Thanks for the reviews loves! Everything needs to go to hell in a hand basket before it gets better so just keep that in mind when reading this chapter. SO after a lot of thinking there's quite a bit to fix between Auslly so there's maybe 5 chapters left in this story. I honestly don't know to be honest, that's just an estimate. Sad, because I really really love it. Thanks to my readers that actually appreciated that I busted out 10K words and three chapters in a day and a half. XOXO
To unknown guest: My story is categorized under drama and romance. I wasn't aware that making a drama on fan fiction meant it had to be realistic as well.
According to Webster:
Fiction: written stories about people and events that are not real: literature that tells stories which are imagined by the writer, something that is not true.
Last I checked wholly unrealistic stories is a part of that very definition. If you don't like it don't read it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or The Disney Channel.
Austin's POV
I'm in the fucken doghouse that's for sure. I know that we have to work this shit out if we're going to be together, so I guess we're going to have to hash this out.
I told you not to do anything fucken stupid and you didn't listen to me. How in the fuck are you ever going to make this up to her? You BASICALLY cheated on her. If you couldn't tell by the way she is flipping the fuck out right now. You're together. SHE CHOSE YOU. YOU FUCKEN PIECE OF SHIT.
Ally and I are still on the beach and she's screaming at me. God, this is awful.
Well you should have thought about that Romeo before you let Piper suck your dick. Ally's beyond fucken livid Austin, look at her. Have you ever seen her this angry? You better start listening to what she's saying! REALLY FAST AS IN NOW.
What are you mad about? She didn't even finish, it's not like I actually got off and came.
Slap. Fucken pay attention to Ally right now you idiot!
" I FUCKING CHOSE YOU. Only God knows why, but I did. What would've happened if I hadn't shown up? I'LL TELL YOU WHAT AUSTIN. YOU WOULD HAVE FUCKED HER. US BEING TOGETHER MEANT NOTHING TO YOU."
She takes a breath.
"YOU FUCKEN CHEATED ON ME! YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT AUSTIN. AS FAR AS I WAS CONCERNED WE'RE TOGETHER..OR WE WERE. I CAN'T FUCKEN BELIEVE THIS. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU. AFTER EVERYTHING THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH YOU TURN AROUND AND WERE LITERALLY I DON'T KNOW SECONDS FROM FUCKING PIPER. THE SAME PSYCHOTIC BITCH THAT PUSHED ME DOWN PRACTICALLY AN ENTIRE FLIGHT OF STAIRS! YOU DIDN'T JUST CHEAT ON ME PHYSICALLY AUSTIN, YOU CHEATED ON ME EMOTIONALLY TOO. I DON'T KNOW IF I'M EVER GOING TO BE ABLE TO GET OVER THIS. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO US!"
I hate seeing Ally this way, I'm well aware that this is all my fault. I honestly don't know what to do. I take her hands and force her into my arms. She starts hitting me in the chest really hard. I try to soothe and calm her down but nothing is working.
" I FUCKEN HATE YOU AUSTIN. I HATE THAT YOU DID THIS TO US. YOU THREW EVERYTHING WE BUILT OUT THE WINDOW IN LESS THAN AN HOUR. WE HAD A SOLID FOUNDATION, WE HAD A FUTURE. I TRUSTED YOU. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I FUCKING TRUSTED YOU. I HATE THAT YOU JUST RUINED EVERYTHING. I KNOW THAT I'M NOT PERFECT AND YES I'VE BEEN A TOTAL FUCKEN BITCH, BUT GUESS WHAT...YOU MADE ME THIS WAY. SHE'S THE REASON THAT OUR WHOLE LIVES HAVE TURNED INTO A FUCKEN CYCLONE. YOUR ACTIONS, YOUR ACTIONS ALONE HAVE TURNED ME INTO AN ABSOLUTE FUCKEN LUNATIC. I HATE HOW COMPLETELY UNRAVELED I AM OVER EVERYTHING. THE WORST PART ABOUT THIS IS THAT I'M STUCK ON YOU. I DIDN'T SLEEP WITH GAVIN. I SLEPT WITH YOU, ONLY YOU. OH AND HERE'S THE KICKER... LESS THAN AN HOUR LATER YOU DECIDE YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT, COULDN'T HANDLE THE FACT THAT MAYBE GAVIN WAS THE BETTER CHOICE FOR