So for those of you dying to see how Ally's feeling, well here ya go. Only a couple more chapters to go. R & R xoxo

Disclaimer: I don't own Austin and Ally or the Disney Channel.

Ally's POV

SO, let me just start with Trish has been so amazing. She's listened to me cry and just told me that everything's going to be okay until she was blue in the face. I'm really just so lucky to have her, she's been really attentive too. I know that if there ever comes a time where she needs moral support like I do right now, then I'm there for her too. We've been spending a lot of time together. It's been over a week now, I haven't had any communication with Austin. I know that I should have just told Gavin that I had made my choice, that Austin and I were together intimately and I chose him. I mean I did tell Gavin that I love Austin, but he just didn't hear it. Anyways, yes I should have handled the situation better, but that's not what happened. I just didn't want to hurt his feelings and scar him for life. Austin on the other hand...Piper of all people. I'm not even going to say it because I feel like a broken record. I still feel sick thinking about it, it will forever be burned into my mind. We'll just leave it at that. I realize that I'll have to forgive Austin eventually and forget in order for us to move past it and be together, but I'll deal with that when the time comes. Trish told me that I needed space and time away from him, she was right. She also said that time apart from Austin would make him realize just how he royally fucked everything up. I can only hope that she's right about that too. I guess that you're probably wondering what I've been up to other then constantly crying even when I think I'm all out of tears I'm not. Trish and I started the week with lots of retail therapy, and then mani-pedi's and right now we're at the spa she used to work at getting massages and taking mud baths.

"Hey Ally, so have you written any music since that night?"

"No T. I really don't have any inspiration."

"Well why don't you try when we get home later? You'll be nice and relaxed." She encourages me. I think she's worried that I haven't written since my fight with Austin.

"I don't know. I'm not really up for writing love songs right now."

" Not a song, just start small how about a chorus or something. You should try something happy like how you felt before everything happened and turned to shit."

"Oh you mean like when I said to you and my mom,

Yeah, I felt like Cinderella. Until the prince's girlfriend showed up. Then my glass slipper broke, the pumpkin exploded all over me, and the gingerbread man found a wolf in his grandma's house. "

Trish and I just laughed remembering how everything went after Austin and I had just kissed for the first time and Kira showed up.

"Alright T. When we leave, why don't you drive me to Sonic Boom instead?"

"You got it BFF."

A Couple of Hours Later

Trish just dropped me off at Sonic Boom, I know that I'm relaxed but I haven't been in the practice room since Austin and I broke up. God, that was a total freaking nightmare. I haven't really been sleeping. I find myself tossing and turning all night. I want to look at pictures of us, so I look at my lock screen. Austin and I are at the duck pond where I first introduced him to Pickles and we're kissing with the pond in the background and the goose as well. I've been crying and just laying in bed every day until Trish comes over, yanks the covers off of me, forcing me to shower and get out of the house. The morning after I crashed at her place. She took all of the pictures I had with Austin and put them in a shoe box, then she had Dez come over and put it up high so neither of us could reach it. That's really the only time I saw Dez though recently. I mean he texts me every now and then telling me about his Alpaca and other random stuff. I want to ask about Austin because I wonder how he's taking everything, but I just can't bring myself to do so. I just feel like I've lost my best friend, the best part of me. I feel I don't know...incomplete I guess.

Right now I'm behind the register, helping a customer when I hear the bell ding again and I look up and see Dallas. He approaches me but I don't really take notice of him. I'm really not in the mood for him breaking anything in the store today. He was the worse non-employee we ever had. I can't believe he's here after the Epic Humiliation Public Fire Trish gave him on my behalf, the way he said 'libary' instead of 'library' I mean how hard is it to really articulate the R where it's supposed to be.

Um Ally, snap out of it. My conscience yells at me.

