Authors Notes: I'm sorry for not updating this in a while I will try and update a bit more as it is the holidays but I have a lot of stuff going on at the minute with homework and a load of other stuff so I apologise if I don't update in a few days. The scenes between brax and Ricky yesterday were amazing. Thank you for the reviews and hope you enjoy and please review and tell me anything you would like to happen.
Ricky's pov
It had know been a week since brax had been put in jail and I still hated everyday, and wanted him back everyday I just couldn't tell anyone that. We had reopened Angelo's a few days after brax was put in prison, it was going well and we had earnt quite a bit of money but for the weeks we had been closed we had taken a big hit and it would take about a moth for us to recover. Brax was known trying for an appeal which would hopefully be approved meaning he could come home sooner. Heath was doing his hsc because he felt like he needed to do something with his life especially know he was married to Bianca and she was pushing him to do it, I also think he wanted to prove something to brax. Casey was known back with Tamara properly and she had moved in with Casey Kyle and me. I could see that Kyle wasn't coping very well with brax being in jail and Casey and Tamara rubbing there romance in his face think it was all to much. Brax wasn't aloud visitors yet and to be honest it was killing me, as I didn't know how he was or anything. Just to be reassured about how he was would ease my mind because right know it's in so many places and thinking about so many things. I went for my first ultra sound yesterday and found out I was 10 weeks pregnant which was a bit of a shock as I hadn't noticed before, it was a scary thought having a baby by myself but I had to as I wasn't getting rid of his baby even if brax isn't here to help me look after it. I was on shift an Angelo's tonight, and we had just closed up.
K: we should be earning good profits and be able to start putting money away fro brax's appeal soon
R: I thought we had already started doing that
K: no Angelo's took such a big hit being closed for that few weeks that it is going to take us another few weeks to recover.
R: why
K: because of the stock and staff
Z: I guess you're closed
R: it's a bit alter for diner
Z: I came for a nightcap didn't want to go back to the hotel yet
K: are you not staying at Leahs?
Z: no Oscar needs some space
K: why what's going on
Z: he's been doing it rough since his sister went back to the lodge so
R: how's she going out there?
Z: I don't know
R: it must be tough on the family, not being able to be together
Z: sometimes you've got to do what's best for everyone
R: even when it sucks for you
Z; yeh even then, catch you guys later
R: see ya
Kyle looked at me sympathetically and I knew what he was thinking, but I didn't say anything and we just walked home
I swung the door open
R: either steal the food or shut the door yeh
Heath took the milk out the fridge and I took it out his hand
R: thank you
H: its not like you guys have any food to steal anyway
K: maybe you should do some shopping
B: come on baby I need to talk to you
H: your saved by the hot principal
R: maybe we should do some shopping
The next morning
K: I think we should call the prison and see id brax is aloud visitors
R: I don't think it will help they said they would ring when he was aloud visitors, I think it would do you and Casey some good if you were at least on speaking terms
K: maybe he's obviously not interested in making that happen
R: weren't you the one that accused him of betraying his brother, by being happy
K: you want me to apologise
R: yeh, I do, there's no time like the present, Casey
C: what
R: Kyle's got something he would like to say to you, haven't you Kyle
K: I guess so
R: good
My phone started to ring so I went and answered it and let the two boys sort it out
K: she's got bossy since brax left
C: she's always been bossy
K: imp sorry about what I said
C: don't worry about it
H: so you guys are talking again how did that happen heath said as he walked towards us?
K: Ricky's become a bit bossy
H: oh
I started to walk back towards the boys
R: brax can have visitors, so get your gym shift sorted and some one to cover t Angelo's as you can see him this afternoon
H: sweet
Heaths pov:
We were waiting in the kitchen for Ricky when I decided to speak what I was thinking.
H: how do you think Ricky's copping?
K: not well
H: why has she said something to you?
K: no does she need to, how would you feel if you couldn't be with Bianca for 10 years?
C: why are you so interested anyway
H: she's a mate and she's been there for all of us
K: yeh she has
H: so I need you to trust me no arguing
R: oh good your all here, the hospital rang and I need to go for a check up or something, so ill meet you at the prison
H: we wont be there
R: what are you talking about?
H: do you really think it us brax has been waiting to see
R: no your family and I know how hard this has been for you
H: yeh and we've had you to help us know its time for pay back
K: the good kind
R: r u sure
C: yeh say good day from us
R: you don't know how much this means.
I went to the hospital and they said everything was fine and sent me on my way. I drove to the prison I was pretty nerves to see him
R: Erica sharp I said to the guy at the gate he nodded his head
I went and stood in the middle with my hands and arms rested on the of my stomach you could see a bump forming.