ME. I DIDN'T CHOOSE GAVIN. I MORONICALLY WENT WITH MY HEART, LOOK WHERE IT GOT ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S WORSE. THE FACT THAT YOU DIDN'T BELIEVE IN OR TRUST IN OUR LOVE OR THAT YOU DIDN'T BELIEVE IN ME OR IN US. YOU DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME THE CHANCE TO TELL YOU MY DECISION. YOU DID WHAT YOU DO BEST AUSTIN, AND YES ONCE AGAIN YOU JUST FUCKEN BAILED. THAT'S RIGHT. THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I PICTURED MYSELF TELLING YOU THAT I CHOSE YOU WHILE WATCHING SOME FUCKING WHORE BLOW YOU. WHAT DOES THAT SAY ABOUT YOU AS A PERSON AUSTIN? HUH. WHAT! I'D LOVE TO FUCKING KNOW WHY YOU LET PIPER BLOW YOU. I HOPE SHE WAS GOOD AUSTIN, THE BEST HEAD YOU'VE EVER GOTTEN. I HOPE IT WAS WORTH IT BECAUSE I AM NEVER GOING TO LET YOU TOUCH ME AGAIN IN THAT WAY OR DO THAT FOR YOU. I'M SURPRISED I HAVEN'T VOMITED FROM ALL OF THIS YET QUITE HONESTLY. I HOPE THAT HAVING PIPER SUCK YOUR DICK WAS WORTH DESTROYING EVERYTHING WE BUILT TOGETHER. YOU ROYALLY FUCKED UP WHAT MADE US SPECIAL AND RIGHT FOR EACH OTHER. I HONESTLY WISH THIS WAS A NIGHTMARE, BUT SADLY THIS IS REAL LIFE. I THOUGHT THAT YOU WERE FINISHED HURTING ME AND BREAKING MY HEART. I THOUGHT YOU WERE FINISHED TAKING ME FOR GRANTED. I THOUGHT THAT YOU ACTUALLY LOVED ME."
"I do Ally, more than you could possibly know." Ally puts her hand up in a stop motion.
"DON'T AUSTIN."
"Please tell me what I can do to fix this. I'll do anything. You're my life Ally."
" YOU CLAIM TO LOVE ME? NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE EVER FUCKEN HAPPENED IF THAT WAS THE ACTUAL TRUTH. THE TRUTH IS YOU ONLY THINK THAT YOU WANT ME. YOU DON'T ACTUALLY WANT ME. YOU CLEARLY DON'T KNOW HOW TO COMMIT TO ME AND ONLY ME."
She takes a minute to think about what she's going to say to me next.
"I don't know how you're going to fix this Austin. I don't know if we can be fixed, if we're this broken. Everything's fucked. You may call yourself my soul-mate, but I don't know who you are anymore...My Austy wouldn't have ever in a million years betrayed me like this. You may not have literally fucked Piper Austin, but in my eyes you might as well have. You may have not physically put your dick inside her, but-"
I cut her off, " Ally, stop. That's enough."
" No I'm nowhere near finished talking about this. I can't trust you Austin."
She paused, "How am I supposed to be with you now? How are we supposed to be together?"
"Baby, I'm begging you just tell me what you need me to do. Tell me what you need." I take her hands and force her to look at me though her vision is blurred with tears streaming like a waterfall down her face. "Please I want to fix this. I need to fix this. I need you."
"WHAT I NEED! WHAT I NEED IS A GUY THAT'S GOING TO BE FAITHFUL TO ME. I HAD GAVIN. GAVIN WAS FAITHFUL TO ME. WHAT'S EVEN MORE INSANE IS THAT HE TOLD ME THAT I WAS YOUR ONCE IN A LIFETIME. THERE'S NO FUCKEN WAY THAT'S EVEN REMOTELY POSSIBLE. HE THOUGHT THAT YOU DESERVED MORE FROM ME, AND BETTER THAN ALL OF THE SHIT THAT I PUT YOU THROUGH. HE TOLD ME THAT YOU TOLD HIM THAT YOU WANT TO MARRY ME. THIS IS HOW YOU ACT WHEN YOU WANT TO MARRY SOMEONE? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? GOD, I'M SO STUPID. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THE HELL I LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY, BUT I'M STARTING TO WISH THAT I DIDN'T. RIGHT NOW, MY LIFE WOULD BE A WHOLE LOT EASIER IF I HAD NEVER MET YOU."
Okay, so I'm sure that I deserved that, but it doesn't mean that it hurt any less. "You don't mean that. Baby you're the best thing that ever happened to me." I choke out through sobs.
She scoffs, "Look at me Austin. Do I look like I'm fucking joking right now?"
She pauses again to take in a breath, "You destroyed me. I hope that you're happy now."
"Ally, how the hell could I possibly be happy right now?" I say rather meekly. I see fire going off in her eyes, it's only a matter of time before she explodes again.