"Uh - hey Ally. Listen I'm sorry about you and Austin. I've also done a lot of thinking, seeing you upset this past week. I realized that I really messed up with you too. I was just scared, I was uh-hoping you'd go on a date with me."

"What?" I look up. "Oh hey Dallas. What did you say Wait a lot of thinking? You do realize its been like three years now or whatever?"

Dallas gives me a shy smile as he shuffles his feet back and forth, "Better late than never. Ally will you go out with me?"

Is this what happens ex-crushes come out of the woodwork when you're available again?

"Where is this coming from? I liked you a while ago Dallas as in past tense."

"I know Ally. I know that I suck, I just thought that I never had a real shot with you because of Austin. At Trish's quincenera I could tell Austin had feelings for you. He had this pout on his face while watching us and sitting at the table. Then, he decided that he wanted to dance with you instead of singing because the coolest girl in the room deserved to dance. Remember this?

Austin: I really wanted to sing for you guys, but there's only time for one song. And I'd rather spend that time dancing with one of my best friends.

Dez: Man. That's so sweet.

Austin: Not you. Ally.

Yeah, I overheard that. So that and well just seeing you upset, I realized that I hurt you in the past too. I want to make it up to you. So, will you give me another chance?"

"I'm sorry Dallas. I'm really not in a great place right now. I may not be with Austin, but it's going to take me a long time to get over him."

"Oh that's too bad, maybe one day we'll have another chance."

I give him an apologetic smile and then Dallas walked out of Sonic Boom looking completely defeated.

Austin.

I go upstairs to the practice room and it just feels cold, lonely, not like it used to with Austin here with me.

I miss him. I really miss him. I miss feeling how I felt when I was falling in love with him.

Hey wait, that gives me an idea. I slowly close the door, walk over to the piano hesitantly. Man, this feels weird. I guess it's a step towards making progress right? I grab my song book off the top of the piano, yeah I haven't written anything in over a week. It's totally not my style to wait so long to write, but you have to understand that it just hurts so much. The guy I love really really hurt me, but enough of that.

Okay, so let's see what's it feel like to fall in love.

I'm turnin the pages

Literally. I'm turning the pages in my song book and the first song I open up to is Break Down The Walls. I keep flipping and pass Not A Love Song.

Just wanna be in love forever and ever

You and me, always together

I Think About You. I let a tear slip from my eye. I wrote this for and about Austin and he serenaded me with it in front of a ton of people right here at Sonic Boom. You see it's when I realized that I had developed real feelings for him, or maybe it happened sooner than that, but this is when I actually acknowledged it. I walk over to the door and open it, to walk to the very spot where he stood when he started strumming his guitar and singing to me. I look down to the bench I was sitting at and sigh.

And I know, I don't wanna cry no more

Heartbeat. Ugh. I actually wrote this song for him to sing to Cassidy. He acted like a total ass around her, he couldn't see that I was right in front of him. I remember when he was horrible at communicating feelings. I was really disappointed with how he treated me when she was in the picture. He tried to blame me for all his inadequacies when he couldn't think of anything to write and expected me to tell him how he felt about Cassidy. Idiot.

I can't no more

Feels just like I'm falling in love

Don't Look Down, now that song is always going to be special to me. It was the first time, I overcame my stage fright sure I was dressed as Galexis Nova, but her persona gave me the confidence I needed. I remembered looking into Austin's eyes and realizing that I really loved him then.

Once I finished the chorus to my song, I closed my song book and called Trish. She came over to Sonic Boom after her shift and picked it up. I handed her the lyrics, not my song book. I don't like when people touch my book. So, I just wrote the chorus that she wanted on a white lined sheet of paper.

Trish's POV

I have Ally's lyrics for her song in my hand and told her that I had to go home. She didn't question me about it, but I'll call her in a little while to check on her. She just nodded, followed me out of the practice room. I guess she really doesn't like being in it without Austin, she goes behind the register and starts to close up the store. Once I'm out of ear shot I pick up the phone and dial Dez. He picks up on the second ring.

