Chapter 16

In to the morning

Jessi's POV

We are sitting at the porch. I realize I really have misjudged Kyle, yes he betrayed me but he was only a teenager barely out of the pod, and he wanted to make things right just a few weeks later, he just never had a chance. I cannot stop myself from sobbing on Kyle's chest, before I know it I am sitting on his lap. He is caressing my hair and telling me, Jessi I'm so sorry, please Jessi don't cry, it just hurts so much to see you like this and know that it is my entire fault. I just want you to be happy Jessi.

I look at Kyle and I see so much love in his eyes, but I also see guilt. I let myself experience his feeling and the amount of pain and love is unbearable, I wonder how has Kyle been able to function at all, I would be bed ridden if I experienced so much pain. I put a finger on his mouth and tell him Kyle please I cannot bear to see you in so much pain, I just love you so much Kyle. I am sorry that I did not bother to see the pain you were going through so many years ago. I'm sorry I did not give you a chance to make your own decision regarding my pregnancy. I'm sorry I did not even give you a chance to be a father it was not my place to decide for you. I'm sorry I closed myself so completely to you and did not even give you a second chance. Kyle you always gave me second chances, and I think you are giving me a second chance right now.

Kyle looks at me with his deep blue eyes and tells me, Jessi please don't think for one minute that it was your fault, because it was not. All you did was justified, and if I did not get a chance to be a father is because you did not want to cause me problems with Amanda, as you thought I would find my happiness with her. All you did Jessi was for love, I wish I could say the same, but I was just selfish Jessi. Thanks for this second chance Jessi my only hope is to regain your trust and your love, all I want is to make you happy.

I just cannot take it anymore to see Kyle so broken, I tell him, Kyle please stop, I never stopped loving you and my love for you now is even greater. If you still want me back then I want you back, I trust you Kyle, I should have never stop trusting you. Then I show Kyle all the love that I have for him, I also show him how I never stopped loving him.

Kyle buries his face in my hair and starts' sobbing uncontrollably his whole body is shaking. I put my arms around his neck, and kiss his eyelids, then I realize he is letting go of all the pain. I take his hand and guide him to the bedroom. After helping Kyle to lie down, I lay down by him facing him and wrap my arms and legs around him, he buries his face in my hair again, and I bury my face in his chest, I start sobbing I also have a lot of off pain to let go from all the years away from Kyle.

I don't know how long we cry for, then I feel a kiss on my forehead, and I hear Kyle whispering in to my ear with a sleepy voice goodnight my love, my Jessi. I respond, goodnight my Kyle, my love.

Kyle's POV

Jessi has forgiven me! Jessi trusts me again! She never stopped loving me! Jessi wants me back! I'm getting Jessi back! That is all that I can think of. Then the pain I have carried for so long starts leaving me and I cannot stop myself from sobbing and shaking as it leaves. Jessi hugs me and puts me to bed, then she lies with me and wraps her body around mine, I have not felt his complete in ages, maybe is the first time that I feel complete, I don't know.

To my surprise, Jessi buries her head in my chest and starts sobbing with me, she has also been carrying a lot of pain I realize, I hold her as close to me as possible, and we let go of our pain together as we sob in each other's arms. But now we are together, she is my Jessi again, and I am her Kyle.

Jessi and I fall asleep in each other's arms. I feel such warmth and love coming from her I hope she knows I feel the same about her.

The sun starts shining through the window and I feel something pushing on my forehead, I open my eyes and realize it's the foot of Sarah. Without moving my head I try to look around. Jessi has her head on my chest, and I have an arm around her shoulders. Brian is sleeping between me and Jessi, Sarah has her body on Jessi torso and her legs across my shoulders, with one of her little feet on my forehead and the other pressing on my cheek. I feel such happiness. I have the love of my life with me, and our children are sleeping with us. I cannot imagine a better way to start the day. I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep.

A half hour later I feel Sarah moving and then Brian. I open my eyes and put a finger on my lips. They understand and get out of bed as quietly as possible, I do the same. We tip-toe out of the bedroom and I close the door gently.

Then I guide them to the porch. Brian says, Kyle I am hungry. Me too, Sarah tells me. I give each one a hug and a kiss on the head and tell them, wait here I'll get us some bagels and orange juice. They sit on the swing and wait for me.

Brian and Sarah at the porch (Brian, Sarah)

Brian what do you think about Kyle? I like him, he is okay. I think Kyle likes us better than Roger. Probably, is funny I think he loves us as much as mommy. Maybe because we are especial like him and mommy.

Do you think mommy is going to marry him? I don't know, but I think he would be a good daddy he is really good at making sand castles. That is true, but Roger takes us to the movie, do you think Kyle would take us to the movie? We could ask him you know, if he loves us as much as mommy he would.

Sarah, do you want to have a daddy? I think so. I'm not sure, but if we have to have one, I think Kyle would be okay.

Kyle's POV

I come out a few minutes later with a tray full of bagels and orange juice. I seat with my children and eat. I can tell Sarah is going to be a beauty like her mom, I guess I will have to buy a riffle when she is a teenager. I laugh at my thoughts and then think that I really hope they'll accept me as their father.

As I am admiring my children I hear a desperate scream coming from Jessi, Kyle! Where are you?!. I drop my bagel and run to her side. I take her in my arms and tell her, I'm here Jessi I am never leaving you again. Jessi throws her arms around my neck and tells me, Kyle I was scared it had been just a dream, but you are really here, Kyle I will never leave you again either.

I kiss the top of Jessi's head, and figure out this moment is as good as any. I open my backpack with one hand while holding Jessi with my other arm. Then I fall to my knees and ask Jessi will you marry me?, as I present her with an engagement ring.

Jessi looks at me with wide eyes, smiles and tells me, yes Kyle, that is what I want the most. I stand up, hold her by the waist and swirl her around as we both kiss. Then she whispers in my ear, I have to warn you Kyle I want a fairy tale wedding.

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