I saw brax in his green t- shirt and pants and I saw him smile when he saw me. He walked towards me and I walked towards him and he engulfed me in a hug
S: Braxton you know the rules minimal physical contact
B: sorry about that
We sat down on two of the benches opposite each other
B: you look good Ricky
R: so do you
B: so were are the boys at
R: it's just me today
B: is everything all right
R: yeh it's all-good I mean they miss you but they're all right
B: how's our baby doing?
R: its good im ten weeks and went fro a check up today and they said everything was fine. What about you
B: it's the same everyday there's a bell to tell you to eat work sleep. I miss you though
R: I miss you to
He just looked at me for a minute with thos loving eyes
B: urgh go on then tell me everything that's been happening at home then.
R: well the big news is heath is doing fitness instructor course
B: for real
R: it shows you what the love of a good woman can do
B: im so sorry for doing this to you
R: don't please
Was all I could say if he said anymore I think he might of killed me I wasn't coping with this I just wanted to break down in tears and cry this was difficult for me because the love of my life was going to be in here for the next 10 years if he doesn't get his appeal
R: your lawyers still working on your appeal he still reckons you should have been tried as a juvenile cause you were just a kid went it happened
B: I was a hell of a lot older when I admitted to it
R; you cant give up
B: im not but I cant count on some technicality to get me out of this place Ricky and neither can you
R: yeh I know that but we've got to have something to hold on to, we have a baby on the way brax
B: I suppose
The alarm buzzed and the security guard shouted time
I was know starting to crumble and was only just holding myself together
B: that's it I've got to go
I just nodded my head at him and he stood up and hugged me tightly
S: Braxton
He then leaned in and kissed me passionately
The security guard grabbed his arm and pulled him
I was know starting to cry
B: take care of yourself and our baby
R: I will
B: I love you
R: I love you to my voice had know cracked and I was crying. I kept looking back at brax with tears in my eyes and I walked out holding my stomach and crying. I drove home not that I was in any state to and found Bianca sat on the couch with the boys.
To be honest I couldn't really face the boys right know so I texted Bianca and told her to meet me at the beach walk. I was sat on the edge, still crying
B: hey
She sat next to me and I crumbled on her
B: hey hey Ricky what happened
R: I can't do this
B: Ricky what happened
R: he's fine don't worry but he doesn't think he's going to get the appeal, he doesn't think he's coming out of the prison soon
B: Ricky you know he may not he committed a crime and this was his choice
R: I know but he didn't even warn me
B: he didn't warn anyone Ricky, does he know how pregnant you are
R: yes but I think im going to get rid of it
B: what, Ricky you can't be serious
R: I can't raise it by myself
B: Ricky, its brax's baby you love him so much and he's always wanted a child
R: I know but he isn't going to know this child because he's in prison
B: it doesn't matter Ricky,
R: ill think about it
B: shall we go talk to the boys about what brax said?
R: I suppose I just don't want to let them down because they didn't go to see him because they knew how much I wanted to see him, he asked how they were and told me to congratulate heath and thank you for making him study.
B: come on then let's go tell them
We told the boys and they were all happy to know there brother was okay. We all sat and talked for a while and agreed that I wouldn't go next time as I didn't really want to and the brothers deserved some time with him.
It was know a week later and things had been fine and I was just going about life as I normally would I had become quite close to this guy called Nate who was the doctor he came in Angelo's all the time and we just sat and talked, he was really nice, I had invited him round and we were sat at the table drinking coffee just talking about josh as he was in hospital after an accident and I said I would look after him to brax. That's when the boys came walking in with sad looks on their faces after they had just been to see brax.
H: can we talk to you alone Ricky
R: yeh of course ill see you at the hospital later Nate
H: ricks im sorry
R: about what
H: he doesn't want to see you again
R: what why
H: because I think you broke him, he was nearly crying on us Ricky, he said he couldn't do it anymore that you are better of without him and that you should move on and find someone to love you and your baby.
R: r u serious, why didn't he tell me himself he's meant to love me
H: he does love you that are why he's doing this; you need to find happiness in another place without brax.
R: fine, if that's what he wants, but tell him he is wrong and that I will never love someone like I do him but if that's what he wants that's what he will get. But he's never meeting this baby
H: Ricky
R: no heath im serious if he's calling quits on this im not letting him see this baby and we are over for good,
H: Ricky you cant does that
R: why he called it not me.
H: because he wants you to be happy
R: I was happy with him but he had to ruin that didn't he
I said as I walked out the door.