Rachel Berry is sitting at Sam's bedside waiting for him to wake up. He was barely alive when the ambulance brought him to the hospital. They pumped his stomach and ran him through a dialysis treatment to rid his body of the drugs he'd taken. He'd been asleep for more than twenty-four hours and Rachel knew that when he woke up he wasn't going to be happy, but she would be there for him no matter what happened. She just wished that he wasn't in restraints. She runs her fingers through the boy's blonde hair wishing she could've stopped him or done something more to help him.
Outside sitting on the cold tiled floor sit Finn, Blaine, and Will Schuester. Standing across from Finn stood his mother and stepfather who were extremely angry with their son for what he'd done to Sam.
"You are going to do something to fix what you've done to Sam!" Burt growls. Carole is too upset to speak at this point. "I can't even begin to tell you how disappointed your mother and I are in you. We leave for a few days and you kick Sam out of the house! The guy you've been calling your brother since the day he moved in with us!" Finn tries to hang his head in shame but it only makes Burt angrier. "You look at me when I'm talking to you!" Finn's head snaps to attention. Tears are streaming down his face. "When we get home, you are going to box up everything in Kurt's room and you are going to turn it into Sam's new room!"
"But!" Finn says as the word slips past his lips. He doesn't want to clear out Kurt's room because it means Kurt is really gone, but he knows he needs to let go and find a way to make up for his mistake. Knowing what he'd done to Sam, the pain he had caused his friend, his brother, it was nearly unbearable to deal with. It is something that he will carry with him forever.
Burt's face is beat red now and the vein in his forehead is throbbing. "No buts! You either do it or you're out of the house!" Finn knew Burt was serious.
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Sam stirs and his eyes flutter open. He groans in pain, his head pounding and his body aching. He can hear a sob and a sigh of relief coming from beside him. He turns and sees Rachel's tearstained face and the biggest smile she's ever given him. His expression however, is blank as he holds back the anger he feels. This wasn't what he wanted. He wanted to die, not be saved. He had become an orphan overnight. The guy he liked doesn't feel the same way. Once again he's homeless and having to crash on Rachel's couch, but that was no longer an option as far as he was concerned. To top things off he had been outed to the world and he was rejected for it. As his mind swirled wildly with the memories of the past few weeks he felt nothing but anger towards the people he thought had been there for him, but he was alone in his own mind.
"Sam," Rachel's soft voice penetrates the loud echoes of his pain stricken mind. He refuses to look at her. He's angry at her for saving him. "Sam, I'm so sorry about what happened, but I was so scared when I saw you on my bed…and" she began to sob as she spoke, unable to make out a coherent sentence.
Sam just stares at the tiled ceiling above him. Her whining sobs are getting on his nerves and he's feeling a pounding begin in his brain. "You should've let me die." He says in a stern, angry, stone-like voice. He was surprised his voice sounded so rough and he noticed that his throat was sore. He then realized that he must've had a tube down his throat earlier.
Rachel stops talking and wipes her tears, even though more continue to fall. "How…How can you say that, Sam? We're friends. Do you have any idea what it was like seeing you on my bed, thinking you had actually killed yourself!?" She doesn't wait for him to answer. "I'll tell you what it was like. It was like all of the good in the world had been stolen and the bright light you have always let shine for the world to see was snuffed out by the most selfish and idiotic thing you could have done!" Sam had never seen Rachel mad like this before, sure she yelled at people in Glee from time to time, but she'd never yelled at him before and it kind of scared him.
"Like I said, you should've let me die." Sam says as a tear rolls down the side of his face and Rachel realizes that Sam's anger towards her is a mask for his anger towards himself and to the rest of the world. Sam can feel movement on the edge of the bed and a finger wiping the tear from his cheek. "What…what are you doing, Rachel?"
Shushing him she kisses his cheek. "I'm being here for my friend." She climbs into the bed with her friend, holding him the best she can, given the restraints tying his hands and feet down.
Sam begins to sob uncontrollably as he feels Rachel's heart beating against his arm as he turns his head the best he can to see her face. He can see the damage he's done to the one person that has stood by him throughout everything that has happened to him. "I'm so sorry, Rachel." He cries wanting to wrap his arms around her. "I … I never meant to hurt you. I … I just couldn't take the pain anymore… and I…I'm so sorry."
"Shhh. It's OK now." She says running her fingers through his hair. "Everything is going to be OK, Sam. I promise you I'm not going to let anyone else come through those doors, other than the doctors, unless you tell me too. Because none of them deserve to see you right now…although I don't know why Mr. Schuester keeps repeating over and over that all of this is his fault." Sam feels Rachel shrug as he tries to stop his tears. "Blaine and Finn's guilt I understand, but why would he feel guilty?"
"It's because of what I overheard him and Ms. Pillsbury talking about?" Sam says with a hollow voice.
Rachel feels confused. "What did you hear them say?" She asks seeing that this is something to tread lightly with.
Sam sighs and forces himself to utter the words. "He's my father."
Rachel gasps and her eyes go wide with shock. "Oh my God, Sam. I…I don't know what to say."
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About twenty minutes later the doctors had Rachel leave the room so they could do an analysis of Sam's mental state. As she crossed the threshold she looked at the three men sitting by the door. She growled in frustration for them. "You three are idiots and it's good thing we're in a hospital cause right now I'm about to channel my inner Santana and go all Lima Heights on you pathetic little worms!"
