dislcaimer: APH DOES NOT BELONG TO ME.

I'm really sorry for the hiatus mode me and my stories have been. I've been trying to focus on school and such. I'm so sorry. I hope this chpater can make up for that.

Spain combed his wife's hair with his hands. She's sleeping soundly in his arms, her hands holding onto his shirt, and her head tucked right under his chin. Antonio smiled.

"Listen" Gilbert started. "I have to somewhat be on Francis' side of this, only because I know what happened between her and him during the century war" he said. Antonio sat calmly in his chair. Everybody left moments ago, but Gilbert. "You have to listen to me" Gilbert said. "I like to take care of little kids okay?" he began. "So when Rome took Alice from her brothers, I ended up raising her along with Holy Rome" he said. "Even though she was still Roman territory, I took care of her and it's natural for me to defend her in these matters" Prussia said.

"I'm happy that you are falling for her Tonio, I really am, I wouldn't want it to be any other guy, I swear" he said. "But…at times and circumstances, both of you will be hurt, her people are not willing to be ruled by you, and your people really don't like her as a whole" he said. "Not to mention the New World is at stake and trust me love is going to get in the way Antonio" Gilbert then walked towards Antonio's seat. He placed a hand on both the arm rests. "Listen to me Antonio, Alice and the rest of us are messed up as it is, and trust me, both of you can't afford a heart break or a sudden mental decline"

"Why do you really care?" Spain asked as he leaned towards Prussia. "Is it because of I'm your friend? Or is because you are interested in Alice herself?" he asked. Prussia backed off and smiled.

"Albion" he started. Spain nodded. "a Roman territory in the British Isles" he said. "so in that aspect, who is her siblings?" he asked.

" Well..that would be the British Isles, and any other nations born under Rome" Spain said. "though originality of blood usually doesn't matter for us" he said. He looked at Prussia oddly. "Marriage between us isn't classified as incest okay-"

"England" Prussia interrupted. "deriving from the Germanic tribes known as the Angles, 'England' means land of the Angles" Prussia said smirking. "She is much more of my sister than she is to you and Francis. And if there's ever a thing Germania thought me, it's that protecting your family is like protecting yourself" he hissed. "Alice isn't fully aware of her kinship between us, and I rather keep it that way. Trust me though Antonio, if she as much as kills herself over a heart ache for loving any of you Romantic nations. I swear to you" He said as he turned around. "I will raise hell" he said as he closed the door.

Antonio frowned at the small memory. It does make sense for Alice to be Prussia's younger sister, Blonde hair, pale skin, no hints of Rome. He frowned and muttered comments. Suddenly he heard a small noise from Alice. He looked down to see her open her green eyes.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up" he said. Alice nodded but dismissed it.

"What's wrong?" she asked. Antonio shook his head. Alice frowned, and buried her face into his chest.

"You're a horrible liar" she said. Antonio laughed as he felt the sound waves hit him.

"And you're a bad seductress" he said. Alice scoffed and looked up.

"Who said I was trying to seduce you?" she asked. Spain leaned down and kissed her gently on the lips.

"Now you're just asking for it" he said as he hugged her tighter. Alice laughed, but at the same time she tensed. Antonio felt this.

"You're just joking right?" Alice asked. Spain looked down at her. Fear were written all over her eyes. He nodded.

"I don't get it." Spain said. "Why are you so scared of having sex?" Antonio asked. "Is it something exclusive to Francis?" he asked.

"No" Alice said softly. "No it's not something France will only have" she said. "I guess…I don't know"

"Are you worried that I won't be as good as Francis in bed?" Antonio asked.

"No that's not it you moron" Alice said as she looked up and pouted. "I just…" she was thinking of what to say.

"So are you implying that I may outdo France in the bed?" Antonio asked cheerfully. Alice looked up at him with her mouth opened in shock.

"Well that's not what I was trying to convey…I just don't want to sleep with someone just for the feeling of it" Alice said meekly. "I want to actually do it because…you know...uh…love?" she said. Alice was getting even more confused as she tried to explain.

