Katekyo Hitman Reborn

My Fate is Certainly Uncertain

Chapter 40: The Next Seven Eternities

Warnings: Pregnancy. If you can't handle such feminly things, then, I don't know. Go read something else.

[Written to: Cuor non dirmi no , I have a dream - MLK ]

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Month Three

Dino was ever more so ensued into his daily work habits, more so forced into attending meetings that were off the property and spending hours upon hours in his office, going over documents that contrasted many things. For days, I wouldn't hear a whisper from him. Sometimes I would take his lunch to him, only to find him sleeping in the corner of the room. He didn't like sleeping in chairs. Lying on the floor, I found, was much more suited to his style. I didn't get to see much of him. He had to go over to Japan again, Tsuna asked this time. And while he didn't really want to, I told him he should, that I would be fine. I had made up my mind that I wasn't going to run off so irrationally again. I'd made Jenny promise that she wouldn't let me.

Security was beefed up, and they didn't allow the usual amount of guests into the ground. Top priority I was, and the boys made certain I knew that. They were so nice to go get the food I craved and I felt a little guilty. You know, I'd get it myself if I could, but after the incident last month, they were all too willing to get it for me. And, with security, it meant that they had to open every letter mailed to me, check every parcel, test every edible product, it was some furious knitpicking and most times I was getting tired of it.

"Please will you let me go get a chocolate bar?"

"Sorry Mother Fairy, Horse-face said to keep you safe indoors!"

"You do realise Fran that keeping me inside will only make me lose my mind?"

"Yeah, but we can lose our minds together!"

"You see, this is why I have trust issues with illusionists."

Being in discomfort was what I had come to know. I'm not ever expecting to have a calm moment during this process, because it seemed like every so often I'd have to pee. Constantly. Just back and forth. Forever. I was lucky that I didn't get the heartburn that Groshaus suggested.

Month Four

I felt incredibly sick. Worse than I did before I found out about the mini me. Most of my days were spent lying in bed. The problem was that they weren't allowed to give me too much painkillers for the fever, as it could have an affect on the baby, so I was in pain, so be it subdued even. Though, Dino had been backing off from work more to come check on me. He was trying to get a lot of work done before the baby came, so he could give support where it was needed. But due to him working so hard, there were periods where he forced himself to sleep in the office, just so he could get some sleep. It was worrying.

Many times he would come to bed late at night. I just happened to be awake this time, lying down with my back to him. The lights were off and when he came in, he didn't want to wake me, so off they remained. I could feel his weight dip the mattress, but he didn't lie still. His hand came from behind and touched my forehead.

"Looks like the fever's going down…" He whispered, breathing out a sigh of relief. "Thank goodness."

My own hand moved to stop his from going away.

"No. Stay here."

I surprised him and felt his warmth come closer. His body was warm, but his hands were wonderfully cold. I loved it.

"You're awake. Didn't expect you to be."

I rolled over so that I could meet his eyes. I didn't feel uncomfortable looking at him, or being with him as I did two months ago. That was over. He never raised his voice and I forgave him, even if that did give me the upper hand of beating his ass because I felt like it. Marriages were a contract of love and fairness. I dealt out what love and punishment I thought he deserved. I wasn't sorry at all.

"I've been here, sweating off this cold all day. You're the person I look forward to talking to."

Groshaus said that the daily fever was an occurrence like the morning sickness. It didn't usually happen in normal pregnancies, but in saying that my body is technically not normal. I was born from a clone, so nobody really knows what could happen during these months. I just wanted the baby to be born healthy, with eight fingers, two thumbs and ten toes.

"How's this?" He asked, taking away his hand and replacing it with his own forehead.

"Don't, you'll get sick."

He chuckled. "You can't catch a fever silly. I'm not the one who's pregnant."

"Too right, fucking bastard."

He laughed again, with a hand on my hip. "Love you."

"Love you too."

Month Five

What depressed me the most was probably between the way I got stared at wherever I was walking in public - be that because of the surround horde of nicely suited men or my expanding abdomen - and the latter option of the first point, getting larger. Unable to see my toes was a big one. Now all I saw was a disappointing stomach that was always hungry. It was summer now, and I was finally able to wear a dress! Pants were, unfortunate as it sounds, becoming more difficult to wear, so having a dress on, not being restricted by material that would add to the amount of stretch marks I was getting already was bliss.