Blaine, Finn, and Will look at her and they can tell she's going to give it to them good.
"Rachel, why are you yelling at us? We all know we screwed up and hurt Sam," Finn says fearing for his life. "But, you've got to give us a chance to redeem ourselves."
"Yeah Rachel," Blaine chimes in, but he cowers back down when she gives him the look of death. "We're sorry for what we did to him." He says sheepishly.
"Well," Rachel says crossing her arms, "None of you are going in there unless Sam wants to see you, and I doubt he will."
Will stands to his feet. "Rachel, Sam needs all of our support, you can't keep us from being here for him."
Just then Santana, Quinn, and Mercedes come to Rachel's side. Santana is the first to speak and she looks directly at Blaine. "It's been obvious for a while that Trouty Mouth had feelings for you Hobbit, but then you did what you did and I hope he never forgives you for it. So don't even tries and enter that room or else you'll deal with Auntie Snakes."
Blaine cowers into the floor and his mind flashes back to just a few nights ago. He can see Sam's crying face below him, wanting him to be with him, but it was then that he realized he had thought it was Kurt. The memory of that moment, saying Kurt's name instead of Sam's, make Blaine feel like he's just ripped out his own heart and chopped it up with a blender.
Quinn is the next to speak and she focuses on Finn. "After Kurt died, Sam was there for all of us. He's the person that help hold not only this group together, but your family as well, and then you call him a brother, and you just kick him out when he's hurting and for an accident no less. The Finn Hudson I knew was a better man than that. The Finn Hudson I knew would have helped Sam instead of shunning him." Her tone was bitter and cold, making Finn hate himself even more.
Will tries to speak, but Rachel slaps him hard across the face and everyone in the room gasps in surprise. "You should've told him! You shouldn't have let him find out that way! It wasn't right and you know it! You preach about us being a family, Mr. Schuester, and that we should always be honest with each other, but how could you lie to him like that!?" Her voice is growing angrier by the second. "How could you keep that secret from Sam, Mr. Schue?!" Her words cut like knives into his skin. "How could you do that to your son?" She says in a cold and lower tone, but everyone hears her.
Will turns and starts to walk off. "That's right" Rachel yells at him. "Walk away from your son! That's really going to fix this mess you all have made!"
He stops dead in his tracks and looks around the room. His students, coach Bieste, Sue, and Emma were all staring at him. He turns around and storms up to his star performer. "Do you have any idea of what it has been like for the past year and a half, knowing that the child I thought had been taken from me, was sitting in my classroom; not being able to tell him that I'm his real dad, because his mother threatened to take him away forever if I opened my mouth to anyone?!"
Rachel sinks into herself, feeling bad for not knowing the full story before jumping all over her teacher like that. "I'm sorry." She says looking down her feet.
Will just shakes his head, turns around and goes for a walk to calm his self down. Emma runs after him, catching up just before he can disappear around the corner.
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The next day it's just Sam and Rachel in his room. Everyone else is at school, save for Will who hasn't been able to leave the parking lot. The doctors have removed Sam's restraints, so Rachel sits next to him on the bed as they watch an old movie on TV. There's a knock at the door and Rachel gets up to see who it is.
She sighs. "Hang on let me see if he'll talk to you." She shuts the door and turns to Sam. "Sebastian is here, with a blackeye and wants to know if he can see you and apologize for taking that picture, but he says he's not the one who posted it around school." She can see the conflict in Sam's mind. "I'll just get rid of him. He's a jerk anyways."
"No, don't I want to hear what he has to say." He says surprising his friend.
Rachel lets the Warbler's leader in and walks outside, but says she won't be far if he needs her.
"So why are you here?" Sam asks.
Sebastian pulls up a chair next to Sam's bed. Sam can see that the young man has a lot of guilt covering his face. "I came to say I'm sorry for trying to blackmail you. I thought when you kissed Blaine that I didn't have a chance with him anymore, and I got angry." Sam nods for him to continue. "I promise you though, I didn't send out that photo to anyone other than you. My phone was stolen after Blaine and I had lunch that afternoon after you said I could have him. I went back to our table to get it and it was gone."
"How can I trust you're not lying?" Sam asks even though something tells him Sebastian is telling the truth.
Sebastian sobs. "Blaine, didn't believe me either, that's why I have this." He says pointing at his bruised eye. "I may be a grade A douche sometimes, but I would never out someone. It happened to me when I was in Paris and my dad flipped and hasn't spoken to me since, so I couldn't do that to you Sam."
"OK, I believe you." Sam says letting himself relax.
Sebastian smiles. "Sam I want you to know whatever you need I'm here for you. I…I don't like seeing friends hurt, and I don't have that many and even though we're not really close I do consider you to be my friend, and I'd like to be yours if you'll let me." Sebastian's voice is full of sincerity and Sam is taken aback by this. He'd never seen Sebastian as a nice guy, but now he sort of understood why he acts the way he does.
"Thanks," Sam says with a warmhearted smile. "I could use another friend. I'm kind of in short supply right now."
AUTHOR'S NOTE: SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO GET THIS WRITTEN AND POSTED. WORK HAS BEEN CRAZY AND EXHAUSTING, SO I HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AND GIVE ME YOUR THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS ON IT.
