"Sam, I am so sorry I never told you the truth about…"
"Save it, Mr. Schue. I don't want to hear it." Sam says cutting his teacher off, sitting in his hospital room as he waits for the doctor's decision on whether or not he can leave.
Will hangs his head in shame. "Sam, please." He says looking up. "I just want to explain things the best I can."
Sam crosses his arms and frumps his shoulders. "Fine," he says with a scoff and a shrug. "Explain it to me."
Will tells Sam about him meeting his mother, loving her, and how much it killed him when she said she had terminated the pregnancy. He told him the second Sam walked into his office wanting to join glee club he felt a connection to him but couldn't explain it until Marry and Dwight had shown up at a rehearsal to pick him up. It was a few weeks later that he pressed Mary about the truth and once again she lied to him.
Sam sits there trying to process everything, when will tries to take his hand. Sam pulls back and Will withdraws his hand. Sam sighs. "Look, I appreciate what you had to say, but …" He shakes his head holding back the mixture of sadness and anger that he is feeling. "But, you're not my dad. And I don't want you to be him." There is no anger or pain in Sam's voice as he speaks just simple honesty.
"I don't want to replace your dad, Sam. I just want a chance to get to know you as my son and not my student." Will says forcing his pain and regret back behind his shaking eyes.
"Well, me being your student is the best you're going to get because I'm not ready for that." He sees the pain in his teacher's eyes and decides to offer him a glimmer of hope, but he does this to keep the door open in case he changes his mind later. "Look, maybe somewhere down the road, I'll want to know you as more than my teacher, but for now … this is how it has to be."
Will nods and excuses himself from the room. Once the door is shut he practically runs out of the hospital. Emma, sitting in the waiting room catches a glimpse of a blur, that she sees as her boyfriend. She runs after him, catching him at the front lobby. "WILL!" She calls to him.
He stops just a few feet from the doors to the outside, turns and walks over to her. She takes him into her arms. "He doesn't want to know me, Emma. I think he hates me." Will sobs onto her sweater.
She pulls back and makes eye contact with him. "Sam doesn't hate you. Will, you opened the door to a relationship as father and son, so you just have to give it time. Sam has been through so much in the past month, more so than anyone his age should ever have to go through. He's lost basically his entire family, save for the glee club and finding out that you're his father, couple with his realizing he's gay…" She sees the frustration in his face. "It's just going to take time for all of his wounds to heal."
"I just want to be there for him." He says wiping his eyes.
She kisses his cheek. "I know and I have faith that he'll want to know you as his father, but for now just be there for him as his teacher. He'll let his walls down someday and the two of you will have the relationship that both of you want."
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Finn is sitting in Kurt's old room, now Sam's new room. He takes a look around making sure everything is perfect. On the back wall is a giant print of the Death Star with a Chewbacca, lifelike statue by the bathroom door. The ceiling is decked out to look like outer space. The wall away from the bed was done up to look like it was a scene from Avatar. The wall of shelves that held all of Kurt's memorabilia of his life was now filled with comics, all of Sam's favorite. Though it wasn't Finn's personal taste, he couldn't help but think it was awesome.
He feels a tap on his shoulder and turns to see Quinn standing behind him. "Oh hey, Quinn, what are you doing here?"
She laughs as she looks around the room. "Oh my gosh, Kurt must be rolling in his grave right now." She looks over and sees Finn's happy smile change to a painful frown. "But, Sam is going to love this and Kurt would be so proud of you for doing this for Sam." She says putting a hand on his shoulder.
"Thanks, Quinn." Finn says with a smile.
She smiles back. "Now, Rachel asked me to come get you so we can all be there when Sam gets released this afternoon. We're meeting Santana, Brittany, and Mercedes for a late lunch at the park. Oh and Sebastian is coming too. I'm not really happy about having him there, but he and Sam have kind of bonded lately and Rachel invited him so, who knows. Maybe he can be the person that helps Sam get over Blaine?"
"Are you sure that's such a good idea?" He sees her shoot him a glare. "Look, I'm just saying that taking Sam out right now? Maybe he should just come home and rest, spend time adjusting at his own pace. And who says Sam wants to get over Blaine?"
"Um, he did, and Sam has been locked in that hospital room for almost a week now, way longer than he thought he was going to be in there and he just wants to get some fresh air." Quinn can see the worry in Finn's eyes. "Look, we're only having a little picnic and then we'll have Sam home…wherever that is for him."
Finn feels confused. "His home is here. Where else would he go?"
Quinn sighs as she realizes that Finn has been left out. "Sam doesn't know where he wants to stay. He's scared to stay here after what happened between you two, and the thought of staying at Rachel's breaks his heart because that's where he … did what he did." She says choking back her tears.
Finn takes a seat at the desk chair and runs his hands over his face. "I don't know how to fix this, Quinn."