"You're trying to build security and trust huh?" Antonio asked out of no where. Alice looked up at him and nodded.

"When Francis left me…I just felt like there was this huge hole in my heart…like it was an abyss, every time I would see him with Scotland my heart would sink and it would hurt" she murmured. "I'm just shocked I guess" she said. "Even thought it has been more than 200 years since their alliance… I just can't get that feeling-" Alice was interrupted when she felt Antonio hugging her tight.

"so what are you waiting for?" Spain asked. "I mean sex is-" before Spain could finish his sentence, Alice interrupted.

"You're not the one who's getting filled with something foreign" Alice said meekly. "I mean…in other terms that you may understand, you're not the one getting 'invaded'" she said looking away. Antonio burst out of laughter at the word his wife used.

"invaded?" he asked. Alice buried her face into his chest, Spain hugged her closer and smiled when he felt her warmth on his chest.

"you're blushing aren't you?" he asked. Alice nodded.

"I don't know how to put it in any other way"

"I understand… I had my share on the receiving end" Spain said. Alice looked up at him with puzzling eyes. Spain didn't miss those eyes, he smiled and buried his nose onto the top of Alice's head.

"uh…who did you do it with?" she asked puzzled. Spain froze. He completely forgot about his first time…well he didn't he completely forgot who and when it was.

"I won't force you" he said. "I will wait for you to be ready" he said.

"Awe what a gentleman" Alice said as she huddled closer to Spain. "Are you sure you're going to hold out?" she asked. "Because you know…there is that lump-"

"ignore it" Antonio muttered. Alice laughed. "c'mon Alice, you have to sleep, you're going to do some paper works now… now that you're fine" He felt Alice hug him tighter.

"How about we lie and say I'm not better and not do paper works?" she asked. "Plus our job is do what ever whenever.. I want to sail the seven seas with you, so let me…paper works are a pain" she hummed. Spain smiled and buried his face onto the top of Alice's head.

"That would be ideal…but you know we have to do paperwork's" he said. Alice sighed and let he grip loosen on Spain.

"Yes… I suppose you're right… but c'mon let's go out on a ship and loot another" she said. "It'll be fun and you'll get the adrenaline rush-"

"Alicia, be a lady not a pirate"

"That's rejecting who I am"

"You are a lady right?" Alice got quiet after this.

"You sound like an old man" she huffed. She then pushed Spain on the bed and kissed him. Spain was surprised at first but he began to respond. He felt her fingers on the back oh his head and how they got entangled by his hair. He felt her small hand grabbing onto his arm. In return he placed one hand on her back, tracing her spine with a finger while the other grabbed her ass. Alice gasped when Antonio began to grope her ass, giving the Spaniard the upper hand. Soon Alice found her self underneath he Spaniard with her arms around his neck and with his hand holding her hips. He broke off the kiss and buried his head onto the crook of her neck.

"Stop" he said. Alice hugged him close to her, ignoring his heavy weight. "If we continue any further, I may lose myself and just ignore all of your pleas to stop" Alice began to comb the Spaniard's hair.

"I'm sorry" she said "I didn't mean to tease" she said. Spain hugged her close to him.

"I love you" whispered. He felt Alice tense.

"I know" she said.

Alice watched the Spaniard next to her slept. She was trapped by his arms, she didn't mind. She liked the warmth that the man's body gave off. She snuggled closer to him and placed her head underneath his chin., and by instinct, his arms followed her. She smiled and kissed his collar bone. She felt horrible. When she was kissing him, her body just began to move on it's own. For once, she actually felt lust. She sighed and shook her head. "You can't let yourself fall Alice" she whispered to herself. "You can't let yourself fall for him, you'll just end up broken" she muttered.

"Alice…" She heard Antonio say. Alice looked up to check if the Spaniard is awake, but to her luck he wasn't. She then sighed again and let her mind wander off, thinking of little scenarios she and Antonio could be doing. Alice smiled and fell to sleep.

When Spain woke up, he found his wife hugging him close. Her small breathes were tickling his chest, causing him to stir.

