TRAIN WRECK! I HATE THAT I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU."
After a few minutes of Austin dragging Ally through the ocean like she's a drowning victim they reach land.
" Ally I can explain.."
"Explain! You want to explain Austin? How the fuck are you going to explain to me that I didn't see Piper giving you head right here on the beach. I came here to find you. I came after you, I was obviously stupid for doing that. You were more than willing to fuck anyone or anything that walks while we're clearly on the rocks."
" I was hurt Ally." Ally feels her blood pressure go up quickly.
"Hurt? You don't think that I was fucking hurt when I was talking to Gavin and screamed to you upstairs in my bedroom and you weren't there? You don't think I was hurt when I read your little fucking note? Or how about when I read and played the song you left with sheet lyrics on my dresser?"
Austin just stood there completely stunned, realized it's better that he stays quiet for now.
"I thought I could trust you! You fucking hurt me again! How many times are we supposed to going around in this infinite circle? I don't want this. I don't want the same result. I chose you."
Austin pulls Ally into his arms, and she knees him in the abs so he'd release her. She continues,
"You wouldn't fucking know that though, because once again you RAN AWAY FROM ME. YOU LEFT US."
She's screaming and crying at the top of her lungs.
"I get it alright, I get that I fucking hurt you! That doesn't excuse any of this! I didn't fuck Gavin, I didn't do anything intimate with Gavin. YOU LIED TO ME. YOU SAID THAT YOU COULDN'T EVER BE WITH PIPER LIKE THAT, BECAUSE...YOU LOVED ME. WHAT A FUCKING JOKE THAT TURNED OUT TO BE."
She rants even further,
" I FUCKING CHOSE YOU. Only God knows why, but I did. What would've happened if I hadn't shown up? I'LL TELL YOU WHAT AUSTIN. YOU WOULD HAVE FUCKED HER. US BEING TOGETHER MEANT NOTHING TO YOU."
Austin just stood there, just crying and trying to get Ally close to him once again. He failed. Miserably, I might add. She flailed her arms in the air yanking her body away from him. She wasn't running from him this time, it doesn't matter what Austin says right now. He just ruined everything.
Actions speak louder than words.
What an absolute fucking train wreck.
This is only the beginning of the cyclone coming.
A/N: Well. I bet you guys didn't see that coming did you? Austin flat out sucks in this chapter. Apparently, this is what guys do when they're hurt. STUPID AND I MEAN STUPID FUCKING THINGS. I know for a fact that this kind of stuff happens, so if you're fortunate enough to not have this happen to you. Count your lucky stars. Auslly clearly has a lot to work out, but at least they're standing in the same place right?
It'll get better eventually. Auslly is Endgame. Austin's words, he's going to fight for his girl and figure out how to work this shit out. LOVE YOU ALL! XO