"You look beautiful." Dino told me, as he stood to attention. We were meeting today for lunch because it was such a nice day. I wasn't feeling sick anymore and the startling shade of red that my dress was make my confidence boost ten times fold.

My hands were clasped outfront, resting on my protruding exterior. "You kidding me, I look like a fucking majestic whale."

"A pretty whale."

"Did you just call me a whale?"

"Ehe….."

"Hehm Kidding Dino. Hahaha, heh."

I liked to make a joke of myself now, instead of moping in a mess. I think that because my immune system was crapped up, the amount mixed emotions and pain led to the way that I was feeling and acting. I needed to be better with my decisions, so I made a conscious decision to better myself. I wasn't going to act mopey. I wasn't going to feel sorry for the way things turned out. I found myself very fortunate to be surrounded with the support I had. My mother had no-one to turn to when she had me. I was probably unexpected, who knew. But, I had developed the mentality while I was lying in pain on that bed that I was going to be the best I could. It didn't mean giving up my goals, it just meant that I was going to outshine everyone. Even Fran, who is bloody hard to beat, considering every now and then his storytime shows off illusions entertained me to no ends.

People make bad decisions when they're scared, angry or stressed. It only proved that I'm more human than I thought before.

The first time I felt her move was when I was reading through a medical journal about ways to die. I don't know why I found it interesting, some of the ways were pretty gruesome and horrid while others were plain odd. Just, plain oddities. You can apparently die from drinking too much carrot juice.

It was a muffled pain that hit the side of my hip, the lower part. I didn't expect it, so much so that I ended up dropping the papers that I was reading. Made a complete mess, but ended up sitting there with a hand over the spot, thinking to myself how that was so creepy.

And when it happened a second time, I flew out of the chair. They actually hurt. Considering that this was an unintentional way of battery, an interesting form of battery assault, I decided to go find Dino, who was ditching his papers for the day, lying outside on the grass. There was a light wind and his eyes peeked open when I nudged his arm with my fault.

"What's up?" He asked, blinking, thinking how I looked a little disheveled.

"The baby kicked!"

"Really?!" He sat up immediately with anticipation, eyes alight, I carefully sat down, making sure that the dress wouldn't fly up unexpectedly. "Can I feel?!"

I had a blank look. "Eh, Why? Nothing's stopped you before."

His cheeks turned red, mouth spluttering and I laughed hysterically, always loving the way he panicked when I embarrassed him. "Yes, of course you can love."

I felt like I was becoming a little more whole.

Month Six

Today was a beautiful day for a wedding. I never really expected the day where I would go to not one, but two Arcobaleno weddings. Funnily enough, I had to read it a second time through to check it wasn't a joke.

Lal pretty much floored every outfit at the reception. Colonnello was a very lucky man, and had very good food, according to Dino. I didn't eat much, since I didn't feel like it. I sat down for the most part, watching the party around me swing into life, like a once tasseled dream now vividly popping into a warm hue of a ballroom. Except, we were outside.

"How you feeling?" Dino asked, putting his hands on my shoulders, coming from behind. This had become normal, a sort of helicopter mother. Ha, I sure wish he was pregnant so I wouldn't have to deal with the constipation and the tight feeling in my lungs.

"Alright. They look happy. I've never seen Lal smile like that."I tol

"Neither." He squeezed and smiled. I grinned back. "Wanna dance?"

Month Seven

I wasn't alone this time, when I went to get the scan. Dino came, as well as Romario and a couple of the other boys. Jenny said she would have liked to, but she got called back home due to a funeral. It was sad to see her go, because it was her son that died, but Dino was here to hold my hand while the gross, blue jelly that I distinctly remember was being spread all over by a technician. Groshaus was attending, but she had a lot of other patients to deal with, so she only popped in for a few moments before heading out again.

She was looking at the screen when the baby kicked again. I grunted and Dino patted my hand, telling me this will all be over soon. I know that! If I could, I'd jump up and down just to get this kid out of me! The woman, short brown hair, brown eyes, pointed nose, freckles that were spilt dramatically. The woman, she blinked with a smile and looked up to address us.