"mmm" he heard Alice said as she woke up. Spain kissed her on the cheek and smiled. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to wake you" he said. Alice just laid on her back and stared at the Spaniard with her sleepy eyes.

"It's okay, I needed to wake up anyway" she said. Spain blinked. Did England just sounded like a child? He shook his head and looked at her again when he felt her hand on his left cheek.

"What are you worried about hmm?" she asked as she scratched her eyes sleepily. Spain sighed and kissed her forehead.

"You are way too cute right now" he said as he hugged her. Alice let out a yawn and hugged the Spaniard back.

"I don't know what you are talking about" she said. She felt Spain carry her bridal style. "Where are you taking me?" she asked.

"bath" Spain said.

"Nothing lewd okay?" she asked.

"I don't think I can do anything lewd when you talk like this" Spain said.

"Maybe I should talk like this more" she joked.

"Please don't, I'll feel like I'm raising a child" Spain said.

"Technically I still am" Alice said. Spain looked at her.

"Technically?" He asked. Maybe he should talk to Alice more when she's sleepy. She tells him things.

"Yeah..you know..our bodies mature…but our hearts" she said as she trailed off. "I still want to hug Scotland like there's no tomorrow, I want to hold on to his cape and wrap myself around it. Go on his shoulder and sleep. I want to be with Ireland and talk to the fairies, Wales will take me with him to see dragons." Spain smiled as he listened to his wife.

"And mom" Alice said. Spain stopped. He looked at Alice. Her eyes were distant, they were reflecting Alice's dream. "She would tell me the best stories, and all of us, the British Isles that is, would sit around a bonfire, I miss those" Alice said as she snuggled. Spain frowned. He never did know what happened to Britannia, it has always been a mystery.

"What happened to her?" He asked.

"She disappeared right after Germania and Rome disappeared" Alice said.

"I'm sorry" Spain said.

"Don't be" Alice said. Spain looked down at her.

"I mean yeah, my family would've been a lot closer… but then that meant that I would've never met Denmark, France or you. Now look at me. I'm happy"

"You are?"

"Yes. Why wouldn't I?" Alice asked.

"Because of France and Scotland"

"Oh" Alice said as she turned her head so that it was resting on the Spaniard's chest. Spain was already in the bathroom by this time, but he sat down on the chair by the window. "Well that's why I don't love" Alice said. Spain froze. He watched as Alice smiled and put her hand over her heart. "Because it would hurt so much." she said. She grabbed one of Antonio's hand and put it on her chest, right above her heart. Soon Her hand pressed down on Antonio's, making him feel her heartbeat. "every time, it would break. At the end of it, I would think that you can't break it anymore, but someone proves me wrong" Alice said. "I'm always wrong"

"That's a lie"

"No" Alice said. Tears were apparent on her eyes now. "That's why I don't love. I would tell myself, they love me, they wouldn't leave…then they would and it would leave me all sad" she paused. "That's why…I can't admit to myself that I do love you Spain" she said as she began to prop herself up. "That's why I can't" she repeated. Her hands were caressing his face now. She let her forehead ouch his, then their noses, and she just kept their lips apart. "Because I'm scared" she said. "Scared that I would be wrong and you would eventually leave me" she said. "that's why I won't admit to you, that I do love you, no matter how long you wait, no matter how many times I fall for your tricks…I can't let myself say that to you" she said. "After all who would love me?" she asked. Spain closed the gap between them.

"enough, mi querido, wake up" he cooed. "I love you" he said as he kissed her again. This time Alice wrapped her arms around his neck and responded to the Spaniard's demand. Spain stopped before he could anything else to her, he then settled her down to a chair and got the bath prepared. By the time the bath was prepared, Alice was fully awake.

"How did I get here?" she asked. "Did you carry me?" she asked. Spain nodded and carried Alice again.

Alice and Antonio sat in the bath for some time. Antonio had his arms around Alice's waist and Alice leaned back to him.

"So what was it like living with Scotland?" he asked.