"You have had 3 years to get your act together! Our first attempt at dating was absolutely pathetic. One horrible date, you bailed. You didn't even try to fight for our relationship. You didn't fight to be with me. I'm so tired of all of this Austin. I'm sick of being and feeling like your second choice and being some sort of consolation prize. I'm sick of you taking every single opportunity to be with or get with the next hottest girl that walks by. I'M NEVER EVER GOING TO BE ENOUGH FOR YOU. AM I! You want to know why we don't work out? IT'S BECAUSE OF YOU. I CAN'T CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU ENOUGH FOR THE BOTH OF US ANYMORE.
She lowers her voice and starts crying even more, but forces her words to be articulated so I could understand. "It's just way too hard."
All of the sudden Ally's phone starts ringing.
"Ally don't pick that up. Whoever it is can wait." I try to take her phone away from her because we still need to talk and don't need any interruptions.
"DON'T FUCKEN TELL ME WHAT TO DO I'M PICKING UP MY PHONE."
"Please."
"No Austin."
She picks up her phone,
"Hi Trish. I need you to come get me." I can only assume what Trish is saying on the other end. "Yeah, I'm at the beach. Yeah, Austin's here. No I don't want him to bring me home. I'm in no condition to drive. Alright T. I'll see you soon."
She hangs up the phone and starts talking to me again.
"Time's running out Austin. Trish is on her way here. She knows that I'm crying and can tell solely by the tone in my voice that something is wrong. You have about five minutes to talk. It's likely probably less than that because I'll bet money that Trish is speeding."
I took that as my cue to start explaining and apologizing,
"Ally, as I was saying before I was hurt. Absolutely devastated and heartbroken. I can see why you're absolutely disgusted with me. I'm disgusted with me. You're right. I had every intention of fucking Piper, I have no idea why. I wasn't thinking clearly. I let my emotions spin out of control. Is she hot? Well yeah, but she's absolutely fucking crazy as well. I should have known better. I should have thought about you and stopped her. I don't know what I was thinking, obviously have shown poor judgment as to how I handle complicated situations. I didn't even let you explain at the house earlier. I was so pissed when Gavin showed up. I had just made love to you and you practically denied it in front of him. Do you have any idea how awful that felt? The love of my life was basically ashamed that she and I had given each other our virginity. However; that doesn't excuse any of my behavior. As far as I was concerned as well. We're together...or we were as you said and I just felt like I completely lost my mind." She just stares at me and says nothing.
"Everything I said to Gavin was true. I confronted him and told him that there was no way that he could possibly conceptualize what it's like to truly love you and be in love with you. The reason I was able to tell him all of that was because I know what it feels like because I am in love with you. I asked him if he thought about marrying you, he said he thought about a future, indicating the present and immediate future, but not to the extent I have. Yes Ally, I want to marry you. I want you to be the wife and the mother of my children. I know that I've fucked up royally and beyond repair and I don't even know if that's even remotely a realistic possibility for you anymore or even at all. You deserve better, but I know what my heart wants. I want you, and only you." She closes her eyes because she can't look at me any longer and lets the tears cascade down her face in a waterfall. This is fucking killing me inside.
I sigh and pause and I can tell she's listening even though she's crying. "I'm sure that you don't and can't believe me right now even if you wanted to, but it's the truth. My truth. I was so overwrought with emotion and jealousy because of Gavin. Every time he touched you I was physically sick. I can't believe that I let Piper blow me, that is up there with the biggest mistakes I have made in my life. I can't believe that that horrible image will be forever burned into your mind. I don't know if you'll ever forgive me Ally, so I'm not even going to ask for it. I don't deserve it. I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself for this. I don't deserve you, but if you ever decide to let me back into your heart. I promise that I will spend the rest of our lives trying to make up for this indiscretion. I will NEVER stop fighting for you. I am truly sorry. I ruined everything. I ruined us."
She responds only in a whisper loud enough for me to hear and sounding completely drained. "You're supposed to be my best friend. I just can't believe that you did this to us. I thought that our love was for real, but obviously it's not." She turns away from me and faces the ocean.
I want more than anything to get her to look at me, but instead I settle for wrapping my arms around her with her back to me. She has no energy to fight me anymore, so she just lets me hold her. I lean down and say into her ear,"Ally please don't say that. I love you. I really love you. I made a huge fucking mistake. Huge. I'm glad that you called the cops and they hauled Piper back to the prison. I hope that we can get past this."
"I don't know what else to say Austin." She pulls herself out of my arms, looks towards the parking lot that has about five cars or so in it. "Time's up! Trish just pulled into the parking lot."
Trish gets out of the car looking for both Ally and I. She sees us and comes barreling forward. Ally meets her half way and just rushes into her arms. The two girls are close enough that I can hear them.