I told her not to worry about it, to not bother telling us about the baby's gender. I already knew what it was going to be and Dino, well he really wanted it to be a surprise. (Though he still kept wishing for a boy.) We made a joint decision to be surprised.

Month Eight

The days were getting closer together now. I was getting pretty excited to get this kid out of me already. Wasn't overly fond about thinking how much pain I was going to be in, but after a phonecall from Nana who talked on and on about the family, recounting her own tales of pregnancy with Tsuna, I felt a little more confident.

It was now a sure thing that pants were a no go zone. Jeans, were out of the picture. Anything tight, anything that made my skin itch or made me get really impossible wedgies were binned. I had to get entirely new outfits, and even after, I wouldn't be able to fit my old clothes so easily. That was a little saddening, but a bit obvious.

I laughed when I heard that Reborn had actually listened to me when I was egging on Tsuna to tell Kyoko about his feelings. Though, Haru was also in the mix, so it was going to just be a big ball on the floor and I couldn't help but feel sorry. I imagine that Al would say something about his manhood, and I would agree, stating how much of a player he was becoming. Ah Starfish, I am so proud that you are really growing up. I hoped that you wouldn't grow up to become your father, and I am so glad you haven't. I don't think I could handle it if there were two of him. I'm glad that you don't have twins or brothers. I'm glad that you are kind and that you have eyes that let the world in.

Reborn had been calling a lot more often too. He was getting excited, I could tell by his voice. It was more deep now, but much more energetic when he was excited. I felt like I was really surrounded by family. It was weird, having a father as a baby. I didn't blame him. It wasn't his fault, the way things turned out.

My mornings were spent sleeping in. I was lazy or rather, had become more lazy. I hadn't been before, but now I had been reduced to a waddle of sorts, which had crowned me the nickname of duckie, which I hated with a brilliant passion. Many times, I had to be forcibly woken up.

"Upsy daisy Miss." She said, shaking my shoulder lightly. I was a light enough sleeper for her to do it lightly. But today, I didn't want to. I couldn't. "You have a big day ahead! We have to get you to lunch with the Head wife of the Neragatto family. They're a bunch of posers, but apparently she's very excited to see you, so you have to look your best. Oh, and then you have to attend a party with Boss. Not too late up, though. They'll understand."

I grunted and curled up, bringing the blankets closer to my face. The light of day was bright, and I was sure that Amanda wouldn't mind if I was late to her tea-party. She was a fairly old lady and we got along well. I hadn't seen her in forever though, so maybe she'd be a little mad. Ah well. I can handle flying cucumber sandwiches. I don't think she's appreciate me having a bad stomach in her home.

"Come on, get up." She said more firmly, forcefully pulling the blankets out of my grasp.

It wasn't the cold that really woke me up. It was Jenny's scream and the pool of blood that was seeping through the sheets.

Quickly, we made it to hospital. On the way, I called Amanda to say I couldn't attend, 'cause I was profusely bleeding from my vagina. I didn't notice the pain that much before, but now that we were moving, I so could. When we got there, Jenny had to wait outside while they stopped the bleeding.

Dino was pulled out of a meeting. More so, he missed the whole day completely to stay by my side. Apparently, I was very lucky that I didn't pass out. The baby wasn't hurt either, thank god. But they told me I should stay in here till they can make sure that I was stable. My iron levels were apparently quite low, so I was filled nuts and given supplements to survive until dinner time.

Month Nine

What was unfortunate was that Reborn couldn't come over just yet. Something had popped up around Japan. Of course it was regarding Tsuna, so he had no choice to stay there for the time being till it was over. I wasn't actually allowed out of the hospital. They thought it would be best for me to stay there till the pregnancy was over, just in case I had another accident. I didn't, thankfully. The hospital was quiet, and a lot of people would come visit me. There was security outside my door, in civilian clothes and more outside the hospital. Dino was getting more nervous. We were meant to go shopping together for baby things last month, but since I had the accident, he had to do it himself, with the help of Jenny and Fran. Some of the things were terribly cute, and so was his face. He was so happy, and that made me confident. Fran got an apple hat for the bugger.

I started getting contractions right after midnight, just when I woke up. This happened often, me waking in the middle of the night. It would be for a brief moment, but it was like my body needed to take a break before plunging itself into the world of dreams again. My stomach was hurting so badly, like I was having period cramps. They lasted for a while, and then went away just as they came, and then they would appear again. It was terrible.