"Hell" Alice said. "He's mean and he pushes me around" she said. Spain laughed.

"Not from what I heard" Spain said.

"Who's your source? I'd love to kill them" Alice said.

"Don't do that, I'd be miserable without my source" Spain said. Alice glared at him.

"Whatever, just don't believe everything they say" she warned.

"I know" Spain said. "I know"

"Isn't suppose to be the other way around?" Spain asked as he tightened Alice's corset. He listened to her as she held her breath and then gasp for more when she felt Spain halt his tugging.

"What do you mean?" Alice asked, turning her head as far as she can to see the Spaniard through her peripheral vision.

"Shouldn't we be undressing each other?" Spain asked. "Instead of dressing you up" he said.

"I don't care." Alice said "why?" he asked. Spain shrugged and pulled "What happened to waiting for me until I'm ready?" she asked. Spain shrugged and pulled onto the ribbons tighter. He heard Alice take a deep intake of air. She glared at him. "Do that again I swear" she said. Spain smirked and kissed her neck.

"You'd do what?" he asked, licking her neck. He felt Alice's body tense as she turned around. He quickly grabbed Alice by the hips and pinned her against the wall. He kissed her neck and traveled down to her collar bone. He lightly bit on it, earning a small gasp from his wife. "Spain" Alice said. Suddenly the doors opened. Spain groaned in irritation and raised himself up.

"How many times do I have to tell you, knock-"

"Get your hands off Alice" the voice said. Spain's eyes widened and he turned around. There he met icy green eyes. On the left side is a scar on the eye.

"Alfonso" Alice said as she placed her hands on Antonio's shoulder, allowing the Spaniard to stay close to her. "What are you doing here…in Spain's house?"

"I heard about you and your condition" he said. "I don't know why the news took forever to be delivered, but I'm just checking on you" he said. "and as I can see you are not" he said.

"no!" Alice said. "Alfonso that's a lie" she said. "I'm fine." Alice said. Portugal ignored her retorts and checked on her. Spain stood against the wall, arms crossed, while he glared at his brother.

"I heard about what happened" Alfonso said as he put his tea cup down.

"Well she's fine" Spain said coldly. "You can leave"

"I'd rather not" Portugal said as he looked out to Spain's garden. There Alice was tending the roses with Romano and Belgium. "I want to make sure she's fine" he said. Spain sighed.

"She's fine Alfonso" he said. Portugal shook his head.

"Make her have tea with us" he said. Spain looked at his brother, he then sighed and called Alice over.

Alice sat next to Spain as she, Portugal, Spain and Romano sat underneath the shade. She picked up her tea and listened to Romano. In time, she and Romano went back to tending the flowers.

"What was that about?" Spain asked.

"Her hand isn't healed" he said. Spain paused and stared at his brother.

"Excuse me?" he asked.

"The way she held the tray, her teacup" Portugal stopped himself from going on. "We are descendants of Rome, right?" Spain nodded. "Do you remember what Rome said about three and five fingers?" he asked. Spain nodded.

"Three indicates that you were an elite, commoner ate using all five" he said. Portugal nodded.

"As a girl raised by Rome, why was her little finger down?" Portugal asked. Spain paused.

"No" he said as he looked at her again. Portugal shook his head.

"You have to look for the small details she fails to hide" Alfonso said. "Now I heard about your trip to England, don't ever leave her alone there got it?" he asked.

"Too many civilians we are just nobles, that ring on her finger could get her kidnapped." he said. Spain looked at his brother.

"Why are you helping me?" Spain asked.

"I'm not" Alfonso said. "I'm just making sure that she's safe in your hands" he said as he sipped his tea. "I'll leave you two alone now, but let me make myself clear, if she ever comes back to me crying, talking about how it is wrong to love you, I-"

"ALFONSO!" Alice yelled though the garden as she ran to him. "Look what I found!" she handed Alfonso a purple carnation.

"I've never seen a flower like this before" she said. "It's so pretty" she said.