"Dez. So, I have Ally's part of the song in my hand right now. I'm going to call Jimmy and Ronnie and schedule a meeting with them early tomorrow morning. Maybe 10:00am or so. Austin will probably be sleeping, Ally will be at work so she won't be contacting me and I'll just go see her after the meeting."

"I have the verses Austin wrote for the song as well. I hope that with Jimmy and Ronnie's experience we can pitch this to them, they'll help us fuse it into one song. You think it'll work?"

"Yeah, but we need a proposal once they finish the song. Let's just call it a night and we'll talk early before the meeting okay?"

"Sounds great."

I pick up my phone and dial Jimmy first, he agrees to meet with me and Dez. He just made me promise that Dez won't bring his Alpaca with him. I said that I'll make sure he won't. Once I hang up with Jimmy and call Ronnie, tell him that Dez and I need a meeting with him and Jimmy tomorrow. He just agreed and said,

"Let me get to the point. This better be worth my time."

I just told him that it would be and if he wouldn't mind meeting Dez and I at Starr Records. I was afraid at first that he wouldn't go for it, but he just said okay and that he'll see me in the morning. I hang up and send Dez a quick text.

...

To Dez from Trish:

Operation Auslly is a go. Ronnie and Jimmy at Starr Records 10:00 a.m. be there. Don't bring the Alpaca. That was part of Jimmy's terms to meet with us.

To Trish from Dez:

I'll be there. Alright, I'll ask Didi or my mom to watch Albert for an hour or so tomorrow. See ya then.

Ally's POV

I just got home from work and ate dinner, plugged my headphones into my iPod. I'm already changed for bed and climb in. I put it on shuffle, what do you know?

Steal Your Heart. He wrote this one about me, but I didn't realize it at the time. Funny, because he wrote this one after we broke up, but yet he still couldn't tell me that he wanted to be with me. I mean I guess he tried in the song, but he never backed it up with his actions. I fast forward to my favorite part of the song.

You're a good girl

The perfect picture of an angel's smile

From a magazine

But it's a new world

And I know so well the side of you

No one's ever seen

Hey now baby,

No doubt about it, girl

You drive me crazy

I'm pleading guilty to the way you make me

Wanna steal your heart

Steal your heart

Call me criminal

I won't deny you make me want it all,

Everything you are

So lock it up

Go on and try it

No matter what you do

I'm gonna steal your heart

I confess,

I kinda like it that you're innocent

Keeping up your guard

I'll break it down

So you can't hide it

No matter what you do

I'm gonna steal your heart

...

What happened to the times when skinned knees were easier to fix then broken hearts? When writing The Butterfly Song was special and made me happy. Sometimes I wish I could re-live my childhood.

Austin stole my heart a long time ago. I think it all really started when Trish, Dez and Austin thought I was going to leave them and go to MUNY. Austin sang the acoustic version of There's No Way I Can Make It Without You. I was so surprised and had no idea that I had meant that much to him. The video montage they made for me was truly adorable, I decided to stay in Miami. Wow, my life would be so different I bet if I went to New York. Sure there may have been a lot less pain in the long run, but I'm glad that I stayed.

I've been thinking about Austin a lot lately. I mean sure I've seen him, but I haven't said a word to him, the most that's happened is stolen glances at each other from afar, and then I know that I look down at my feet and pretend I wasn't staring at him. I haven't seen his winning smile at all since we broke up, I wish that I could. It's so crazy because I just feel like we're so disconnected. I miss feeling connected to my soul-mate. I miss my best friend. I just miss him. I won't be the first to contact him though. I can't. I deserve a guy that's willing to fight for me.

So, I'm going to just continue to do my thing and let the universe does its thing, and if we're meant to be together well then... Who am I to argue with Fate?

Up Next: Trish & Dez's Meeting. Stay tuned. xoxo