I let out another screech of god awful pain, my hands clutching to the sides of the bed frame. Through thick and thin, I wouldn't hold onto anything else. What if I injured someone else in a fit of pain? I'd feel terrible. Of course I would, I'd be in pain in the first place.

"That's so gross!" Fran yelled, running out of the room.

"Little shit." I muttered, moaning. "Aggh, fuck fuck!"

"Almost there." Lal said. She was right next to me, keeping hold of my arm. I felt a little strange to say that I had a woman to the left of me while another one was taking a medical approach between my legs. Grohaus's hair wasn't her sloppy self. It was pinned back tightly into a bun, with no fringe to mess with her eyes. A green scrub mask covered her face, and I my eyes rolled back as I pushed again, moaning guttery, spine straightening, head tilting back.

"Keep pushing Phillipa."

Groshaus was no pushover. I didn't feel like being a bitch to her, but it hurt so much. They had administered some drugs a while ago and while I couldn't feel my legs, there was still pain. How could there not? It was impossible. My sides were pinching and I felt like I was losing my breath. I could hardly breathe. My face was terribly red.

"Where's Dino?!" I asked, trying not to scream, but it came out very loudly, just making it before I was swung with another contraction.

"He's coming." Lal told me in a soothing, hard voice. "He's on his way right now."

"Alright," Groshaus brent down, eyes still looking at me. "Phillipa, I need you to keep pushing as much as you can now. The baby's coming right now."

"No!" I said in a gasp." We, we have to wait till Dino gets here!"

"We can't."

I couldn't stop the pain from coming, nor could I hold back from the overall pressure that was forcing me to push with all the strength I had to offer. I felt sticky and incredibly tired. My mind didn't want to think and it hurt! It hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt!

I didn't think properly here either. But I had an excuse.

Weird. It was an overwhelming, weird relief. It was gross, but I had done it. It took one more push, one big breath. My eyes were closed when it happened and I smiled, hollowness under my eyes. My breaths were short, and the cries of a baby hurt my ears. I felt so tired, but I wanted to stay awake. I wanted to stay awake till Dino got here.

But when I opened my eyes, I felt pain. Groshaus had taken a scalpel and cut my abdomen open from hip to him. Three quick stabs into my chest. Blindsided, I screamed. Lal reached for the woman and Groshaus stepped back, just as quick as her. And I could see her. I could weepingly see her in the arms of Groshaus, on the other side of the room with a scalpel to her face.

Oh please no. I wept, trying to move myself. I had no power left to put up a shield. I could hardly keep my eyes open. No. Please PLEASE. PLEASE NOT HER.

"Stop!" Lal yelled, taking off after the doctor as she fled the room with my daughter in her arms. THis was the worst thing I could think. But I couldn't get up. I tried. I really did try, but my

Four black digits curled around the doorway, allowing themselves in and unprecedentedly, my mouth began to seep darkness. Thick clots of saturated blood bubbled out from my lips and I wrenched onto the floor. My belly was out in the open air and I couldn't feel the ends of my fingers or legs, though I could clearly see them clutching the side of the hospital bed, white knuckles breaching the surface of my skin.

Breathing through my nose only ended in bloody choking noises. I couldn't breathe, nor could I stand to protect my child. The figure at the door stepped in, never ending legs covered in a black material, soiled in the blood of those who stood at my door to protect me every night. I could see a severed arm, with spiderweb drippings.

The man never talked, but I knew who he was. His presence was threatening and I very much so was afraid for my safety, while the man who tried to spit on me was in here.

Disgusting. Rotten, filthy bitch.

He was on top of me, the man, eyes bulging as fingers clasped around my neck with filthy content, thumbs placed at front. My own, clawing at his, digging as the pressure began. I couldn't scream.

I couldn't stay awake.

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Well well well. What do you know. Double update. Sorta. It is in my timezone. But I'm going to reply to those who did so quickly and let those who are reading now take in what's happening.

Replies:

Zuta-Chan: Well, not so sudden I think, but that's my opinion. Dino and Squalo have always had this thing together and when Phillipa showed up it never really was explained. So I understand what you're saying.

LeoInuyuka: Please calm down. I don't want you blowing up on me now.

See you guys whenever,

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