"A how lovely" Portugal said as he stood up. "I have to leave, I need to get back to my country" he said. Spain watched as Portugal caressed his wife's face. Alice then nodded and looked at Spain. He watched as her eye brows furrowed and she showed a small frown.

Spain watched as Romano roamed through the ships.

"Be careful!" he yelled.

"SHUT UP" Romano yelled back. Spain smiled and leaned on the railing on the stairs leading up to the superstructure of the boat. Suddenly he felt arms wrapped around his neck. He smelled the fragrance of roses when inhaled.

"What's eating you?" Alice asked.

"You're wearing your pirate clothes" Anotnio replied.

"stop lying"

"What are you hiding?" Spain asked.

"Alfonso told you didn't he?" she asked.

"What were thinking?" Spain asked.

"Romano" Alice whispered.

"excuse me?"

"I didn't want Romano to suffer just because I'm recovering" Alice said. Spain said. He then turned around and hugged his wife. He picked her up, high enough to get her over the rail and carry her. "Where are we going?" she asked.

"Captain's cabin" Spain said. Alice tensed up. "I won't do anything" he said. Ailice smiled and shook her head.

"I know" she said. "It's just…It feels weird to not be in my ship" she said as she relaxed her head against Antonio's chest.

When Antonio set Alice on the bed, he sat by her side and placed his hand on the space above her shoulders. Alice just watched him.

"Aside from your injuries…"Spain said. "what is bothering you?" Alice averted his eyes and sat up. Spain followed her motion and made sure that Alice was trapped between his arms and the bed.

"there are rumors" Alice began. "Apparently… Mary is pregnant" Alice said. Spain watched as Alice's left hand moved from her side to her stomach, clutching onto the fabric of her dress. "I'm scared" Alice said.

"Why?" Spain asked as he kissed his wife's forehead. "Why are you scared?" he asked.

"Because!" Alice began, forcing herself to look at him. "What if this is false?" she asked. "worse yet…what if she dies at child birth?" she asked. "Antonio I'm scared, either outcome is too terrifying"

"shhh" Spain said as he hugged his wife. "Now tell me what's really bugging you" he said. Alice tenses under his arms. "Alice I can see right through your words…what is bothering you?" he asked.

"My people" Alice began. Spain looked at her. "I'm healing slowly because of my people" she said. Spain raised a brow.

"What's going on with your people?" he asked.

"We're killing them" she said.

"we're?" Spain asked. Alice shook her head.

"DON'T YOU SEE WHAT THE MARRIAGE DID TO MY COUNTRY!" she asked. Spain shook his head. "It's changing my religion!" Alice said. "no…its wiping out a whole religion!" she accused. "Everyday I feel this horrible pain" she began. "I can feel them Antonio! I can hear them! Screaming to be saved!" Alice is on the brink of tears. "I do not wish for them to die just because they are not Catholic!" she said.

"You're worried about Elizabeth aren't you?" Spain asked, he had a tone of disapproval. Alice raised her head to meet his olive eyes.

"What if I am?" she asked. "Is it a horrible thing for me if I did?" she asked.

"Alice she spells trouble, she's Protestant and-"

"WHAT OF IT?" Alice asked. Spain flinched. "My people are dying because of this transition, do you know how much pain this is to me!" she asked. "I can feel their fear Antonio" Antonio looked into his wife's eyes and saw something, himself. He himself, crying, quivering, and wincing as he felt his people die in the Inquisition. The same inquisition that nearly took his wife. Antonio hugged Alice and began to comb her hair.

"I'm so sorry" he said. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you" he said. He tightened his grip on her as he felt her hug him back. That's when he felt it. He felt her fear of disappearing. Antonio couldn't believe it, Alice recovered…but she lost weight. Spain ignored this and tried to soothe his wife from her fears.

"You really are a child" he said.

"quiet" she replied. Spain shook his head and kissed her softly.

a/n:

1. Many people, well 280 died during Mary's reign in England. She brought back Catholicism in England.

Sorry for the short historical facts. But I'm more worried about supplying you guys, the next will probably have more, if not the one to come.

Tell me what you think! I wold love to know.