She sits on the corner of the bed and takes his hands. "Finn, you've apologized and turned Kurt's room into Sam's dream room, all you have left is to show him that you're never going to be that guy again."
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Sam's doctor has just finished his final evaluation of Sam and is off to get his discharge papers ready. Sam has agreed to a twice weekly therapy session for six weeks to discuss his next few moves now that he's no longer a prisoner of the hospital. He sits in his bed smiling while he waits for the official word of release when Sebastian walks into his room.
"Heard the good news, about time they let you out of here." The Warbler says with his trademark grin on his face.
Sam laughs. "Dude, I am so ready to get out of here, it's not even funny."
Sebastian takes a seat on the edge of Sam's bed. "Sam, can I ask you a question?" Sebastian's heart is racing as he looks into Sam's eyes. He sees the pain he helped cause and wants to do whatever he can to help the young man. He can't help but think that Sam's smile has got to be the best he's ever seen and in that moment his heart skips a beat.
"Sure, what's up?" Sam asks feeling slightly nervous.
Sebastian leans over Sam, supporting himself with his right arm as he leans forward. "I was wondering if maybe, now that you're a free and out, guy like myself, that maybe I could take you out sometime to dinner or something?" His words didn't come out as smoothly as he had wanted them to come out. He had never felt so nervous about asking someone out in his entire life, everyone else was cake compared to Sam. He'd never found himself feeling this way about a guy before, but something about Sam made Sebastian want to be a better man. He suddenly found himself wanting to be that man for Sam and only Sam.
Sam smiles, feeling flattered and conflicted as he tries to think of what to say next. "Uh, yeah, I'd like that, Sebastian." He wasn't certain if he felt the same about Sebastian as he did for Blaine, but he knew that at this point in his life, Blaine was someone he wasn't sure he should be with.
Sebastian smiles happily. He wants to kiss Sam right then and there, but doesn't want to rush Sam into anything.
Rachel knocks on the door and walks in. She tosses a duffle bag onto Sam's bed, near his feet. "Get dressed, the doctor just told me he's taken care of all the paperwork, so we can leave now.
"Thank, God." Sam says feeling relieved. Sebastian and Rachel laugh and give him some privacy to change.
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The warmth sun light in the park and the coolness of the gentle breeze calm Sam's mind for the first time in days. He finds himself feeling relaxed from his being free from the confines of his drab, hospital room. He's thankful that his friends have been so kind to him, even though he doesn't quite feel like he deserves it. His phone buzzes but it's only a spam email. While he has it out he opens the photo section. He glances over and sees Sebastian and Finn, bonding over how to grill the burger patties, while the girls all set the table. He looks through the photos, specifically the ones that had Blaine in them. Each photo brings his conflicting emotions to the surface. He still can't help but love the dark haired boy, but the feeling of rejection he felt the night they made love transforms his love into a confused anger.
Someone grabs his phone from his hands and powers it off. "Hey!" He whines looking up to see Rachel shoving his phone into her purse.
"You can have it back after we drop Sebastian off at his car. It would be weird for everyone if he caught you staring at pictures of Blaine, considering you did agree to go out on a date with him, and he does seem to like you more so than I think he's probably ever liked a guy before." Rachel's makes her point and she helps him to his feet.
"Ok fine, but just don't make a big deal about it. I…I'm really nervous about this date. I don't want to rush things this time." He says as he looks at Rachel and the look on her beaming face tells him he's said something interesting.
Rachel is smiling like the Cheshire Cat. "You like him, don't you?"
Sam smiles sheepishly. "Maybe, I don't know yet, but I'm kind of interested in finding out."
"EEEEEEEEEHHhhh!" She squeals, but Sam shushes her. "Sorry," She whispers. "I promise I won't say anything, but either way you go, him or Blaine, you're going to be part of a really cute couple. And Sebastian will bring a lot of fun to the table." She says with a smirk.
Sam laughs and they join their friends for burgers. He takes a seat across from Sebastian, looking into the current lead Warbler's eyes. Both of them smile nervously as they start to eat their lunch. Sam couldn't help but think how adorable Sebastian looked when he was nervous and he couldn't wait for their date.
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AUTHOR'S NOTE: AS ALWAYS THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR REVIEWS, AND I'M SORRY FOR NOT HAVING THIS CHAPTER UP SOONER, HAD A PRIORITY PROJECT AT WORK SO I'VE BEEN A LITTLE PREOCCUPIED AND A LITTLE EXHAUSTED. I'LL TRY AND DO BETTER ABOUT RESPONDING TO REVIEWS. I USUALLY RESPOND TO PRETTY MUCH EVERYONE, BUT LIKE I SAID I'VE BEEN BUSY. AGAIN THANK FOR THE REVIEWS. SORRY THIS CHAPTER WAS A LITTLE SHORT, THE NEXT ONE WILL BE LONGER.