"Ally. Oh my God. What happened?"
The only thing Ally said was, "Piper."
Literally seconds later, my phone starts to ring. I pick up on the first ring.
"Dez. I'm at the beach. YOU'RE HERE? Alright. I'll see you in a second."
Trish grabs Ally's hand and starts to pull her where I'm still standing and not moving.
"AUSTIN! WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO ALLY? WHY DOES SHE LOOK LIKE YOU JUST SMASHED HER HEART INTO A THOUSAND PIECES? SHE REFUSES TO EVEN LOOK AT YOU. WHY ARE HER CLOTHES SOAKING WET? WHY THE HELL DID SHE ONLY SAY PIPER'S NAME? ISN'T THAT PSYCHOTIC WHORE SUPPOSED TO BE IN JAIL? I WANT ANSWERS NOW AUSTIN."
"Trish... Ally found Piper and I here on the beach. I'm sure that she'll explain the rest to you later. The reason she is so upset is because she saw something."
"Well I'm fucking waiting Austin. You tell me. Don't make Ally tell me! She looks like she's been in a train wreck and crying for weeks now. Look at her, she has absolutely no energy whatsoever."
I look at Ally's slumped down petite figure. Her head is hanging down and she's looking at the ground. And even with her face not turned up facing us I can tell by her posture..Trish is right she looks absolutely crushed.
She continues to talk, "Now, tell me what you did to my best friend because it looks like once again I HAVE TO PICK UP ALL THE PIECES BECAUSE YOU FUCKING BROKE HER HEART FOR THE BILLIONTH FUCKING TIME."
Trish is pissed, but I reluctantly concede and tell her what she wants to know.
"She saw that Piper was giving me a blow job." Trish's jaw drops in complete disbelief.
I continue, "About an hour before that, Ally and I had sex for the first time ever."
She's went from shocked to absolutely livid faster than I could blink.
'WHAT! YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER? HOW COULD YOU LET THAT PSYCHOTIC BITCH GIVE YOU HEAD AFTER SHE PUSHED ALLY DOWN A FLIGHT OF STAIRS. SHE ALMOST KILLED HER AUSTIN. DOES ANY OF THAT EVEN MATTER TO YOU? WOW! THERE ARE JUST NO WORDS! YOU'RE SERIOUSLY FUCKED IN THE HEAD."
Someone coughs and I turn around,
"What the fuck did I just hear?" I know that voice.
Ally who was standing next to Trish has just thrown herself into Dez's arms. She should be in mine. Ally whispers into his ear, he kisses her forehead. When he pulls away he wipes the tears from Ally's eyes and looks at her with concern. I feel annoyance start to build and jealousy. I can't believe this Dez has her in his arms, he has his arms around my girl.
She's not your girl. Dez is her friend and your best friend. You need to chill the fuck out. You have no right to be jealous right now. NONE.
I don't even respond to my conscience.
"Dez what are you doing here?"
"Trish called me panicked and said that Ally called her hysterical and she needed to be picked up. She told me that she was with you, so I thought that you would need me and you were probably upset too."
Ally just looks at me like what the fuck is your problem? Dez is my friend too.
Dez tightens his grip around Ally and I sarcastically say, "Oh, and you feel the need to just tighten your grip around my girl and wipe tears from her eyes? What kind of best friend are you?
Do you ever think before you open your mouth or even fucking listen for that matter?
Dez looks at me with a what the fuck was that about look on his face, "What kind of best friend am I? The kind that just left his girlfriends to bail your ass out of what I'm sure is another one of Austin Moon's famous fuck ups!" He spits back at me.
Ally pulls him down and she continues to whisper in his ear to tell him what happened,
"HE DID WHAT?! AFTER YOU GUYS DID THAT? REALLY?"
Dez hands Ally back over to Trish to comfort her, the next thing I know.
POW!
My own best friend sucker punches me in the face.
He helps me up and I brush the sand off of myself.
"Austin. You are coming with me. For the record you deserved that. Trish take Ally home. I'll take care of this problem right here." He pulls me by the ear.
"Don't even think about saying goodbye to Ally." He threatens.
Trish just nods her head in understand and starts to drag Ally off towards her car while Dez pulls me towards his. He takes his hand off of my ear holding me by the arm now, and I take the opportunity to yell.
"ALLY! I LOVE YOU."
I see in the distance that Trish pulls Ally even closer to her with her arm around her shoulder and rubs her back.
Dez turns to me nearly rips my arm out of its socket, "DON'T MAKE ME FUCKING SMACK YOU. I THINK THAT YOU'VE DONE ENOUGH TONIGHT."
...
I can only hope that Ally and I can find our way out of this cyclone and fix our relationship over time.